Healing, Mental health, personal development, Spirituality

Poems are the notes of my soul’s music

Now that eclipse season has passed, I’m settling into more revelations and truths from the things I’ve needed to release. The continuous cycle of healing from the human experience as opened me up to another level of awakening. Becoming more aware of what fits the skin I’m currently in and deciding what I’ve outgrown. This is a mindful check-in, a daily practice I committed to three years ago to make adjustments where needed and align with what suits me best. I uncover these truths in many ways. Through writing poetry, meditation, sound frequency healing, setting crystal grids and breathwork. Continuous communication with Mother Nature and with my spirit team help me to feel into the answers intuitively. Allowing myself to be led by my heart and open to love. Love is the healing guide, the protective force and the truth in everything!

When life changes and speeds up, that’s when I know it’s time to slow down. “Listen and observe”, this is the strongest message for me lately. Making sure I’m getting enough rest and consuming the things that will sustain peace, love and joy internally. These are some of my latest poems for a new book in the works entitled, “My Soul’s Music”. As I continue to face the effects that trauma has had upon my being, I learn how strong, resilient and resourceful I am. These past three years I have moved all around the country six times, ended an almost 9 year romantic relationship, said good bye to my Dad in physical form and terminated the relationship with my mother. Each of these decisions have been extremely difficult and carried their own challenges and circumstances. I changed jobs three times and have written five books of poetry between 2020 and today. I discovered my soul’s purpose of being a shaman and through writing I intend to help inspire others. Healing is indeed possible and we are all worthy of love! We are the ones we have been waiting for! I’m grateful to God for lending me the strength in facing everything I have walked through, with grace and dignity. I can honestly say I am proud of the woman I am today.

My purpose is clear about why I’m here. It’s to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. By sharing my testimony of “Triumphing over Trauma” and using my sensitivities as superpowers. I have faced all kinds of abuse, physical, mental, emotional and sexual. I overcame drugs and alcohol and a lifelong eating disorder. I committed to healing myself after attempting suicide in 2011 by believing that I am worthy of love. My human experience has taught me to be grateful for the air I breathe and the water I drink. The people I meet who show me there is unconditional love held within every living creature on the planet. I choose to embrace the love inside by feeling my feelings. That’s how the medicine comes in, after the emotional release of energy. We are so very powerful my friends. By becoming who we are meant to be, we unpack the wisdom of  our soul. Be who you are. Our world needs your unique gifts!!

Remember who you are
Heart opening messages

Life is mysterious, messy, unnerving and beautiful. Taking chances with a heart so full and giving has taught me many lessons. This last poem is a musing upon my last relationship. The healing from this major life change is something I’m still learning lessons from through the eyes of compassion and love. It was a long good bye that took me 2 years to completely detach from. In the end I’m grateful for having learned so much. After surrendering control of what wasn’t mine to carry came forgiveness. Love is all that remains. Always.

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, Inner child, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

The circle game of healing

“Cyclical nature of life continously echos a resounding rhythm. Reverence of soul teaches me how to begin”. This is a quote from my poem “Peace, love and joy” and it perfectly captures my feelings in this moment. Spring has sprung and a new life has begun as I embark upon a new adventure. It’s an exciting time for me my dear readers so I must admit I was blindsided when triggers of fear and old thought patterns started whispering their lies of my brokenness again.

The experiences of deep healing over the past three years have taught me to closely inspect all aspects of my being, mind, body and soul. I’m currently putting a book promotion together for my latest book of poetry, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth”. I’m grateful to have these messages at my fingertips to reference, regroup and recenter myself back into the truth. “Corners of Love” is a poem inspired by the conscious breathwork and energy attunement sessions I practice regularly. Laughing at myself for taking all the pressure too seriously! Of course a new environment filled with new people and things to learn would trigger unnecessary fear! Healing myself has taught me to love myself back into balance. I’m not my past failures. I’m always beautifully and divinely whole, it’s my thinking that required a course correction as the mental chatter of ego grew too loud overpowering the voice of my highest self. She has a name my dear ones. I refer to my soul as Serena. Last week it felt like life turned up the volume on ego and the judgements of others I absorbed from the past. Their voices played loudly in a loop telling me the lies that began to plant illusions of insecurities. These weeds needed pulling so I took a break from their static and turned to meditation and breathwork. These self care practices combined with the voices of love coming from my family and friends began to settle me down! Once again, I could see I was putting far too much pressure upon myself and the old coping mechanisms of perfection were threatening my inner peace.

