Healing, Spirituality

Many paths lead to healing: This is what mine looks and feels like

There are many paths one can take to improved wellness and inner growth. I have based this entire blog on my own experiences of feeling and healing. My dear soul sister and fellow blogger https://erikakind.me/ created and shared this picture of my mantra “Feeling is Healing”, which deeply touches my heart because I believe our own feelings are the medicine we need to grow and expand into the powerfully magical beings we all are! In this post I hope by seeing what my process is you feel whatever comes through as your own opportunity and invitation to healing.

Today I woke up to Sheryl Crow’s song lyrics to “Everyday is a Winding Road” running through my mind like one of those advertisement banners with the flashing lights.

“Everyday is a winding road
I get a little bit closer
Everyday is a faded sign
I get a little bit closer to feeling fine”

We are the medicine

Spring is rapidly approaching and with it an energy of rebirth. In order to be reborn, parts of us need to fall away and die, change marches on, as goes the healing process. I feel a big shift is about to unfold within my life that could potentially effect a relationship most precious and dear to me. Heavy energy stemming from this loss arose this week and I faced it with patience and grace. I turned on a song that always helps me to feel these deeper emotions. Afterwards, I allowed the tears to flow, the anger to emerge and finally I felt more space and freedom. My dear readers, I implore you to allow your humanness to feel whatever YOU need to heal without judgment. Sending love throughout your vessel.

“This Women’s Work” by Kate Bush
Allowing what I feel to flow through, without judgements. Only love ❤

As my world opens up wider, further feeling the heartbeat of the Universe and my place within it, so many feelings come pouring freely out of me. From the depths of my soul through the ink in my pen, I could fill an entire notebook with the messages my guides send!

I see you my sisters and brothers, I feel you and I love you ❤

Two weeks ago I was honored to be interviewed by a fellow female artist whom I met through Instagram for her podcast, “Middle Finger Happiness”. Sharon Lee Zapata and I share a lot of the same attitudes on creativity and making the most out of what life gives us. Most especially without judgements from others aka putting up our middle fingers and carrying on no matter what! Here’s the link to our episode that was co-hosted with another creative soul, Leo Phoenix. The three of us enjoyed a fun, high vibe and very spirited chat. Shout out to my fellow artists whose journey’s continue to express their gifts through all the creative outlets of art, music and dance! May we keep rising after we stumble and using our talents to share love with others.

Truth in seeing by creating more space for the juices of inspiration to flow

Every night the app I use to create my poems, Mirakee, offers a word prompt challenge. If my soul connects to it, I tap in and write. This week I channeled a lot of what I was feeling through these nightly writing opportunities.

The prompt was “Sun” and everyone loves the Summer Sun ☀️
The prompt was to describe what success and failure mean to me, here are my musings
The prompt was to start a journal entry using the word If

I believe this message was channeled through from my Dad. Since he has passed over, I have felt him anchoring me from the Spirit realm. He is always lifting me up to face whatever challenge I’m facing. I’m incredibly humbled and honored that Mirakee named it the “post of the day” today. I write often my dear ones how my soul’s purpose as a writer and healer is to be a conduit for Spirit, to help inspire others to live their truth. May these words touch your heart and awaken your soul to be who you came here to be! I see you, I feel you and I love you all. Thank you for bearing witness to my art and expressions which is my path to healing by following and connecting with me in the comments. If this resonates with you I invite you to leave me a comment or contact me through email.

Grateful ❤

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Mental health, personal development, Spirituality

Deepening my connection with amazing grace

This past week has been very enlightening my dear readers. The closer I get with my highest self, dancing with soul, the more patience and grace I have within my being. Ahhhh, it’s a challenge to slow down and drink it all in my friends, living in our fast paced, instant gratification world. Sticking with something, practicing the art of connection takes commitment. It’s a promise I make to myself everyday, to listen more closely to what God intends for me, strengthening my faith, trusting more and always loving myself and others.

So often we set goals for ourselves and once we reach them, neglect celebrating our own hard work and accomplishments. It’s onto the next and full steam ahead! Today marks one full year since the last time I “clocked in” at job and became my own boss full time. The pandemic set the stage for such a choice and created endless amounts of time for me to pursue my purpose. Today I want to celebrate the promise I made to myself to keep investigating my soul every day, deepening my relationship with God and His Spirit guides (my mentors) as well as the beautiful human beings that have come into my life this past year. I have learned more than I can express and my heart is full of gratitude and compassion for these people. Thank you for seeing me, helping me to see myself and holding a special place in my heart forever!

“Look Closer”

Spring is upon us my dear readers and with it an opportunity for renewal. Everyday, I renew the commitment to my healing by asking to be shown more of my truth through meditation. Most of my poems are born through this experience as I compose the songs of my soul, the words become the notes that comprise the music within. These are my latest expressions. “Meditation on self” is a root chakra balancing meditation that is grounded in love.

