personal development, relationships, Spirituality

2023’s free fall into faith

Walking in faith. Taking a leap of faith. These are the whispered intentions and reminders I have received from Spirit over the second half of this year. 2022 began with a belief that love would bloom in my life. The love that I have procured within myself over the past ten years on the healing journey I began when I decided to divorce my husband, get sober and uncover my purpose has begun to blossom new connections that show me how much I’ve grown. In this new year 2023, my intentions are to renew my trust in faith. A greater understanding of my soul purpose and the power that love has to heal all wounds.

The word faith means to have a complete trust in someone or something. The meaning I hold in my heart is the understanding of my own spiritual awakening, a continuous climb towards a higher consciousness as the relationship with my higher power grows. I choose to refer to this being as God, the creator of our universe and master of all living things. I firmly and unequivocally believe that God has helped me through all the trials in my life and is the teacher of my soul’s lessons. I believe that’s what the human experience is all about, why we come here and claim a body. It is our vehicle in which to learn the lessons our soul requires for ascension. In this lifetime alone, I believe I have healed through more than in eight lifetimes. The messages I receive and channel into the poetry I compose through my spirit guides helps me to further integrate trust and faith in the mysterious and divine timing of the holiest of beings, God.

This year, I intend to deepen my devotion and practice with my whole heart following the ways in which my ancestors have taught me how to feel closest to God. My word for 2023 is faith. Practicing shamanic rituals using crystals, herbs, oils and music is my favorite way of both honoring the spiritual team that supports me and sending prayers to them. Writing out intentions to be burned in moon ceremonies is something I practice for both the new moon and full moon each month. Everyday I kneel in front of my altar and pray for God to continue to mold me, to show me the way I can best be of use as a humble servant to the Light. I pray that I may share the light I carry with others in a gentle and compassionate way focusing on the peace, love and joy in my heart. I surrender to the ways that no longer serve me while lighting candles to deepen the intentions I set. I move energy by toning and chanting to stay balanced and grounded. Engaging in these rituals daily help to keep my vibration high and my spirit clean.

Writing poetry is how I process the world around me and articulate the nuances of energetic exchanges and experiences. Since my last post I have decided to end two relationships that meant a great deal to me. One I started over the summer and the other lasted for over twenty years. In both instances, I realized how much I have changed and healed through. I no longer intend to engage with people who don’t know their own power and have become an energetic drain on mine. The desire to be someone others need me to be for their acceptance of me is no longer an agreement I’m willing to make. Being able to clearly see my own value, I refuse to be treated harshly by others who don’t know their own worth. It’s ok to say goodbye to the older versions of myself that they were comfortable with because I know what I deserve and what I am worthy of. My time and energy are precious and I’m no longer interested in putting energy into people who aren’t an energetic match for me. This decision was not made quickly or in a reactionary way. I am choosing to take what I’ve learned and detach with love in a similar way I moved away from the toxic relationship with my mother two years ago. By doing this, I open myself up to new people and experiences that better serve my current frequency. People who serve my soul. I say no thank you to surface relationships. I’m looking for equality and a mutual understanding as we look one another in the eye. I offer an open mind and heart, a non judgemental attitude full of unconditional love. The days of me accepting less than this are officially over.

Recognizing all the growth I have experienced, the wisdom gained and tears shed. Full circle moments as I celebrated my 45th year last month, the end of an era of healing, 2012-2022. I walked the property of my best friend and the sacred land she now calls home. As I did, I gave the past versions of me the honor of release, back into Mother Earth. There is a tree growing between two rocks that she pointed out as me, a reflection of my journey. I will take with me the beauty of our time together. The gift of presence with my dear friend and my son. I pass the torch on to the next traveler of soul as I enter the next phase of my life. May 2023 show me more of my own truth as I further claim my power, my gifts and practice my soul’s purpose. I’m here to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing.

My journey of healing as represented in nature

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

Letting Love Lead

Choosing to allow love to lead and guide my life’s purpose is an elaborate dance with Spirit. Opening the heart to allow a higher power to guide my steps is an ever evolving practice in surrendering to the unknown. Leaning into a deeper trust while having faith that the answers will show up in Divine timing, not anything I control. Turning away from ego stories and postures for the betterment of soul’s alignment. It’s a very humbling experience that many of us run from. I know I certainly did, for many years. Living an authentic life takes courage. Especially when fear is forcing you to give up. This past month I’ve had to dig deep and sit through more than a few dark nights of the soul to be rewarded the clarity that self introspection reveals. The recent eclipse season gifted me some hard to swallow truths yet in the core of my being, I knew I needed to see. Staying open, listening to Spirit and my guides while revisiting the more challenging soul lessons required me to love myself more than ever before. Finally, allowing the breakdowns to become breakthroughs.

