Consciousness, Healing, relationships, Spirituality

Traveling into new emotional experiences, guided by soul

Welcome to the next few months of Summer my dear readers. I love the Sun, its ability to energize my being and amplify my upbeat personality. In this post I will share what I’ve learned this month while traveling the path of soul. My daily healing practices provide a clear lense in which I can view the importance of my purpose for this lifetime’s mission. Focusing on my spiritual ascension helps me to understand the many changes I’m going through and the impending arrival of new emotional experiences. The healing that I have done over the past ten years has birthed this gift.

In the final months of 2021, my spirit team began to prepare me for a new love interest and thus started the whisperings of intuitive information about this new person. I believe we all view life through different lenses, depending upon our view of self. The realization that I deserve to be loved the same way that I express love has transformed my way of thinking about my own worth. Years of viewing life through the lense of trauma, pain and suffering definitely created  dysfunction in the way I felt about myself and critically altered my self esteem. After ending and healing from my last intimate relationship, I now know I’m about to attract an energetic match for my heart. This man will view the world as I do, heart centered, open and living life from a place of truth and acceptance. His emotional intelligence is very high, he is well grounded and completely balanced.

When I tap into my intuitive guidance, I see us enjoying dinner by candlelight, laughing while listening to music, hiking the mountains that surround us, camping in the desert and simply enjoying one another’s company. He brings me flowers “just because” and we have long, deep conversations about God and Spirit. I can’t make out his face or features,  only seeing him as a shadow either next to or across from me. Spirit is keeping our meeting a complete surprise. Over this month I have been invited to let go and surrender to Divine timing by practicing patience, trust and faith. The poems in this post are all centered around this learning, growing and rising.

My dear readers, we are ALL deserving of love and kindness. Right now in our world, there is a huge shift going on. I invite you to clean your lense by investigating your own experiences and trusting the adventures your heart has traveled through. Believe in miracles because they are real and occur around us all the time. Believe that you are ready for a more Divine emotional experience and a higher love. I’ve lived here in the Salt Lake valley for almost ten months now surrounded by these magnificent mountains that absorb energy and are very grounding for me. The east coast has such a frenetic pace and energy that I do not miss at all. Here, it’s a lot quieter, allowing me to feel more of the oneness vibration, connectedness and threads. I see more and more synchronistic signs and omens. My intuitive feelings have heightened tremendously since last September. The instinctual dance of human experience paired with all that is alive in creation continues to fascinate me and raise the volume of communication. Every song is now much louder than ever before. I find that I’m feeling into a million new truths of awareness and love for absolutely everything without having to understand it. Just allowing all as it. As it has always been and will always be. Life on life’s terms. We all come here with a story to tell, a song to sing, a lesson to learn. Observing it all helps me to pay attention and practice mindfulness which fuels my curiosity, helping me to see the immensely beautiful world that surrounds me.

The heart always knows best. May this post invite you to drop into its intuitive guidance, leaving the mental chatter of mind’s stories behind. At least lower the volume of the conditioned ones it loves to rattle on about. Follow your heart and awaken to soul!

“Always remember”
“Beyond”

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Healing, Mental health, personal development, Spirituality

Poems are the notes of my soul’s music

Now that eclipse season has passed, I’m settling into more revelations and truths from the things I’ve needed to release. The continuous cycle of healing from the human experience as opened me up to another level of awakening. Becoming more aware of what fits the skin I’m currently in and deciding what I’ve outgrown. This is a mindful check-in, a daily practice I committed to three years ago to make adjustments where needed and align with what suits me best. I uncover these truths in many ways. Through writing poetry, meditation, sound frequency healing, setting crystal grids and breathwork. Continuous communication with Mother Nature and with my spirit team help me to feel into the answers intuitively. Allowing myself to be led by my heart and open to love. Love is the healing guide, the protective force and the truth in everything!

When life changes and speeds up, that’s when I know it’s time to slow down. “Listen and observe”, this is the strongest message for me lately. Making sure I’m getting enough rest and consuming the things that will sustain peace, love and joy internally. These are some of my latest poems for a new book in the works entitled, “My Soul’s Music”. As I continue to face the effects that trauma has had upon my being, I learn how strong, resilient and resourceful I am. These past three years I have moved all around the country six times, ended an almost 9 year romantic relationship, said good bye to my Dad in physical form and terminated the relationship with my mother. Each of these decisions have been extremely difficult and carried their own challenges and circumstances. I changed jobs three times and have written five books of poetry between 2020 and today. I discovered my soul’s purpose of being a shaman and through writing I intend to help inspire others. Healing is indeed possible and we are all worthy of love! We are the ones we have been waiting for! I’m grateful to God for lending me the strength in facing everything I have walked through, with grace and dignity. I can honestly say I am proud of the woman I am today.

