Being is freeing, a poetic testimony
Everyday when I tap in and ask Spirit what it is I most need to pay attention to, the reoccurring theme and message I receive is to practice the art of allowing. Finding a balance between the complexities of living as an awakened soul in human form while swimming in this intense cosmic atmosphere requires courage. It was George S. Patton that said, “Courage is fear holding on a minute longer” and so as I move through last week’s full moon and partial lunar eclipse, diving head first into the energetic pressure that breaks and dissolves layers of fear from this third dimensional density, the physical environment on Earth, life reveals the many truths that were hiding under trauma and emotional scars. Being is what’s freeing. Being me and accepting all that is within while letting go of the lies conditioning has fed me.
Remembering the purity of love and the feeling that freedom’s essence gives forces me to drop what doesn’t serve the highest alignment of myself and my true nature. The more I try to hold onto the old and outdated beliefs I’ve been fed, the more pain I create for myself. The truth is I have been covered in a heavy blanket of fear to fit in, assimilate to those around me, shaped by anger’s tones as they maniplated and taught me to betray myself, my soul became suspended in its human vessel. I learned to numb my innate nature that is love, pure and divine. Seeking this love and attention from outside of myself in an external form creates suffering. I believe our culture has become addicted to the lie of suffering and control which causes us to forget the spiritual beings of light we are. Right now we are experiencing bursts of light pouring in that require us to breath more deeply as we dance with the change and newness that our world is in desperate need of. Throw away the old, the “normal” and embrace the unknown. This is a great challenge my dear readers! Welcome New Earth! This month continues to stretch me as I observe an abundance of truths that continue to rise like bubbles to the surface of my consciousness healing deep emotional wounds from the past. The people we choose to have relationships with become our greatest teachers and the lessons we learn give us a closer glimpse into ourselves. I’ve been in observation mode, focusing on healing with the people around me now and the ones with whom I’ve detached from with love. Poetry expresses these growing pains as my Light body grows.
The eleven poems in this post are the emotional musings from these relationships and what I’ve learned. Poetry is how I understand my soul’s journey, it’s expansion and the direction in which it’s heading. “Highest self” is the poem I recite in the shamanic healing sessions I hold with clients to connect our energies and explore what soul has to teach, what is ready to be revealed and what is to come. Alchemizing fear, sadness, anger and shame chords of energy back into love and light so that the soul can continue to rise and tell its truths. This is the adventure of life my dear readers, what sparks aliveness and keeps me ever curious of the connection we all share. The raw life force within us all that continues to heal and amaze me. Observing how we effect one another brings tears of gratitude to my eyes as love overflows.
“Being is freeing” came to me through meditation. Each line is a mantra for the chakras. At the base of the spine lies the root chakra which grounds us into the Earth with love. Two finger widths below the belly button is the sacral chakra, the center of our feelings. Two finger widths above the belly button, at our core is the solar plexus chakra, the center of energy controlling our relationships with both ourselves and others. In the middle of our chest lies the heart chakra, our center for love, a magnet to both give and receive. In our neck is the throat chakra, the energy there allows us to communicate our truth openly and honestly. In the center of the forehead lies the third eye chakra, center of energy where intuition lives, feeding us inner wisdom. At the top of the head is the crown chakra, the center for Divine wisdom, understanding of the Universe and our place in it. Blockages of energy within each chakra create negative chords that inhibit us from expressing ourselves freely and are the root cause of all physical ailments from skin issues, digestive problems and heart conditions. These poems are created by tapping into divine guidance, listening to Spirit as they deliver the truths that flood my system with love and heal the chakra system thus furthering the healing of my soul. May each of these poems create the peace, love and joy that sparks the life force within as you continue to remember the truth of your soul’s journey.
