Anxiety, Consciousness, Healing, Mental health, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

Being humbled by love

My dear readers, what an adventure I am on! In my last post, I wrote about meeting my soul’s mate and how our heart hymns and soul songs were orchestrating the most beautiful of dances. Currently I am understanding how setting boundaries is an important aspect of experiencing true love. This connection is definitely humbling me. In fact, it’s stretching and opening my heart more. Initially, I felt provoked by fear and anxiety as I attempted to dive deeper into my soul and its stories. The ocean that  my heart swims and floats within. Intuitively guided by the emotions that have been triggered, I have decided to take some space from this romantic relationship in favor of addressing my own needs that aren’t being met within the current state of our union together.

As a woman in recovery from abuse, I have survived and overcome addiction to drugs and alcohol which has gifted me clear insights into why I chose to use in the first place. Altering myself by obstructing the lens through which I viewed the world only masked the core wounds I had. It drove a huge wedge between my heart and my soul, numbing the feelings out and blurred the memories of the many traumas I had endured. Choosing to love myself, I now embrace my sobriety as a priority for my well-being. It keeps my channel clear to receive messages from Spirit. My purpose is to use what I’ve experienced as a guide to show others like you, my dear readers, that healing is not only possible but is the pathway to owning your power! I believe this can only be achieved through loving ourselves to wholeness. Accepting all of our human pieces, the dark and the light. The heavy feelings of pain and sadness are to be honored as equally as joy and peace. This is the messiness of being human! Learning to embrace my own humanity, through love, is how I evolve and raise my consciousness.

This current romantic relationship is mysterious and unique in the ways in which I dive into the depths of soul, now as a sober person. Parts of me I felt were broken are healed, creating an awakened wholeness. Awareness of purpose brings goose bumps to my skin and an inner grin of knowingness within. I am here as a vessel for Spirit, God, Source, Universe…..a higher power. Humbled by love, I embrace every moment, hour by hour. In the spiritual realm where I dance, time and space don’t exist. We all are one magnificence. Choosing my sobriety is empowering and an act of self-love as I let go of someone who is choosing another lifestyle.

Humble love

I choose to live life with no regrets because every experience is an adventure! Every relationship is another piece of the puzzle of me, showing me more and more of myself. I’m grateful to find myself at a place in my life where I’m meeting the depths of love I never truly knew before while in addiction. Abusing myself was void of any love to be given or received genuinely. Over the span of twenty-five years, I continued to block out God, which obstructed the understanding of what my purpose is. I was disconnected from my soul. The prayers of love have finally been answered. And so it is. Amen.

Love’s prayer

Believing in myself and trusting Spirit, I take a big leap of faith. There’s that word again, faith, my chosen word for 2023. Mysterious unknowns surround me, yet I know that only love is what serves me. It’s the only truth I have. Going forward with Divine’s grand plan. Here I go, step-by-step, into an adventure of a lifetime. Pushing past self-imposed fears, I am ready to embark upon my calling. I’m happy to announce that I have just completed the 8th book of poems to be titled, “My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. I intend for my 7th book (“My Soul’s Music”) as well as this latest one to be published and marketed by a publishing house. “My Soul’s Music” has already been accepted by a publisher, and now I’m focused on achieving funding to see this book onto the shelves of stores!

Adventure of a lifetime

We are in a massive shift, my dear readers, otherwise known as ecplise season. The cosmic energy, including solar storms, is bringing the highest frequency of love into our atmosphere. Life as we have known it is changing for the betterment of  all by directing us to our highest alignment. I’m compelled to answer this call, which is deepening the relationship with what truly matters. Love is all we need. Listening in as the ascended masters proceed to share their wisdom with me through channeled messages. I am humbled by this journey. For this human experience, I am worthy of all the love that resides in my heart. To love all that is is an aliveness of art!! Breathe deeply and accept all of this Light energy into your heart, for it breeds more love and is the fuel that manifests all the abundance you desire to create, my dear readers!

