Consciousness, Healing, relationships, Spirituality

Traveling into new emotional experiences, guided by soul

Welcome to the next few months of Summer my dear readers. I love the Sun, its ability to energize my being and amplify my upbeat personality. In this post I will share what I’ve learned this month while traveling the path of soul. My daily healing practices provide a clear lense in which I can view the importance of my purpose for this lifetime’s mission. Focusing on my spiritual ascension helps me to understand the many changes I’m going through and the impending arrival of new emotional experiences. The healing that I have done over the past ten years has birthed this gift.

In the final months of 2021, my spirit team began to prepare me for a new love interest and thus started the whisperings of intuitive information about this new person. I believe we all view life through different lenses, depending upon our view of self. The realization that I deserve to be loved the same way that I express love has transformed my way of thinking about my own worth. Years of viewing life through the lense of trauma, pain and suffering definitely created  dysfunction in the way I felt about myself and critically altered my self esteem. After ending and healing from my last intimate relationship, I now know I’m about to attract an energetic match for my heart. This man will view the world as I do, heart centered, open and living life from a place of truth and acceptance. His emotional intelligence is very high, he is well grounded and completely balanced.

When I tap into my intuitive guidance, I see us enjoying dinner by candlelight, laughing while listening to music, hiking the mountains that surround us, camping in the desert and simply enjoying one another’s company. He brings me flowers “just because” and we have long, deep conversations about God and Spirit. I can’t make out his face or features,  only seeing him as a shadow either next to or across from me. Spirit is keeping our meeting a complete surprise. Over this month I have been invited to let go and surrender to Divine timing by practicing patience, trust and faith. The poems in this post are all centered around this learning, growing and rising.

My dear readers, we are ALL deserving of love and kindness. Right now in our world, there is a huge shift going on. I invite you to clean your lense by investigating your own experiences and trusting the adventures your heart has traveled through. Believe in miracles because they are real and occur around us all the time. Believe that you are ready for a more Divine emotional experience and a higher love. I’ve lived here in the Salt Lake valley for almost ten months now surrounded by these magnificent mountains that absorb energy and are very grounding for me. The east coast has such a frenetic pace and energy that I do not miss at all. Here, it’s a lot quieter, allowing me to feel more of the oneness vibration, connectedness and threads. I see more and more synchronistic signs and omens. My intuitive feelings have heightened tremendously since last September. The instinctual dance of human experience paired with all that is alive in creation continues to fascinate me and raise the volume of communication. Every song is now much louder than ever before. I find that I’m feeling into a million new truths of awareness and love for absolutely everything without having to understand it. Just allowing all as it. As it has always been and will always be. Life on life’s terms. We all come here with a story to tell, a song to sing, a lesson to learn. Observing it all helps me to pay attention and practice mindfulness which fuels my curiosity, helping me to see the immensely beautiful world that surrounds me.

The heart always knows best. May this post invite you to drop into its intuitive guidance, leaving the mental chatter of mind’s stories behind. At least lower the volume of the conditioned ones it loves to rattle on about. Follow your heart and awaken to soul!

“Always remember”
“Beyond”

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Consciousness, Healing, Inner child, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

The circle game of healing

“Cyclical nature of life continously echos a resounding rhythm. Reverence of soul teaches me how to begin”. This is a quote from my poem “Peace, love and joy” and it perfectly captures my feelings in this moment. Spring has sprung and a new life has begun as I embark upon a new adventure. It’s an exciting time for me my dear readers so I must admit I was blindsided when triggers of fear and old thought patterns started whispering their lies of my brokenness again.

The experiences of deep healing over the past three years have taught me to closely inspect all aspects of my being, mind, body and soul. I’m currently putting a book promotion together for my latest book of poetry, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth”. I’m grateful to have these messages at my fingertips to reference, regroup and recenter myself back into the truth. “Corners of Love” is a poem inspired by the conscious breathwork and energy attunement sessions I practice regularly. Laughing at myself for taking all the pressure too seriously! Of course a new environment filled with new people and things to learn would trigger unnecessary fear! Healing myself has taught me to love myself back into balance. I’m not my past failures. I’m always beautifully and divinely whole, it’s my thinking that required a course correction as the mental chatter of ego grew too loud overpowering the voice of my highest self. She has a name my dear ones. I refer to my soul as Serena. Last week it felt like life turned up the volume on ego and the judgements of others I absorbed from the past. Their voices played loudly in a loop telling me the lies that began to plant illusions of insecurities. These weeds needed pulling so I took a break from their static and turned to meditation and breathwork. These self care practices combined with the voices of love coming from my family and friends began to settle me down! Once again, I could see I was putting far too much pressure upon myself and the old coping mechanisms of perfection were threatening my inner peace.