My purpose is clear about why I’m here. It’s to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. By sharing my testimony of “Triumphing over Trauma” and using my sensitivities as superpowers. I have faced all kinds of abuse, physical, mental, emotional and sexual. I overcame drugs and alcohol and a lifelong eating disorder. I committed to healing myself after attempting suicide in 2011 by believing that I am worthy of love. My human experience has taught me to be grateful for the air I breathe and the water I drink. The people I meet who show me there is unconditional love held within every living creature on the planet. I choose to embrace the love inside by feeling my feelings. That’s how the medicine comes in, after the emotional release of energy. We are so very powerful my friends. By becoming who we are meant to be, we unpack the wisdom of  our soul. Be who you are. Our world needs your unique gifts!!

Remember who you are
Heart opening messages

Life is mysterious, messy, unnerving and beautiful. Taking chances with a heart so full and giving has taught me many lessons. This last poem is a musing upon my last relationship. The healing from this major life change is something I’m still learning lessons from through the eyes of compassion and love. It was a long good bye that took me 2 years to completely detach from. In the end I’m grateful for having learned so much. After surrendering control of what wasn’t mine to carry came forgiveness. Love is all that remains. Always.

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

2022 is the year for Love

Welcome dear readers to 2022 which holds a divine number of 6 symbolizing harmony. Listening intently to my heart and continously compelled by soul, every year I choose a word to focus on and manifest all my intentions from. This word becomes the theme I am to expand upon. In 2020 it was fearlessness and for 2021 it was freedom. I saw many big shifts based on both words in my life. This year for 2022 my focus is love. Recently, I have been reflecting upon how very far I have come along on this journey which has awakened my soul, it’s heart truths and so much divine wisdom that is shared with me by Spirit. I use Spirit to encompass the many spirits I receive messages and guidance from since asking for their assistance in June of 2019. To be specific, I will name them here. Many of the archangels including Gabriel, Michael, Raphael and Haniel. My ancestral lineage, ascended masters, Gods and Goddesses, elemental and directional energies, spirit guides and animals and other high vibrational beings of light. After lots of time spent in meditation, being outside in nature and journaling during last year, I believe I am ready and deserving of my soul’s true partner. Here’s to receiving this love in 2022!

Diving deeper into my soul by slowing down is my first intention. This is the first winter season I’ve experienced in eight years my dear readers and the colder temperatures are inviting me to stay indoors and be still. Allowing myself the rest I need to rejuvenate after all the moving around and stretching that 2021 provided my being. In order to integrate and expand into all the energy that the higher frequencies are bringing in, I will begin this year by taking a much needed break from social media. Being mindful of what I consume in all areas of life is very crucial to the healing process. The more I awaken to my heart truths, the more sensitive I become to energy’s vibrations and other people. Winter invites us to curl up with ourselves, to go within and listen. Reading is one of my favorite things to do. I’m grateful to have received a couple of books over Christmas that I’m looking forward to getting under my blankets with. I was gifted a star light projector that creates the night sky on my ceiling. I’m totally loving the magical scenery dancing before me in the comfort of my own space. Add in some candles and crystals to complete the scene for maximum relaxation.

I’m taking this opportunity to rest and practice self care. I will also get to work on creating the manuscript for my sixth book of poetry to be called, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while Embracing the Light: Poems about death and rebirth” Yes indeed it’s a long title, with over 130 poems written throughout all of the cycles 2021 brought me through. My first full year as a practicing shaman.

I’m always intrigued by the mysteries painted in the night sky. In the beginning of my awakening process, that’s how the Universe sent me messages.This poem expresses how I feel about the healing powers of star gazing and moon watching.

Living in the southern temperatures for so long, I was used to getting fed by the Sun. I’ve written before about how my friends refer to me as the Sun because of my big bright energy, smile and personality. We all have a Sun inside of us as Rumi says. I wear a necklace that has the tarot card of the Sun because I like the reminder over my heart. The space that beats in rhythm to love’s purity.

Indeed there is

Waking from the dream, seeing and feeling the truth which is love smashes the lie of separation. We are all intricately connected and are beginning to attune to this frequency all over the planet. I can see it more clearly in the interactions I have with people at the farmers market I work at part time. People are remembering that love is the only truth and it’s exciting to see the connectedness between us through our conversations. Before I leave my home, I always align myself through meditation and breath, in order to lead from my heart. When the mind attempts to take over however, that’s when I know I need more self care and mindfulness practice. Becoming the observer to the mind’s thoughts puts me in alignment with all the pieces of me so I can present my wholeness, my truth and lead from soul.

