Healing, relationships, Spirituality

The yin of love

Practicing the art of patience my dear readers in a world that thrives in constant and perpetual motion is a tall order most days. This past week I had the opportunity to take a yin yoga class that allowed me to go completely inwards, shut off my mind and be in my heart, which was highly uncomfortable at first. Through connecting with my breath I was able to release and surrender to the uncomfortability and let go absolutely. The sacred medicine of my soul can then fill my being, restoring me to a place of balanced harmony and truth. I left the class humming. Exercises like this remind me how love is always available should I choose to allow it.

The Universe is reshaping the collective in a deep way right now with the planetary alignment, allowing us to rewrite our stories from a much more empowered space of unconditional love. Divine feminine energy continues to rise and specifically is focusing on our male counterparts. Men in our society have been conditioned to believe that “being strong” means acting stoic and that crying or expressing emotion is weak. My oldest son once asked me, “Mom why do we have to feel?” I responded to him as I do my own thoughts on the subject. To feel is human. Emotions are energy is motion alerting us to what our body needs. How do we tackle the tough ones? Developing a practice of patience that gathers courage and allows us to release, express and process the lessons behind the feelings. This is the main message now that spirit is continually teaching me.

The focus of this blog is to muse on emotions. Today is my first Father’s Day without my Dad in physical form. However, his presence is strongly with me, surrounding me in spirit and I am so grateful for the ability to connect with him in a way that is more intuitive for me. Extra sensory sensitivities and perceptions were the parts of me I ran from, hid, denied and attempted to kill off. Now I embrace who I am with gratitude and unconditional love. I fill my cup as often as I can with what I need to continue the flow of love.

Fill your cup with love

My heart is so full of love today, as I lay next to my soul mate and best friend reunited physically, emotionally and spiritually. All the work that I have put into this past year has paid off in the most priceless of ways. Accepting this gift is the dividend from that soul searching work.

Love’s magical medicine

Yesterday we spent the entire day at the beach, something I adore doing, with the added bonus of live music! My dear readers know how much I love to dance. Being able to groove with my man had my heart overflowing! Barry White’s “You’re The First, The Last, My Everything” is the song he always serenades me with at karaoke. Dancing to it made our time apart worth every tear I shed while missing his closeness.

Beach dancing with a live DJ

I’m a woman with a lot more yang (masculine energy) than yin (female energy) and I can admit to having a hard time allowing myself to slow down, be gentle, receive and be soft. From the start of this year, these past six months has been an intentional process of opening my heart wider, showing the vulnerability which allows me to view the world through the lense of more compassion, empathy and kindness. First towards myself and then towards others I engage with. We are spiritual beings in human form. To feel is human, to overthink is natural and yes at times we feel apart from one another, succumbing to worry and fear. This is our greatest opportunity for the lesson which choosing love teaches us my dear readers. In the moments where we are most confused, most suffering, disconnected and fearful. Recognizing that all of that is an illusion what is real is love. What will save, heal and bring us closer to our goals is simply love. These poems highlight this and are channeled through spirit, through the Master spirits among us.

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Spirituality

Home is where the heart is

What does being home mean to you? Gaius Plinius Secundus, a Roman philosopher better known as Pliny the Elder (or just Pliny to his friends) said “Home is where the heart is.” Almost two thousand years later, who would have thought home is where the heart – and other organs – could also be monitored and managed. This phrase means that no matter who you are with or where you are in the world, your family and home holds the deepest affection and emotional pull. It is the place where you have a foundation of love, warmth, and happy memories. It might not always be the building itself, but being near your loved ones.

After my trip to Rhode Island, I have been processing a lot of what my life has been like since leaving a place I called home for thirteen years. I had many reasons to leave and I thought for so long that I couldn’t go back. After ten years of moving around constantly, healing in psychiatric hospitals (both inpatient and outpatient) and a stint in rehab which lead to spiritual experiences that sparked another Kundaluni awakening (the 1st one was in 2011) I know home is in my heart. My heart is front and center, open wide and I finally feel secure in expressing myself from this place no matter where I live. The phrase, “no matter where you go, there you are” suits me. You can’t ever escape your own truths, trust me my dear readers because I tried desperately to erase who I am.