“Believing in receiving”

Life is a continuous cycle of learning from our past experiences and growing within the arms of love. The love I give myself is what awakens me to believing I am absolutely worthy of receiving abundance in my life. Somewhere along the way, after many years of trauma, I began to believe the opposite. That version of myself is no longer the vision I see in the mirror. This new cycle brought in uncomfortability and my first response was to pile on more pressure and beat myself up! “There is a wisdom of head and a wisdom of heart”, one of my favorite poet’s Charles Dickens said that. I believe it’s the discernment of the two that leads to the wisdom from our own souls. Breath and meditation allow me to feel into what is trying to come to the surface. Stagnant energy that’s been awaiting an answer from my body. In the past I would overextend my body by overexercising and distract myself with substances to block out the messages. Healing has provided me the space to listen instead to my intuition and the guidance of my Spirit team. Setting the intention to once again believe in myself and know I am worthy of receiving love. I can feel it in the air and see it in the newly blossoming spring flowers outside my door. So much beauty is coming my way in the form of opportunities and new relationships. I don’t have to be afraid that I’m “too much” or “too weird” or “not ready” for others to see me for me. I don’t have to stay trapped in mind games. Today, I can show myself grace and have patience as I learn the new tasks I’m responsible for. I don’t have to betray myself by self sabotaging the wonderful new opportunity before me with fear!

This experience isn’t mine alone my dear readers, it is for all of us to learn from. Running through life, attempting to catch up in this invisible race and competition with one another, we succumb to the pressures around us by creating unrealistic expectations for ourselves and marrying ourselves to attachments that aren’t serving us. Totally forgetting our intimate connection to one another through our Light and life force. Time and healing has taught me to dance and laugh at these extremes within myself and not act upon impulse. The only person I am trying to be today is a more aligned version of myself than last week or last year. Today, I choose to tune into the songs of Spirit. I hear the voice of my Dad, my grandparents, all the ancestors and angels that have been guiding my soul for centuries. Circling back to the truth I uncovered upon my awakening three years ago. I am whole, I am healthy, I am a beautifully capable child of God. Divinely connected, protected, guided and eternally loved. That is the truth that plays loudly on repeat throughout my entire being, the music I rise and dance to.

Standing in my own power and inner strength by forgiving myself for the times I blamed my soul awakening for ending relationships. The truth is that I was hiding within others, not feeling worthy of my own dreams and aspirations. I became distracted with trying to fix and heal others. Today I know it all starts within me. Circling around the truth again has showed me how to put on my “big girl panties” while loving my inner child who gets frightened by new situations. Today, I hold her close and tell her that nobody will hurt her again. The pain and trauma is over now. Turn up that “Soul music” my friends and dance until your heart’s content!

Dancing to the music of soul, is the resounding rhythm that beats in my heart. Played on my own unique drum.

Intentionally I open to new possibilities for love from a man. This is the soul connection and the kind of love I predicted in January of this year in the post https://emotional411017959.wordpress.com/2022/01/03/2022-is-the-year-for-love/?preview=true It’s coming with grand gusto and adoring gestures that I’ve always dreamed of. I’m a romantic, if you can’t tell by my writing my dear readers. Someday soon, a man will come into my life that will treat me the way I deserve to be treated. This man will be my equal, on my level of awakening awareness and be my true match. A soul partner to journey with and explore the adventures that life gifts us everyday. I’m ready and excited!

Believing in the love I am worthy of

This poem describes the transformation I have undergone and continue to grow within. Healing from the human experience is a condition we are all learning from in this life on Earth. Our souls never die. We will go onto exist in other forms of life after we leave our physical bodies in this one. This is the grand circle of life. Listen to this song by Nightmares on Wax my dear readers. Tap into the higher consciousness within its message. Groove with the rhythm of feelings and the vibration of love. https://youtu.be/Vc-XzhnwpVc

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Healing, relationships, Spirituality

My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death & rebirth

My dear readers I’m absolutely thrilled to announce my largest collection of poetry has been published! I’ve been writing the poems for “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth” for over a year now. The transformations I have experienced over this time can be felt throughout the flow of each expression and on every page. This book is truly a labor of love, which is the main ingredient in all of my writing. The path away from what no longer was serving my soul meant the end of long term relationships, including the one with my only living parent. Loving myself and allowing myself to grow, to continue “Triumphing over Trauma” takes an introspective awareness when it comes to all I choose to engage with in my life. I lead with my authentic voice and my heart first, taking care of my energy always. Learning patience and having forgiveness with myself and others are also topics I stayed heart centered and focused on throughout this past year. In times of doubt, asking myself the question “what would love choose next” and my response would become clear. I feel a tremendous peace, a settling within my being, now that this book is complete.

