personal development, relationships, Spirituality

2023’s free fall into faith

Walking in faith. Taking a leap of faith. These are the whispered intentions and reminders I have received from Spirit over the second half of this year. 2022 began with a belief that love would bloom in my life. The love that I have procured within myself over the past ten years on the healing journey I began when I decided to divorce my husband, get sober and uncover my purpose has begun to blossom new connections that show me how much I’ve grown. In this new year 2023, my intentions are to renew my trust in faith. A greater understanding of my soul purpose and the power that love has to heal all wounds.

The word faith means to have a complete trust in someone or something. The meaning I hold in my heart is the understanding of my own spiritual awakening, a continuous climb towards a higher consciousness as the relationship with my higher power grows. I choose to refer to this being as God, the creator of our universe and master of all living things. I firmly and unequivocally believe that God has helped me through all the trials in my life and is the teacher of my soul’s lessons. I believe that’s what the human experience is all about, why we come here and claim a body. It is our vehicle in which to learn the lessons our soul requires for ascension. In this lifetime alone, I believe I have healed through more than in eight lifetimes. The messages I receive and channel into the poetry I compose through my spirit guides helps me to further integrate trust and faith in the mysterious and divine timing of the holiest of beings, God.

This year, I intend to deepen my devotion and practice with my whole heart following the ways in which my ancestors have taught me how to feel closest to God. My word for 2023 is faith. Practicing shamanic rituals using crystals, herbs, oils and music is my favorite way of both honoring the spiritual team that supports me and sending prayers to them. Writing out intentions to be burned in moon ceremonies is something I practice for both the new moon and full moon each month. Everyday I kneel in front of my altar and pray for God to continue to mold me, to show me the way I can best be of use as a humble servant to the Light. I pray that I may share the light I carry with others in a gentle and compassionate way focusing on the peace, love and joy in my heart. I surrender to the ways that no longer serve me while lighting candles to deepen the intentions I set. I move energy by toning and chanting to stay balanced and grounded. Engaging in these rituals daily help to keep my vibration high and my spirit clean.

Writing poetry is how I process the world around me and articulate the nuances of energetic exchanges and experiences. Since my last post I have decided to end two relationships that meant a great deal to me. One I started over the summer and the other lasted for over twenty years. In both instances, I realized how much I have changed and healed through. I no longer intend to engage with people who don’t know their own power and have become an energetic drain on mine. The desire to be someone others need me to be for their acceptance of me is no longer an agreement I’m willing to make. Being able to clearly see my own value, I refuse to be treated harshly by others who don’t know their own worth. It’s ok to say goodbye to the older versions of myself that they were comfortable with because I know what I deserve and what I am worthy of. My time and energy are precious and I’m no longer interested in putting energy into people who aren’t an energetic match for me. This decision was not made quickly or in a reactionary way. I am choosing to take what I’ve learned and detach with love in a similar way I moved away from the toxic relationship with my mother two years ago. By doing this, I open myself up to new people and experiences that better serve my current frequency. People who serve my soul. I say no thank you to surface relationships. I’m looking for equality and a mutual understanding as we look one another in the eye. I offer an open mind and heart, a non judgemental attitude full of unconditional love. The days of me accepting less than this are officially over.

Recognizing all the growth I have experienced, the wisdom gained and tears shed. Full circle moments as I celebrated my 45th year last month, the end of an era of healing, 2012-2022. I walked the property of my best friend and the sacred land she now calls home. As I did, I gave the past versions of me the honor of release, back into Mother Earth. There is a tree growing between two rocks that she pointed out as me, a reflection of my journey. I will take with me the beauty of our time together. The gift of presence with my dear friend and my son. I pass the torch on to the next traveler of soul as I enter the next phase of my life. May 2023 show me more of my own truth as I further claim my power, my gifts and practice my soul’s purpose. I’m here to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing.

