Tag: #selfacceptance

Consciousness, personal development, Spirituality

Poetry is the notes of my heart’s hymns and soul’s songs

MariaTeresa

The notes of my heart’s hymns deliver the music to my soul’s songs. Discovering the love within is what drew me to my soulmate. This experience is teaching me more about the tremendous power of love. It’s purity, the ability to heal and to encompass everything that is alive! Writing poetry is my soul’s expression and how I process the world around me. I channel these messages through clairsentience, clear feeling and clairaudience, clear hearing, like notes of a song. In this post, I will share twelve poems that celebrate the aliveness within my heart and the love that surrounds me. My heart is bursting with excitement for the love I feel inside, gratitude for the journey, and the gift of having true love with another. I’m experiencing a huge paradigm shift with the ushering in of new energies with this relationship. Absolutely, everything is different in the best ways and serves the higher alignment I now find myself in. The connection I feel with my mate is as easy as a summer breeze. As natural as a waterfall, flowing over a mountain peak. Our hearts hymns are a poetic match that amplifies the soul songs we hear from one another, singing a duet in the key of love.

This gift is something I have prayed for and yearned for for many years. Our union is a direct answer from the universe, showing me how much I have grown and healed through. This man freely gives me the love I deserve. Our love language is a match through physical touch and our love for The Grateful Dead. Our hippie hearts love to dance! Many of these poems are born from reflecting upon this current love adventure.

It’s an amazing miracle to witness how tremendously love grows between two hearts as it flows. Powerful feelings sprouting from an intuitive and shared language. My heart is eternally grateful for meeting its counterpart in another.

Since my suicide attempt in 2011, I’ve been gathering the pieces of myself. Shadow and Light combine to create the human experience equally by holding magical power. All these years later, I can see the value in both. I accept who I am. I love me. There’s no one I would rather be.

May we all become our own best friend

Throughout my life, I have always felt like I didn’t fit in. Now I understand it’s because I am born to lead. To help others see their own light. I’m not the only one. There are many of us who are different. We serve different roles here to spread God’s love. My purpose is to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. I lovingly refer to myself as a rainbow unicorn. I am here to blaze a new path. Today, I embrace this role and ask others to join me! Let’s all dance to the beat of our own internal drum. Composing a new Universal hum, LOVE!

The human experience is vast and deep. Soul awakens to hear the angels speak. Remaining in awe of its brilliant magic. Grateful heart filled with joy after releasing the static.

Searching for my heart’s song in another has brought me to my soulmate. He is my ultimate love for this lifetime. It’s like we’ve been seeking out one another for years. Listening for love’s song by deaf ears. Divine purpose has ignited our connection. Finally, we hear our love song as a complete and combined chorus!

I am ecstatic and in love with the man of my dreams! He sees me fully and embraces all my feels. We are deeply connected by soul. He is my divine match and together we are imperfectly perfect. I was given guided information back at the end of 2021 about how, in 2022, I would meet my soul’s true match. Read https://emotionalmusings.com/2022/01/03/2022-is-the-year-for-love/ for a detailed description of what Spirit was predicting for me. I met my man 12/17/22.

The choice is clear. Only love resides here. In the heart of us all, it sets us free!! May we choose to follow its intuitive language. Happiness is the product of this choice my dear readers. Hold onto it  and treat it as the precious commodity it is inside. One of the main prayers I recite daily is for God to help me to share the peace, love and joy that I hold inside with others on my journey. That is my intention. And so it is.

The greatest desires create the experiences of life. I’m learning to trust more deeply in these instincts. Embracing the complexities of my soul’s wholeness. Life is a mysterious adventure and love is the fuel that drives my desires.

The things I’ve learned in this life could fill thousands of pages. For now this poem is what is on my heart.

The path of healing taught me many things. Love is the greatest of all superpowers. May we all utilize its amazing frequency to change this world, starting with ourselves.

The human experience is about remembering who we are and creating that knowing into being. This occurs by our journey through darkness and acceptance of light. Both are vital. May your adventure be fruitful my dear readers. Amen.

Love is my muse, while I fall deeply into its grasp with the man of my dreams!!

Love is grown from inside and is alive

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

Letting Love Lead

MariaTeresa

Choosing to allow love to lead and guide my life’s purpose is an elaborate dance with Spirit. Opening the heart to allow a higher power to guide my steps is an ever evolving practice in surrendering to the unknown. Leaning into a deeper trust while having faith that the answers will show up in Divine timing, not anything I control. Turning away from ego stories and postures for the betterment of soul’s alignment. It’s a very humbling experience that many of us run from. I know I certainly did, for many years. Living an authentic life takes courage. Especially when fear is forcing you to give up. This past month I’ve had to dig deep and sit through more than a few dark nights of the soul to be rewarded the clarity that self introspection reveals. The recent eclipse season gifted me some hard to swallow truths yet in the core of my being, I knew I needed to see. Staying open, listening to Spirit and my guides while revisiting the more challenging soul lessons required me to love myself more than ever before. Finally, allowing the breakdowns to become breakthroughs.