I couldn’t of imagined how much my life would change from the time I wrote the first poem up through the last in this book! At times, I still can’t wrap my head and heart around it all. Very little remains the same about me from the beginning of this book. My heart is fuller, my mind is more open and my soul is deeper. How I view the world and my place in it has taken on a much more profound meaning. I’m an observer as a writer, choosing to share my life force and light energy with all I meet as a catalyst who intends to influence others by sparking their remembrance of the Light within themselves. That is the part we all play for one another my dears.

This is the introduction to the book along with a few poems and videos I recorded for my new TikTok page, Emotional Musings. I’d love to hear your feedback my dear readers in the comments. Please reach out to me personally for an autographed copy of my book and I will be happy to send one your way!

My Soul’s Dance is my sixth and largest collection of poetry highlighting my first year as a practicing shaman. Writing is the art of my soul’s expression and how I process life as an intuitive empath, psychic medium and channel. I understand the world through sound and movement which transforms into the words of my poetry. In June of 2019 I experienced a powerful and life altering spiritual awakening. I am compelled by my soul, to learn the lessons I am here to learn. These poems are a reflection of the death and rebirth cycle as I embrace my shadow pieces, loving them into the Light. I believe we are all infinite and eternal beings of Light, here to raise the vibration of Earth. I am extremely dedicated in doing my part to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. Many of these poems are dedicated to a man I was in an eight year relationship with and had to finally leave as I continued to awaken and embrace my own journey. I’ve learned that not all relationships along the awakened path are meant to endure.

I believe love is the power that will heal us all. My life serves as a testimony of strength and resiliency, healing from addiction, an eating disorder, physical, emotional and sexual trauma. Writing is how I process this vast, vivid and beautiful world we live in as the gift it truly is!

I live a full spectrum and awakened life. Moving with grace through this three dimensional experience stepping intentionally, filled with kindness, compassion, empathy and love for all living creatures. May these poems become the music to your own soul’s dance as we hum together and explore this collective experience called life. The movie we are all connected to, at differing speeds while playing different roles. We are all connected by our Light and by love!

“The pain of letting go”
“Time’s up”
“No fear”
“Independence cry”
“Forever”

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, personal development, relationships, spirituality

Sensitivity is my superpower

It’s been seven weeks since I shared a full post on here my dear readers. As I continue to heal from my last romantic partnership and build the manuscript for my 6th book of poetry, I feel called to share some recent insights. Today is a special day 2/22/2022 which holds a divine number of 3. The number three symbolizes the trinity of mind, body and Spirit, this union fuels expansion and rebirth. My next book is all about death and rebirth, the many cycles we grow through and will be called, “My Soul’s Dance: Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light, poems about death and rebirth”. I took this break so that I could regroup, recenter and realign myself after all the dramatic changes that occurred in my life during 2021. Calling back in all of my energy and focusing solely on myself. As a highly sensitive being, moving through these big shifts has brought up so many emotions. Ending an eight year relationship and moving across the country has given me the most wonderful opportunity to heal relationships with my two older siblings. I’m able to gain perspective on how much I have grown since beginning this blog exploration in the fall of 2018. Changing my belief system to match my truth is the gift of processing feelings and is what healing from the human condition is all about! I no longer align with so many messages that conditioning stamped upon me as an imprint over my heart, defining who I once was. The reoccurring message I received was that being sensitive was a weakness and having a wide range of emotions was “too much” for those around me to handle.

These past few years since my spiritual awakening, and more specifically these past few weeks, I have revisited many of the moments in the past that were turning points. These are the ones that can now be seen in history as life changing moments that have sculpted my character. I’ve read old blog posts, looked at old pictures and revisited my part in many of the relationships that have deeply affected me over my life. I’ve cried a lot while sitting in the bathtub. I’ve practiced breathwork to ground and expand my perception which helps take the sting out of the sticky emotions that linger around these old wounds. Mostly, I observe myself in meditation, transcending the thinking mind and focusing on my heart center. This is the place where truth lies and real healing happens. This is the space where I can forgive myself and others. I can see how each of the experiences that threatened to break me only stretched and opened me further to understanding myself. We learn our greatest lessons through the relationships we have with one another and how they translate into the integration of the pieces within ourselves as the multidimensional beings we are.

