personal development, relationships, Spirituality

2023’s free fall into faith

Walking in faith. Taking a leap of faith. These are the whispered intentions and reminders I have received from Spirit over the second half of this year. 2022 began with a belief that love would bloom in my life. The love that I have procured within myself over the past ten years on the healing journey I began when I decided to divorce my husband, get sober and uncover my purpose has begun to blossom new connections that show me how much I’ve grown. In this new year 2023, my intentions are to renew my trust in faith. A greater understanding of my soul purpose and the power that love has to heal all wounds.

The word faith means to have a complete trust in someone or something. The meaning I hold in my heart is the understanding of my own spiritual awakening, a continuous climb towards a higher consciousness as the relationship with my higher power grows. I choose to refer to this being as God, the creator of our universe and master of all living things. I firmly and unequivocally believe that God has helped me through all the trials in my life and is the teacher of my soul’s lessons. I believe that’s what the human experience is all about, why we come here and claim a body. It is our vehicle in which to learn the lessons our soul requires for ascension. In this lifetime alone, I believe I have healed through more than in eight lifetimes. The messages I receive and channel into the poetry I compose through my spirit guides helps me to further integrate trust and faith in the mysterious and divine timing of the holiest of beings, God.

This year, I intend to deepen my devotion and practice with my whole heart following the ways in which my ancestors have taught me how to feel closest to God. My word for 2023 is faith. Practicing shamanic rituals using crystals, herbs, oils and music is my favorite way of both honoring the spiritual team that supports me and sending prayers to them. Writing out intentions to be burned in moon ceremonies is something I practice for both the new moon and full moon each month. Everyday I kneel in front of my altar and pray for God to continue to mold me, to show me the way I can best be of use as a humble servant to the Light. I pray that I may share the light I carry with others in a gentle and compassionate way focusing on the peace, love and joy in my heart. I surrender to the ways that no longer serve me while lighting candles to deepen the intentions I set. I move energy by toning and chanting to stay balanced and grounded. Engaging in these rituals daily help to keep my vibration high and my spirit clean.

Writing poetry is how I process the world around me and articulate the nuances of energetic exchanges and experiences. Since my last post I have decided to end two relationships that meant a great deal to me. One I started over the summer and the other lasted for over twenty years. In both instances, I realized how much I have changed and healed through. I no longer intend to engage with people who don’t know their own power and have become an energetic drain on mine. The desire to be someone others need me to be for their acceptance of me is no longer an agreement I’m willing to make. Being able to clearly see my own value, I refuse to be treated harshly by others who don’t know their own worth. It’s ok to say goodbye to the older versions of myself that they were comfortable with because I know what I deserve and what I am worthy of. My time and energy are precious and I’m no longer interested in putting energy into people who aren’t an energetic match for me. This decision was not made quickly or in a reactionary way. I am choosing to take what I’ve learned and detach with love in a similar way I moved away from the toxic relationship with my mother two years ago. By doing this, I open myself up to new people and experiences that better serve my current frequency. People who serve my soul. I say no thank you to surface relationships. I’m looking for equality and a mutual understanding as we look one another in the eye. I offer an open mind and heart, a non judgemental attitude full of unconditional love. The days of me accepting less than this are officially over.

Recognizing all the growth I have experienced, the wisdom gained and tears shed. Full circle moments as I celebrated my 45th year last month, the end of an era of healing, 2012-2022. I walked the property of my best friend and the sacred land she now calls home. As I did, I gave the past versions of me the honor of release, back into Mother Earth. There is a tree growing between two rocks that she pointed out as me, a reflection of my journey. I will take with me the beauty of our time together. The gift of presence with my dear friend and my son. I pass the torch on to the next traveler of soul as I enter the next phase of my life. May 2023 show me more of my own truth as I further claim my power, my gifts and practice my soul’s purpose. I’m here to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing.

