Healing, Spirituality

Summer’s Sun

This past week has been extremely gray here in South Florida with lots of thunderstorms showing up daily. This time of year it’s to be expected. The absence the Summer Sun left me feeling a bit out of sorts. Yesterday was the first day without any rain in over a week. I made the most of the bright sunshine by spending the day at the beach. I’m a Sun worshipper my dear readers and I needed my fix. Taking some time to myself in solitude was also called for. Now that my partner and I are reunited, I realize how incredibly important my “me” time is.

I received exactly what I needed while I practiced my favorite pastime of cloud gazing. Watching the clouds dance across the sky delights my imagination and brings so much contentment to my inner child. Connecting with nature in this way is Mother Nature’s gift to us all. As I lay upon the warm sand, time and to do lists fade away. Practicing an open eyed meditation, I allow myself to be rocked in Gaia’s arms. This poem started nudging at me on the bike ride there and birthed itself by the ocean’s edge.

Daydreaming

Last week’s full moon and Sumer solstice had me in a space of deep reflection. The rain played an important role in cleansing the energy and charging forwards a rebirth. As I practiced yoga outside on the patio, overlooking the lake while the rain poured down, I became hypnotized by its rhythm and heard the sound of my footfalls while running. I felt pulled by the desire to be free and went out for a long run. I’ve begun training for a triathlon in August, my 1st in ten years. I enjoy challenging myself physically and the mental piece that goes along with breaking down walls when our bodies reach an edge. The sensation is euphoric. The same medicine that I receive after practicing conscious breathwork. I heard this quote yesterday and it suits this next poem. “Every breath is a chance to reborn spiritually. But to be reborn into a new life you have to die before dying”. Healing from the past, shedding layers and growing into new skin can be highly uncomfortable. That’s why I practice high sensation training, to teach my body how to be comfortable in uncomfortability.

Hypnotized by the rain
Ancient rhythms expressed through sacred dance medicine

I’m pleased to announce the first shipment of my latest book, “My Soul’s Journey:Lessons learned through love” arrived my dear readers! Here’s a couple videos of me reading the introduction and the back cover. The rocking chair I’m sitting in belonged to my beloved Nana and her spirit is indeed with me whenever I sit in it. It’s the chair I allow myself to fall into shamanic trance during long distance healing sessions with my clients.

Back cover summary of the journey
Introduction

My prayer for you my dear readers is that you take the time to allow the Summer Sun to warm your spirit and spark the fire’s of imagination. It’s important to take time for ourselves in solitude. Shamans plant seeds of awakening through storytelling. Our minds are dreaming all the time and through storytelling we can begin to pierce the veil of illusion the mind creates which keep us separated from all creation. We are one. Explore whatever allows you to embrace our oneness.

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Spirituality

Home is where the heart is

What does being home mean to you? Gaius Plinius Secundus, a Roman philosopher better known as Pliny the Elder (or just Pliny to his friends) said “Home is where the heart is.” Almost two thousand years later, who would have thought home is where the heart – and other organs – could also be monitored and managed. This phrase means that no matter who you are with or where you are in the world, your family and home holds the deepest affection and emotional pull. It is the place where you have a foundation of love, warmth, and happy memories. It might not always be the building itself, but being near your loved ones.

After my trip to Rhode Island, I have been processing a lot of what my life has been like since leaving a place I called home for thirteen years. I had many reasons to leave and I thought for so long that I couldn’t go back. After ten years of moving around constantly, healing in psychiatric hospitals (both inpatient and outpatient) and a stint in rehab which lead to spiritual experiences that sparked another Kundaluni awakening (the 1st one was in 2011) I know home is in my heart. My heart is front and center, open wide and I finally feel secure in expressing myself from this place no matter where I live. The phrase, “no matter where you go, there you are” suits me. You can’t ever escape your own truths, trust me my dear readers because I tried desperately to erase who I am.

