Consciousness, Healing, Inner child, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

The circle game of healing

“Cyclical nature of life continously echos a resounding rhythm. Reverence of soul teaches me how to begin”. This is a quote from my poem “Peace, love and joy” and it perfectly captures my feelings in this moment. Spring has sprung and a new life has begun as I embark upon a new adventure. It’s an exciting time for me my dear readers so I must admit I was blindsided when triggers of fear and old thought patterns started whispering their lies of my brokenness again.

The experiences of deep healing over the past three years have taught me to closely inspect all aspects of my being, mind, body and soul. I’m currently putting a book promotion together for my latest book of poetry, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth”. I’m grateful to have these messages at my fingertips to reference, regroup and recenter myself back into the truth. “Corners of Love” is a poem inspired by the conscious breathwork and energy attunement sessions I practice regularly. Laughing at myself for taking all the pressure too seriously! Of course a new environment filled with new people and things to learn would trigger unnecessary fear! Healing myself has taught me to love myself back into balance. I’m not my past failures. I’m always beautifully and divinely whole, it’s my thinking that required a course correction as the mental chatter of ego grew too loud overpowering the voice of my highest self. She has a name my dear ones. I refer to my soul as Serena. Last week it felt like life turned up the volume on ego and the judgements of others I absorbed from the past. Their voices played loudly in a loop telling me the lies that began to plant illusions of insecurities. These weeds needed pulling so I took a break from their static and turned to meditation and breathwork. These self care practices combined with the voices of love coming from my family and friends began to settle me down! Once again, I could see I was putting far too much pressure upon myself and the old coping mechanisms of perfection were threatening my inner peace.

“Believing in receiving”

Life is a continuous cycle of learning from our past experiences and growing within the arms of love. The love I give myself is what awakens me to believing I am absolutely worthy of receiving abundance in my life. Somewhere along the way, after many years of trauma, I began to believe the opposite. That version of myself is no longer the vision I see in the mirror. This new cycle brought in uncomfortability and my first response was to pile on more pressure and beat myself up! “There is a wisdom of head and a wisdom of heart”, one of my favorite poet’s Charles Dickens said that. I believe it’s the discernment of the two that leads to the wisdom from our own souls. Breath and meditation allow me to feel into what is trying to come to the surface. Stagnant energy that’s been awaiting an answer from my body. In the past I would overextend my body by overexercising and distract myself with substances to block out the messages. Healing has provided me the space to listen instead to my intuition and the guidance of my Spirit team. Setting the intention to once again believe in myself and know I am worthy of receiving love. I can feel it in the air and see it in the newly blossoming spring flowers outside my door. So much beauty is coming my way in the form of opportunities and new relationships. I don’t have to be afraid that I’m “too much” or “too weird” or “not ready” for others to see me for me. I don’t have to stay trapped in mind games. Today, I can show myself grace and have patience as I learn the new tasks I’m responsible for. I don’t have to betray myself by self sabotaging the wonderful new opportunity before me with fear!

This experience isn’t mine alone my dear readers, it is for all of us to learn from. Running through life, attempting to catch up in this invisible race and competition with one another, we succumb to the pressures around us by creating unrealistic expectations for ourselves and marrying ourselves to attachments that aren’t serving us. Totally forgetting our intimate connection to one another through our Light and life force. Time and healing has taught me to dance and laugh at these extremes within myself and not act upon impulse. The only person I am trying to be today is a more aligned version of myself than last week or last year. Today, I choose to tune into the songs of Spirit. I hear the voice of my Dad, my grandparents, all the ancestors and angels that have been guiding my soul for centuries. Circling back to the truth I uncovered upon my awakening three years ago. I am whole, I am healthy, I am a beautifully capable child of God. Divinely connected, protected, guided and eternally loved. That is the truth that plays loudly on repeat throughout my entire being, the music I rise and dance to.

Standing in my own power and inner strength by forgiving myself for the times I blamed my soul awakening for ending relationships. The truth is that I was hiding within others, not feeling worthy of my own dreams and aspirations. I became distracted with trying to fix and heal others. Today I know it all starts within me. Circling around the truth again has showed me how to put on my “big girl panties” while loving my inner child who gets frightened by new situations. Today, I hold her close and tell her that nobody will hurt her again. The pain and trauma is over now. Turn up that “Soul music” my friends and dance until your heart’s content!