My journey of healing as represented in nature

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Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, Interview, Mental health, personal development, Podcast, Spirituality

Bring on the Woo interview

Listen to an interview for the podcast "Bring on the Woo"

I’m pleased to share an interview I did for “Bring on the Woo” in association with the online community of healers I belong to, Mystics4Hire. Listen and let me know your thoughts. I welcome you, my dear readers, to share your own story of healing and redemption.

The following is the introduction to the interview:

Bring On The Woo Podcast. The underworld feels so far away when we are feeling good & healthy but when we are in the depths of despair in our soul, from there it feels just like a millimeter away. A dark start to our journey today but deeply important as In today’s story we have Maria Teresa who takes us on her journey of crossing that bridge of the deepest darkness into the light by attempting to end her own life and fortunately for us failing, so that she could then rebuild from the absolute Ground Zero to now help others. Her story takes us on the twists and turns of the trauma and abuse she suffered in childhood to the literal resurrection of her life. Maria was able to do this through shamanistic practices, therapy, breathwork and poetry. Using these mediums herself with a little bit of coffee and gelato thrown in there to boot, she is able to help transform the lives of the people around her.

Maria’s awakening path begins at the moment she decided to take her life and failed. Having been deeply abused as a child and finding herself in abusive relationships she was done with trying to live as what she calls a highly sensitive individual in a seemingly insensitive world. She said when she woke up from the hospital, after realizing she had failed to die, she heard the voice of God come to herand say ‘now what? You’re as low as you can get, how do you get out of this dark place now?’ It was from that point on that she realized she needed to focus on herself, immersing herself in prescribed therapy, discovering shamanism and beginning the journey of writing poetry, to which she is now in book 7. Maria is a big advocate of utilizing multiple modalities to help keep someone on track, citing things like sensory deprivation tanks have been really positive experiences for her or a consistent breathwork practice is vital to her continued well being. She emanates this, as quite a few people will say what a great energy she has & that is what keeps her motivated to continue doing her work.

One of the most amazing transformations she has been party to has been that of her friend, whose mother had died & energetically was trying to take over her body. Maria said that she could even see the spirit of her friend’s mother overlaid in her features. She said that it was not quite to the extent you would consider an exorcism, she & another friend were able to excise the remaining energyof spirit & move it to the light. It was a humbling experience for her that her friend told her completely changed/saved her. Maria also said that her journey with her best friend has been one of the greatest gifts of her life as well so that even though they may be on different sides of the country & apart for more than seven years, they have always remained close & each other’s biggest advocates for growth& spiritual evolution. Thank you so much for joining & now let’s dive in!

I am here to share my experience, strength and hope with others on the journey to heal. My motto is “Triumphing over Trauma” and I am here to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. Follow me at Emotional Musings on WordPress and check out the healing services I provide. In light and in shadow, always with love ❤️ Namaste 🙏

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings


Healing, personal development, Spirituality

Taking a break for peace sake

The peace in letting go

In the weeks since my last post I have enjoyed a serendipitous retreat from technology. I set out for a run July 4th not knowing how my own personal freedom would be gained by losing my cell somewhere along the path. After searching the area thoroughly, I chose to look at the circumstances as a gift! Writing in a journal and checking emails periodically is how I’ve spent most of this month. I’ve developed new habits with my device like leaving it outside my bedroom and leaving it at home more often. Living life with my face in the world, not in a screen. These poems were born from conscious breathwork sessions and quiet meditation with an intentional focus on my continued healing journey.

Moon inspired musing

The main message I keep receiving is “the more you release, the more you become”. I love the feeling of consistency in my attention while being ablevto enjoy each moment without the distraction of a device. I feel released from continuous checking and mindless scrolling! It’s amazing how much more peaceful I feel. This change is a step towards opening to the new emotional experiences I wrote about in my last post, https://emotionalmusings.com/2022/06/28/traveling-into-new-emotional-experiences-guided-by-soul/

Choosing to put my energy and time into face to face interactions and uninterrupted communing with nature is what my heart desires. “Morning reprise” is a poem I wrote almost one year ago after moving here to the Salt Lake Valley in Utah. God bless second chances! I can feel the gratitude wash over me again as the theme from which I drew inspiration when writing this piece. The morning sunshine always uplifts me and refreshes my entire being. May the new moon (occurring on the 28th) ignite a fresh start to all of the dreams I’ve been weaving as art into my life. May I continue to shine from the inside out. The best of me has yet to be.