My journey of healing as represented in nature

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

2022 is the year for Love

Welcome dear readers to 2022 which holds a divine number of 6 symbolizing harmony. Listening intently to my heart and continously compelled by soul, every year I choose a word to focus on and manifest all my intentions from. This word becomes the theme I am to expand upon. In 2020 it was fearlessness and for 2021 it was freedom. I saw many big shifts based on both words in my life. This year for 2022 my focus is love. Recently, I have been reflecting upon how very far I have come along on this journey which has awakened my soul, it’s heart truths and so much divine wisdom that is shared with me by Spirit. I use Spirit to encompass the many spirits I receive messages and guidance from since asking for their assistance in June of 2019. To be specific, I will name them here. Many of the archangels including Gabriel, Michael, Raphael and Haniel. My ancestral lineage, ascended masters, Gods and Goddesses, elemental and directional energies, spirit guides and animals and other high vibrational beings of light. After lots of time spent in meditation, being outside in nature and journaling during last year, I believe I am ready and deserving of my soul’s true partner. Here’s to receiving this love in 2022!

Diving deeper into my soul by slowing down is my first intention. This is the first winter season I’ve experienced in eight years my dear readers and the colder temperatures are inviting me to stay indoors and be still. Allowing myself the rest I need to rejuvenate after all the moving around and stretching that 2021 provided my being. In order to integrate and expand into all the energy that the higher frequencies are bringing in, I will begin this year by taking a much needed break from social media. Being mindful of what I consume in all areas of life is very crucial to the healing process. The more I awaken to my heart truths, the more sensitive I become to energy’s vibrations and other people. Winter invites us to curl up with ourselves, to go within and listen. Reading is one of my favorite things to do. I’m grateful to have received a couple of books over Christmas that I’m looking forward to getting under my blankets with. I was gifted a star light projector that creates the night sky on my ceiling. I’m totally loving the magical scenery dancing before me in the comfort of my own space. Add in some candles and crystals to complete the scene for maximum relaxation.

I’m taking this opportunity to rest and practice self care. I will also get to work on creating the manuscript for my sixth book of poetry to be called, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while Embracing the Light: Poems about death and rebirth” Yes indeed it’s a long title, with over 130 poems written throughout all of the cycles 2021 brought me through. My first full year as a practicing shaman.

I’m always intrigued by the mysteries painted in the night sky. In the beginning of my awakening process, that’s how the Universe sent me messages.This poem expresses how I feel about the healing powers of star gazing and moon watching.

Living in the southern temperatures for so long, I was used to getting fed by the Sun. I’ve written before about how my friends refer to me as the Sun because of my big bright energy, smile and personality. We all have a Sun inside of us as Rumi says. I wear a necklace that has the tarot card of the Sun because I like the reminder over my heart. The space that beats in rhythm to love’s purity.

Indeed there is

Waking from the dream, seeing and feeling the truth which is love smashes the lie of separation. We are all intricately connected and are beginning to attune to this frequency all over the planet. I can see it more clearly in the interactions I have with people at the farmers market I work at part time. People are remembering that love is the only truth and it’s exciting to see the connectedness between us through our conversations. Before I leave my home, I always align myself through meditation and breath, in order to lead from my heart. When the mind attempts to take over however, that’s when I know I need more self care and mindfulness practice. Becoming the observer to the mind’s thoughts puts me in alignment with all the pieces of me so I can present my wholeness, my truth and lead from soul.

Today I was invited on a hike through the snow up a canyon. We saw lots of bucks, horses, turkeys, donkeys and lamas too! I feel so alive in nature and really enjoy listening to it’s messages while taking in the clues to this grand mystery of life through it’s cues. Nature brings me peace, relaxes and feeds my senses. God is everywhere and in everything we see. Reflecting our own light in us is what being out in nature reminds us of. All the beauty we are given here on Earth. That’s its purpose and we are here to protect and balance it by balancing ourselves in it. What a gorgeous cycle it is!

The mantra I’m continuously practicing is this my dear readers: I acknowledge and am aware that love is the truth, I surrender to thoughts that attempt to tell me otherwise (rejecting fear), I release the energy that doesn’t serve by allowing love to flood my being which keeps me free so I can let go of expectations and attachments, embracing the present, arriving at acceptance to all that is. The I AM, we all are. Love. There is no failing in life my dear readers. We keep trying, everyday is another opportunity to forgive ourselves and others through grace and compassion. Life here on Earth brings us through experiences that remind us of the truth. Sparking the remembrance that we are love, infinite and eternal. That is the only truth, everything else is an illusion.

