personal development, relationships, Spirituality

2023’s free fall into faith

Walking in faith. Taking a leap of faith. These are the whispered intentions and reminders I have received from Spirit over the second half of this year. 2022 began with a belief that love would bloom in my life. The love that I have procured within myself over the past ten years on the healing journey I began when I decided to divorce my husband, get sober and uncover my purpose has begun to blossom new connections that show me how much I’ve grown. In this new year 2023, my intentions are to renew my trust in faith. A greater understanding of my soul purpose and the power that love has to heal all wounds.

The word faith means to have a complete trust in someone or something. The meaning I hold in my heart is the understanding of my own spiritual awakening, a continuous climb towards a higher consciousness as the relationship with my higher power grows. I choose to refer to this being as God, the creator of our universe and master of all living things. I firmly and unequivocally believe that God has helped me through all the trials in my life and is the teacher of my soul’s lessons. I believe that’s what the human experience is all about, why we come here and claim a body. It is our vehicle in which to learn the lessons our soul requires for ascension. In this lifetime alone, I believe I have healed through more than in eight lifetimes. The messages I receive and channel into the poetry I compose through my spirit guides helps me to further integrate trust and faith in the mysterious and divine timing of the holiest of beings, God.

This year, I intend to deepen my devotion and practice with my whole heart following the ways in which my ancestors have taught me how to feel closest to God. My word for 2023 is faith. Practicing shamanic rituals using crystals, herbs, oils and music is my favorite way of both honoring the spiritual team that supports me and sending prayers to them. Writing out intentions to be burned in moon ceremonies is something I practice for both the new moon and full moon each month. Everyday I kneel in front of my altar and pray for God to continue to mold me, to show me the way I can best be of use as a humble servant to the Light. I pray that I may share the light I carry with others in a gentle and compassionate way focusing on the peace, love and joy in my heart. I surrender to the ways that no longer serve me while lighting candles to deepen the intentions I set. I move energy by toning and chanting to stay balanced and grounded. Engaging in these rituals daily help to keep my vibration high and my spirit clean.

Writing poetry is how I process the world around me and articulate the nuances of energetic exchanges and experiences. Since my last post I have decided to end two relationships that meant a great deal to me. One I started over the summer and the other lasted for over twenty years. In both instances, I realized how much I have changed and healed through. I no longer intend to engage with people who don’t know their own power and have become an energetic drain on mine. The desire to be someone others need me to be for their acceptance of me is no longer an agreement I’m willing to make. Being able to clearly see my own value, I refuse to be treated harshly by others who don’t know their own worth. It’s ok to say goodbye to the older versions of myself that they were comfortable with because I know what I deserve and what I am worthy of. My time and energy are precious and I’m no longer interested in putting energy into people who aren’t an energetic match for me. This decision was not made quickly or in a reactionary way. I am choosing to take what I’ve learned and detach with love in a similar way I moved away from the toxic relationship with my mother two years ago. By doing this, I open myself up to new people and experiences that better serve my current frequency. People who serve my soul. I say no thank you to surface relationships. I’m looking for equality and a mutual understanding as we look one another in the eye. I offer an open mind and heart, a non judgemental attitude full of unconditional love. The days of me accepting less than this are officially over.

Recognizing all the growth I have experienced, the wisdom gained and tears shed. Full circle moments as I celebrated my 45th year last month, the end of an era of healing, 2012-2022. I walked the property of my best friend and the sacred land she now calls home. As I did, I gave the past versions of me the honor of release, back into Mother Earth. There is a tree growing between two rocks that she pointed out as me, a reflection of my journey. I will take with me the beauty of our time together. The gift of presence with my dear friend and my son. I pass the torch on to the next traveler of soul as I enter the next phase of my life. May 2023 show me more of my own truth as I further claim my power, my gifts and practice my soul’s purpose. I’m here to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing.