The Light of Love is calling

I’ve always loved words and reading. Books were my best friends growing up while attempting to block out the abuse I was experiencing in a dysfunctional home. This piece was inspired by a word prompt on the app I use to create my poetry, Miraquill. The platform was originally called Mirakee, which is derived from the Greek word Meraki, which means imbuing one’s soul, passion, and creativity into something. My soul is expressed through the poetry I write. The word was “story.” The lines flowed through to me with ease. Shamans are the storytellers of Spirit. It’s in my DNA. I come from a long line of great storytellers. I dedicate this poem to my ancestors. Thank you for guiding me and passing your wisdom along to me. I am humbled by your unwavering protection and deepening presence in my life!

Tell me a story

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, personal development, Spirituality

Poetry is the notes of my heart’s hymns and soul’s songs

The notes of my heart’s hymns deliver the music to my soul’s songs. Discovering the love within is what drew me to my soulmate. This experience is teaching me more about the tremendous power of love. It’s purity, the ability to heal and to encompass everything that is alive! Writing poetry is my soul’s expression and how I process the world around me. I channel these messages through clairsentience, clear feeling and clairaudience, clear hearing, like notes of a song. In this post, I will share twelve poems that celebrate the aliveness within my heart and the love that surrounds me. My heart is bursting with excitement for the love I feel inside, gratitude for the journey, and the gift of having true love with another. I’m experiencing a huge paradigm shift with the ushering in of new energies with this relationship. Absolutely, everything is different in the best ways and serves the higher alignment I now find myself in. The connection I feel with my mate is as easy as a summer breeze. As natural as a waterfall, flowing over a mountain peak. Our hearts hymns are a poetic match that amplifies the soul songs we hear from one another, singing a duet in the key of love.

This gift is something I have prayed for and yearned for for many years. Our union is a direct answer from the universe, showing me how much I have grown and healed through. This man freely gives me the love I deserve. Our love language is a match through physical touch and our love for The Grateful Dead. Our hippie hearts love to dance! Many of these poems are born from reflecting upon this current love adventure.

It’s an amazing miracle to witness how tremendously love grows between two hearts as it flows. Powerful feelings sprouting from an intuitive and shared language. My heart is eternally grateful for meeting its counterpart in another.

Since my suicide attempt in 2011, I’ve been gathering the pieces of myself. Shadow and Light combine to create the human experience equally by holding magical power. All these years later, I can see the value in both. I accept who I am. I love me. There’s no one I would rather be.

May we all become our own best friend

Throughout my life, I have always felt like I didn’t fit in. Now I understand it’s because I am born to lead. To help others see their own light. I’m not the only one. There are many of us who are different. We serve different roles here to spread God’s love. My purpose is to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. I lovingly refer to myself as a rainbow unicorn. I am here to blaze a new path. Today, I embrace this role and ask others to join me! Let’s all dance to the beat of our own internal drum. Composing a new Universal hum, LOVE!

The human experience is vast and deep. Soul awakens to hear the angels speak. Remaining in awe of its brilliant magic. Grateful heart filled with joy after releasing the static.

Searching for my heart’s song in another has brought me to my soulmate. He is my ultimate love for this lifetime. It’s like we’ve been seeking out one another for years. Listening for love’s song by deaf ears. Divine purpose has ignited our connection. Finally, we hear our love song as a complete and combined chorus!

I am ecstatic and in love with the man of my dreams! He sees me fully and embraces all my feels. We are deeply connected by soul. He is my divine match and together we are imperfectly perfect. I was given guided information back at the end of 2021 about how, in 2022, I would meet my soul’s true match. Read https://emotionalmusings.com/2022/01/03/2022-is-the-year-for-love/ for a detailed description of what Spirit was predicting for me. I met my man 12/17/22.

The choice is clear. Only love resides here. In the heart of us all, it sets us free!! May we choose to follow its intuitive language. Happiness is the product of this choice my dear readers. Hold onto it  and treat it as the precious commodity it is inside. One of the main prayers I recite daily is for God to help me to share the peace, love and joy that I hold inside with others on my journey. That is my intention. And so it is.