We all want to be loved. Human beings are wired for connection and community. The way to this love is through deeply and thoroughly loving ourselves. Self acceptance is the key to inner peace. A quote by Lao Tzu says the three greatest treasures are simplicity, patience and compassion. I like to think of them as simplicity of mind creates joy, patience within the body brings peace and compassion in soul is love. The relationships I have with others can trigger a lot of old stories and coping behaviors I leaned on for survival while enduring trauma. These responses were a perceived security blanket for the purpose of protecting my heart. The ego’s desire to control everything in the mind, keeping us small and safe. This has always lead to self sabotage. The old stories fed to me over the years that sting and scream thoughts of “you’re too much”, “don’t show your emotions” and “be perfect”. The scars from emotional neglect in childood have taught me to hide myself by not letting anybody see my innermost feelings for fear of rejection and abandonment. The truth is neither of my parents were emotionally supportive or knew how to explain their own feelings. I learned to hide, stuff and carry not only my own but the energy of emotions from other people around me. Feelings were seen as burdensome. This experience taught me that I was unworthy of love without pain. Pain was intricately woven throughout the meaning of love.

Love is magic

Subsequently, I met men who were emotionally unavailable or who couldn’t match my own level of emotional intelligence and intuitiveness. The journey of healing over the past ten years while reparenting myself has taught me to value my feelings as the warning indicators for what my body needs. Carefully and mindfully nurturing myself welcomes unconditional love to flow. I believe we are all connected to a radiant light, a God consciousness that is made of love. Essentially we are LOVE! This is our purpose. To be love and shine love, to ourselves and one another. Allowing myself to be seen, felt and heard by another who is reflecting my soul back at me is a Divine experience. Love truly is patient and kind. Never boastful, it always protects, trusts, hopes, perservers and never fails.

My 8th book of poetry will be a collection that is all about love ,”My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. These poems are a culmination of what my journey through healing has taught me. The messages that have brought me closer to God and my life’s purpose as a healer. I’m here to show others how love heals and transforms. There is no possible explanation for how I have returned from the depths of abuse, trauma, addiction and suicide without God’s love and direction. This has arrived by the allowance of true love into my life! The Universe will give you signposts to follow, synchronistic gifts that are meant to teach us how to master the challenges in life. May we be released from ego and guided by soul to let love lead!

We operate on Divine time, it is precious and not our own
We are love, let it lead

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, relationships, Spirituality

Traveling into new emotional experiences, guided by soul

MariaTeresa

Welcome to the next few months of Summer my dear readers. I love the Sun, its ability to energize my being and amplify my upbeat personality. In this post I will share what I’ve learned this month while traveling the path of soul. My daily healing practices provide a clear lense in which I can view the importance of my purpose for this lifetime’s mission. Focusing on my spiritual ascension helps me to understand the many changes I’m going through and the impending arrival of new emotional experiences. The healing that I have done over the past ten years has birthed this gift.

In the final months of 2021, my spirit team began to prepare me for a new love interest and thus started the whisperings of intuitive information about this new person. I believe we all view life through different lenses, depending upon our view of self. The realization that I deserve to be loved the same way that I express love has transformed my way of thinking about my own worth. Years of viewing life through the lense of trauma, pain and suffering definitely created  dysfunction in the way I felt about myself and critically altered my self esteem. After ending and healing from my last intimate relationship, I now know I’m about to attract an energetic match for my heart. This man will view the world as I do, heart centered, open and living life from a place of truth and acceptance. His emotional intelligence is very high, he is well grounded and completely balanced.

When I tap into my intuitive guidance, I see us enjoying dinner by candlelight, laughing while listening to music, hiking the mountains that surround us, camping in the desert and simply enjoying one another’s company. He brings me flowers “just because” and we have long, deep conversations about God and Spirit. I can’t make out his face or features,  only seeing him as a shadow either next to or across from me. Spirit is keeping our meeting a complete surprise. Over this month I have been invited to let go and surrender to Divine timing by practicing patience, trust and faith. The poems in this post are all centered around this learning, growing and rising.