My journey of healing as represented in nature

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

Letting Love Lead

Choosing to allow love to lead and guide my life’s purpose is an elaborate dance with Spirit. Opening the heart to allow a higher power to guide my steps is an ever evolving practice in surrendering to the unknown. Leaning into a deeper trust while having faith that the answers will show up in Divine timing, not anything I control. Turning away from ego stories and postures for the betterment of soul’s alignment. It’s a very humbling experience that many of us run from. I know I certainly did, for many years. Living an authentic life takes courage. Especially when fear is forcing you to give up. This past month I’ve had to dig deep and sit through more than a few dark nights of the soul to be rewarded the clarity that self introspection reveals. The recent eclipse season gifted me some hard to swallow truths yet in the core of my being, I knew I needed to see. Staying open, listening to Spirit and my guides while revisiting the more challenging soul lessons required me to love myself more than ever before. Finally, allowing the breakdowns to become breakthroughs.

We all want to be loved. Human beings are wired for connection and community. The way to this love is through deeply and thoroughly loving ourselves. Self acceptance is the key to inner peace. A quote by Lao Tzu says the three greatest treasures are simplicity, patience and compassion. I like to think of them as simplicity of mind creates joy, patience within the body brings peace and compassion in soul is love. The relationships I have with others can trigger a lot of old stories and coping behaviors I leaned on for survival while enduring trauma. These responses were a perceived security blanket for the purpose of protecting my heart. The ego’s desire to control everything in the mind, keeping us small and safe. This has always lead to self sabotage. The old stories fed to me over the years that sting and scream thoughts of “you’re too much”, “don’t show your emotions” and “be perfect”. The scars from emotional neglect in childood have taught me to hide myself by not letting anybody see my innermost feelings for fear of rejection and abandonment. The truth is neither of my parents were emotionally supportive or knew how to explain their own feelings. I learned to hide, stuff and carry not only my own but the energy of emotions from other people around me. Feelings were seen as burdensome. This experience taught me that I was unworthy of love without pain. Pain was intricately woven throughout the meaning of love.

Love is magic

Subsequently, I met men who were emotionally unavailable or who couldn’t match my own level of emotional intelligence and intuitiveness. The journey of healing over the past ten years while reparenting myself has taught me to value my feelings as the warning indicators for what my body needs. Carefully and mindfully nurturing myself welcomes unconditional love to flow. I believe we are all connected to a radiant light, a God consciousness that is made of love. Essentially we are LOVE! This is our purpose. To be love and shine love, to ourselves and one another. Allowing myself to be seen, felt and heard by another who is reflecting my soul back at me is a Divine experience. Love truly is patient and kind. Never boastful, it always protects, trusts, hopes, perservers and never fails.

My 8th book of poetry will be a collection that is all about love ,”My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. These poems are a culmination of what my journey through healing has taught me. The messages that have brought me closer to God and my life’s purpose as a healer. I’m here to show others how love heals and transforms. There is no possible explanation for how I have returned from the depths of abuse, trauma, addiction and suicide without God’s love and direction. This has arrived by the allowance of true love into my life! The Universe will give you signposts to follow, synchronistic gifts that are meant to teach us how to master the challenges in life. May we be released from ego and guided by soul to let love lead!

We operate on Divine time, it is precious and not our own
We are love, let it lead

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Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Inner child, Mental health, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

Love’s activation in Autumn

The ending of Libra season and the beginning of Scorpio (with a solar eclipse helping Venus’s powerful love activation) allows the winds of change to blow all around us my dear readers. As I look back on the poems I’ve written since my last post in August, I can feel how much I’ve changed. I’m happy to share that there is a new person of interest who has entered my life and is beginning to mean a lot to me. He is very special, quite intuitive and loves to make me laugh. We met one another organically. He’s a regular customer at the cafe I work in as a barista. He always orders the same thing (a medium blackberry cheesecake Gelato) yet from the first time we met, I knew there was something different about him. His high vibrational energy and light captivates and intrigues me on a soul level. One of our favorite things to do together is to go out dancing which you, my dear readers already know, is my number one soul expression.  Dance marries itself insightfully to writing as the messages I receive from Spirit to express myself authentically and divinely.

