Getting in touch with your emotional truth, by processing feelings to improve the human condition in the 21st century. Living out loud by my motto,"Triumphing over Trauma" 🌈
In light and in shadow, always with ❤
This past week has been extremely gray here in South Florida with lots of thunderstorms showing up daily. This time of year it’s to be expected. The absence the Summer Sun left me feeling a bit out of sorts. Yesterday was the first day without any rain in over a week. I made the most of the bright sunshine by spending the day at the beach. I’m a Sun worshipper my dear readers and I needed my fix. Taking some time to myself in solitude was also called for. Now that my partner and I are reunited, I realize how incredibly important my “me” time is.
I received exactly what I needed while I practiced my favorite pastime of cloud gazing. Watching the clouds dance across the sky delights my imagination and brings so much contentment to my inner child. Connecting with nature in this way is Mother Nature’s gift to us all. As I lay upon the warm sand, time and to do lists fade away. Practicing an open eyed meditation, I allow myself to be rocked in Gaia’s arms. This poem started nudging at me on the bike ride there and birthed itself by the ocean’s edge.
Last week’s full moon and Sumer solstice had me in a space of deep reflection. The rain played an important role in cleansing the energy and charging forwards a rebirth. As I practiced yoga outside on the patio, overlooking the lake while the rain poured down, I became hypnotized by its rhythm and heard the sound of my footfalls while running. I felt pulled by the desire to be free and went out for a long run. I’ve begun training for a triathlon in August, my 1st in ten years. I enjoy challenging myself physically and the mental piece that goes along with breaking down walls when our bodies reach an edge. The sensation is euphoric. The same medicine that I receive after practicing conscious breathwork. I heard this quote yesterday and it suits this next poem. “Every breath is a chance to reborn spiritually. But to be reborn into a new life you have to die before dying”. Healing from the past, shedding layers and growing into new skin can be highly uncomfortable. That’s why I practice high sensation training, to teach my body how to be comfortable in uncomfortability.
I’m pleased to announce the first shipment of my latest book, “My Soul’s Journey:Lessons learned through love” arrived my dear readers! Here’s a couple videos of me reading the introduction and the back cover. The rocking chair I’m sitting in belonged to my beloved Nana and her spirit is indeed with me whenever I sit in it. It’s the chair I allow myself to fall into shamanic trance during long distance healing sessions with my clients.
My prayer for you my dear readers is that you take the time to allow the Summer Sun to warm your spirit and spark the fire’s of imagination. It’s important to take time for ourselves in solitude. Shamans plant seeds of awakening through storytelling. Our minds are dreaming all the time and through storytelling we can begin to pierce the veil of illusion the mind creates which keep us separated from all creation. We are one. Explore whatever allows you to embrace our oneness.
If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website. For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment. Maria@emotionalmusings.com https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings paypal.me/tinyd9
In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
Over this past weekend, with the arrival of Spring 2021 I experienced a major shift that has ushered in a new path on my soul’s journey. The process of allowing death to a part of myself that no longer serves and the the rebirth of a more integrated and whole self. Death to Ladysag77, the pen name I began writing with when I first started sharing my poetry publicly and being reborn Maria Teresa, poet and healer. This has taken 21 months of gestation, the labor of healing myself through the many paths I shared in my last post https://emotionalmusings.com/2021/03/18/many-paths-lead-to-healing-this-is-what-mine-looks-and-feels-like/ A few key events also triggered this next level of my soul awakening journey. This is my testimonial of healing, death and rebirth.
Friday the 19th, I accidentally locked myself out of the poetry app Mirakee and couldn’t log back in. I had been logged in since 2018 ( I know right? 😆) and not being able to get back on right away was quite perplexing for me as a writer being cut off from my body of work with hundreds of my poems that are the many pieces to my soul. At the same time the most difficult decision I have ever had to make was weighing heavily upon me, revealing its truth. This is something that has been sitting on my heart for almost a year now and recent events proved that the best decision I had to make is in choosing myself. I have decided to leave a long term relationship with my partner of almost eight years. This is the worst kind of pain I have ever experienced. Period. I don’t quite have the words yet to fully describe the avalanche of emotions that have been triggered for me. I do know however that this is another layer that is necessary in the healing process. I am detaching with love from my soul mate, my one true love.