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Spirituality

Soul Medicine, a collection of poetry

My dear readers, I’m so grateful to have met so many wonderful writers on this platform. One in particular has illuminated a soul reflection that runs deep within my being. Ace of https://fearlessfreesoul.com and I connected organically because of our similar writing styles and the way we view the world. Leading with our hearts, full of love and rejecting fear, our souls dance a duet that has been born in the cosmos and aligned divinely in this life at this moment. Thank you so much Ace for being a brilliant example of authenticity, pure love and light. Your divine essence shines through your words. It’s an honor to call you my sister and my friend.

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

relationships, Spirituality

June is in bloom

June 2021 has arrived my dear readers and after this first full week I’m in love with a renewed sense of peace. Since publishing my latest book, “My Soul’s Journey: Lessons learned through love, I feel like I’ve unfurled more petals of the flower that symbolizes this love that is intuitively expressed through soul. In my last post I wrote that the more I heal, the more I reveal. This power is coursing through my veins portraying the truth found within the superpower of love.

Ah, peace….at this present moment I am enjoying the birds singing in the trees, the breeze off the lake and the bright sun shining upon my face. A few days ago while on a run, I spotted a wild parrot. Parrots in spirituality evoke a freshness as they spread their wings into your life delivering new ideas and signals that indicate a new direction for your work, relationships, or spiritual  pursuits.  Seeing them often, is nature’s way of sending omens and signs that come repeatedly. This meaning is alive in all three areas of my life! This morning I saw another one sitting on a tall branch of a tree as I ran under it for shade from the early morning sun. It’s bright green feathers stand out against the leaves while it’s yellow head brings a smile to my face. Looking at a parrot makes me happy because they are so naturally beautiful. I didn’t even stop to take a picture, instead choosing to capture it’s presence in my heart.

Electric light flower blossom

Back in March I shared some hard truths about my personal relationship with my partner. Since that time, I’m happy to say we have reconnected. Our bond has lasted eight years and has survived many challenging times that would break most couples for good. However, as a testament to both of our spirits and deep commitment to one another, we have learned through the tough times how to triumph and heal, choosing love every time. I believe we have taken this past year and our physical separation as a time to focus on our own individual needs which has allowed us to see how much we truly love one another. Patiently we planned on reuniting and I’m so thrilled that he has finally moved here to stay with my Mom and I here in Southern Florida. The past two days have ushered in a tremendous amount of gratitude, relief and joy! Being with my best friend again has my heart singing in the key of unconditional love. He is my muse and I dedicate all the poems I write about love to him, most especially this one.

Let love lead

This week I’m celebrating the two year anniversary of my spiritual awakening and soul healing by taking a much deserved break from my usual routines to spend time with the love of my life. Too often we rush through life’s milestones and goals, charging forwards into the next phase without taking time to recognize how far we have come. Well my dear readers, not this time! I’m honoring our love reunion by relaxing with one another. To be a human being rather than a human doing, which is a choice in conscious presence. Whatever life holds for us on this new adventure together and wherever the wind shall take us, I’m accepting it! May we each decide to allow the peace, joy and love that life has to offer us, open our hearts further to the beauty and magic that surrounds us. I invite you to unfurl your soul’s petals and rediscover life’s blessings in new ways this month. June is indeed in bloom and I’m in love all over again!

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Spirituality

My Soul’s Journey, Part 1

My dear readers, I have commenced building the manuscript for my fifth book of poetry entitled “My Soul’s Journey”. I’m dedicating this one to my Dad since all of the 87 poems were written after his death and honor the number of years he spent on the Earth in physical form. The number five symbolizes change and while writing this book I have embarked upon the most amazing change and chapter of my own journey! Healing both myself and others through the art of shamanism allows everything I have intuitively known and felt fall into place. My life now after 43 years, finally makes sense! The number forty-three symbolizes success in all areas of life, the kind achieved through hard work, strong will and patience that comes with a great understanding, knowledge and nobility. Life presents us many opportunities to learn and elevate our soul through each moment to see how ALL of it serves for our highest good and greatest healing.This is my time and I am here to claim every ounce of joy, inner peace and tremendous love for life!