“Believing in receiving”

Life is a continuous cycle of learning from our past experiences and growing within the arms of love. The love I give myself is what awakens me to believing I am absolutely worthy of receiving abundance in my life. Somewhere along the way, after many years of trauma, I began to believe the opposite. That version of myself is no longer the vision I see in the mirror. This new cycle brought in uncomfortability and my first response was to pile on more pressure and beat myself up! “There is a wisdom of head and a wisdom of heart”, one of my favorite poet’s Charles Dickens said that. I believe it’s the discernment of the two that leads to the wisdom from our own souls. Breath and meditation allow me to feel into what is trying to come to the surface. Stagnant energy that’s been awaiting an answer from my body. In the past I would overextend my body by overexercising and distract myself with substances to block out the messages. Healing has provided me the space to listen instead to my intuition and the guidance of my Spirit team. Setting the intention to once again believe in myself and know I am worthy of receiving love. I can feel it in the air and see it in the newly blossoming spring flowers outside my door. So much beauty is coming my way in the form of opportunities and new relationships. I don’t have to be afraid that I’m “too much” or “too weird” or “not ready” for others to see me for me. I don’t have to stay trapped in mind games. Today, I can show myself grace and have patience as I learn the new tasks I’m responsible for. I don’t have to betray myself by self sabotaging the wonderful new opportunity before me with fear!

This experience isn’t mine alone my dear readers, it is for all of us to learn from. Running through life, attempting to catch up in this invisible race and competition with one another, we succumb to the pressures around us by creating unrealistic expectations for ourselves and marrying ourselves to attachments that aren’t serving us. Totally forgetting our intimate connection to one another through our Light and life force. Time and healing has taught me to dance and laugh at these extremes within myself and not act upon impulse. The only person I am trying to be today is a more aligned version of myself than last week or last year. Today, I choose to tune into the songs of Spirit. I hear the voice of my Dad, my grandparents, all the ancestors and angels that have been guiding my soul for centuries. Circling back to the truth I uncovered upon my awakening three years ago. I am whole, I am healthy, I am a beautifully capable child of God. Divinely connected, protected, guided and eternally loved. That is the truth that plays loudly on repeat throughout my entire being, the music I rise and dance to.

Standing in my own power and inner strength by forgiving myself for the times I blamed my soul awakening for ending relationships. The truth is that I was hiding within others, not feeling worthy of my own dreams and aspirations. I became distracted with trying to fix and heal others. Today I know it all starts within me. Circling around the truth again has showed me how to put on my “big girl panties” while loving my inner child who gets frightened by new situations. Today, I hold her close and tell her that nobody will hurt her again. The pain and trauma is over now. Turn up that “Soul music” my friends and dance until your heart’s content!

Dancing to the music of soul, is the resounding rhythm that beats in my heart. Played by own own unique drum.

Intentionally I open to new possibilities for love from a man. This is the soul connection and the kind of love I predicted in January of this year in the post https://emotional411017959.wordpress.com/2022/01/03/2022-is-the-year-for-love/?preview=true It’s coming with grand gusto and adoring gestures that I’ve always dreamed of. I’m a romantic, if you can’t tell by my writing my dear readers. Someday soon, a man will come into my life that will treat me the way I deserve to be treated. This man will be my equal, on my level of awakening awareness and be my true match. A soul partner to journey with and explore the adventures that life gifts us everyday. I’m ready and excited!

Believing in the love I am worthy of

This poem describes the transformation I have undergone and continue to grow within. Healing from the human experience is a condition we are all learning from in this life on Earth. Our souls never die. We will go onto exist in other forms of life after we leave our physical bodies in this one. This is the grand circle of life. Listen to this song by Nightmares on Wax my dear readers. Tap into the higher consciousness within its message. Groove with the rhythm of feelings and the vibration of love. https://youtu.be/Vc-XzhnwpVc

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Healing, relationships, Spirituality

My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death & rebirth

My dear readers I’m absolutely thrilled to announce my largest collection of poetry has been published! I’ve been writing the poems for “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth” for over a year now. The transformations I have experienced over this time can be felt throughout the flow of each expression and on every page. This book is truly a labor of love, which is the main ingredient in all of my writing. The path away from what no longer was serving my soul meant the end of long term relationships, including the one with my only living parent. Loving myself and allowing myself to grow, to continue “Triumphing over Trauma” takes an introspective awareness when it comes to all I choose to engage with in my life. I lead with my authentic voice and my heart first, taking care of my energy always. Learning patience and having forgiveness with myself and others are also topics I stayed heart centered and focused on throughout this past year. In times of doubt, asking myself the question “what would love choose next” and my response would become clear. I feel a tremendous peace, a settling within my being, now that this book is complete.