More than ever before I feel compelled by my soul to further spread my wings and soar to greater heights as my purpose deepens and reveals the process of awakening and aliveness to me. The fire within me roars strong and bright. At the same time, the wounded inner child within me is begging to be seen and the following videos and poems are how I honor her. Little Maria is now being cared for by Maria Teresa. I have sole ownership over my heart. I have retained its key from my partner who needs to do his own healing. I pray for him to see his way clear to his own soul. Parts of me are dying, I’ve lost my best friend and all I can do is ride the waves of emotion as best as I can. Balancing the ebb and flow as the seas of change bring me closer to where I’m meant to further grow.
Recommitting to myself by continuing to do what scares me. Pushing myself out of my comfort zone fosters change. My path has been so accelerated, at times I want to just quit but I can’t. I made a promise to my soul to be who I am and express what I’m learning along the way. No more hiding. I am facing the toughest of life challenges with all the tools I’ve learned these past ten years. What I’m experiencing has rocked and shaken me to the very core. I do what I do best, channel them through my creativity. This is a poem about the many faces of transformation that I have been in the last 21 months. I never dreamed becoming me would mean losing you. I pray you find your way. All of my love always. Nothing but love. I know whatever is meant to be, will be.
This is the song my Dad sends me when I feel really sad and am desperately missing him. In the midst of heavy change, my heart is open and bleeding right now. Whatever life hands you is yours to use my dear readers. Life is 90% of how you respond to what happens in every experience. Allow the feelings to flow out, use the experience as an opportunity to grow. This is how the roots of transformation are sown. Planting them deeply by using self love as fertile ground. When the pain of staying stuck propels you to do something different. I choose to see the light within the shadows, to rise again and again. Using my love as a superpower that propels me into the next experience. Learning whatever I can to grow within the moments.
Saturday morning I was out for a run, warming up my body and locking into selflove and care. This is a song that always gets me up, movin and groovin. Rebirth for me means that I’m allowing the seeds of newness that were planted in the winter to bloom into life, to be expressed through soul. My soul loves to dance which is my most favorite and true expression. In ancient times, a shaman would ask the members of the tribe that needed care when was the last time they sang or danced. My dear readers, I sing and dance every single day. I’m alive and life is to be celebrated ✨
My dear friends nicknamed me “the Sun” because my natural energy is fiery, my attitude is upbeat and matches my bubbly personality. The dancing I do is always improvisational, never choreographed. I spent time at the beach yesterday afternoon gathering myself, soaking up the light rays of the mighty Sun and this energy came through telling me to go LIVE on my Instagram. I have deleted the Ladysag77 account and will be operating from EmotionalMusings on all of the social media platforms, please follow me there my friends. This is me, this is my soul. I came here to shake shit up, love and be free.
Shout out to my man Mr. Michael Franti “Love Invincible” and his other tunes have been healing my soul for years ❤ Peace, love and so much freaking light my loves.
On my resume in the biography section it says, “I have a special talent for taking lemons and making lemonade”. I have so many blessings to be grateful for right now. Next month I will be embarking upon two awesome adventures. First, I am taking a one year certification course in sound healing to further my knowledge of how music heals the mind, body and spirit. This will add another layer to the shamanic healing sessions I offer my clients. I incorporate the drum, rattles, finger chimes and tuning fork along with my voice to amplify sound energy. At the end of the month I will be surprising my youngest son in Rhode Island for his 16th birthday. I haven’t been back to the state I called home for thirteen years since 2016. This trip is a long time coming and I can’t wait to be reunited with my two sons. My oldest has recently moved into his first apartment and I am so damn proud of him. He is such a kind, generous and gifted young man. I’m also planning to reconnect with my sister friends, some of them for the first time in person because we have only known one another through social media. I will be sure to keep you all posted by writing about these experiences in future posts.
