Healing, personal development, Spirituality

Taking a break for peace sake

The peace in letting go

In the weeks since my last post I have enjoyed a serendipitous retreat from technology. I set out for a run July 4th not knowing how my own personal freedom would be gained by losing my cell somewhere along the path. After searching the area thoroughly, I chose to look at the circumstances as a gift! Writing in a journal and checking emails periodically is how I’ve spent most of this month. I’ve developed new habits with my device like leaving it outside my bedroom and leaving it at home more often. Living life with my face in the world, not in a screen. These poems were born from conscious breathwork sessions and quiet meditation with an intentional focus on my continued healing journey.

Moon inspired musing

The main message I keep receiving is “the more you release, the more you become”. I love the feeling of consistency in my attention while being ablevto enjoy each moment without the distraction of a device. I feel released from continuous checking and mindless scrolling! It’s amazing how much more peaceful I feel. This change is a step towards opening to the new emotional experiences I wrote about in my last post, https://emotionalmusings.com/2022/06/28/traveling-into-new-emotional-experiences-guided-by-soul/

Choosing to put my energy and time into face to face interactions and uninterrupted communing with nature is what my heart desires. “Morning reprise” is a poem I wrote almost one year ago after moving here to the Salt Lake Valley in Utah. God bless second chances! I can feel the gratitude wash over me again as the theme from which I drew inspiration when writing this piece. The morning sunshine always uplifts me and refreshes my entire being. May the new moon (occurring on the 28th) ignite a fresh start to all of the dreams I’ve been weaving as art into my life. May I continue to shine from the inside out. The best of me has yet to be.

“Morning reprise”

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Healing, personal development, relationships, spirituality

Sensitivity is my superpower

It’s been seven weeks since I shared a full post on here my dear readers. As I continue to heal from my last romantic partnership and build the manuscript for my 6th book of poetry, I feel called to share some recent insights. Today is a special day 2/22/2022 which holds a divine number of 3. The number three symbolizes the trinity of mind, body and Spirit, this union fuels expansion and rebirth. My next book is all about death and rebirth, the many cycles we grow through and will be called, “My Soul’s Dance: Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light, poems about death and rebirth”. I took this break so that I could regroup, recenter and realign myself after all the dramatic changes that occurred in my life during 2021. Calling back in all of my energy and focusing solely on myself. As a highly sensitive being, moving through these big shifts has brought up so many emotions. Ending an eight year relationship and moving across the country has given me the most wonderful opportunity to heal relationships with my two older siblings. I’m able to gain perspective on how much I have grown since beginning this blog exploration in the fall of 2018. Changing my belief system to match my truth is the gift of processing feelings and is what healing from the human condition is all about! I no longer align with so many messages that conditioning stamped upon me as an imprint over my heart, defining who I once was. The reoccurring message I received was that being sensitive was a weakness and having a wide range of emotions was “too much” for those around me to handle.

These past few years since my spiritual awakening, and more specifically these past few weeks, I have revisited many of the moments in the past that were turning points. These are the ones that can now be seen in history as life changing moments that have sculpted my character. I’ve read old blog posts, looked at old pictures and revisited my part in many of the relationships that have deeply affected me over my life. I’ve cried a lot while sitting in the bathtub. I’ve practiced breathwork to ground and expand my perception which helps take the sting out of the sticky emotions that linger around these old wounds. Mostly, I observe myself in meditation, transcending the thinking mind and focusing on my heart center. This is the place where truth lies and real healing happens. This is the space where I can forgive myself and others. I can see how each of the experiences that threatened to break me only stretched and opened me further to understanding myself. We learn our greatest lessons through the relationships we have with one another and how they translate into the integration of the pieces within ourselves as the multidimensional beings we are.

YES

These past seven weeks I opened myself up to meeting new people through two different dating apps. I created a profile that put all of myself out there into the worldwide web. Holding back nothing, I explained who I am as an intuitive empath who is both a psychic medium and channel. A creative women who defines herself as an artist through writing poetry, dancing and practicing the art of shamanic healing. An adventurous and free spirited soul looking for her equal. The three different men I met taught me so much about who I am and about love. One was a complete scam artist. Another was looking just for a booty call. The last, whom I actually connected with first, is a man I have traveled through many lifetimes with and is my soul brother.