Dancing to the music of soul, is the resounding rhythm that beats in my heart. Played on my own unique drum.

Intentionally I open to new possibilities for love from a man. This is the soul connection and the kind of love I predicted in January of this year in the post https://emotional411017959.wordpress.com/2022/01/03/2022-is-the-year-for-love/?preview=true It’s coming with grand gusto and adoring gestures that I’ve always dreamed of. I’m a romantic, if you can’t tell by my writing my dear readers. Someday soon, a man will come into my life that will treat me the way I deserve to be treated. This man will be my equal, on my level of awakening awareness and be my true match. A soul partner to journey with and explore the adventures that life gifts us everyday. I’m ready and excited!

Believing in the love I am worthy of

This poem describes the transformation I have undergone and continue to grow within. Healing from the human experience is a condition we are all learning from in this life on Earth. Our souls never die. We will go onto exist in other forms of life after we leave our physical bodies in this one. This is the grand circle of life. Listen to this song by Nightmares on Wax my dear readers. Tap into the higher consciousness within its message. Groove with the rhythm of feelings and the vibration of love. https://youtu.be/Vc-XzhnwpVc

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Consciousness, Healing, Spirituality

Being is freeing, a poetic testimony

Everyday when I tap in and ask Spirit what it is I most need to pay attention to, the reoccurring theme and message I receive is to practice the art of allowing. Finding a balance between the complexities of living as an awakened soul in human form while swimming in this intense cosmic atmosphere requires courage. It was George S. Patton that said, “Courage is fear holding on a minute longer” and so as I move through last week’s full moon and partial lunar eclipse, diving head first into the energetic pressure that breaks and dissolves layers of fear from this third dimensional density, the physical environment on Earth, life reveals the many truths that were hiding under trauma and emotional scars. Being is what’s freeing. Being me and accepting all that is within while letting go of the lies conditioning has fed me.

Remembering the purity of love and the feeling that freedom’s essence gives forces me to drop what doesn’t serve the highest alignment of myself and my true nature. The more I try to hold onto the old and outdated beliefs I’ve been fed, the more pain I create for myself. The truth is I have been covered in a heavy blanket of fear to fit in, assimilate to those around me,  shaped by anger’s tones as they maniplated and taught me to betray myself, my soul became suspended in its human vessel. I learned to numb my innate nature that is love, pure and divine. Seeking this love and attention  from outside of myself in an external form creates suffering. I believe our culture has become addicted to the lie of suffering and control which causes us to forget the spiritual beings of light we are. Right now we are experiencing bursts of light pouring in that require us to breath more deeply as we dance with the change and newness that our world is in desperate need of. Throw away the old, the “normal” and embrace the unknown. This is a great challenge my dear readers! Welcome New Earth! This month continues to stretch me as I observe an abundance of truths that continue to rise like bubbles to the surface of my consciousness healing deep emotional wounds from the past. The people we choose to have relationships with become our greatest teachers and the lessons we learn give us a closer glimpse into ourselves. I’ve been in observation mode, focusing on healing with the people around me now and the ones with whom I’ve detached from with love. Poetry expresses these growing pains as my Light body grows.

The eleven poems in this post are the emotional musings from these relationships and what I’ve learned. Poetry is how I understand my soul’s journey, it’s expansion and the direction in which it’s heading. “Highest self” is the poem I recite in the shamanic healing sessions I hold with clients to connect our energies and explore what soul has to teach, what is ready to be revealed and what is to come. Alchemizing fear, sadness, anger and shame chords of energy back into love and light so that the soul can continue to rise and tell its truths. This is the adventure of life my dear readers, what sparks aliveness and keeps me ever curious of the connection we all share. The raw life force within us all that continues to heal and amaze me. Observing how we effect one another brings tears of gratitude to my eyes as love overflows.