I couldn’t of imagined how much my life would change from the time I wrote the first poem up through the last in this book! At times, I still can’t wrap my head and heart around it all. Very little remains the same about me from the beginning of this book. My heart is fuller, my mind is more open and my soul is deeper. How I view the world and my place in it has taken on a much more profound meaning. I’m an observer as a writer, choosing to share my life force and light energy with all I meet as a catalyst who intends to influence others by sparking their remembrance of the Light within themselves. That is the part we all play for one another my dears.

This is the introduction to the book along with a few poems and videos I recorded for my new TikTok page, Emotional Musings. I’d love to hear your feedback my dear readers in the comments. Please reach out to me personally for an autographed copy of my book and I will be happy to send one your way!

My Soul’s Dance is my sixth and largest collection of poetry highlighting my first year as a practicing shaman. Writing is the art of my soul’s expression and how I process life as an intuitive empath, psychic medium and channel. I understand the world through sound and movement which transforms into the words of my poetry. In June of 2019 I experienced a powerful and life altering spiritual awakening. I am compelled by my soul, to learn the lessons I am here to learn. These poems are a reflection of the death and rebirth cycle as I embrace my shadow pieces, loving them into the Light. I believe we are all infinite and eternal beings of Light, here to raise the vibration of Earth. I am extremely dedicated in doing my part to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. Many of these poems are dedicated to a man I was in an eight year relationship with and had to finally leave as I continued to awaken and embrace my own journey. I’ve learned that not all relationships along the awakened path are meant to endure.

I believe love is the power that will heal us all. My life serves as a testimony of strength and resiliency, healing from addiction, an eating disorder, physical, emotional and sexual trauma. Writing is how I process this vast, vivid and beautiful world we live in as the gift it truly is!

I live a full spectrum and awakened life. Moving with grace through this three dimensional experience stepping intentionally, filled with kindness, compassion, empathy and love for all living creatures. May these poems become the music to your own soul’s dance as we hum together and explore this collective experience called life. The movie we are all connected to, at differing speeds while playing different roles. We are all connected by our Light and by love!

“The pain of letting go”
“Time’s up”
“No fear”
“Independence cry”
“Forever”

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, personal development, relationships, spirituality

Sensitivity is my superpower

It’s been seven weeks since I shared a full post on here my dear readers. As I continue to heal from my last romantic partnership and build the manuscript for my 6th book of poetry, I feel called to share some recent insights. Today is a special day 2/22/2022 which holds a divine number of 3. The number three symbolizes the trinity of mind, body and Spirit, this union fuels expansion and rebirth. My next book is all about death and rebirth, the many cycles we grow through and will be called, “My Soul’s Dance: Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light, poems about death and rebirth”. I took this break so that I could regroup, recenter and realign myself after all the dramatic changes that occurred in my life during 2021. Calling back in all of my energy and focusing solely on myself. As a highly sensitive being, moving through these big shifts has brought up so many emotions. Ending an eight year relationship and moving across the country has given me the most wonderful opportunity to heal relationships with my two older siblings. I’m able to gain perspective on how much I have grown since beginning this blog exploration in the fall of 2018. Changing my belief system to match my truth is the gift of processing feelings and is what healing from the human condition is all about! I no longer align with so many messages that conditioning stamped upon me as an imprint over my heart, defining who I once was. The reoccurring message I received was that being sensitive was a weakness and having a wide range of emotions was “too much” for those around me to handle.

These past few years since my spiritual awakening, and more specifically these past few weeks, I have revisited many of the moments in the past that were turning points. These are the ones that can now be seen in history as life changing moments that have sculpted my character. I’ve read old blog posts, looked at old pictures and revisited my part in many of the relationships that have deeply affected me over my life. I’ve cried a lot while sitting in the bathtub. I’ve practiced breathwork to ground and expand my perception which helps take the sting out of the sticky emotions that linger around these old wounds. Mostly, I observe myself in meditation, transcending the thinking mind and focusing on my heart center. This is the place where truth lies and real healing happens. This is the space where I can forgive myself and others. I can see how each of the experiences that threatened to break me only stretched and opened me further to understanding myself. We learn our greatest lessons through the relationships we have with one another and how they translate into the integration of the pieces within ourselves as the multidimensional beings we are.