Here’s what I have learned my dear readers that has helped me to confirm that indeed my sensitivities are my superpowers! In every interaction, I remained true to myself, allowing my vulnerability to lead while keeping my heart open. The one that stuck is the one that holds the greatest of meanings for my soul lessons to continue at this stage of my life and understanding of myself. The other two were surface connections grounded in illusion by two men with disingenuous intentions for our interactions together. Yes, I admit it hurt to find out that they were liars yet I am grateful for the lesson. When I first moved here, I told my sister that whomever is meant to be in my life next will be divinely guided towards me. I will meet this person organically and most likely through either her or my brother’s introduction. That statement glows with truth even more after these experiences! I closed both profiles and am officially finished with dating apps!

https://youtu.be/BeDylD8dV7U

I’m continuing to heal from ending the eight year relationship in which I shared my heart and soul with a man I considered my best friend. Last month, during the full moon, I wrote him a letter. I then proceed to read and reread that letter all month long, allowing myself to cry each time, releasing all the energy that I invested into us. I also made a recording of myself reading it while Led Zepplin’s “Rain Song” played in the background. Listening to those lyrics over and over again while the power of my words to him echoed my heavy heart has truly helped me process the pain I feel in walking away from our relationship. The spiritual awakening I have experienced while healing from trauma and choosing to be sober all played a role in me deciding the best thing for my life was to move on. I mailed the letter on Valentine’s day after I took myself to see “Licorice Pizza”,the new movie by Paul Thomas Anderson about the impact first love has on us. In many ways, the relationship was a first love experience for me because we shared so many soul connections. Ultimately, once we healed the karma that brought us together, the relationship found its end. Love that is created between two hearts can never be destroyed and has no end. This is for him.

Love can never be destroyed
“Forever”

My last post was about how 2022 is the year for love and I believe it is profoundly powerful that I love myself first and foremost. In these first weeks of the year I have learned once again that I can’t seek outside of myself for fulfillment. I am the love of my life. I am worthy and deserving of unconditional love. That love is God’s love and it’s inside of each and everyone of us, given by our creator. Our eternal light and divine essence is what burns brightly awakening the God self piece inside of me! These past seven weeks I have reconnected to this spark more intensely to realize that it’s what makes me feel alive and filled with peace. Nothing is greater.

For now my dear readers, I invite you to dance with my sensitive soul and experience its light, colors and sounds as I process my deep feelings with the help of my spirit guides, created through the poetry I channel. No longer will I ever believe that what I feel is weakness because what I feel, I heal, with unconditional love. I see how strong I am, facing all I experience with no filter and an honest, open heart. I’d love to hear which poem is your favorite and which one speaks loudest to you my dear readers? From my heart to yours, enjoy!

Love is the only thing you need to remember

My name is Maria Teresa Pratico-Swanson. I’m a woman walking this journey of life in truth. I am a certified master shaman, specializing in healing trauma, addiction and mental health disorders. As a psychic medium and channel, a rare combination, practicing the art of shamanism has transformed my life. My soul is free and my authentic spirit has awakened. I use my sensibilities as superpowers and the power of love is what fuels my magic as a shamanic healer. Creativity is my soul’s expression, purpose and passion which I express through my healing services, writing poetry, hosting a blog, dancing, painting and practicing yoga. My motto is “Triumphing over Trauma”. In 2011, after a lifetime of trauma I became aware that I needed to reconnect with my soul following a suicide attempt. Healing integrates all aspects of my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual selves. Unraveling conditioning and programming continues to take introspection, patience, grace and most of all LOVE! I’m committed to my practice of healing from the human experience as an awakened soul. I believe I am here to help heal humanity one heart at a time.  I offer shamanic healing sessions, both long distance and in person and have written 5 books of poetry available on Amazon. “Emotional Musings”, “My Soul’s Language” ,”My Heart’s Song” ,”My Soul’s Light” and “My Soul’s Journey:Lessons learned through love”

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Spirituality

My Soul’s Journey, Part 1

My dear readers, I have commenced building the manuscript for my fifth book of poetry entitled “My Soul’s Journey”. I’m dedicating this one to my Dad since all of the 87 poems were written after his death and honor the number of years he spent on the Earth in physical form. The number five symbolizes change and while writing this book I have embarked upon the most amazing change and chapter of my own journey! Healing both myself and others through the art of shamanism allows everything I have intuitively known and felt fall into place. My life now after 43 years, finally makes sense! The number forty-three symbolizes success in all areas of life, the kind achieved through hard work, strong will and patience that comes with a great understanding, knowledge and nobility. Life presents us many opportunities to learn and elevate our soul through each moment to see how ALL of it serves for our highest good and greatest healing.This is my time and I am here to claim every ounce of joy, inner peace and tremendous love for life!

This month I have been focusing on my Sacral chakra, healing old wounds left by emotional upheaval and past trauma. Recently I found myself triggered by an assignment for the course in sound healing I was taking. It helped me to realize that I was attempting once again to prove something, validate my worth and feel good enough. After tapping into my intuition and coming to terms with the intention for seeking the certification in the first place, I had an ah-ha moment realizing that continuing with the course was not going to serve my best interest. This was a life lesson shining light upon an mindset that no longer fits who I am today and what I believe. This is an old tape playing an offbeat tune. Hitting eject, I asked myself why was I taking the course in the first place? What was this course going to add to my life?