Yesterday I awoke at 4:44. The number four is the most stable number. Almost from prehistoric times, the number four was employed to signify what was solid, what could be touched and felt. Its relationship to the cross (four points) made it an outstanding symbol of wholeness and universality, a symbol which drew all to itself (Source:Google) It is said that repeating 4’s/444 is a spiritual number that signifies the end of one phase of life and the beginning of another. … 444 can also be interpreted as a sign for patience, faith, and peace in your life. The meaning of 444 is usually that you are on the right path. Whatever you are pursuing in life, you are heading in the right direction. (Source:Google)
The synchronicity of 4 continued as I wrote my 444th poem, “Dream a little dream of me”. I’m turning 44 on December 9th. Wherever my path leads, I am at peace. My journey here is that of a storyteller, a time traveler as I connect to my soul in the astral plane through lucid dreams, transcending the physical body and experience astral projection. This is a phenomenon that has been occurring a lot more lately. The more I feel, the more I heal and can connect to these mysterious places within that require nothing more than being, in quiet and stillness.
November 24th will mark one year since my Dad passed over into the spiritual realm thus leaving this physical plane. Upon hearing the news of his passing, most people tell me how sorry they are and my honest response surprises them when I smile and say, please don’t be. My Dad and I are much more connected, our relationship is much more meaningful now than it was when he was here on Earth in human form. He is my top advisor and guide. As a shaman, I have the unique ability to hear souls. My Dad is always reminding me to let go and be free as I hear his voice sing the song of sovereignty through the hawk that flies above. On Halloween, I dressed as Fire, my elemental sign as a Sagittarius. I am passionate, creative and fiery in my presence. I express my love as fire in this world and burn as brightly as I can, dulling my shine for no one. Does fire ask permission to burn? This is my truth.
Lastly, I want to leave you with a meditation I created in August called “Harmonious love”. It serves here as a preview and an introduction to what a healing session with me is like. Each of us holds a piece to the grand movie that is life. We’re all playing a role and experiencing the action together as one just at different levels and speeds. I’m here to reach a hand out to my brothers and sisters in love and in light for guidance and healing.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
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Winter Solstice: Death and Rebirth of the Sun
Yesterday was the beginning of winter and here in the Northern hemisphere, the shortest day of our year. The nights become longer while the days are shorter. The phenomenon of the death and rebirth of the Sun. While here in South Florida, it becomes much more bearable to be outdoors and bask in the Sun’s glorious rays. I’m a Sun worshiper and strongly believe in the tremendous vitality that it provides. Spiritually speaking, showing ourselves to this power daily helps heal the soul. I make the Sun a prescription for my wellbeing every day.
Traveling through my own healing and current death and rebirth cycle, I recognize how much the Universe has stripped from me this year in order to help me grow, heal and further my own soul’s spiritual evolution. I have literally cried my own river of tears in the past six weeks. In the days leading up to yesterday’s events of both the beginning of winter and The Great Conjunction that I wrote about in my last post (https://emotionalmusings.com/2020/12/15/the-tao-of-my-heart/) I have felt so much more peace. A stillness within both heart and soul. When this happens within my being, I can tap into my soul and gain new insights. I spend my days in surrender, allowing and honoring whatever is to be celebrated. Especially the pain. Our society has a real addiction to pain and suffering yet I believe when we can fully recognize and feel our hurts, we heal them and they dissipate so we can incorporate them into the tapestry of who we are.
That’s how I view my soul, as a great and colorful tapestry of my experiences. One of my favorite authors, Mark Nepo writes about this too. The pain we experience, serves to open our heart. This is the fundamental and foundation for processing emotions. I write about this often my dear readers, it bears repeating here, to heal we must feel. So many of us, this humble poet included, spend so much time denying, detaching and attempting to change how we feel instead of simply embracing and accepting what is. Being present to the experience of life. Emotions play a role as energy in motion, our feelings are our body’s way of alerting us to what needs attention within our being. The rush of the world has switched many of us from human beings into humans doing. Our internal response systems become overloaded and thrown out of balance.