YES

These past seven weeks I opened myself up to meeting new people through two different dating apps. I created a profile that put all of myself out there into the worldwide web. Holding back nothing, I explained who I am as an intuitive empath who is both a psychic medium and channel. A creative women who defines herself as an artist through writing poetry, dancing and practicing the art of shamanic healing. An adventurous and free spirited soul looking for her equal. The three different men I met taught me so much about who I am and about love. One was a complete scam artist. Another was looking just for a booty call. The last, whom I actually connected with first, is a man I have traveled through many lifetimes with and is my soul brother.

Here’s what I have learned my dear readers that has helped me to confirm that indeed my sensitivities are my superpowers! In every interaction, I remained true to myself, allowing my vulnerability to lead while keeping my heart open. The one that stuck is the one that holds the greatest of meanings for my soul lessons to continue at this stage of my life and understanding of myself. The other two were surface connections grounded in illusion by two men with disingenuous intentions for our interactions together. Yes, I admit it hurt to find out that they were liars yet I am grateful for the lesson. When I first moved here, I told my sister that whomever is meant to be in my life next will be divinely guided towards me. I will meet this person organically and most likely through either her or my brother’s introduction. That statement glows with truth even more after these experiences! I closed both profiles and am officially finished with dating apps!

https://youtu.be/BeDylD8dV7U

I’m continuing to heal from ending the eight year relationship in which I shared my heart and soul with a man I considered my best friend. Last month, during the full moon, I wrote him a letter. I then proceed to read and reread that letter all month long, allowing myself to cry each time, releasing all the energy that I invested into us. I also made a recording of myself reading it while Led Zepplin’s “Rain Song” played in the background. Listening to those lyrics over and over again while the power of my words to him echoed my heavy heart has truly helped me process the pain I feel in walking away from our relationship. The spiritual awakening I have experienced while healing from trauma and choosing to be sober all played a role in me deciding the best thing for my life was to move on. I mailed the letter on Valentine’s day after I took myself to see “Licorice Pizza”,the new movie by Paul Thomas Anderson about the impact first love has on us. In many ways, the relationship was a first love experience for me because we shared so many soul connections. Ultimately, once we healed the karma that brought us together, the relationship found its end. Love that is created between two hearts can never be destroyed and has no end. This is for him.

Love can never be destroyed
“Forever”

My last post was about how 2022 is the year for love and I believe it is profoundly powerful that I love myself first and foremost. In these first weeks of the year I have learned once again that I can’t seek outside of myself for fulfillment. I am the love of my life. I am worthy and deserving of unconditional love. That love is God’s love and it’s inside of each and everyone of us, given by our creator. Our eternal light and divine essence is what burns brightly awakening the God self piece inside of me! These past seven weeks I have reconnected to this spark more intensely to realize that it’s what makes me feel alive and filled with peace. Nothing is greater.

For now my dear readers, I invite you to dance with my sensitive soul and experience its light, colors and sounds as I process my deep feelings with the help of my spirit guides, created through the poetry I channel. No longer will I ever believe that what I feel is weakness because what I feel, I heal, with unconditional love. I see how strong I am, facing all I experience with no filter and an honest, open heart. I’d love to hear which poem is your favorite and which one speaks loudest to you my dear readers? From my heart to yours, enjoy!

Love is the only thing you need to remember

My name is Maria Teresa Pratico-Swanson. I’m a woman walking this journey of life in truth. I am a certified master shaman, specializing in healing trauma, addiction and mental health disorders. As a psychic medium and channel, a rare combination, practicing the art of shamanism has transformed my life. My soul is free and my authentic spirit has awakened. I use my sensibilities as superpowers and the power of love is what fuels my magic as a shamanic healer. Creativity is my soul’s expression, purpose and passion which I express through my healing services, writing poetry, hosting a blog, dancing, painting and practicing yoga. My motto is “Triumphing over Trauma”. In 2011, after a lifetime of trauma I became aware that I needed to reconnect with my soul following a suicide attempt. Healing integrates all aspects of my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual selves. Unraveling conditioning and programming continues to take introspection, patience, grace and most of all LOVE! I’m committed to my practice of healing from the human experience as an awakened soul. I believe I am here to help heal humanity one heart at a time.  I offer shamanic healing sessions, both long distance and in person and have written 5 books of poetry available on Amazon. “Emotional Musings”, “My Soul’s Language” ,”My Heart’s Song” ,”My Soul’s Light” and “My Soul’s Journey:Lessons learned through love”