Celebration of the colors and functions of the chakra system

There are a few factors that contributed to my final decision. My own attention to focus in and stay engaged with an online course for sound was a major challenge because I found the platform itself to be boring. Mainly however it was what the instructor said to me when I told him his course wasn’t for me that proved to me I had made the right decision. He accused me of not being able to provide a therapeutic environment because of my own emotional instability after the assignment was questioned. Whether it was a communication breakdown or misunderstanding, what became apparently clear to me was that questioning his assumed authority triggered his own ego and displayed a character defect that resulted in a judgement of a student. Has no one dropped his course before or not wanted to continue? That’s not how I operate as a teacher. I conduct myself as a guide for each of my student’s journey while learning the art of shamanism. Holistic healing is an intuitive art, whether in sound, art, energy, or crystals etc. It shouldn’t be based on financial gain. My intention is each individuals highest good and healing for their unique journey. It became completely clear we weren’t on the same page and that’s OK. Not everybody is my flavor nor I their cup of tea. Honestly, I felt right away from watching his videos that I couldn’t learn from him. My first thought was to react to his opinion of me and then my higher self, my soul whom I call Serena, stepped forward and reminded me I don’t need to prove my journey to anyone. I’m no longer interested in approval or acceptance from others. Doubting my own gifts is an old mindset pattern and no certification is necessary for me to do what I intuitively do in shamanic sessions. Sound healing is already a part of what I do naturally. I am determined to find another resource for knowledge of what I want to learn. I wrote a reactionary email and then just as quick as I wrote it, deleted it. Moving on.

What became crystal clear is that for all of my life, I wasn’t the one accepting me. I was doubting my own worth, gifts and power which blocked trust, acceptance and love of myself. I blindly believed the opinions and judgments of others. Awakening has created radical shifts that allow me to question what truly is best for me while healing and recognizing my authentic voice over these past two years. This is an ongoing cycle of integration as I forgive, surrender, release and accept, finally I’m celebrating all the pieces of me! I tell my clients that “we can’t outsource love, we must each fill our own cup of happiness, inner peace and love”. My own words rang like a bell in my head!

Locked in and loving myself

Living as an open psychic channel for Spirit has created gaps in my life where I felt completely lost for many years. Self medicating through addiction to substances and maladaptive coping behaviors further distanced my soul from my being. It felt like I was on a permanent vacation from life, muted and numb. Existing behind a wall of my own creation. I was an award winning actress at what I thought “normal” looked like and that was the mask I wore for thirty-five years. These t-shirts suit me to a T. This poem sums it all up beautifully.

Dressed by soul

Nowadays I lean into what allows me to feel free and happy. I express this best through movement, dance, yoga, painting and of course my writing. Here are my latest video shorts to the song “Happy” by Pharrell Williams. I dare you not to smile!

Jazz Happy
Tap Happy

The final thought on this is that this emotional experience has taught me that no one but me needs to accept me! There’s no more hiding, trying to be someone else or denying the rainbow unicorn I am. My purpose is to shine love and light through my soul. Today I feel happy knowing this in my heart. I hope I made you smile!

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Spirituality

Heart’s a flutter

Since Saturday’s Lion’s Gate portal opening and breathwork ceremony that I took part in I have been feeling on top of the world my dear readers! The ceremony was especially powerful delivering so much continued healing for my mind, body and spirit. If you get an opportunity to participate in a breathwork class, do it!! Breathwork is extremely transformative and fosters healing on a physical, mental and spiritual level giving your body just what it needs. It helps to relive or re-experience traumatic events and process deep emotional wounds. The practice is also somatic and weaves together mindfulness and sound vibrations in such a way that I find incredibly soothing. My entire body buzzes as I can hear my own blood flowing through my body. I have laughed, cried and moaned creating noises that are guttural in nature and deliver a feeling of tremendous bliss afterwards. This particular session was extremely visual thanks to my spirit guides and the information shared with me from Divine. My dear soul sister Chrissy Marie holds them once or twice a month via Zoom. Check her out on Instagram @comealivewithchrissymarie

My heart is so incredibly full and expansive. As an intuitive empath, I usually receive clues regarding such transformative events beforehand that I know will impact me in this way and it was no surprise to me that Friday afternoon while sitting in my favorite park I felt a rush of serene energy wash over me. My entire aura turned blue in color which represents an eased nervous system, a balanced existence that alchemizes life force energy into an overall feeling of cool, calm and collectedness. It felt like my entire body, mind and spirit took a deep breath and was relieved….a real AH-HA moment. I wrote this poem soon after sitting with myself for what felt like hours🥰

Restoration of faith

On Sunday my son Ty and I spent the entire day outdoors enjoying the beautiful but super hot and steamy weather here in South Florida. My mindset continued to shift and process what I like to refer to as waves of change in a much less resistant manner than that of the last three months. I believe all the deeply concentrated inner and introspective work I have been doing is finally paying off coupled with a more relaxed astral energy in our cosmos currently. It’s a welcomed breath of fresh air for sure!