Welcome the air of being gifted to us during Libra season

I have been very busy too since August’s post and the release of the podcast interview for “Bring on the Woo”https://open.spotify.com/episode/5Dy8AqPHNamHJIKbLxlIcC?si=xZoy7556REGrCRFVXWevDA&utm_source=copy-link I’m shopping the manuscript for my 7th book of poetry called, “My Soul’s Music” to literary agents and publishing houses. Currently, I’m writing poems for my 8th book to be called, “My Soul’s Love”. I’m already thirty-two poms into it. I began this blog in October of 2018 and this month is my 4 year anniversary of sharing the channeled messages that have become the poems I’m meant to share with the world. During this time period, I’ve written 599 poems. The entirety of my body of work is documented throughout this blog to encompass the awakening experience both before and after.

The following poems and videos will be featured in the latest collection as the reflection of love I’m currently experiencing. I remain in awe of the messages from Spirit and from my soul as I continue to piece together the lessons and meaning for my life here as a writer and healer. As a channel and a vessel for the wisdom Spirit shares with me, these words come through to help me piece together my soul’s journey. Tiny breadcrumbs and clues that are bestowed upon me for the purpose of healing. Many of them end up in the healing sessions I provide to clients. Some come through clairaudience while others are whispered through my strongest ability which is clairsentience. “Ancient history” describes the karmic resolutions and the carrying out of a timeline to begin what I’ve waited many lifetimes to conquer. The beginning of the life I’ve only dreamed of until now. I’ve been promised a Divine love. My words as a writer are meant to be shared with the masses. All is about to be revealed as I break free from ancestral trauma and finally start to live my truth.

“Hear my words and watch my climb”

We are all golden threads of an Universal tapestry of Light, holy and bright. God bless your heart as we walk together creating the art of life! Embrace the holy child within and heal.

A glimpse inside my “awakened story”

Many people like to compare me to Mother Teresa, my namesake and the energy I bring into a space, with loving grace. I am continually humbled by the responsibility I carry as a vessel for Spirit. This poem was born from a word prompt to “introduce yourself” on the app I use to create my poetry. I’m an awakened and realized soul, enjoying a human experience as a woman walking this journey of life in truth after answering the call to heal from the trauma I’ve survived. I walk the path of the shaman by utilizing the insights I’ve learned to heal myself, I now specialize in healing trauma, addiction and mental health disorders in my clients. Claiming my truth as a psychic medium and channel by practicing the art of shamanism has transformed my life! Today, I am a free and authentic spirit, using my sensibilities as superpowers to transmute energy by the power of love, which is the fuel for magic. 

Maria Teresa

Love is the focus for my expression. Experiencing love at first sight is like electricity running through my heart. Two worlds colliding together making art. Musing upon every aspect that’s alive with an uniqueness all its own. Being in love is such a wonderful feeling and a blessing after so much healing. This is a reward for all the work I’ve put into my self growth!

Rejoicing in the aliveness of being! Enjoying the journey through this human experience. Spiritual healing is my calling and allows me to shine peace, love and joy. Believing in being, truth in seeing. All I can dream arrives in divine time. Love guides my steps as I walk gracefully ahead.

This poem is a prayer for my mother who suffers from severe, unhealed mental illness. I pray she finds peace. I ended our toxic relationship over 15 months ago because I know I needed to grow beyond the dysfunctional, codependent ties that we were bonded in. Only my siblings and I know our truth. I forgive her by accepting myself, something she doesn’t have the ability to do. It’s taken a long time to claim my wholeness and be healed through Spirit. By allowing myself to feel, I can be all I’m meant to be. I’m the one who is free!

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, relationships, Spirituality

Traveling into new emotional experiences, guided by soul

Welcome to the next few months of Summer my dear readers. I love the Sun, its ability to energize my being and amplify my upbeat personality. In this post I will share what I’ve learned this month while traveling the path of soul. My daily healing practices provide a clear lense in which I can view the importance of my purpose for this lifetime’s mission. Focusing on my spiritual ascension helps me to understand the many changes I’m going through and the impending arrival of new emotional experiences. The healing that I have done over the past ten years has birthed this gift.