My dear readers, we are ALL deserving of love and kindness. Right now in our world, there is a huge shift going on. I invite you to clean your lense by investigating your own experiences and trusting the adventures your heart has traveled through. Believe in miracles because they are real and occur around us all the time. Believe that you are ready for a more Divine emotional experience and a higher love. I’ve lived here in the Salt Lake valley for almost ten months now surrounded by these magnificent mountains that absorb energy and are very grounding for me. The east coast has such a frenetic pace and energy that I do not miss at all. Here, it’s a lot quieter, allowing me to feel more of the oneness vibration, connectedness and threads. I see more and more synchronistic signs and omens. My intuitive feelings have heightened tremendously since last September. The instinctual dance of human experience paired with all that is alive in creation continues to fascinate me and raise the volume of communication. Every song is now much louder than ever before. I find that I’m feeling into a million new truths of awareness and love for absolutely everything without having to understand it. Just allowing all as it. As it has always been and will always be. Life on life’s terms. We all come here with a story to tell, a song to sing, a lesson to learn. Observing it all helps me to pay attention and practice mindfulness which fuels my curiosity, helping me to see the immensely beautiful world that surrounds me.

The heart always knows best. May this post invite you to drop into its intuitive guidance, leaving the mental chatter of mind’s stories behind. At least lower the volume of the conditioned ones it loves to rattle on about. Follow your heart and awaken to soul!

“Always remember”
“Beyond”

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For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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Consciousness, Healing, Inner child, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

The circle game of healing

MariaTeresa

“Cyclical nature of life continously echos a resounding rhythm. Reverence of soul teaches me how to begin”. This is a quote from my poem “Peace, love and joy” and it perfectly captures my feelings in this moment. Spring has sprung and a new life has begun as I embark upon a new adventure. It’s an exciting time for me my dear readers so I must admit I was blindsided when triggers of fear and old thought patterns started whispering their lies of my brokenness again.

The experiences of deep healing over the past three years have taught me to closely inspect all aspects of my being, mind, body and soul. I’m currently putting a book promotion together for my latest book of poetry, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth”. I’m grateful to have these messages at my fingertips to reference, regroup and recenter myself back into the truth. “Corners of Love” is a poem inspired by the conscious breathwork and energy attunement sessions I practice regularly. Laughing at myself for taking all the pressure too seriously! Of course a new environment filled with new people and things to learn would trigger unnecessary fear! Healing myself has taught me to love myself back into balance. I’m not my past failures. I’m always beautifully and divinely whole, it’s my thinking that required a course correction as the mental chatter of ego grew too loud overpowering the voice of my highest self. She has a name my dear ones. I refer to my soul as Serena. Last week it felt like life turned up the volume on ego and the judgements of others I absorbed from the past. Their voices played loudly in a loop telling me the lies that began to plant illusions of insecurities. These weeds needed pulling so I took a break from their static and turned to meditation and breathwork. These self care practices combined with the voices of love coming from my family and friends began to settle me down! Once again, I could see I was putting far too much pressure upon myself and the old coping mechanisms of perfection were threatening my inner peace.

“Believing in receiving”

Life is a continuous cycle of learning from our past experiences and growing within the arms of love. The love I give myself is what awakens me to believing I am absolutely worthy of receiving abundance in my life. Somewhere along the way, after many years of trauma, I began to believe the opposite. That version of myself is no longer the vision I see in the mirror. This new cycle brought in uncomfortability and my first response was to pile on more pressure and beat myself up! “There is a wisdom of head and a wisdom of heart”, one of my favorite poet’s Charles Dickens said that. I believe it’s the discernment of the two that leads to the wisdom from our own souls. Breath and meditation allow me to feel into what is trying to come to the surface. Stagnant energy that’s been awaiting an answer from my body. In the past I would overextend my body by overexercising and distract myself with substances to block out the messages. Healing has provided me the space to listen instead to my intuition and the guidance of my Spirit team. Setting the intention to once again believe in myself and know I am worthy of receiving love. I can feel it in the air and see it in the newly blossoming spring flowers outside my door. So much beauty is coming my way in the form of opportunities and new relationships. I don’t have to be afraid that I’m “too much” or “too weird” or “not ready” for others to see me for me. I don’t have to stay trapped in mind games. Today, I can show myself grace and have patience as I learn the new tasks I’m responsible for. I don’t have to betray myself by self sabotaging the wonderful new opportunity before me with fear!

This experience isn’t mine alone my dear readers, it is for all of us to learn from. Running through life, attempting to catch up in this invisible race and competition with one another, we succumb to the pressures around us by creating unrealistic expectations for ourselves and marrying ourselves to attachments that aren’t serving us. Totally forgetting our intimate connection to one another through our Light and life force. Time and healing has taught me to dance and laugh at these extremes within myself and not act upon impulse. The only person I am trying to be today is a more aligned version of myself than last week or last year. Today, I choose to tune into the songs of Spirit. I hear the voice of my Dad, my grandparents, all the ancestors and angels that have been guiding my soul for centuries. Circling back to the truth I uncovered upon my awakening three years ago. I am whole, I am healthy, I am a beautifully capable child of God. Divinely connected, protected, guided and eternally loved. That is the truth that plays loudly on repeat throughout my entire being, the music I rise and dance to.