We all want to be loved. Human beings are wired for connection and community. The way to this love is through deeply and thoroughly loving ourselves. Self acceptance is the key to inner peace. A quote by Lao Tzu says the three greatest treasures are simplicity, patience and compassion. I like to think of them as simplicity of mind creates joy, patience within the body brings peace and compassion in soul is love. The relationships I have with others can trigger a lot of old stories and coping behaviors I leaned on for survival while enduring trauma. These responses were a perceived security blanket for the purpose of protecting my heart. The ego’s desire to control everything in the mind, keeping us small and safe. This has always lead to self sabotage. The old stories fed to me over the years that sting and scream thoughts of “you’re too much”, “don’t show your emotions” and “be perfect”. The scars from emotional neglect in childood have taught me to hide myself by not letting anybody see my innermost feelings for fear of rejection and abandonment. The truth is neither of my parents were emotionally supportive or knew how to explain their own feelings. I learned to hide, stuff and carry not only my own but the energy of emotions from other people around me. Feelings were seen as burdensome. This experience taught me that I was unworthy of love without pain. Pain was intricately woven throughout the meaning of love.

Love is magic

Subsequently, I met men who were emotionally unavailable or who couldn’t match my own level of emotional intelligence and intuitiveness. The journey of healing over the past ten years while reparenting myself has taught me to value my feelings as the warning indicators for what my body needs. Carefully and mindfully nurturing myself welcomes unconditional love to flow. I believe we are all connected to a radiant light, a God consciousness that is made of love. Essentially we are LOVE! This is our purpose. To be love and shine love, to ourselves and one another. Allowing myself to be seen, felt and heard by another who is reflecting my soul back at me is a Divine experience. Love truly is patient and kind. Never boastful, it always protects, trusts, hopes, perservers and never fails.

My 8th book of poetry will be a collection that is all about love ,”My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. These poems are a culmination of what my journey through healing has taught me. The messages that have brought me closer to God and my life’s purpose as a healer. I’m here to show others how love heals and transforms. There is no possible explanation for how I have returned from the depths of abuse, trauma, addiction and suicide without God’s love and direction. This has arrived by the allowance of true love into my life! The Universe will give you signposts to follow, synchronistic gifts that are meant to teach us how to master the challenges in life. May we be released from ego and guided by soul to let love lead!

We operate on Divine time, it is precious and not our own
We are love, let it lead

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, Interview, Mental health, personal development, Podcast, Spirituality

Bring on the Woo interview

Listen to an interview for the podcast "Bring on the Woo"

I’m pleased to share an interview I did for “Bring on the Woo” in association with the online community of healers I belong to, Mystics4Hire. Listen and let me know your thoughts. I welcome you, my dear readers, to share your own story of healing and redemption.

The following is the introduction to the interview:

Bring On The Woo Podcast. The underworld feels so far away when we are feeling good & healthy but when we are in the depths of despair in our soul, from there it feels just like a millimeter away. A dark start to our journey today but deeply important as In today’s story we have Maria Teresa who takes us on her journey of crossing that bridge of the deepest darkness into the light by attempting to end her own life and fortunately for us failing, so that she could then rebuild from the absolute Ground Zero to now help others. Her story takes us on the twists and turns of the trauma and abuse she suffered in childhood to the literal resurrection of her life. Maria was able to do this through shamanistic practices, therapy, breathwork and poetry. Using these mediums herself with a little bit of coffee and gelato thrown in there to boot, she is able to help transform the lives of the people around her.