“Being is freeing” came to me through meditation. Each line is a mantra for the chakras. At the base of the spine lies the root chakra which grounds us into the Earth with love. Two finger widths below the belly button is the sacral chakra, the center of our feelings. Two finger widths above the belly button, at our core is the solar plexus chakra, the center of energy controlling our relationships with both ourselves and others. In the middle of our chest lies the heart chakra, our center for love, a magnet to both give and receive. In our neck is the throat chakra, the energy there allows us to communicate our truth openly and honestly. In the center of the forehead lies the third eye chakra, center of energy where intuition lives, feeding us inner wisdom. At the top of the head is the crown chakra, the center for Divine wisdom, understanding of the Universe and our place in it. Blockages of energy within each chakra create negative chords that inhibit us from expressing ourselves freely and are the root cause of all physical ailments from skin issues, digestive problems and heart conditions. These poems are created by tapping into divine guidance, listening to Spirit as they deliver the truths that flood my system with love and heal the chakra system thus furthering the healing of my soul. May each of these poems create the peace, love and joy that sparks the life force within as you continue to remember the truth of your soul’s journey.

Yesterday I awoke at 4:44. The number four is the most stable number. Almost from prehistoric times, the number four was employed to signify what was solid, what could be touched and felt. Its relationship to the cross (four points) made it an outstanding symbol of wholeness and universality, a symbol which drew all to itself (Source:Google) It is said that repeating 4’s/444 is a spiritual number that signifies the end of one phase of life and the beginning of another. … 444 can also be interpreted as a sign for patience, faith, and peace in your life. The meaning of 444 is usually that you are on the right path. Whatever you are pursuing in life, you are heading in the right direction. (Source:Google)

The synchronicity of 4 continued as I wrote my 444th poem, “Dream a little dream of me”. I’m turning 44 on December 9th. Wherever my path leads, I am at peace. My journey here is that of a storyteller, a time traveler as I connect to my soul in the astral plane through lucid dreams, transcending the physical body and experience astral projection. This is a phenomenon that has been occurring a lot more lately. The more I feel, the more I heal and can connect to these mysterious places within that require nothing more than being, in quiet and stillness.

November 24th will mark one year since my Dad passed over into the spiritual realm thus leaving this physical plane. Upon hearing the news of his passing, most people tell me how sorry they are and my honest response surprises them when I smile and say, please don’t be. My Dad and I are much more connected, our relationship is much more meaningful now than it was when he was here on Earth in human form. He is my top advisor and guide. As a shaman, I have the unique ability to hear souls. My Dad is always reminding me to let go and be free as I hear his voice sing the song of sovereignty through the hawk that flies above. On Halloween, I dressed as Fire, my elemental sign as a Sagittarius. I am passionate, creative and fiery in my presence. I express my love as fire in this world and burn as brightly as I can, dulling my shine for no one. Does fire ask permission to burn? This is my truth.

Burn as bright as you feel my dears

Lastly, I want to leave you with a meditation I created in August called “Harmonious love”. It serves here as a preview and an introduction to what a healing session with me is like. Each of us holds a piece to the grand movie that is life. We’re all playing a role and experiencing the action together as one just at different levels and speeds. I’m here to reach a hand out to my brothers and sisters in love and in light for guidance and healing.

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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Listen to Harmonious Love .mp3 by Maria Teresa Pratico on #SoundCloud
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Consciousness, Healing, Spirituality

Energy’s pressure cooker

Collectively as we navigate all the change our world is experiencing from to the pandemic, it’s natural to feel the pressure on an energetic level from those around us. As we enter November, with holidays looming ahead, my sensitive soul feels like it’s been put into a pressure cooker with the heat set on high. This is something I feel both internally and externally. The writer in me retreats to my journal for a thorough brain dumping. That’s what I call the release of thoughts and feelings into words, creating little pictures in my imagination that blossom into poetic lines as my soul’s expression through poetry is born. Releasing all the pressure I feel inside, cleanses my being and widens the container so that I can accept all the love life is giving me. Dancing with all the newness in my environment as I continue to acclimate to a new job meeting new people all the time, all while reconnecting with family that I haven’t lived with for almost thirty years. This pressure blocks me from love and abundance, the truth of my being.