This month I have been focusing on my Sacral chakra, healing old wounds left by emotional upheaval and past trauma. Recently I found myself triggered by an assignment for the course in sound healing I was taking. It helped me to realize that I was attempting once again to prove something, validate my worth and feel good enough. After tapping into my intuition and coming to terms with the intention for seeking the certification in the first place, I had an ah-ha moment realizing that continuing with the course was not going to serve my best interest. This was a life lesson shining light upon an mindset that no longer fits who I am today and what I believe. This is an old tape playing an offbeat tune. Hitting eject, I asked myself why was I taking the course in the first place? What was this course going to add to my life?

Celebration of the colors and functions of the chakra system

There are a few factors that contributed to my final decision. My own attention to focus in and stay engaged with an online course for sound was a major challenge because I found the platform itself to be boring. Mainly however it was what the instructor said to me when I told him his course wasn’t for me that proved to me I had made the right decision. He accused me of not being able to provide a therapeutic environment because of my own emotional instability after the assignment was questioned. Whether it was a communication breakdown or misunderstanding, what became apparently clear to me was that questioning his assumed authority triggered his own ego and displayed a character defect that resulted in a judgement of a student. Has no one dropped his course before or not wanted to continue? That’s not how I operate as a teacher. I conduct myself as a guide for each of my student’s journey while learning the art of shamanism. Holistic healing is an intuitive art, whether in sound, art, energy, or crystals etc. It shouldn’t be based on financial gain. My intention is each individuals highest good and healing for their unique journey. It became completely clear we weren’t on the same page and that’s OK. Not everybody is my flavor nor I their cup of tea. Honestly, I felt right away from watching his videos that I couldn’t learn from him. My first thought was to react to his opinion of me and then my higher self, my soul whom I call Serena, stepped forward and reminded me I don’t need to prove my journey to anyone. I’m no longer interested in approval or acceptance from others. Doubting my own gifts is an old mindset pattern and no certification is necessary for me to do what I intuitively do in shamanic sessions. Sound healing is already a part of what I do naturally. I am determined to find another resource for knowledge of what I want to learn. I wrote a reactionary email and then just as quick as I wrote it, deleted it. Moving on.

What became crystal clear is that for all of my life, I wasn’t the one accepting me. I was doubting my own worth, gifts and power which blocked trust, acceptance and love of myself. I blindly believed the opinions and judgments of others. Awakening has created radical shifts that allow me to question what truly is best for me while healing and recognizing my authentic voice over these past two years. This is an ongoing cycle of integration as I forgive, surrender, release and accept, finally I’m celebrating all the pieces of me! I tell my clients that “we can’t outsource love, we must each fill our own cup of happiness, inner peace and love”. My own words rang like a bell in my head!

Locked in and loving myself

Living as an open psychic channel for Spirit has created gaps in my life where I felt completely lost for many years. Self medicating through addiction to substances and maladaptive coping behaviors further distanced my soul from my being. It felt like I was on a permanent vacation from life, muted and numb. Existing behind a wall of my own creation. I was an award winning actress at what I thought “normal” looked like and that was the mask I wore for thirty-five years. These t-shirts suit me to a T. This poem sums it all up beautifully.

Dressed by soul

Nowadays I lean into what allows me to feel free and happy. I express this best through movement, dance, yoga, painting and of course my writing. Here are my latest video shorts to the song “Happy” by Pharrell Williams. I dare you not to smile!

Jazz Happy
Tap Happy

The final thought on this is that this emotional experience has taught me that no one but me needs to accept me! There’s no more hiding, trying to be someone else or denying the rainbow unicorn I am. My purpose is to shine love and light through my soul. Today I feel happy knowing this in my heart. I hope I made you smile!

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings
paypal.me/tinyd9

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.