YES

These past seven weeks I opened myself up to meeting new people through two different dating apps. I created a profile that put all of myself out there into the worldwide web. Holding back nothing, I explained who I am as an intuitive empath who is both a psychic medium and channel. A creative women who defines herself as an artist through writing poetry, dancing and practicing the art of shamanic healing. An adventurous and free spirited soul looking for her equal. The three different men I met taught me so much about who I am and about love. One was a complete scam artist. Another was looking just for a booty call. The last, whom I actually connected with first, is a man I have traveled through many lifetimes with and is my soul brother.

Here’s what I have learned my dear readers that has helped me to confirm that indeed my sensitivities are my superpowers! In every interaction, I remained true to myself, allowing my vulnerability to lead while keeping my heart open. The one that stuck is the one that holds the greatest of meanings for my soul lessons to continue at this stage of my life and understanding of myself. The other two were surface connections grounded in illusion by two men with disingenuous intentions for our interactions together. Yes, I admit it hurt to find out that they were liars yet I am grateful for the lesson. When I first moved here, I told my sister that whomever is meant to be in my life next will be divinely guided towards me. I will meet this person organically and most likely through either her or my brother’s introduction. That statement glows with truth even more after these experiences! I closed both profiles and am officially finished with dating apps!

https://youtu.be/BeDylD8dV7U

I’m continuing to heal from ending the eight year relationship in which I shared my heart and soul with a man I considered my best friend. Last month, during the full moon, I wrote him a letter. I then proceed to read and reread that letter all month long, allowing myself to cry each time, releasing all the energy that I invested into us. I also made a recording of myself reading it while Led Zepplin’s “Rain Song” played in the background. Listening to those lyrics over and over again while the power of my words to him echoed my heavy heart has truly helped me process the pain I feel in walking away from our relationship. The spiritual awakening I have experienced while healing from trauma and choosing to be sober all played a role in me deciding the best thing for my life was to move on. I mailed the letter on Valentine’s day after I took myself to see “Licorice Pizza”,the new movie by Paul Thomas Anderson about the impact first love has on us. In many ways, the relationship was a first love experience for me because we shared so many soul connections. Ultimately, once we healed the karma that brought us together, the relationship found its end. Love that is created between two hearts can never be destroyed and has no end. This is for him.

Love can never be destroyed
“Forever”

My last post was about how 2022 is the year for love and I believe it is profoundly powerful that I love myself first and foremost. In these first weeks of the year I have learned once again that I can’t seek outside of myself for fulfillment. I am the love of my life. I am worthy and deserving of unconditional love. That love is God’s love and it’s inside of each and everyone of us, given by our creator. Our eternal light and divine essence is what burns brightly awakening the God self piece inside of me! These past seven weeks I have reconnected to this spark more intensely to realize that it’s what makes me feel alive and filled with peace. Nothing is greater.

For now my dear readers, I invite you to dance with my sensitive soul and experience its light, colors and sounds as I process my deep feelings with the help of my spirit guides, created through the poetry I channel. No longer will I ever believe that what I feel is weakness because what I feel, I heal, with unconditional love. I see how strong I am, facing all I experience with no filter and an honest, open heart. I’d love to hear which poem is your favorite and which one speaks loudest to you my dear readers? From my heart to yours, enjoy!

Love is the only thing you need to remember

My name is Maria Teresa Pratico-Swanson. I’m a woman walking this journey of life in truth. I am a certified master shaman, specializing in healing trauma, addiction and mental health disorders. As a psychic medium and channel, a rare combination, practicing the art of shamanism has transformed my life. My soul is free and my authentic spirit has awakened. I use my sensibilities as superpowers and the power of love is what fuels my magic as a shamanic healer. Creativity is my soul’s expression, purpose and passion which I express through my healing services, writing poetry, hosting a blog, dancing, painting and practicing yoga. My motto is “Triumphing over Trauma”. In 2011, after a lifetime of trauma I became aware that I needed to reconnect with my soul following a suicide attempt. Healing integrates all aspects of my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual selves. Unraveling conditioning and programming continues to take introspection, patience, grace and most of all LOVE! I’m committed to my practice of healing from the human experience as an awakened soul. I believe I am here to help heal humanity one heart at a time.  I offer shamanic healing sessions, both long distance and in person and have written 5 books of poetry available on Amazon. “Emotional Musings”, “My Soul’s Language” ,”My Heart’s Song” ,”My Soul’s Light” and “My Soul’s Journey:Lessons learned through love”

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, relationships, Spirituality

The magic of December

I am a modern day troubadour spreading the power of love through my poems. The energy that is occurring on Earth right now is life changing my dear readers! Powered by last week’s New Moon and solar eclipse in Sagittarius, we are rising to feel much more of the love vibration that is pouring upon us through Spirit, the Divine light. Tap in, feel its power and trust the truths that are ushering in New Earth. Welcome to the mass healing, the Great Awakening. Can you feel the shifts within yourself to learn more of your own truth? What an amazingly beautiful time to be alive!!!