Waves of change

August is a big month for my family and friends birthday wise. I have a long list of loved ones that celebrate their revolution around the Sun this month. My niece and goddaughter turned 21 yesterday which is such a milestone birthday. I am so blessed to have played an integral role in her upbringing and was the 3rd person to hold her after she was born! Gabriela was the first baby born between my two closest sisters and I, her birth was incredibly monumental for our family. Here is a picture of our first meeting and the poem I wrote in her honor to celebrate and remember the day.

First time I held Gabriela
Happy 21st birthday

I’ve decided to take the rest of this month to continue processing and enjoy my newly found footing and freedom of spirit. I won’t be posting here for at least the next two weeks and have also decided to take a much needed detox from my other social media platforms. Going off the grid by putting myself in an intentional blackout is good for my self care. I will continue my other writing practices, I just won’t be posting anything publicly. I have been receiving many messages that it’s time for me to start writing my long awaited memoir, a project I have been contemplating for many years now. I would like to take the rest of August to get started on that and see where it leads me.

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Spirituality

Writing from my soul

My dear readers this piece may seem rambling yet it’s a peek inside my stream of consciousness journal. When I read it back to myself I often chuckle because I think in such rhyme and metaphor. I amuse myself on days like today when my heart strings are being especially tugged. Today is my eldest son’s 19th birthday. It also marks exactly 3 months since I kissed my partner goodbye, for now, we plan on being reunited here soon once he can get his personal affairs in order. Our current world’s dilemma gave our lives a really good shakeup, as it did everybody else🌍

Don’t get me wrong, this is by no means a negative thing. Change and transformation are necessary in life. I chose to embrace whatever is thrown at me with a “it is what it is” mentality and roll with it. That’s the challenge, life is 10% of what happens and 90% how you react or respond to it. My dear readers, since my mission here with my blog is to be 100% transparent, you can clearly read about my challenges. I absolutely refuse to let anything take me down, out or under…..EVER! It’s the warrior in me to survive, learn and keep pushing forward embracing each moment for what it is💪

Just one year ago I made myself some self care promises to include certain practices that I wanted to instill into my life daily. Reading, journaling, meditating and exercising are the four agreements I keep with myself (I’m a huge fan of Don Miguel Ruiz’s book, “The 4 Agreements”). This routine, along with a few others are non negotiables for me. They are how I survive in this world as a woman who is extremely self aware, an intuitive empath with keen psychic abilities who has a gigantic heart. I must protect myself and love myself first and foremost. Here’s a peek at what I scribbled today✒

“This writer’s soul is a place I often go to hide from the thunderous energies and plunders of all the others. Negativity is such a bummer as it pulls me down in spirals that threaten to darken my upbeat and light morale. Whenever I feel a quivering sickness inside my belly, investigate I will to search out its origin of dwelling. Perpetually it’s another’s hell I’ve uncovered seeing through to their sickness and confusion. It closes in on my light without much warning. Always vigilant and prepared, I mentally construct my light shield and soon I’m covered. A bright white wall of light six feet around and six feet high, I slip inside and now safely occupy. I can take a deep breath now. My mental, emotional, physical, spiritual and cosmic energy is fully intact inside this wall while I never wander away mindlessly far from home without it. I’ve spent years constructing this wall of light, brick by brick so nothing can penetrate it, it’s so thick. Mostly it’s in place to block out other’s fears that threaten to distract my train of heart and love”.

My fellow empaths understand exactly what I’ve just described here because they too use this mental exercise in their bag of coping tricks. I thought I should share it in case anybody else is having a tough time out there dealing with some people who just seem to walk around in a cloud of darkness. There’s nothing wrong with them, it’s just that we empaths can get really thrown off by this vibration and most often it’s best not to absorb it if we can catch it. Then we can continue to shine and spread out our love’s light. I envision empaths as the human version of the Care Bears🌈

God’s smiling at us🌈

Here’s the poem I wrote in honor of Ty’s birthday. I’m regularly blown away by this young man. Lately, people have mistaken him for my brother which I must admit is hilarious 🤣 He takes after his father height wise at almost 6 feet while I’ve remained 5’2 since 7th grade!

“You electrify my ❤”

Today at the park, I recorded myself reciting it😊

For my Ty💗

Lastly, this is a poem I wrote describing what this past year has truly felt like, reclaiming my soul and going through this spiritual awakening. I’m more me now than ever. Blessings and love to you all my dears 🙏

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