In the final months of 2021, my spirit team began to prepare me for a new love interest and thus started the whisperings of intuitive information about this new person. I believe we all view life through different lenses, depending upon our view of self. The realization that I deserve to be loved the same way that I express love has transformed my way of thinking about my own worth. Years of viewing life through the lense of trauma, pain and suffering definitely created  dysfunction in the way I felt about myself and critically altered my self esteem. After ending and healing from my last intimate relationship, I now know I’m about to attract an energetic match for my heart. This man will view the world as I do, heart centered, open and living life from a place of truth and acceptance. His emotional intelligence is very high, he is well grounded and completely balanced.

When I tap into my intuitive guidance, I see us enjoying dinner by candlelight, laughing while listening to music, hiking the mountains that surround us, camping in the desert and simply enjoying one another’s company. He brings me flowers “just because” and we have long, deep conversations about God and Spirit. I can’t make out his face or features,  only seeing him as a shadow either next to or across from me. Spirit is keeping our meeting a complete surprise. Over this month I have been invited to let go and surrender to Divine timing by practicing patience, trust and faith. The poems in this post are all centered around this learning, growing and rising.

My dear readers, we are ALL deserving of love and kindness. Right now in our world, there is a huge shift going on. I invite you to clean your lense by investigating your own experiences and trusting the adventures your heart has traveled through. Believe in miracles because they are real and occur around us all the time. Believe that you are ready for a more Divine emotional experience and a higher love. I’ve lived here in the Salt Lake valley for almost ten months now surrounded by these magnificent mountains that absorb energy and are very grounding for me. The east coast has such a frenetic pace and energy that I do not miss at all. Here, it’s a lot quieter, allowing me to feel more of the oneness vibration, connectedness and threads. I see more and more synchronistic signs and omens. My intuitive feelings have heightened tremendously since last September. The instinctual dance of human experience paired with all that is alive in creation continues to fascinate me and raise the volume of communication. Every song is now much louder than ever before. I find that I’m feeling into a million new truths of awareness and love for absolutely everything without having to understand it. Just allowing all as it. As it has always been and will always be. Life on life’s terms. We all come here with a story to tell, a song to sing, a lesson to learn. Observing it all helps me to pay attention and practice mindfulness which fuels my curiosity, helping me to see the immensely beautiful world that surrounds me.

The heart always knows best. May this post invite you to drop into its intuitive guidance, leaving the mental chatter of mind’s stories behind. At least lower the volume of the conditioned ones it loves to rattle on about. Follow your heart and awaken to soul!

“Always remember”
“Beyond”

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Consciousness, Healing, Inner child, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

The circle game of healing

“Cyclical nature of life continously echos a resounding rhythm. Reverence of soul teaches me how to begin”. This is a quote from my poem “Peace, love and joy” and it perfectly captures my feelings in this moment. Spring has sprung and a new life has begun as I embark upon a new adventure. It’s an exciting time for me my dear readers so I must admit I was blindsided when triggers of fear and old thought patterns started whispering their lies of my brokenness again.

The experiences of deep healing over the past three years have taught me to closely inspect all aspects of my being, mind, body and soul. I’m currently putting a book promotion together for my latest book of poetry, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth”. I’m grateful to have these messages at my fingertips to reference, regroup and recenter myself back into the truth. “Corners of Love” is a poem inspired by the conscious breathwork and energy attunement sessions I practice regularly. Laughing at myself for taking all the pressure too seriously! Of course a new environment filled with new people and things to learn would trigger unnecessary fear! Healing myself has taught me to love myself back into balance. I’m not my past failures. I’m always beautifully and divinely whole, it’s my thinking that required a course correction as the mental chatter of ego grew too loud overpowering the voice of my highest self. She has a name my dear ones. I refer to my soul as Serena. Last week it felt like life turned up the volume on ego and the judgements of others I absorbed from the past. Their voices played loudly in a loop telling me the lies that began to plant illusions of insecurities. These weeds needed pulling so I took a break from their static and turned to meditation and breathwork. These self care practices combined with the voices of love coming from my family and friends began to settle me down! Once again, I could see I was putting far too much pressure upon myself and the old coping mechanisms of perfection were threatening my inner peace.