In the meantime, life is a combo of positive and negative vibrations that we swim through everyday in what I call an energy soup. It’s up to each one of us to transmute the negatives into positives using love, acceptance and understanding. Dr. Nicole LaPera says,”when we witness and accept all emotions without judgment we allow space for healing. Practice accepting whatever comes up without trying to change it.” I believe that’s how we grow and evolve. I vow to keep doing my part to heal myself and help heal others, one heart at a time.
If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu. For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment. Maria@emotionalmusings.com https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77 paypal.me/tinyd9 In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
“To vibe” with something, by definition, a distinctive feeling or quality capable of being sensed. My dear readers, I relate deeply with my soul. The depths of which I commune with myself and with Spirit are spectacularly awe inspiring and beautiful. The journey of my soul, the information that is revealed as I continue to investigate and heal astounds me. Remaining grateful for the peaks and valleys I travel through, understanding that whatever I encounter serves my highest good as I accept myself more fully with each passing day is a blessing. This is what “Triumphing over Trauma” looks like and certainly feels like!
Last week I experienced my first float therapy session. Immediately afterwards I was reminded of how fresh and clean my energetic field had become, relative to the sweat lodge ceremony with my mentor after being anointed a shaman in September. Since that time, I have learned and progressed quite a bit while practicing and living this path. The sacred dance with Spirit is very special to me and I am eternally grateful for the pearls of wisdom I gather along the way. I feel refreshed, restored, rejuvenated and redeemed! I highly recommend it. It was wonderfully peaceful, like heaven on Earth. These poems were birthed from this mindset. As I continue to discover more truth about myself, the deeper I dwell, which is where I feel most comfortable and at home.
I recorded this video yesterday to give you all a taste of what it’s like in a shamanic healing session with me. These are the mantras I begin with to connect to a client’s energy field and highest self. This is an art and my soul incorporates the healing qualities and vibrations of poetry, music and singing into each session. Along with sacred tools like crystals, herbs,oils and tarot cards, I’m able to see people’s souls and help reconnect them with their authentic spirit guided by my own Spirit mentors and guides. It’s an honor and privilege to see others in this way and assist in the healing process that has profoundly healed and changed my life so completely. I’m always available to answer any questions or inquiries you may have my dear ones. Please reach out in either the comments here or through my contact page and on all social media platforms, excluding Facebook @ladysag77
If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu. For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment. Maria@emotionalmusings.com https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77 paypal.me/tinyd9 In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste 🙏
My dear readers, I’m so pleased to announce that I’m now an official contributer for Healers magazine based here in Miami, Florida. My first article can be read here https://healersmagazine.com/blog/ entitled “Embracing the Healing Field” which is a review of the documentary on Amazon of the same name. I was so intrigued by the information in it about the Quantum field of energy healing because of the profound experience I have had with it, I felt compelled to write the review sprinkled with my own life’s healing experience. I invite you my dear readers to click the link and read it. Please let me know your thoughts by commenting here or sending me an email.
A dear sister friend of mine requested I record some more videos of myself reciting my poems. Here are the two latest ones I shared on my social media platforms. The first one is dedicated to my muse, my partner and my best friend. The second is about my continued transformation as I heal my soul and fulfill my purpose to assist others in their healing process as a shaman. Please see my newly added complete list of services in the menu tab of this blog. I’m honored to work with others who are curious about what a shamanic healing session can bring into one’s life, healing past trauma and elevating the soul. Thank you so much to https://missdorrina.com/ for your love and support in helping me tweak this blog. Technology is not something I enjoy but a necessary part of blogging. Your assistance is greatly appreciated and absolutely priceless!
These past 19 months have truly been life altering as I release what no longer serves me, live intentionally from my heart without hiding and expand further into the creative being I am. I absolutely love to dance and feel it’s the most freeing experience I regularly practice. This is me. 100% soul powered!
Life is an adventure that I can feel everyday. You can too my dear readers, it’s all in how you choose to look at it. Lately I’ve felt another expansive period of alignment with the Light, Divine Source. This is a poem I wrote after a meditation session. We are birthing change my dear ones and what the unknown will bring is whatever your imagination can dream!
In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu. For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment. https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77 paypal.me/tinyd9