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

2022 is the year for Love

Welcome dear readers to 2022 which holds a divine number of 6 symbolizing harmony. Listening intently to my heart and continously compelled by soul, every year I choose a word to focus on and manifest all my intentions from. This word becomes the theme I am to expand upon. In 2020 it was fearlessness and for 2021 it was freedom. I saw many big shifts based on both words in my life. This year for 2022 my focus is love. Recently, I have been reflecting upon how very far I have come along on this journey which has awakened my soul, it’s heart truths and so much divine wisdom that is shared with me by Spirit. I use Spirit to encompass the many spirits I receive messages and guidance from since asking for their assistance in June of 2019. To be specific, I will name them here. Many of the archangels including Gabriel, Michael, Raphael and Haniel. My ancestral lineage, ascended masters, Gods and Goddesses, elemental and directional energies, spirit guides and animals and other high vibrational beings of light. After lots of time spent in meditation, being outside in nature and journaling during last year, I believe I am ready and deserving of my soul’s true partner. Here’s to receiving this love in 2022!

Diving deeper into my soul by slowing down is my first intention. This is the first winter season I’ve experienced in eight years my dear readers and the colder temperatures are inviting me to stay indoors and be still. Allowing myself the rest I need to rejuvenate after all the moving around and stretching that 2021 provided my being. In order to integrate and expand into all the energy that the higher frequencies are bringing in, I will begin this year by taking a much needed break from social media. Being mindful of what I consume in all areas of life is very crucial to the healing process. The more I awaken to my heart truths, the more sensitive I become to energy’s vibrations and other people. Winter invites us to curl up with ourselves, to go within and listen. Reading is one of my favorite things to do. I’m grateful to have received a couple of books over Christmas that I’m looking forward to getting under my blankets with. I was gifted a star light projector that creates the night sky on my ceiling. I’m totally loving the magical scenery dancing before me in the comfort of my own space. Add in some candles and crystals to complete the scene for maximum relaxation.

I’m taking this opportunity to rest and practice self care. I will also get to work on creating the manuscript for my sixth book of poetry to be called, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while Embracing the Light: Poems about death and rebirth” Yes indeed it’s a long title, with over 130 poems written throughout all of the cycles 2021 brought me through. My first full year as a practicing shaman.

I’m always intrigued by the mysteries painted in the night sky. In the beginning of my awakening process, that’s how the Universe sent me messages.This poem expresses how I feel about the healing powers of star gazing and moon watching.

Living in the southern temperatures for so long, I was used to getting fed by the Sun. I’ve written before about how my friends refer to me as the Sun because of my big bright energy, smile and personality. We all have a Sun inside of us as Rumi says. I wear a necklace that has the tarot card of the Sun because I like the reminder over my heart. The space that beats in rhythm to love’s purity.

Indeed there is

Waking from the dream, seeing and feeling the truth which is love smashes the lie of separation. We are all intricately connected and are beginning to attune to this frequency all over the planet. I can see it more clearly in the interactions I have with people at the farmers market I work at part time. People are remembering that love is the only truth and it’s exciting to see the connectedness between us through our conversations. Before I leave my home, I always align myself through meditation and breath, in order to lead from my heart. When the mind attempts to take over however, that’s when I know I need more self care and mindfulness practice. Becoming the observer to the mind’s thoughts puts me in alignment with all the pieces of me so I can present my wholeness, my truth and lead from soul.

Today I was invited on a hike through the snow up a canyon. We saw lots of bucks, horses, turkeys, donkeys and lamas too! I feel so alive in nature and really enjoy listening to it’s messages while taking in the clues to this grand mystery of life through it’s cues. Nature brings me peace, relaxes and feeds my senses. God is everywhere and in everything we see. Reflecting our own light in us is what being out in nature reminds us of. All the beauty we are given here on Earth. That’s its purpose and we are here to protect and balance it by balancing ourselves in it. What a gorgeous cycle it is!

The mantra I’m continuously practicing is this my dear readers: I acknowledge and am aware that love is the truth, I surrender to thoughts that attempt to tell me otherwise (rejecting fear), I release the energy that doesn’t serve by allowing love to flood my being which keeps me free so I can let go of expectations and attachments, embracing the present, arriving at acceptance to all that is. The I AM, we all are. Love. There is no failing in life my dear readers. We keep trying, everyday is another opportunity to forgive ourselves and others through grace and compassion. Life here on Earth brings us through experiences that remind us of the truth. Sparking the remembrance that we are love, infinite and eternal. That is the only truth, everything else is an illusion.

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.