I wrote “The toll” after watching the movie “The Trial of the Chicago 7,” feeling very moved by the revolutionary actions of the men depicted in the film to stand up for what is right in our country. We can see these issues still play a big part in continuing to fight for justice for all in our country still today.

“True Love” and “Love is strong ” are born from my thoughts on the book “All About Love” by Bell Hooks. Her words have left a big impression on my heart. I understand in a deeper way what love is in my own partnership and how sacred a relationship it has been for over seven years. I believe we are all here to learn and grow from one another by remaining open and willing to see one another in each other, pushing one another to be best version of ourselves for the greater good. The common thread of humanity runs deeply within all of our DNA and I have learned to respect others for our similarities while recognizing our differences. To love unconditionally is a practice. I may not like and agree with others all the time but I strive to find a balance, with loving compassion and grace that helps me to listen to others and look more closely within myself to accept those differences should I start to judge. Only God has that job my friends. This is the basis of shadow work, intentional investigating and integration is an ongoing practice of all the pieces that make up who we are. Arriving at a wholeness of mind, body and spirit.

It is also a daily practice of non judgment and acceptance for what is to live in harmony with myself and all that surrounds me. I believe we are all interconnected, holding a part of each other and everything within our entire Universe lives inside every creation on Earth and beyond. I celebrate the love I feel for the sky, the birds, the rocks and the water, seeing all of it inside my own soul. Deepening the connection, celebrating life and feeling an amazing grace inside my heart.

I leave you with a video of me dancing which is how I feel most alive and express my soul! I invite each one of you my dear ones to express your passion and share it with the world. Love one another and grow in harmonious healing!

“Sweet Lullaby” by Deep Forest

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Spirituality

Vibing with my deep soul

“To vibe” with something, by definition, a distinctive feeling or quality capable of being sensed. My dear readers, I relate deeply with my soul. The depths of which I commune with myself and with Spirit are spectacularly awe inspiring and beautiful. The journey of my soul, the information that is revealed as I continue to investigate and heal astounds me. Remaining grateful for the peaks and valleys I travel through, understanding that whatever I encounter serves my highest good as I accept myself more fully with each passing day is a blessing. This is what “Triumphing over Trauma” looks like and certainly feels like!

Last week I experienced my first float therapy session. Immediately afterwards I was reminded of how fresh and clean my energetic field had become, relative to the sweat lodge ceremony with my mentor after being anointed a shaman in September. Since that time, I have learned and progressed quite a bit while practicing and living this path. The sacred dance with Spirit is very special to me and I am eternally grateful for the pearls of wisdom I gather along the way. I feel refreshed, restored, rejuvenated and redeemed! I highly recommend it. It was wonderfully peaceful, like heaven on Earth. These poems were birthed from this mindset. As I continue to discover more truth about myself, the deeper I dwell, which is where I feel most comfortable and at home.

Deep thoughts +deep feelings =deep soul expression

I recorded this video yesterday to give you all a taste of what it’s like in a shamanic healing session with me. These are the mantras I begin with to connect to a client’s energy field and highest self. This is an art and my soul incorporates the healing qualities and vibrations of poetry, music and singing into each session. Along with sacred tools like crystals, herbs,oils and tarot cards, I’m able to see people’s souls and help reconnect them with their authentic spirit guided by my own Spirit mentors and guides. It’s an honor and privilege to see others in this way and assist in the healing process that has profoundly healed and changed my life so completely. I’m always available to answer any questions or inquiries you may have my dear ones. Please reach out in either the comments here or through my contact page and on all social media platforms, excluding Facebook @ladysag77

Healing mantras
Enjoy the adventure

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Healing, Mental health, Spirituality

The pursuit of happiness

There are so many analogies that come to mind when I think of the phrase, “the pursuit of happiness”. Our culture breeds this idea that it’s a thing to find that we somehow lost, an item to buy, a type of thing to possess that is outside of ourselves or that another person will be the magic ingredient to solve all of our worries and problems. I believe through the consumerism and entertainment culture we have screaming at us 24/7 that we’re programmed to believe we aren’t happy. What does it mean to be happy?

My dear readers, I believe happiness is 100% an inside job and the truth is that we aren’t going to feel perpetual happiness 100% of the time. Being human means that we have a wide array of feelings and emotions that alert us to what our body needs in each moment. Attending to each is sometimes a challenge, especially in our fast paced society yet taking the time to truly do so has amazing and priceless benefits.

We are coming up on a year since the beginning of the pandemic that changed our entire world. I’m incredibly grateful for the extended time and opportunity to work on myself and heal. Feeling is so very healing yet we must allow ourselves to truly feel all of it, the complete human experience doesn’t come with just the good vibes my dears. Since my Dad has passed and I have been separated from my partner, I am realizing more and more how precious we are to one another. My partner serves as the most clear of mirrors and our connection allows me to see myself fully. Lately, some hard truths rose to the surface that my ego needed to hear but didn’t enjoy hearing. I’ve changed every aspect of my life for the betterment of my own soul. Awesome for me yet he admitted to not knowing who I am anymore, that he needs to get to know and fall in love with me again. I must allow him time and space in which to do this. We are each others one true love and through acceptance of one another, I believe our love will get us through.