One of the reasons why I love the work I do as a shaman is being able to see into the energetic system of others to help remove toxic energy chords. The balance and realignment of our chakras is vital to overall well being. It’s amazing to see the life changes that occur within my client’s lives. The cycle of death and rebirth, the old patterns and habits dying that bring forth the birth of new healthier ones. The ability to pause and question one’s belief system once the physical body feels refreshed from within. All physical ailments begin as spiritual dysfunction, when these adjustments can be made internally the difference is astounding and profound. I check in with my own system on a daily basis to make any necessary adjustments and tweaks.
My writing process is always organic and in the moment. Whenever the words come, I stop what I’m doing and create my poems. These poems came to me both before and after meditation. I’m curious if you my dear ones can guess the order of each creation. Please leave a comment as I would love to open a discussion of my process.
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Visions proclaiming my future path
My dear readers, as I write this my heart is swelling with excitement, gratitude and so much joy! This past week has been one of the most incredible and validating as well as amazing experiences I have ever had! Buckle up as I explain just how my journey has elevated, and brought me to a whole new level in my spiritual journey and awakening. We are multidimensional spiritual beings having a human experience here on Earth. There are layers to this thing called life and boy, did I see it front and center this week play out in real time in my own life. This is going to be a long post so hang with me🙏
I have been communicating openly with my spirit guides now for some time asking them to show me signs that they are in fact real and have my back. My roots are Italian, Puerto Rican and Venezuelan. My father is 100% Italian and our family is from Calabria. We embody the characteristic of Calabrese meaning hard headed, stubborn. I tell you this because I need to have things banged over my head for me to believe them. Just ask my fiance, he gets quite frustrated with me at times over how many times he has to repeat himself for me to understand certain things. Just the other day while in the boutique I manage, I was speaking out loud and asked, “hey spirits are you here with me”? Some time passed and then all of a sudden a HoneyBun dropped off the shelf from a place that had a secure lip, there was no way this thing could of fallen unless it was knocked off there. Needless to say, this week my spirit guides showed up 4 times in major ways 4 days in a row!
All of my visions so far have happened outside, in nature, in my backyard. To date there have been 7 separate ones. Thursday’s vision started much like the last one. I’m watching the sky and all of a sudden hundreds of twinkling white lights come floating down from the sky. Some of them get so close almost touching my face! The feeling that I immediately get is like a giant warm hug from the Universe. Tears fall from my face like a waterfall. It’s awe inspiring and beautiful and I can’t pull my eyes away. But this vision is just the tip of the iceberg because Friday’s vision blew me away!
I must tell you my dear readers that I have incorporated an app on my phone called SoundHeal into my daily meditation practice and I love it! There are eleven Solfeggio (an ancient 6 tone scale)different frequency settings that help influence healing on the following topics:
174 Hertz reduces pain both emotional and physical
285 Hertz influences energy fields and skincare
295.8 Hertz aids improves metabolism by dissolving fat cells and helping you lose weight
396 Hertz helps in reducing guilt and fear balancing the root chakra
417 Hertz facilitates change in our energy field reducing negativity and balancing the sacral chakra
432 Hertz influences cosmic healing since it is the vibrational frequency of everything in nature, a source of overall health and well being
528 Hertz aids in DNA regeneration by boosting self confidence and is said to be the miracle tone that balances the solar plexus chakra
639 Hertz influences our spiritual connection by opening our heart chakra, aiding with problems in love and relationships
741 Hertz aids in expression and solution by balancing our throat chakra, cleansing cells and detoxification of the body so we can be more connected and lead a more spiritual life
852 Hertz unifies the spiritual order of everything by connecting us to our third eye chakra or our logical mind, intuition to receive more messages from the past or future
963 Hertz awakens and balances us and is said to help reach a state of Nirvana and oneness by putting us into a perfect state to connect and balance our crown chakra which helps us to understand everything around us, raising our own Kundalini, the energy of consciousness
In addition to these tones that help balance the mind, body and spirit placing us in perfect harmony are imedded sounds of nature including AUM (OM chanting), beach, fire,river,rain,wind,thunder,birds and singing bowl.