Nowadays I embrace my both my strengths and weaknesses, weirdness and philosophical depths, extra sensory gifts and soul truth. We are upon the eve of a New Moon that begins at 7PM EST tomorrow May 11, 2021. The number eleven is significant because it’s double 1 which stands for new beginnings. The Divine number of this date is two which symbolizes balance and partnerships. The planetary alignment has Jupiter in the zodiac house of Pisces. The last time this occurred was in 2010-2011. The personal significance for me is that was the period of time when my first Kundalini awakening occured. This type of awakening is defined as a surge of Divine feminine energy that spirals through the chakra system causing such symptoms as waking up at random hours of the night, sweating, crying, or even literally feeling an intense rush of energy going up your spine. You feel a sudden need to make radical changes in your life.

For me, this lead to a series of severe mental breakdowns ending in a suicide attempt. All completely necessary and now ten years later I look at as a gift of desperation that propelled me along the journey to reclaim my soul. This time around I feel whole, finally having claimed my calling as a shaman. The sessions I have held lately bring me to my knees in awe of the immense power to heal both myself and others bestowed upon me by Spirit.

The poems I write are guided messages for either myself or clients, channeled from a wide array of Spirits. The movement I cultivate as my soul’s medicine aids my own healing and my intention for sharing it is to bring hope that can serve others and inspire change. Ten years ago I was drowning myself in alcohol, dissociative episodes, over exercise and work. Dancing to the piano version of “Chandelier” by Sia, is my crawl out of that darkness into the light. A reminder to always hold onto hope.

Never let go of hope my dear readers, do whatever you need to to keep this energy alive in your being

You know by now by reading my blog posts how much I love spending time out in nature. The beach is my happy place and where I go to gain serenity, clarity and inner peace. Tapping into the biological connection we share with the mighty ocean is how I reconnect to my own strength and power. How do you reconnect with yourself my dear readers?

South Inlet Park, Boca Raton FL

May this New Moon allow you to pick up from where you began back in 2010-2011, planting seeds for your security at home and healing your heart. We are coming out of hibernation mode, stretching our limbs and climbing into new skin with a fresh start. Springtime is in full bloom and is readily available in the heart by choosing to love yourself.. Forgiveness of the past and reclaiming what you know to be true in your heart. This is the continuous cycle of healing from the human condition. I originally wrote the poem “Transformation” on July 18, 2020. At that point I was just starting the apprenticeship hours of healing others through the art of shamanism. Exoanding now upon those intentions, with this New Moon I’m dreaming big, shooting for the stars and opening myself wide to the miracles the Universe provides us everyday upon waking us up with the Sun and tucking us into sleep by the Moon.

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings
paypal.me/tinyd9

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Mental health

May is for mental health, celebrating the many colors of my soul

Hello my dear readers, I’m back from my social media detox and vacation stays in North Carolina and Rhode Island. Ahhhhh, I feel so absolutely rejuvenated and refreshed! I had a real adventure while experiencing many hiccups and unexpected detours along the way. Life continues to delight and surprise me as I can hear the Universe whisper, “surrender my child, allow the flow”. These messages color my soul, the shades and hues are both vibrant at times and muted I others. The ongoing process of allowing myself to learn from my mistakes, when things don’t go as planned or fall apart completely teaches me to stay curious and open. Smooth waters never make a skilled sailor of any of us my dears.

Over these past two weeks I kept myself in nature’s glory, sunshibe and rain, in the moment and observed with all my senses what life was presenting me. This post is a celebration of how far I have traveled in one year since moving back to my parent’s home in South Florida and learning the art of shamanism. My hope is that my adventures awaken the colors of your own soul, ignite your passion inviting you to explore your own unique path. We are all here for a purpose and I’m continuing to uncover the depths of mine my dear readers through writing poetry, music and dance while enjoying the great outdoors! This is how I honor my soul’s aliveness!