The greatest desires create the experiences of life. I’m learning to trust more deeply in these instincts. Embracing the complexities of my soul’s wholeness. Life is a mysterious adventure and love is the fuel that drives my desires.

The things I’ve learned in this life could fill thousands of pages. For now this poem is what is on my heart.

The path of healing taught me many things. Love is the greatest of all superpowers. May we all utilize its amazing frequency to change this world, starting with ourselves.

The human experience is about remembering who we are and creating that knowing into being. This occurs by our journey through darkness and acceptance of light. Both are vital. May your adventure be fruitful my dear readers. Amen.

Love is my muse, while I fall deeply into its grasp with the man of my dreams!!

Love is grown from inside and is alive

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, personal development, Spirituality

Taking a break for peace sake

The peace in letting go

In the weeks since my last post I have enjoyed a serendipitous retreat from technology. I set out for a run July 4th not knowing how my own personal freedom would be gained by losing my cell somewhere along the path. After searching the area thoroughly, I chose to look at the circumstances as a gift! Writing in a journal and checking emails periodically is how I’ve spent most of this month. I’ve developed new habits with my device like leaving it outside my bedroom and leaving it at home more often. Living life with my face in the world, not in a screen. These poems were born from conscious breathwork sessions and quiet meditation with an intentional focus on my continued healing journey.

Moon inspired musing

The main message I keep receiving is “the more you release, the more you become”. I love the feeling of consistency in my attention while being ablevto enjoy each moment without the distraction of a device. I feel released from continuous checking and mindless scrolling! It’s amazing how much more peaceful I feel. This change is a step towards opening to the new emotional experiences I wrote about in my last post, https://emotionalmusings.com/2022/06/28/traveling-into-new-emotional-experiences-guided-by-soul/

Choosing to put my energy and time into face to face interactions and uninterrupted communing with nature is what my heart desires. “Morning reprise” is a poem I wrote almost one year ago after moving here to the Salt Lake Valley in Utah. God bless second chances! I can feel the gratitude wash over me again as the theme from which I drew inspiration when writing this piece. The morning sunshine always uplifts me and refreshes my entire being. May the new moon (occurring on the 28th) ignite a fresh start to all of the dreams I’ve been weaving as art into my life. May I continue to shine from the inside out. The best of me has yet to be.

“Morning reprise”

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Consciousness, Healing, Inner child, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

The circle game of healing

“Cyclical nature of life continously echos a resounding rhythm. Reverence of soul teaches me how to begin”. This is a quote from my poem “Peace, love and joy” and it perfectly captures my feelings in this moment. Spring has sprung and a new life has begun as I embark upon a new adventure. It’s an exciting time for me my dear readers so I must admit I was blindsided when triggers of fear and old thought patterns started whispering their lies of my brokenness again.

The experiences of deep healing over the past three years have taught me to closely inspect all aspects of my being, mind, body and soul. I’m currently putting a book promotion together for my latest book of poetry, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth”. I’m grateful to have these messages at my fingertips to reference, regroup and recenter myself back into the truth. “Corners of Love” is a poem inspired by the conscious breathwork and energy attunement sessions I practice regularly. Laughing at myself for taking all the pressure too seriously! Of course a new environment filled with new people and things to learn would trigger unnecessary fear! Healing myself has taught me to love myself back into balance. I’m not my past failures. I’m always beautifully and divinely whole, it’s my thinking that required a course correction as the mental chatter of ego grew too loud overpowering the voice of my highest self. She has a name my dear ones. I refer to my soul as Serena. Last week it felt like life turned up the volume on ego and the judgements of others I absorbed from the past. Their voices played loudly in a loop telling me the lies that began to plant illusions of insecurities. These weeds needed pulling so I took a break from their static and turned to meditation and breathwork. These self care practices combined with the voices of love coming from my family and friends began to settle me down! Once again, I could see I was putting far too much pressure upon myself and the old coping mechanisms of perfection were threatening my inner peace.