I mix them all up depending on how I’m feeling and what I want to tweak. Mostly I stick to cosmic healing adding AUM, rain and singing bowl. Lately too I have been adding in birds because I find their tweets and calls very calming and peaceful. It is suggested to listen daily for at least 3 to 7 minutes to observe changes and I don’t do more than 15 at a sitting. After I’m finished, a friend of mine suggested that I go out into nature and put my back against something solid like a rock or tree to ground the tones into my body.
If you understand that our entire world is made up of energy you can see how tuning your body to different frequencies helps it heal. I recently watched the entire first season of “The Goop Lab with Gwyneth Paltrow” on Netflix. Since 2008, her company Goop has been exploring alternative and holistic treatments to enhance and extend life in healthy ways. There are two episodes that I found fascinating and really enjoyed because they are based on energy field body work and psychic abilities. I highly recommend watching, “The energy experience” and “Are you Intuit”. I would love to discuss these topics with you my dear readers so please feel free to leave your comments below⬇️
Onto Friday….Friday was the first day I was able to try this new grounding technique because our weather had finally cleared up from rain to sunshine and I believe this tip changed the game for me! There are benches made of cement in my backyard so I wrapped my wolf howling at the moon blanket around me (my Mom bought it for my oldest son and he gave it to me because it is quite small for him) which I now refer to as my vision cloak, and laid upon the bench. At first just my spirit guides appeared, floating around me dancing in the air. Then I turned my gaze towards the sun and OMG I saw dark shadows that morphed into a bird like creature, they switched positions around the sun creating a propeller type of motion. Then that vanished and an eruption like a volcano came shooting out of the sun forming a heart in deep purple colors that then turned to bright white beams and flashes. I felt my mouth hang open as I couldn’t take my eyes off of the Sun. Finally after an hour of being out there just staring I walked back into my apartment. I quickly did a Google search on visions out of the Sun and this is what I learned.
According to ancient Indian medicine, there are these vein like threads called Nadis that carry Prana or life force energy throughout our bodies and connect directly to our chakras. Nadis weave through these channels or pathways to our physical nerves as well as the circuitry of the mind, of self and our consciousness matrix that supports our physical presence from invisible dimensions of existence. I learned that the Sun-solar energy is distinctly male energy while our Moon-lunar energy is female. So, Sushumna (chakra system)which is the central channel of energy in the human body that runs from the base of our spine to the crown of our head carrying Kundalini energy can only flow freely once Ida and Pingala Nadis are balanced and clear creating an increase in spiritual growth thus shifting my being from my mind’s thinking to my heart…to me this means I have now entered into a state of love and abundance leaving my thinking or fear based mind behind.
This combination of placing my chakra crystals upon my chakra points while using the sound healing tones have awakened these areas of my body thus raising my self awareness and helping me reach a higher level of consciousness, like another spiritual awakening. This makes two major shifts and elevations in my journey in just eight months! I have now leveled up! I have done the work and continue to stick to my rituals and practices. Now I’m reaping the rewards!
I also learned that gazing at the sun is called fractal enlightenment and stimulates the pineal gland. Using the sun’s energy I have charged my hypothalamus tract through my eyes which is the pathway to the rear of the retina leading to my brain. This practice also powers my brain by boosting serotonin and melatonin levels which are the happy hormones, relieves stress and tension, activates my third eye so that I can perceive higher dimensions, increases my energy levels, has been proved to actually increase the size of the pineal gland, reduces hunger pangs since body is being essentially nourished by the sun, improves eyesight and finally opens these Nadis energy channels!!