Why do we tell others not to cry? It’s something that has always fascinated me. When my boys were young, I encouraged them to cry while their father had a tendency to shame them by telling them “don’t be a baby”. That statement really frustrates me! Crying is a signal from our body’s keen alert system to release energy. If we block, hide or suppress this important urge we are only hurting ourselves further. I intend to start a movement with the poem “Go ahead, please cry” and teach others with the poem “Hurting people hurt people”. We all deserve love, it starts from within. Once we can learn to love ourselves, heal our own wounds, we can share and give love to others. You can heal your life in this way my dear readers, I am living proof of that!

Home in my soul
Colors of my Soul
Home aura vibes
Drum solo take 1
Drum solo take 2
Be free, skip rocks with me
Blue hues of my soul
Flow like water
Drums on the rocks

May is mental health awareness month and I’m offering free consultations to anyone who’s interested in my healing services. I have a list of them in the menu here and I also provide home cleansing ritual kits complete with herbs to burn and crystals to set in the four corners of your house. Let’s practice self care, not just when we’re stressed but when we feel at our best so that our body intuitively knows how to regulate itself. We hold ancient wisdom inside our souls, follow the breadcrumbs by listening to your own body and discover your wellness.

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings
paypal.me/tinyd9

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Spirituality

Many paths lead to healing: This is what mine looks and feels like

There are many paths one can take to improved wellness and inner growth. I have based this entire blog on my own experiences of feeling and healing. My dear soul sister and fellow blogger https://erikakind.me/ created and shared this picture of my mantra “Feeling is Healing”, which deeply touches my heart because I believe our own feelings are the medicine we need to grow and expand into the powerfully magical beings we all are! In this post I hope by seeing what my process is you feel whatever comes through as your own opportunity and invitation to healing.

Today I woke up to Sheryl Crow’s song lyrics to “Everyday is a Winding Road” running through my mind like one of those advertisement banners with the flashing lights.

“Everyday is a winding road
I get a little bit closer
Everyday is a faded sign
I get a little bit closer to feeling fine”

We are the medicine

Spring is rapidly approaching and with it an energy of rebirth. In order to be reborn, parts of us need to fall away and die, change marches on, as goes the healing process. I feel a big shift is about to unfold within my life that could potentially effect a relationship most precious and dear to me. Heavy energy stemming from this loss arose this week and I faced it with patience and grace. I turned on a song that always helps me to feel these deeper emotions. Afterwards, I allowed the tears to flow, the anger to emerge and finally I felt more space and freedom. My dear readers, I implore you to allow your humanness to feel whatever YOU need to heal without judgment. Sending love throughout your vessel.

“This Women’s Work” by Kate Bush
Allowing what I feel to flow through, without judgements. Only love ❤

As my world opens up wider, further feeling the heartbeat of the Universe and my place within it, so many feelings come pouring freely out of me. From the depths of my soul through the ink in my pen, I could fill an entire notebook with the messages my guides send!

I see you my sisters and brothers, I feel you and I love you ❤

Two weeks ago I was honored to be interviewed by a fellow female artist whom I met through Instagram for her podcast, “Middle Finger Happiness”. Sharon Lee Zapata and I share a lot of the same attitudes on creativity and making the most out of what life gives us. Most especially without judgements from others aka putting up our middle fingers and carrying on no matter what! Here’s the link to our episode that was co-hosted with another creative soul, Leo Phoenix. The three of us enjoyed a fun, high vibe and very spirited chat. Shout out to my fellow artists whose journey’s continue to express their gifts through all the creative outlets of art, music and dance! May we keep rising after we stumble and using our talents to share love with others.

Truth in seeing by creating more space for the juices of inspiration to flow

Every night the app I use to create my poems, Mirakee, offers a word prompt challenge. If my soul connects to it, I tap in and write. This week I channeled a lot of what I was feeling through these nightly writing opportunities.