“Believing in receiving”

Life is a continuous cycle of learning from our past experiences and growing within the arms of love. The love I give myself is what awakens me to believing I am absolutely worthy of receiving abundance in my life. Somewhere along the way, after many years of trauma, I began to believe the opposite. That version of myself is no longer the vision I see in the mirror. This new cycle brought in uncomfortability and my first response was to pile on more pressure and beat myself up! “There is a wisdom of head and a wisdom of heart”, one of my favorite poet’s Charles Dickens said that. I believe it’s the discernment of the two that leads to the wisdom from our own souls. Breath and meditation allow me to feel into what is trying to come to the surface. Stagnant energy that’s been awaiting an answer from my body. In the past I would overextend my body by overexercising and distract myself with substances to block out the messages. Healing has provided me the space to listen instead to my intuition and the guidance of my Spirit team. Setting the intention to once again believe in myself and know I am worthy of receiving love. I can feel it in the air and see it in the newly blossoming spring flowers outside my door. So much beauty is coming my way in the form of opportunities and new relationships. I don’t have to be afraid that I’m “too much” or “too weird” or “not ready” for others to see me for me. I don’t have to stay trapped in mind games. Today, I can show myself grace and have patience as I learn the new tasks I’m responsible for. I don’t have to betray myself by self sabotaging the wonderful new opportunity before me with fear!

This experience isn’t mine alone my dear readers, it is for all of us to learn from. Running through life, attempting to catch up in this invisible race and competition with one another, we succumb to the pressures around us by creating unrealistic expectations for ourselves and marrying ourselves to attachments that aren’t serving us. Totally forgetting our intimate connection to one another through our Light and life force. Time and healing has taught me to dance and laugh at these extremes within myself and not act upon impulse. The only person I am trying to be today is a more aligned version of myself than last week or last year. Today, I choose to tune into the songs of Spirit. I hear the voice of my Dad, my grandparents, all the ancestors and angels that have been guiding my soul for centuries. Circling back to the truth I uncovered upon my awakening three years ago. I am whole, I am healthy, I am a beautifully capable child of God. Divinely connected, protected, guided and eternally loved. That is the truth that plays loudly on repeat throughout my entire being, the music I rise and dance to.

Standing in my own power and inner strength by forgiving myself for the times I blamed my soul awakening for ending relationships. The truth is that I was hiding within others, not feeling worthy of my own dreams and aspirations. I became distracted with trying to fix and heal others. Today I know it all starts within me. Circling around the truth again has showed me how to put on my “big girl panties” while loving my inner child who gets frightened by new situations. Today, I hold her close and tell her that nobody will hurt her again. The pain and trauma is over now. Turn up that “Soul music” my friends and dance until your heart’s content!

Dancing to the music of soul, is the resounding rhythm that beats in my heart. Played on my own unique drum.

Intentionally I open to new possibilities for love from a man. This is the soul connection and the kind of love I predicted in January of this year in the post https://emotional411017959.wordpress.com/2022/01/03/2022-is-the-year-for-love/?preview=true It’s coming with grand gusto and adoring gestures that I’ve always dreamed of. I’m a romantic, if you can’t tell by my writing my dear readers. Someday soon, a man will come into my life that will treat me the way I deserve to be treated. This man will be my equal, on my level of awakening awareness and be my true match. A soul partner to journey with and explore the adventures that life gifts us everyday. I’m ready and excited!

Believing in the love I am worthy of

This poem describes the transformation I have undergone and continue to grow within. Healing from the human experience is a condition we are all learning from in this life on Earth. Our souls never die. We will go onto exist in other forms of life after we leave our physical bodies in this one. This is the grand circle of life. Listen to this song by Nightmares on Wax my dear readers. Tap into the higher consciousness within its message. Groove with the rhythm of feelings and the vibration of love. https://youtu.be/Vc-XzhnwpVc

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Community, Consciousness, Healing, Health, Mental health, Spirituality

I have a dream

Imagine.....peace, love and joy for all❤❤❤ Love is what heals us. Believe in its magic. Tap in and share it with yourself and others! Change is in the air dear friends. Grateful to be recognized by @miraquillapp for POD because this message needs to go viral.
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