Nowadays I embrace my both my strengths and weaknesses, weirdness and philosophical depths, extra sensory gifts and soul truth. We are upon the eve of a New Moon that begins at 7PM EST tomorrow May 11, 2021. The number eleven is significant because it’s double 1 which stands for new beginnings. The Divine number of this date is two which symbolizes balance and partnerships. The planetary alignment has Jupiter in the zodiac house of Pisces. The last time this occurred was in 2010-2011. The personal significance for me is that was the period of time when my first Kundalini awakening occured. This type of awakening is defined as a surge of Divine feminine energy that spirals through the chakra system causing such symptoms as waking up at random hours of the night, sweating, crying, or even literally feeling an intense rush of energy going up your spine. You feel a sudden need to make radical changes in your life.

For me, this lead to a series of severe mental breakdowns ending in a suicide attempt. All completely necessary and now ten years later I look at as a gift of desperation that propelled me along the journey to reclaim my soul. This time around I feel whole, finally having claimed my calling as a shaman. The sessions I have held lately bring me to my knees in awe of the immense power to heal both myself and others bestowed upon me by Spirit.

The poems I write are guided messages for either myself or clients, channeled from a wide array of Spirits. The movement I cultivate as my soul’s medicine aids my own healing and my intention for sharing it is to bring hope that can serve others and inspire change. Ten years ago I was drowning myself in alcohol, dissociative episodes, over exercise and work. Dancing to the piano version of “Chandelier” by Sia, is my crawl out of that darkness into the light. A reminder to always hold onto hope.

Never let go of hope my dear readers, do whatever you need to to keep this energy alive in your being

You know by now by reading my blog posts how much I love spending time out in nature. The beach is my happy place and where I go to gain serenity, clarity and inner peace. Tapping into the biological connection we share with the mighty ocean is how I reconnect to my own strength and power. How do you reconnect with yourself my dear readers?

South Inlet Park, Boca Raton FL

May this New Moon allow you to pick up from where you began back in 2010-2011, planting seeds for your security at home and healing your heart. We are coming out of hibernation mode, stretching our limbs and climbing into new skin with a fresh start. Springtime is in full bloom and is readily available in the heart by choosing to love yourself.. Forgiveness of the past and reclaiming what you know to be true in your heart. This is the continuous cycle of healing from the human condition. I originally wrote the poem “Transformation” on July 18, 2020. At that point I was just starting the apprenticeship hours of healing others through the art of shamanism. Exoanding now upon those intentions, with this New Moon I’m dreaming big, shooting for the stars and opening myself wide to the miracles the Universe provides us everyday upon waking us up with the Sun and tucking us into sleep by the Moon.

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Mental health

May is for mental health, celebrating the many colors of my soul

Hello my dear readers, I’m back from my social media detox and vacation stays in North Carolina and Rhode Island. Ahhhhh, I feel so absolutely rejuvenated and refreshed! I had a real adventure while experiencing many hiccups and unexpected detours along the way. Life continues to delight and surprise me as I can hear the Universe whisper, “surrender my child, allow the flow”. These messages color my soul, the shades and hues are both vibrant at times and muted I others. The ongoing process of allowing myself to learn from my mistakes, when things don’t go as planned or fall apart completely teaches me to stay curious and open. Smooth waters never make a skilled sailor of any of us my dears.

Over these past two weeks I kept myself in nature’s glory, sunshibe and rain, in the moment and observed with all my senses what life was presenting me. This post is a celebration of how far I have traveled in one year since moving back to my parent’s home in South Florida and learning the art of shamanism. My hope is that my adventures awaken the colors of your own soul, ignite your passion inviting you to explore your own unique path. We are all here for a purpose and I’m continuing to uncover the depths of mine my dear readers through writing poetry, music and dance while enjoying the great outdoors! This is how I honor my soul’s aliveness!

Why do we tell others not to cry? It’s something that has always fascinated me. When my boys were young, I encouraged them to cry while their father had a tendency to shame them by telling them “don’t be a baby”. That statement really frustrates me! Crying is a signal from our body’s keen alert system to release energy. If we block, hide or suppress this important urge we are only hurting ourselves further. I intend to start a movement with the poem “Go ahead, please cry” and teach others with the poem “Hurting people hurt people”. We all deserve love, it starts from within. Once we can learn to love ourselves, heal our own wounds, we can share and give love to others. You can heal your life in this way my dear readers, I am living proof of that!