Today I was invited on a hike through the snow up a canyon. We saw lots of bucks, horses, turkeys, donkeys and lamas too! I feel so alive in nature and really enjoy listening to it’s messages while taking in the clues to this grand mystery of life through it’s cues. Nature brings me peace, relaxes and feeds my senses. God is everywhere and in everything we see. Reflecting our own light in us is what being out in nature reminds us of. All the beauty we are given here on Earth. That’s its purpose and we are here to protect and balance it by balancing ourselves in it. What a gorgeous cycle it is!

The mantra I’m continuously practicing is this my dear readers: I acknowledge and am aware that love is the truth, I surrender to thoughts that attempt to tell me otherwise (rejecting fear), I release the energy that doesn’t serve by allowing love to flood my being which keeps me free so I can let go of expectations and attachments, embracing the present, arriving at acceptance to all that is. The I AM, we all are. Love. There is no failing in life my dear readers. We keep trying, everyday is another opportunity to forgive ourselves and others through grace and compassion. Life here on Earth brings us through experiences that remind us of the truth. Sparking the remembrance that we are love, infinite and eternal. That is the only truth, everything else is an illusion.

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, Spirituality

Energy’s pressure cooker

Collectively as we navigate all the change our world is experiencing from to the pandemic, it’s natural to feel the pressure on an energetic level from those around us. As we enter November, with holidays looming ahead, my sensitive soul feels like it’s been put into a pressure cooker with the heat set on high. This is something I feel both internally and externally. The writer in me retreats to my journal for a thorough brain dumping. That’s what I call the release of thoughts and feelings into words, creating little pictures in my imagination that blossom into poetic lines as my soul’s expression through poetry is born. Releasing all the pressure I feel inside, cleanses my being and widens the container so that I can accept all the love life is giving me. Dancing with all the newness in my environment as I continue to acclimate to a new job meeting new people all the time, all while reconnecting with family that I haven’t lived with for almost thirty years. This pressure blocks me from love and abundance, the truth of my being.

When I feel like I want to escape, hide and vanish into thin air; that’s when I know it’s time to slow down and return to my breath. To quietly witness whatever emotional activation has been raised. Tuning my attention inwards to cool the fires that rage inside me. Juggling a new schedule is one aspect of life that creates anxiety within, causing time management issues. I loathe having to manage my personal time between what I have to do outside the home and what I want to create, allowing the passion within to keep burning. It’s a practice and a balancing act as I intuitively tap in, becoming keenly aware that I’m the one who is far too demanding of myself. Deciding what to prioritize when I require rest and self care suddenly becomes a fight with my own drive and aliveness as I try to get everything that requires my attention finished quickly so that I can just be. Reconnecting to that happy place, my sweet spot inside is when I’m witnessing my own monkey mind’s gymnastics during meditation. Holding light to the truths that rise to the surface allows the internal temperature to cool and slows everything down so that the creative juices can flow and be expressed effortlessly.

Writing poetry is how I process the world around me and offers the testimony of my journey through healing from the human condition. I’ve often written about how all my sense settings are set to high. Being an empath, a psychic channel and medium for Spirit continues to teach me how important it is for me to remain vigilant and focused on my inner work, to peel the layers of conditioning and reveal more and more of my own soul. These cycles of death and rebirth often times create the feeling of being naked in front of the entire world! Adjusting to the changes in my life, allowing and accepting all the pieces of me that demand to be seen while shedding ego’s cries for the predictable and safe responses can feel daunting within the pressure cooker. I understand the pressure is necessary for changes to manifest the highest alignment of myself for the betterment of this journey’s evolution. Locked into a sacred dance with Spirit, allowing my soul to lead, learning the lessons I came here to learn in this reincarnation is what keeps me going. Releasing stubborn tendencies to be rigid with myself, forcing things to happen repeatedly shows me that I will continue to be disappointed in the outcomes. Therefore, surrendering to the flow of life, employing a deeper patience and allowing the most divine love, the highest love we all are deserving of and is meant for us, takes time. Feeling the pressure is a part of the growth process.

I often refer to the intuitive messages I receive as puzzle pieces. I am to observe and file them until necessary. I look at life from within a snowglobe that has been shook up, scattering these pieces everywhere. Living life on life’s terms, in each present moment, puts these pieces together in an order that’s meant for each of us. We are all one living organism broken up into pieces, experiencing different scenes within a master story we call life. Each of us have different roles, lessons to learn and jobs to carry out. The one thing we all have in common is love. Shine and share love with one another, no matter what. It is the fuel that keeps our life force energy alive! We are made from and will return to love the more we open our hearts and recognize the human within us all. This intention releases the pressure of competition, the mind chatter of false narratives, judgements and drive to be perfect. I invite you my dear readers to get quiet and return to your center, breathing in love and exhaling fear. What is the pressure you feel within teaching you?