Standing in my own power and inner strength by forgiving myself for the times I blamed my soul awakening for ending relationships. The truth is that I was hiding within others, not feeling worthy of my own dreams and aspirations. I became distracted with trying to fix and heal others. Today I know it all starts within me. Circling around the truth again has showed me how to put on my “big girl panties” while loving my inner child who gets frightened by new situations. Today, I hold her close and tell her that nobody will hurt her again. The pain and trauma is over now. Turn up that “Soul music” my friends and dance until your heart’s content!

Dancing to the music of soul, is the resounding rhythm that beats in my heart. Played on my own unique drum.

Intentionally I open to new possibilities for love from a man. This is the soul connection and the kind of love I predicted in January of this year in the post https://emotional411017959.wordpress.com/2022/01/03/2022-is-the-year-for-love/?preview=true It’s coming with grand gusto and adoring gestures that I’ve always dreamed of. I’m a romantic, if you can’t tell by my writing my dear readers. Someday soon, a man will come into my life that will treat me the way I deserve to be treated. This man will be my equal, on my level of awakening awareness and be my true match. A soul partner to journey with and explore the adventures that life gifts us everyday. I’m ready and excited!

Believing in the love I am worthy of

This poem describes the transformation I have undergone and continue to grow within. Healing from the human experience is a condition we are all learning from in this life on Earth. Our souls never die. We will go onto exist in other forms of life after we leave our physical bodies in this one. This is the grand circle of life. Listen to this song by Nightmares on Wax my dear readers. Tap into the higher consciousness within its message. Groove with the rhythm of feelings and the vibration of love. https://youtu.be/Vc-XzhnwpVc

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Healing, relationships, Spirituality

My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death & rebirth

MariaTeresa

My dear readers I’m absolutely thrilled to announce my largest collection of poetry has been published! I’ve been writing the poems for “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth” for over a year now. The transformations I have experienced over this time can be felt throughout the flow of each expression and on every page. This book is truly a labor of love, which is the main ingredient in all of my writing. The path away from what no longer was serving my soul meant the end of long term relationships, including the one with my only living parent. Loving myself and allowing myself to grow, to continue “Triumphing over Trauma” takes an introspective awareness when it comes to all I choose to engage with in my life. I lead with my authentic voice and my heart first, taking care of my energy always. Learning patience and having forgiveness with myself and others are also topics I stayed heart centered and focused on throughout this past year. In times of doubt, asking myself the question “what would love choose next” and my response would become clear. I feel a tremendous peace, a settling within my being, now that this book is complete.

I couldn’t of imagined how much my life would change from the time I wrote the first poem up through the last in this book! At times, I still can’t wrap my head and heart around it all. Very little remains the same about me from the beginning of this book. My heart is fuller, my mind is more open and my soul is deeper. How I view the world and my place in it has taken on a much more profound meaning. I’m an observer as a writer, choosing to share my life force and light energy with all I meet as a catalyst who intends to influence others by sparking their remembrance of the Light within themselves. That is the part we all play for one another my dears.

This is the introduction to the book along with a few poems and videos I recorded for my new TikTok page, Emotional Musings. I’d love to hear your feedback my dear readers in the comments. Please reach out to me personally for an autographed copy of my book and I will be happy to send one your way!

My Soul’s Dance is my sixth and largest collection of poetry highlighting my first year as a practicing shaman. Writing is the art of my soul’s expression and how I process life as an intuitive empath, psychic medium and channel. I understand the world through sound and movement which transforms into the words of my poetry. In June of 2019 I experienced a powerful and life altering spiritual awakening. I am compelled by my soul, to learn the lessons I am here to learn. These poems are a reflection of the death and rebirth cycle as I embrace my shadow pieces, loving them into the Light. I believe we are all infinite and eternal beings of Light, here to raise the vibration of Earth. I am extremely dedicated in doing my part to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. Many of these poems are dedicated to a man I was in an eight year relationship with and had to finally leave as I continued to awaken and embrace my own journey. I’ve learned that not all relationships along the awakened path are meant to endure.

I believe love is the power that will heal us all. My life serves as a testimony of strength and resiliency, healing from addiction, an eating disorder, physical, emotional and sexual trauma. Writing is how I process this vast, vivid and beautiful world we live in as the gift it truly is!

I live a full spectrum and awakened life. Moving with grace through this three dimensional experience stepping intentionally, filled with kindness, compassion, empathy and love for all living creatures. May these poems become the music to your own soul’s dance as we hum together and explore this collective experience called life. The movie we are all connected to, at differing speeds while playing different roles. We are all connected by our Light and by love!

“The pain of letting go”
“Time’s up”
“No fear”
“Independence cry”
“Forever”

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.