The prompt was “Sun” and everyone loves the Summer Sun ☀️
The prompt was to describe what success and failure mean to me, here are my musings
The prompt was to start a journal entry using the word If

I believe this message was channeled through from my Dad. Since he has passed over, I have felt him anchoring me from the Spirit realm. He is always lifting me up to face whatever challenge I’m facing. I’m incredibly humbled and honored that Mirakee named it the “post of the day” today. I write often my dear ones how my soul’s purpose as a writer and healer is to be a conduit for Spirit, to help inspire others to live their truth. May these words touch your heart and awaken your soul to be who you came here to be! I see you, I feel you and I love you all. Thank you for bearing witness to my art and expressions which is my path to healing by following and connecting with me in the comments. If this resonates with you I invite you to leave me a comment or contact me through email.

Grateful ❤

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment. Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Mental health, personal development, Spirituality

Deepening my connection with amazing grace

This past week has been very enlightening my dear readers. The closer I get with my highest self, dancing with soul, the more patience and grace I have within my being. Ahhhh, it’s a challenge to slow down and drink it all in my friends, living in our fast paced, instant gratification world. Sticking with something, practicing the art of connection takes commitment. It’s a promise I make to myself everyday, to listen more closely to what God intends for me, strengthening my faith, trusting more and always loving myself and others.

So often we set goals for ourselves and once we reach them, neglect celebrating our own hard work and accomplishments. It’s onto the next and full steam ahead! Today marks one full year since the last time I “clocked in” at job and became my own boss full time. The pandemic set the stage for such a choice and created endless amounts of time for me to pursue my purpose. Today I want to celebrate the promise I made to myself to keep investigating my soul every day, deepening my relationship with God and His Spirit guides (my mentors) as well as the beautiful human beings that have come into my life this past year. I have learned more than I can express and my heart is full of gratitude and compassion for these people. Thank you for seeing me, helping me to see myself and holding a special place in my heart forever!

“Look Closer”

Spring is upon us my dear readers and with it an opportunity for renewal. Everyday, I renew the commitment to my healing by asking to be shown more of my truth through meditation. Most of my poems are born through this experience as I compose the songs of my soul, the words become the notes that comprise the music within. These are my latest expressions. “Meditation on self” is a root chakra balancing meditation that is grounded in love.

I wrote “The toll” after watching the movie “The Trial of the Chicago 7,” feeling very moved by the revolutionary actions of the men depicted in the film to stand up for what is right in our country. We can see these issues still play a big part in continuing to fight for justice for all in our country still today.

“True Love” and “Love is strong ” are born from my thoughts on the book “All About Love” by Bell Hooks. Her words have left a big impression on my heart. I understand in a deeper way what love is in my own partnership and how sacred a relationship it has been for over seven years. I believe we are all here to learn and grow from one another by remaining open and willing to see one another in each other, pushing one another to be best version of ourselves for the greater good. The common thread of humanity runs deeply within all of our DNA and I have learned to respect others for our similarities while recognizing our differences. To love unconditionally is a practice. I may not like and agree with others all the time but I strive to find a balance, with loving compassion and grace that helps me to listen to others and look more closely within myself to accept those differences should I start to judge. Only God has that job my friends. This is the basis of shadow work, intentional investigating and integration is an ongoing practice of all the pieces that make up who we are. Arriving at a wholeness of mind, body and spirit.

It is also a daily practice of non judgment and acceptance for what is to live in harmony with myself and all that surrounds me. I believe we are all interconnected, holding a part of each other and everything within our entire Universe lives inside every creation on Earth and beyond. I celebrate the love I feel for the sky, the birds, the rocks and the water, seeing all of it inside my own soul. Deepening the connection, celebrating life and feeling an amazing grace inside my heart.

I leave you with a video of me dancing which is how I feel most alive and express my soul! I invite each one of you my dear ones to express your passion and share it with the world. Love one another and grow in harmonious healing!

“Sweet Lullaby” by Deep Forest

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment. Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.