The light you carry within is the key to connection
We are all deserving
Peeling the layers,revealing truth
Shadow work in a poem
I AM love, you are love, we are all love
Nature teaches us that Light is alive and in everything

“Need and Love” excerpt by Thomas Merton:

“Love is, in fact an intensification of life, a completeness, a fullness, a wholeness of life…Life curves upward to a peak of intensity, a high point of value and meaning, at which all its latent creative possibility go into action and the person transcends himself or herself in encounter, response and communion and self-transcendence. We do not become fully human until we give ourselves to each other in love”

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

The Sound of Silence

It’s been a little over three months since I’ve written a blog post. The longest stretch of silence for this passionate writer who enjoys sharing her journey with all the world as a testimony of “Triumphing over Trauma”. Since July, I’ve been quietly tending to my own personal healing journey. Some people have swiftly left my life in order for me to move onto relationships that serve my highest alignment. Big changes include endings that were necessary yet bitterly difficult and led to rebirth. I’ve moved (again) twice actually, leaving Florida for good and finding myself settled back in the West, with my big sister and my brother-in-law outside Salt Lake City. I’ve stepped back into the world of working a job outside my home as a vitamin and herbal supplement expert in a local farmer’s market while still growing my healing business and writing many new poems to be included in my 6th book of poetry, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth”. The things I have felt, processed, experienced and healed required solitude, peace and the priceless sound of silence.

What does listening to the sound of silence mean? I found one writer’s definition on Google stating that “It helps us see the empty, selfless, uncertain, transient nature of all experience and patterns of consciousness. The sound of silence is also helpful in developing attention and continuity of mindfulness. When the mind becomes very calm and focused, the breath can grow quieter and quieter”. In my practices I have developed the ability to attune to my own heartbeat and feel into both the nothingness and all encompassing everythingness. The grand abyss of the unknown. There lies peace and love which brings a joyful curiosity to all of creation surrounding us. After such sessions in silence I can feel how intricate a role we are all invited to play by our interactions with one another. Leading with love or reactive to fear. These vibrations yield choices and play a major role in how we treat ourselves and one another.

Growing up in a chaotic and dysfunctional home, silence meant anger, sadness and an intensity of unease would set in as I awaited the shoe to drop. It felt like a bomb going off as the emotional roller coaster would begin and I, an unwilling passenger was forced upon it, never knowing when it would end or if I could ever get off. Over time I learned how to drown my sensitivities out and abandon my self care needs. It’s required years of introspection to understand how all of my past now serves me today. How to heal myself, take care of myself and create healthy boundaries with others. I use my sensitivities and sensibilities as superpowers to discern the energy all around me. It’s helped me tremendously decipher what’s mine, what’s not and how to transmute the fear I feel back into love for myself first and then others. Many of the life experiences these past thirty-five years could have turned me bitter, angry and resentful. Instead, I choose to allow them to shape and mold my heart into a more loving, kind and empathetically open person who sees the Light in others. Silence has taught me to be compassionate towards the struggles of my fellow sisters and brothers. Listening to my own heartbeat, I hear the rhythm that lies within us all. Beating steadily is a message that we all need love, forgiveness, understanding and acceptance. These are what I choose to shine onto others. It all starts from within. We teach others how to treat us by how we treat ourselves. Be your own hero, best friend and love the crap out of yourself my friends!!

Resurfacing now from the silence is poignant because October celebrates the milestone of my three year anniversary here on WordPress. In December I will be ringing in my 44th birthday and these are the 44 poems I’ve written since my vow of silence July 4th. I invite you to close your eyes after reading each one and allow whatever emotion is stirred in you to rise and be seen, accepted and loved. We heal together, as one. We rise together in love. Within every season is the cycle of death and rebirth. My dear ones, we are to embrace all the sensations and every feeling for they are the sacred messages life presents us so we can continue this ride through life, to heal with more wisdom and clarity. Change is constant and growth is guaranteed if one can be brave enough to fail and keep trying. Sure the road is bumpy at times, there are detours and new available routes will arise when we trust that where we are being led serves a higher purpose. I urge you dear ones, through these poems to witness each piece of your soul and dream. Life continues to amaze, inspire and teach me. May you see your path illuminate and direct you clearly forwards. In light and in shadow, always with love ❤ Namaste 🙏

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below or see the Services tab in the menu on this website.
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Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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