On Saturday I did the same thing as Friday morning. This time, as I gazed lovingly into the Sun all of a sudden I saw these weird geometric shapes with roses and flowers attached to them. I began to cry, sob really as I took a mental photograph of this vision. I attended a free yoga class at a new studio here in Dallas called NAMA fitness, which I highly reccomend. Before my class I was chatting with the instructor from the previous class and she was discussing the discomfort she was experiencing from her new tattoo that she had just gotten on the inside of her arm. Our chat sparked my curiosity so I asked to see it. Low and behold, it was those same geometric shapes and flowers that I saw not an hour earlier!! Holy crap my dear readers, this revelation floored me😯
Sunday was an overcast day for us here in Dallas when I ventured back to the bench. I lay there for a few minutes before getting called to sit on a large log behind our greenhouse. I turned my head to the right and was immediately struck by a cloud formation that quickly morphed into an angel, then a butterfly and finally a huge shamrock. I spoke aloud without hesitation and said, “Hi Nana”!! I have written here before about how my dear Nana, my mother’s mother is my guardian angel. She passed away almost fifteen years ago on St. Patrick’s Day. She has always appeared to me as a butterfly whenever I need a bit of cheering up. Without fail, I will ask for her and sure enough every single time, even when I’m not in a garden setting or a place where it’s common to see a butterfly, there she is within arms reach. She has even appeared when I have been out walking with my fiance and landed upon his arm for a bit. I remember saying to him that Nana wanted to meet you and say hello.
Sunday afternoon I attended my first ballet class in over ten years. It was glorious and terrifying, challenging and triggering all at the same time. There were times within that hour and a half class that I wanted to run out the door but little inner child Maria, the one who was pushing me to get back into the dance studio to begin with, refused to quit and walk out. It was invigorating and gave me such a sense of accomplishment when it was over. I floated out of class on the same clouds that I saw Nana emerge from. I treated myself to a coffee and did a bit of grocery shopping before I called a Lyft to take me home.
When I got into my car, the driver asked how my day was and then asked if I knew what was going on. I was immediately struck with a pang of fear and I said that I didn’t. I make it a point to not look at my phone when I’m on these excursions with myself so that I can stay in and enjoy the moment. He broke the news that Kobe Bryant was just killed in a helicopter accident along with eight other people including his 13 year old daughter. Immediately, my mind went to my vision on Saturday of the bird, propeller type shadows with the heart shaped volcano explosion. My heart sank and I started to cry as I realized how absolutely tragic and sad this news is while also realizing these visions are premonitions of future events.
I must tell you dear readers that I have always been very intuitive but lately my intuition has been extremely active and on point! I gave advice to a friend of mine, a fellow empath, over a social media message the other day and she admitted that what I said was verbatim the exact same message she received from a medium she sees! I predicted my son’s day at work for him recently. He was injured and I told him the kind of day he could expect. Later that day he was so shocked when he told me that my predictions were 100% correct. He then asked me if I am a wizard!! Aren’t all mothers anyways 🤣
Lastly dear readers I want to leave you with where I believe all of these visions and heightened states of awareness are bringing me and why. I recently watched a webinar on Shamanic healing and my dear friend, Lindsey Luna aka @soul.healing.with.luna on Instagram is one. She is also a Reiki master. She is willing to let me start an apprenticeship under her as she teaches and guides me into learning how to become a Shamanic healer!! Since watching the webinar, I have been consulting with my guides and it’s been confirmed that this is where my path is bringing me. In the future, I want to do both writing and healing full time. It’s my calling. My purpose. It is why I have survived all the trauma that threatened to kill me at many stages throughout my life. I now live to heal others through my testimony and my gifts. The amount of gratitude that is pouring out from my heart as I write this is bringing tears to my eyes. My soul’s purpose has been revealed and I’m more than ready to answer the call. Lead the way spirit as I trust the Universe to always have my back. This self healing life is abundantly beautiful.
In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below.