Home in my soul
Colors of my Soul
Home aura vibes
Drum solo take 1
Drum solo take 2
Be free, skip rocks with me
Blue hues of my soul
Flow like water
Drums on the rocks

May is mental health awareness month and I’m offering free consultations to anyone who’s interested in my healing services. I have a list of them in the menu here and I also provide home cleansing ritual kits complete with herbs to burn and crystals to set in the four corners of your house. Let’s practice self care, not just when we’re stressed but when we feel at our best so that our body intuitively knows how to regulate itself. We hold ancient wisdom inside our souls, follow the breadcrumbs by listening to your own body and discover your wellness.

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Inner child, personal development, relationships

I love smiling, smiling’s my favorite

This line from the movie “Elf” suits me perfectly. Lately, I can feel myself smiling more often just because it feels good to activate the tiny molecules in the brain that are designed to fend off stress. These molecules, called neuropeptides, facilitate communication between neurons in the brain. Also, when I’m smiling, my brain is releasing dopamine, endorphins and serotonin aka the happy hormones. Spending time out in nature whether walking, running or riding my bike, dancing, listening to music, laughing with friends and family, writing poetry and practicing the art of shamanism is how I heal. Expressing myself in these ways makes me smile!

I was guided recently to rewatch one of my favorite movies, “The Wiz”. This movie is a reflection of how life has felt for me growing up, afraid to be who I am. Learning to express myself by believing that I am worthy and good enough are core wounds from childhood traumas both big T and little t. Three songs on the movie’s soundtrack really spoke to my soul and I would like to share two of them through their lyrics and one video that I urge you my dear readers to watch because I want you to tap into the emotion of Dorothy played by the legendary Diana Ross.

Can I Go On?
Sang by Diana Ross

Lose it?
Lose it?
I don’t even know the first thing
About what they’re feeling
What am I afraid of?
Don’t know what I’m made of
Can I go on
Not knowing?

Feeling?
Feeling?
Something tells me
That it’s more than I can deal with
Though I never knew the song
Some words still catch on
Like caring and sharing
Being together no matter

Can I go on
Not knowing?
Don’t know what I’m made of
Why am I afraid of feeling?
Feeling?
If I dare to take a chance
Would someone lead me?

Believe in Yourself
Sang by Lena Horne

If you believe within your heart you’ll know
That no one can change
The path that you must go
Believe what you feel
And know you’re rights because
The time will come around
When you’ll say it’s yours

Believe that you can go home
Believe you can float on air
Yes, click your heels three times
If you believe
Oh, then you’ll be there
That’s why I want you to
Believe in yourself, yes

Right from the start
You got to believe, believe in the magic
Right there in your heart
Go ahead believe all these things
Not because I told you to, no

Believe in yourself, oohh yes
Believe in yourself
Believe in yourself, as I believe in you

Yes indeed, home is within ourselves, in our own hearts.Currently my dear readers, the cosmic planetary alignment is ripe for healing childhood wounds while Venus is conjunct to the Sun. We are being asked to acknowledge and release these past wounds, to close these old chapters once and for all. The objective is to feel comfortable in our own skin. This is soul integration my dears, shadow work that calls the truth in recognizing all aspects of ourselves that furthering the creation of our whole soul self. These are the poems that I have wrote while reflecting on my own truths, using self love as a healing salve through artistic expression.

I take virtual dance classes from time to time with my fellow sister in dance and soul Sophia Sabino creating founder of SopHIIT, a fusion of dance and fitness. I urge you to follow her on Instagram and take her classes. Last Sunday we did a routine to “Fix You” sang by Sam Smith. She suggested we think about the song in the vein of self healing, my favorite topic. So often we feel we need to change or fix the ones we love when really it is us who needs our own attention. This is what our soul is projecting outwards and serves a great lesson. I ask you my dear readers, when you feel triggered to do this, turn the question inwards and ask yourself, “what am I seeing in this person that needs healing within me”? I believe if we follow these breadcrumbs we are led to our own soul and can further the healing process of accepting ourselves fully, loving ourselves without judgement and feeling inner peace and contentment. Let me know how the healing process is progressing for you in the comments below.