Maria’s awakening path begins at the moment she decided to take her life and failed. Having been deeply abused as a child and finding herself in abusive relationships she was done with trying to live as what she calls a highly sensitive individual in a seemingly insensitive world. She said when she woke up from the hospital, after realizing she had failed to die, she heard the voice of God come to herand say ‘now what? You’re as low as you can get, how do you get out of this dark place now?’ It was from that point on that she realized she needed to focus on herself, immersing herself in prescribed therapy, discovering shamanism and beginning the journey of writing poetry, to which she is now in book 7. Maria is a big advocate of utilizing multiple modalities to help keep someone on track, citing things like sensory deprivation tanks have been really positive experiences for her or a consistent breathwork practice is vital to her continued well being. She emanates this, as quite a few people will say what a great energy she has & that is what keeps her motivated to continue doing her work.

One of the most amazing transformations she has been party to has been that of her friend, whose mother had died & energetically was trying to take over her body. Maria said that she could even see the spirit of her friend’s mother overlaid in her features. She said that it was not quite to the extent you would consider an exorcism, she & another friend were able to excise the remaining energyof spirit & move it to the light. It was a humbling experience for her that her friend told her completely changed/saved her. Maria also said that her journey with her best friend has been one of the greatest gifts of her life as well so that even though they may be on different sides of the country & apart for more than seven years, they have always remained close & each other’s biggest advocates for growth& spiritual evolution. Thank you so much for joining & now let’s dive in!

I am here to share my experience, strength and hope with others on the journey to heal. My motto is “Triumphing over Trauma” and I am here to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. Follow me at Emotional Musings on WordPress and check out the healing services I provide. In light and in shadow, always with love ❤️ Namaste 🙏

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings


Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

Rainbows of hope and promises of peace

Writing brings me peace and clarity. I started Emotional Musings almost four years ago with the intention to share my life’s testimony of “Triumphing over Trauma” and thus began a journey of self discovery, leading to a profound spiritual awakening in June of 2019. I’m continually in awe of the messages I receive from Spirit that shape the words of my poetry. Lately I’ve been picking up on synchronistic signs of rainbows which symbolize eternal hope. The ability to hold onto hope is what saved my life eleven years ago after I attempted suicide. Hold on, pain ends is the mantra I resonate with and what hope means to me. I was given the gift of desperation which is what eventually helped me change my entire life. Step by step and year after year since, I have learned how to take care of my soul. Being compelled by it for the purposes of obtaining a higher consciousness, mind, body and spirit, I continue to lean into the guidance from my guides and write poems that share the promises of peace, love and joy through the exploration of my own spirituality.

Learning how to best care for my being, the vessel that contains my soul is forever fascinating to me! Season after season, cycles of death and rebirth follow the phases of the moon and dictate my emotional landscape. The lense through which I view the world becomes more clear and allows me to focus on my purpose of helping to heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. No biggie (inserted sarcasm for humor) Being able to share the highest vibrations of love with others is an ever humbling honor. My intention is to inspire others to believe in themselves, get to understand their own intuition and develop their own spirituality through self love and introspection. Writing allows to me do this both personally and publicly. I am incredibly grateful for this blog platform and for you my dear readers!

Utilizing my exra sensory perception, the space between breaths joins the life force energy that radiates inside, never dividing nor having to decide. All just is. Choosing peace, love and joy is the daily prayer. Being able to use all senses to their highest degree and form, honors my humanity. Turning off the noise from technology and the distractions it brings heralds peace. Listening to how my own soul’s music plays in harmony with the tune of nature. Concentration is on healing and the attunement of my nervous system to the stimuli around me. Seeing spirit animal omens remind me of the important role loyalty, trust and faith play in believing my being into freedom, honoring the sovereign nature of my own spirited essence.

The following eight poems capture my experiences with the Divine as I learn my soul lessons within this human experience. Opening my heart by allowing for grace and patience, surrendering to the process of ascension and expanding into acceptance of each moment as the gift it is sparks the curiosity and wonder which is the frequency in which my poems are channeled through. I am in love with the new life I have created in this last year. I can feel my dreams taking shape and manifesting into this physical reality. I have recently met someone who is very special and I am intrigued by his journey. “Knock knock” is dedicated to our Divine timing and the role we will play in each other’s lives. After I finished writing”Song #44″ I felt that piece is the completion of my newest and 7th book of poetry entitled, “My Soul’s Music”. I have already begun the poems for my 8th book which will be called “My Soul’s Love”.

I invite you my dear readers to share these poems and comment below on how they make you feel. We are in this human experience together, connected as one!

“Waterlily flow”
“I allow”
“New life”

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Spirituality

In light and in shadow, always with love ❤️ Namaste 🙏