It’s been seven weeks since I shared a full post on here my dear readers. As I continue to heal from my last romantic partnership and build the manuscript for my 6th book of poetry, I feel called to share some recent insights. Today is a special day 2/22/2022 which holds a divine number of 3. The number three symbolizes the trinity of mind, body and Spirit, this union fuels expansion and rebirth. My next book is all about death and rebirth, the many cycles we grow through and will be called, “My Soul’s Dance: Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light, poems about death and rebirth”. I took this break so that I could regroup, recenter and realign myself after all the dramatic changes that occurred in my life during 2021. Calling back in all of my energy and focusing solely on myself. As a highly sensitive being, moving through these big shifts has brought up so many emotions. Ending an eight year relationship and moving across the country has given me the most wonderful opportunity to heal relationships with my two older siblings. I’m able to gain perspective on how much I have grown since beginning this blog exploration in the fall of 2018. Changing my belief system to match my truth is the gift of processing feelings and is what healing from the human condition is all about! I no longer align with so many messages that conditioning stamped upon me as an imprint over my heart, defining who I once was. The reoccurring message I received was that being sensitive was a weakness and having a wide range of emotions was “too much” for those around me to handle.
These past few years since my spiritual awakening, and more specifically these past few weeks, I have revisited many of the moments in the past that were turning points. These are the ones that can now be seen in history as life changing moments that have sculpted my character. I’ve read old blog posts, looked at old pictures and revisited my part in many of the relationships that have deeply affected me over my life. I’ve cried a lot while sitting in the bathtub. I’ve practiced breathwork to ground and expand my perception which helps take the sting out of the sticky emotions that linger around these old wounds. Mostly, I observe myself in meditation, transcending the thinking mind and focusing on my heart center. This is the place where truth lies and real healing happens. This is the space where I can forgive myself and others. I can see how each of the experiences that threatened to break me only stretched and opened me further to understanding myself. We learn our greatest lessons through the relationships we have with one another and how they translate into the integration of the pieces within ourselves as the multidimensional beings we are.
These past seven weeks I opened myself up to meeting new people through two different dating apps. I created a profile that put all of myself out there into the worldwide web. Holding back nothing, I explained who I am as an intuitive empath who is both a psychic medium and channel. A creative women who defines herself as an artist through writing poetry, dancing and practicing the art of shamanic healing. An adventurous and free spirited soul looking for her equal. The three different men I met taught me so much about who I am and about love. One was a complete scam artist. Another was looking just for a booty call. The last, whom I actually connected with first, is a man I have traveled through many lifetimes with and is my soul brother.
Here’s what I have learned my dear readers that has helped me to confirm that indeed my sensitivities are my superpowers! In every interaction, I remained true to myself, allowing my vulnerability to lead while keeping my heart open. The one that stuck is the one that holds the greatest of meanings for my soul lessons to continue at this stage of my life and understanding of myself. The other two were surface connections grounded in illusion by two men with disingenuous intentions for our interactions together. Yes, I admit it hurt to find out that they were liars yet I am grateful for the lesson. When I first moved here, I told my sister that whomever is meant to be in my life next will be divinely guided towards me. I will meet this person organically and most likely through either her or my brother’s introduction. That statement glows with truth even more after these experiences! I closed both profiles and am officially finished with dating apps!
I’m continuing to heal from ending the eight year relationship in which I shared my heart and soul with a man I considered my best friend. Last month, during the full moon, I wrote him a letter. I then proceed to read and reread that letter all month long, allowing myself to cry each time, releasing all the energy that I invested into us. I also made a recording of myself reading it while Led Zepplin’s “Rain Song” played in the background. Listening to those lyrics over and over again while the power of my words to him echoed my heavy heart has truly helped me process the pain I feel in walking away from our relationship. The spiritual awakening I have experienced while healing from trauma and choosing to be sober all played a role in me deciding the best thing for my life was to move on. I mailed the letter on Valentine’s day after I took myself to see “Licorice Pizza”,the new movie by Paul Thomas Anderson about the impact first love has on us. In many ways, the relationship was a first love experience for me because we shared so many soul connections. Ultimately, once we healed the karma that brought us together, the relationship found its end. Love that is created between two hearts can never be destroyed and has no end. This is for him.
My last post was about how 2022 is the year for love and I believe it is profoundly powerful that I love myself first and foremost. In these first weeks of the year I have learned once again that I can’t seek outside of myself for fulfillment. I am the love of my life. I am worthy and deserving of unconditional love. That love is God’s love and it’s inside of each and everyone of us, given by our creator. Our eternal light and divine essence is what burns brightly awakening the God self piece inside of me! These past seven weeks I have reconnected to this spark more intensely to realize that it’s what makes me feel alive and filled with peace. Nothing is greater.
For now my dear readers, I invite you to dance with my sensitive soul and experience its light, colors and sounds as I process my deep feelings with the help of my spirit guides, created through the poetry I channel. No longer will I ever believe that what I feel is weakness because what I feel, I heal, with unconditional love. I see how strong I am, facing all I experience with no filter and an honest, open heart. I’d love to hear which poem is your favorite and which one speaks loudest to you my dear readers? From my heart to yours, enjoy!
My name is Maria Teresa Pratico-Swanson. I’m a woman walking this journey of life in truth. I am a certified master shaman, specializing in healing trauma, addiction and mental health disorders. As a psychic medium and channel, a rare combination, practicing the art of shamanism has transformed my life. My soul is free and my authentic spirit has awakened. I use my sensibilities as superpowers and the power of love is what fuels my magic as a shamanic healer. Creativity is my soul’s expression, purpose and passion which I express through my healing services, writing poetry, hosting a blog, dancing, painting and practicing yoga. My motto is “Triumphing over Trauma”. In 2011, after a lifetime of trauma I became aware that I needed to reconnect with my soul following a suicide attempt. Healing integrates all aspects of my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual selves. Unraveling conditioning and programming continues to take introspection, patience, grace and most of all LOVE! I’m committed to my practice of healing from the human experience as an awakened soul. I believe I am here to help heal humanity one heart at a time. I offer shamanic healing sessions, both long distance and in person and have written 5 books of poetry available on Amazon. “Emotional Musings”, “My Soul’s Language” ,”My Heart’s Song” ,”My Soul’s Light” and “My Soul’s Journey:Lessons learned through love”
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
Emotional Musings 