“Believing in receiving”

Life is a continuous cycle of learning from our past experiences and growing within the arms of love. The love I give myself is what awakens me to believing I am absolutely worthy of receiving abundance in my life. Somewhere along the way, after many years of trauma, I began to believe the opposite. That version of myself is no longer the vision I see in the mirror. This new cycle brought in uncomfortability and my first response was to pile on more pressure and beat myself up! “There is a wisdom of head and a wisdom of heart”, one of my favorite poet’s Charles Dickens said that. I believe it’s the discernment of the two that leads to the wisdom from our own souls. Breath and meditation allow me to feel into what is trying to come to the surface. Stagnant energy that’s been awaiting an answer from my body. In the past I would overextend my body by overexercising and distract myself with substances to block out the messages. Healing has provided me the space to listen instead to my intuition and the guidance of my Spirit team. Setting the intention to once again believe in myself and know I am worthy of receiving love. I can feel it in the air and see it in the newly blossoming spring flowers outside my door. So much beauty is coming my way in the form of opportunities and new relationships. I don’t have to be afraid that I’m “too much” or “too weird” or “not ready” for others to see me for me. I don’t have to stay trapped in mind games. Today, I can show myself grace and have patience as I learn the new tasks I’m responsible for. I don’t have to betray myself by self sabotaging the wonderful new opportunity before me with fear!

This experience isn’t mine alone my dear readers, it is for all of us to learn from. Running through life, attempting to catch up in this invisible race and competition with one another, we succumb to the pressures around us by creating unrealistic expectations for ourselves and marrying ourselves to attachments that aren’t serving us. Totally forgetting our intimate connection to one another through our Light and life force. Time and healing has taught me to dance and laugh at these extremes within myself and not act upon impulse. The only person I am trying to be today is a more aligned version of myself than last week or last year. Today, I choose to tune into the songs of Spirit. I hear the voice of my Dad, my grandparents, all the ancestors and angels that have been guiding my soul for centuries. Circling back to the truth I uncovered upon my awakening three years ago. I am whole, I am healthy, I am a beautifully capable child of God. Divinely connected, protected, guided and eternally loved. That is the truth that plays loudly on repeat throughout my entire being, the music I rise and dance to.

Standing in my own power and inner strength by forgiving myself for the times I blamed my soul awakening for ending relationships. The truth is that I was hiding within others, not feeling worthy of my own dreams and aspirations. I became distracted with trying to fix and heal others. Today I know it all starts within me. Circling around the truth again has showed me how to put on my “big girl panties” while loving my inner child who gets frightened by new situations. Today, I hold her close and tell her that nobody will hurt her again. The pain and trauma is over now. Turn up that “Soul music” my friends and dance until your heart’s content!

Dancing to the music of soul, is the resounding rhythm that beats in my heart. Played on my own unique drum.

Intentionally I open to new possibilities for love from a man. This is the soul connection and the kind of love I predicted in January of this year in the post https://emotional411017959.wordpress.com/2022/01/03/2022-is-the-year-for-love/?preview=true It’s coming with grand gusto and adoring gestures that I’ve always dreamed of. I’m a romantic, if you can’t tell by my writing my dear readers. Someday soon, a man will come into my life that will treat me the way I deserve to be treated. This man will be my equal, on my level of awakening awareness and be my true match. A soul partner to journey with and explore the adventures that life gifts us everyday. I’m ready and excited!

Believing in the love I am worthy of

This poem describes the transformation I have undergone and continue to grow within. Healing from the human experience is a condition we are all learning from in this life on Earth. Our souls never die. We will go onto exist in other forms of life after we leave our physical bodies in this one. This is the grand circle of life. Listen to this song by Nightmares on Wax my dear readers. Tap into the higher consciousness within its message. Groove with the rhythm of feelings and the vibration of love. https://youtu.be/Vc-XzhnwpVc

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.