“Morning reprise”

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Healing, Mental health, personal development, Spirituality

Poems are the notes of my soul’s music

Now that eclipse season has passed, I’m settling into more revelations and truths from the things I’ve needed to release. The continuous cycle of healing from the human experience as opened me up to another level of awakening. Becoming more aware of what fits the skin I’m currently in and deciding what I’ve outgrown. This is a mindful check-in, a daily practice I committed to three years ago to make adjustments where needed and align with what suits me best. I uncover these truths in many ways. Through writing poetry, meditation, sound frequency healing, setting crystal grids and breathwork. Continuous communication with Mother Nature and with my spirit team help me to feel into the answers intuitively. Allowing myself to be led by my heart and open to love. Love is the healing guide, the protective force and the truth in everything!

When life changes and speeds up, that’s when I know it’s time to slow down. “Listen and observe”, this is the strongest message for me lately. Making sure I’m getting enough rest and consuming the things that will sustain peace, love and joy internally. These are some of my latest poems for a new book in the works entitled, “My Soul’s Music”. As I continue to face the effects that trauma has had upon my being, I learn how strong, resilient and resourceful I am. These past three years I have moved all around the country six times, ended an almost 9 year romantic relationship, said good bye to my Dad in physical form and terminated the relationship with my mother. Each of these decisions have been extremely difficult and carried their own challenges and circumstances. I changed jobs three times and have written five books of poetry between 2020 and today. I discovered my soul’s purpose of being a shaman and through writing I intend to help inspire others. Healing is indeed possible and we are all worthy of love! We are the ones we have been waiting for! I’m grateful to God for lending me the strength in facing everything I have walked through, with grace and dignity. I can honestly say I am proud of the woman I am today.

My purpose is clear about why I’m here. It’s to help heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. By sharing my testimony of “Triumphing over Trauma” and using my sensitivities as superpowers. I have faced all kinds of abuse, physical, mental, emotional and sexual. I overcame drugs and alcohol and a lifelong eating disorder. I committed to healing myself after attempting suicide in 2011 by believing that I am worthy of love. My human experience has taught me to be grateful for the air I breathe and the water I drink. The people I meet who show me there is unconditional love held within every living creature on the planet. I choose to embrace the love inside by feeling my feelings. That’s how the medicine comes in, after the emotional release of energy. We are so very powerful my friends. By becoming who we are meant to be, we unpack the wisdom of  our soul. Be who you are. Our world needs your unique gifts!!

Remember who you are
Heart opening messages

Life is mysterious, messy, unnerving and beautiful. Taking chances with a heart so full and giving has taught me many lessons. This last poem is a musing upon my last relationship. The healing from this major life change is something I’m still learning lessons from through the eyes of compassion and love. It was a long good bye that took me 2 years to completely detach from. In the end I’m grateful for having learned so much. After surrendering control of what wasn’t mine to carry came forgiveness. Love is all that remains. Always.

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Mental health, Spirituality

Interview with Christy Strauch

What is a shaman?

I’m pleased to share an interview I just did for a new community called @mysticsforhire. I believe by sharing our stories we feel less alone and can connect while healing from this human experience. My soul’s purpose is to help others heal through shamanic healing and poetry. In 16:44 minutes, we covered all the bases of who I am, what I have healed through and continue to learn from AND I share a poem from my latest book, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light”.

I’m going to link this interview to a blog post I wrote November 2, 2020, 2 months after being annointed a shaman through a sweat lodge ceremony. If you’re curious about what a shaman is and does please read https://emotionalmusings.com/2020/11/02/what-is-a-shaman-celebrating-my-ancestors-and-soul-work/

Truth of the Lightworker

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.