This is a short and sweet expression of joy as I celebrate my 44th birthday, stepping into the spaciousness that freedom inside provides and the creativity that allows my soul to thrive. This past year has been one of elevation and endings. I have learned so much, growing by leaps and bounds. Shifting from ego to soul and allowing love’s purity to shine through. My heart is full and I look forward to so much abundance to come here in my new home in Utah. I’ve met my soul tribe. Absolutely magical people who see me, my authentic self and show me such love and kindness. This month is so very special because it’s not only my birthday, it’s also my sister’s AND my nephew’s 21st on the full moon next week. Many special celebrations are planned all month long.

Listening to Spirit, I allow myself to be

My dear friend and soul sister Rachelle took me on my first hike up the canyon last week. Getting outside into the elevation rejuvenates me completely. I took a few short videos too. We call these outings walkie talkies and we both get some much from them. Enjoying nature while processing what’s going on in our lives, sharing intuitive guidance with one another and our perspectives. I am incredibly grateful for our connection. Thank you for being you Rachelle,  I love you very much!

Good morning Sun
Suspension bridge silliness
Bear Canyon in Draper,Utah

I’ve officially lived here for three months now and I love living in this part of the country. The chill vibes from the mountains and the kindness of the people have made this transition an easy one. My sister and brother-law have opened their home and their hearts to me at time when I needed them the most. Healing our relationship means everything to me. My sister is so generous with everything she has and I love her so deeply. She’s always been a mother figure to me. We all participated in what is called “The Human Race” on Thanksgiving. It’s a 5K and 10K course and my brother-in-law and I ran the 10K together finishing just minutes apart. It’s the longest I have run since arriving here and adjusting to the altitude. It’s been a big change for my body coming from the east coast to now living in elevation. I’m being gentle with myself by allowing myself to acclimate slowly. I walk a mile and a half to work which keeps me moving and grooving as well as shirt runs around our community lake. Now that we’re in December, I feel the cold settling in. This southern living woman hasn’t experienced a winter since 2013 yet I’m much more comfortable than I thought I would be! Thankfully, I have eased into my new home quite well and feel balanced with my work/life schedule. Quality over quantity in all areas is how I roll.

Attitude is everything
My family at The Human Race

These poems are a continuous expression of my heart and the lessons learned through soul. The new beginnings here are inspired by energy coding and my soul’s ongoing awakening. Awareness becomes clear when I am heeding what Spirit teaches and guides me to and through. Remaining in awe of the outpouring of love, effortlessly I allow the Light to come shining through. Inside of me and inside of you. And so it is. Amen.

Celebrating being, isn’t life grand?
Be kind my friends, the more you give, the more you receive
Advice from myself to my younger self

Life is so surprising by the endless messages, signs and gifts I become aware of the more I follow Spirit’s teachings. Learning to be patient is the greatest act of self love. Allowing love to lead is a choice I mindfully make everyday and within each moment. Life truly is a gift and it’s meant to be shared with all. We are mirrors for one another and each others teachers. I learn more and more everyday. I dance through the ebbs and flows with lots of laughter. I used to take myself so seriously when I was younger. I can see how hard I was on my own heart. Life is much lighter now and I feel much more joyful having forgiven myself amd others for the past. Living in each moment and enjoying every spectrum of emotion there is in it brings a smile to my face. Everyday…. in some way, even if some days I have to look a little deeper to see it.. I love getting older. The years are not what matter, it’s the life in them and boy do I have so much to be grateful for!

The only truth is love

This last poem, “Waterlily Flow” is dedicated to my sister Tami, the person who has shown me what art is by the legendary painters like Claude Monet. Art means expressing yourself no matter what and being true to your heart. Tami is a true artist. She is intentional with everything she does. Creativity bursts from her heart using her home as the palette for decorating, her cooking, gift giving and the attentiveness of her most generous soul. She can draw anything and wrap a present so beautifully that you don’t even want to open it! Everything she does she puts 100% into. She often doesn’t give herself enough credit or get the appreciation from the people that were entrusted to care for her growing up. This is for you sis, I see you and I adore you!

Thanks Tam Tam for bringing art into my life

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.