“Fix You” sang by Sam Smith

We are in a New Moon phase in Aries my dear readers. This is forcing change, much needed changes upon us. I’ve noticed many of my fellow bloggers are stepping back from writing to take time for themselves, reassessing where their energy is best served. I too will be doing this as I travel in these last two weeks of April. First, a chance for a reconnection with my former partner to North Carolina and then to visit my boys and dear friends in R. I. As I prepare for these adventures my heart chakra is expanding, my solar plexus is healing within these most important relationships with people I love dearly. I am incredibly grateful for these opportunities. This is the crystal healing grid I constructed last weekend to orchestrate healing both myself and my relationships. The song is “Ave Maria” sang by the incomparable Josh Groban.

New Moon intention setting with crystal grid for healing

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Spirituality

Many paths lead to healing: This is what mine looks and feels like

There are many paths one can take to improved wellness and inner growth. I have based this entire blog on my own experiences of feeling and healing. My dear soul sister and fellow blogger https://erikakind.me/ created and shared this picture of my mantra “Feeling is Healing”, which deeply touches my heart because I believe our own feelings are the medicine we need to grow and expand into the powerfully magical beings we all are! In this post I hope by seeing what my process is you feel whatever comes through as your own opportunity and invitation to healing.

Today I woke up to Sheryl Crow’s song lyrics to “Everyday is a Winding Road” running through my mind like one of those advertisement banners with the flashing lights.

“Everyday is a winding road
I get a little bit closer
Everyday is a faded sign
I get a little bit closer to feeling fine”

We are the medicine

Spring is rapidly approaching and with it an energy of rebirth. In order to be reborn, parts of us need to fall away and die, change marches on, as goes the healing process. I feel a big shift is about to unfold within my life that could potentially effect a relationship most precious and dear to me. Heavy energy stemming from this loss arose this week and I faced it with patience and grace. I turned on a song that always helps me to feel these deeper emotions. Afterwards, I allowed the tears to flow, the anger to emerge and finally I felt more space and freedom. My dear readers, I implore you to allow your humanness to feel whatever YOU need to heal without judgment. Sending love throughout your vessel.

“This Women’s Work” by Kate Bush
Allowing what I feel to flow through, without judgements. Only love ❤

As my world opens up wider, further feeling the heartbeat of the Universe and my place within it, so many feelings come pouring freely out of me. From the depths of my soul through the ink in my pen, I could fill an entire notebook with the messages my guides send!

I see you my sisters and brothers, I feel you and I love you ❤

Two weeks ago I was honored to be interviewed by a fellow female artist whom I met through Instagram for her podcast, “Middle Finger Happiness”. Sharon Lee Zapata and I share a lot of the same attitudes on creativity and making the most out of what life gives us. Most especially without judgements from others aka putting up our middle fingers and carrying on no matter what! Here’s the link to our episode that was co-hosted with another creative soul, Leo Phoenix. The three of us enjoyed a fun, high vibe and very spirited chat. Shout out to my fellow artists whose journey’s continue to express their gifts through all the creative outlets of art, music and dance! May we keep rising after we stumble and using our talents to share love with others.

Truth in seeing by creating more space for the juices of inspiration to flow

Every night the app I use to create my poems, Mirakee, offers a word prompt challenge. If my soul connects to it, I tap in and write. This week I channeled a lot of what I was feeling through these nightly writing opportunities.

The prompt was “Sun” and everyone loves the Summer Sun ☀️
The prompt was to describe what success and failure mean to me, here are my musings
The prompt was to start a journal entry using the word If

I believe this message was channeled through from my Dad. Since he has passed over, I have felt him anchoring me from the Spirit realm. He is always lifting me up to face whatever challenge I’m facing. I’m incredibly humbled and honored that Mirakee named it the “post of the day” today. I write often my dear ones how my soul’s purpose as a writer and healer is to be a conduit for Spirit, to help inspire others to live their truth. May these words touch your heart and awaken your soul to be who you came here to be! I see you, I feel you and I love you all. Thank you for bearing witness to my art and expressions which is my path to healing by following and connecting with me in the comments. If this resonates with you I invite you to leave me a comment or contact me through email.

Grateful ❤

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.