Life is like a freshly squeezed glass of orange juice with the juiciest bits all mixed in, not merely on top but sprinkled in throughout. We must dig deep at times to feel the most of what life is teaching us. Using the juice analogy, each container tells us to shake before we pour so we get the best of its offering into each glass. Life shakes us up repeatedly and at times it’s easy to feel all mixed up. The truth is happiness is always available should we choose to feel it. However it’s perfectly normal to not feel happy all the damn time!! Being…..just being, tapping into my skills of observation allows me to investigate all of my feelings through all of my senses. For a women who feels deeply and is acutely sensitive this can be extremely challenging. I sometimes wish I had an off switch and could just feel and process me, not everyone else around me. As an open psychic channel, my soul asked to be reincarnated this way yet it’s hard explaining this fact to others unless they have experience with it.

From the inception of this blog, Emotional Musings has served as a testimony to what life is like for me in recovery from life long dissociation and trauma. I’m an empath, an open psychic channel, a trauma survivor, a suicide survivor, a divorced mother diagnosed with CPTSD who searched for answers to find peace and healing to discover that all of my sensibilities allow me to follow my soul’s purpose and path to becoming a master shaman. God set me with all the sense settings on high and He gifted me with being able to write poems that can articulate the abundance of feelings I feel all the time.

These are my latest lessons in life that are expressed through poetry. This last full moon was a big one for me in terms of looking within the shadows to release what no longer was serving me. Healing hurts my dears and this past week I have felt every feeling and emotion there is. I’m exhausted, elated, sad, grateful and yes, happy. I’m happy to be alive and experience all of life in the skin I’m in! Tomorrow I am going to experience float therapy which I have read rave reviews about. I already know that this therapeutic experience will rejuvenate and refresh my spirit returning me to a place of balance and harmony.

Thank you so much @myjourney_sda for allowing me to share my testimony of survival to “Triumphing over Trauma”. We are all in this together, sharing our journey, challenges and gifts. We rise as one. Much love to you all ❤

Stay true to YOU
“Love is the Medicine”

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
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Consciousness, Healing, Spirituality

To shine or not to shine

Ah my dear readers, this world can certainly swallow you up if you’re not mindful. Each of us has a tremendous power inside, a light that is burning brightly, yearning to shine and be shared with others. We experience this when we strike up a conversation with a stranger, smile at a child and hold a door for someone to walk through with ease. It’s in opening these doors, along with our minds and hearts that connect us to one another. Humans were made for community, we need one another.

Lately, as the intuitive and sensitive person I am, I have been feeling a lot of the trauma and pain of others rising to the surface. It’s a great time for healing, forgiveness and for the betterment of humanity as a whole. A coming together, leaving the past behind and focusing on building a brighter tomorrow with love. Love is the greatest and most powerful untapped superpower there is. Please look inside of yourselves my dear ones and heal that love that is waiting to flow throughout your being. Practicing this mantra helps….

“I am safe, I am grounded and I am made of pure love. I see you (insert your name) and I forgive you because I love you. Thank you for caring for me”

This is a good way to begin the practice of self care and grow self love. Our being desperately needs this. Our own loving attention is what will break up stagnant energy, riding the body of blocks and allowing love to flow as it needs to. We can do this by breathing, slowing down and embracing the moment we are in. When life lures us into speeding up, that’s actually when our being needs to slow down, carefully and gently assess the next loving action instead of harshness and taking any further action that bypass our hearts. I ask myself this question when I feel stressed out or stuck, “what is the next best loving response”. Then I can proceed in a much more heart centered direction.

I spend a great deal of time sitting out in nature, listening to music and meditating. This time is sacred because caring for my soul’s health is priority number one. It’s also when I can best tap into my intuition and hear the guidance of my many Spirit mentors. They are who conduct the healing I provide myself and my clients as a shaman, I am merely a conduit. This path is one of intention and requires me to keep my human vessel as clean as possible so that I can be a pure channel for these messages. This week, I can feel a major boost of love being infused throughout the Universe. This energy, this light is available in abundance and is meant for healing. The colors I see, the beautiful music it creates in my mind is so glorious, it brings tears to my eyes. My heart is so full. I choose to shine and not to recoil in fear of being vulnerable to it. Today, I embrace the authentic spirit I carry.

I have spent most of my life hiding, doubting what I feel because of it’s enormity and not showing my authentic self. I believe that I just wasn’t ready, the flower blossom of my soul’s essence needed more time to fully bloom. This year I have stepped into a colorful masterpiece within this soul’s journey and have begun to amplify my life with the brilliance of its light. Integrating my shadow aspects in a mindful way has allowed me to see the truth of who I am, my wholeness. It’s like taking the paddles they use to restart the heart and using them to further awaken my soul. I see such immense beauty all around me. I’ve expressed these feelings in the following poems.

Pieces of my soul

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below. For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
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