When I feel like I want to escape, hide and vanish into thin air; that’s when I know it’s time to slow down and return to my breath. To quietly witness whatever emotional activation has been raised. Tuning my attention inwards to cool the fires that rage inside me. Juggling a new schedule is one aspect of life that creates anxiety within, causing time management issues. I loathe having to manage my personal time between what I have to do outside the home and what I want to create, allowing the passion within to keep burning. It’s a practice and a balancing act as I intuitively tap in, becoming keenly aware that I’m the one who is far too demanding of myself. Deciding what to prioritize when I require rest and self care suddenly becomes a fight with my own drive and aliveness as I try to get everything that requires my attention finished quickly so that I can just be. Reconnecting to that happy place, my sweet spot inside is when I’m witnessing my own monkey mind’s gymnastics during meditation. Holding light to the truths that rise to the surface allows the internal temperature to cool and slows everything down so that the creative juices can flow and be expressed effortlessly.

Writing poetry is how I process the world around me and offers the testimony of my journey through healing from the human condition. I’ve often written about how all my sense settings are set to high. Being an empath, a psychic channel and medium for Spirit continues to teach me how important it is for me to remain vigilant and focused on my inner work, to peel the layers of conditioning and reveal more and more of my own soul. These cycles of death and rebirth often times create the feeling of being naked in front of the entire world! Adjusting to the changes in my life, allowing and accepting all the pieces of me that demand to be seen while shedding ego’s cries for the predictable and safe responses can feel daunting within the pressure cooker. I understand the pressure is necessary for changes to manifest the highest alignment of myself for the betterment of this journey’s evolution. Locked into a sacred dance with Spirit, allowing my soul to lead, learning the lessons I came here to learn in this reincarnation is what keeps me going. Releasing stubborn tendencies to be rigid with myself, forcing things to happen repeatedly shows me that I will continue to be disappointed in the outcomes. Therefore, surrendering to the flow of life, employing a deeper patience and allowing the most divine love, the highest love we all are deserving of and is meant for us, takes time. Feeling the pressure is a part of the growth process.

I often refer to the intuitive messages I receive as puzzle pieces. I am to observe and file them until necessary. I look at life from within a snowglobe that has been shook up, scattering these pieces everywhere. Living life on life’s terms, in each present moment, puts these pieces together in an order that’s meant for each of us. We are all one living organism broken up into pieces, experiencing different scenes within a master story we call life. Each of us have different roles, lessons to learn and jobs to carry out. The one thing we all have in common is love. Shine and share love with one another, no matter what. It is the fuel that keeps our life force energy alive! We are made from and will return to love the more we open our hearts and recognize the human within us all. This intention releases the pressure of competition, the mind chatter of false narratives, judgements and drive to be perfect. I invite you my dear readers to get quiet and return to your center, breathing in love and exhaling fear. What is the pressure you feel within teaching you?

The light you carry within is the key to connection
We are all deserving
Peeling the layers,revealing truth
Shadow work in a poem
I AM love, you are love, we are all love
Nature teaches us that Light is alive and in everything

“Need and Love” excerpt by Thomas Merton:

“Love is, in fact an intensification of life, a completeness, a fullness, a wholeness of life…Life curves upward to a peak of intensity, a high point of value and meaning, at which all its latent creative possibility go into action and the person transcends himself or herself in encounter, response and communion and self-transcendence. We do not become fully human until we give ourselves to each other in love”

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

The Sound of Silence

It’s been a little over three months since I’ve written a blog post. The longest stretch of silence for this passionate writer who enjoys sharing her journey with all the world as a testimony of “Triumphing over Trauma”. Since July, I’ve been quietly tending to my own personal healing journey. Some people have swiftly left my life in order for me to move onto relationships that serve my highest alignment. Big changes include endings that were necessary yet bitterly difficult and led to rebirth. I’ve moved (again) twice actually, leaving Florida for good and finding myself settled back in the West, with my big sister and my brother-in-law outside Salt Lake City. I’ve stepped back into the world of working a job outside my home as a vitamin and herbal supplement expert in a local farmer’s market while still growing my healing business and writing many new poems to be included in my 6th book of poetry, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth”. The things I have felt, processed, experienced and healed required solitude, peace and the priceless sound of silence.

What does listening to the sound of silence mean? I found one writer’s definition on Google stating that “It helps us see the empty, selfless, uncertain, transient nature of all experience and patterns of consciousness. The sound of silence is also helpful in developing attention and continuity of mindfulness. When the mind becomes very calm and focused, the breath can grow quieter and quieter”. In my practices I have developed the ability to attune to my own heartbeat and feel into both the nothingness and all encompassing everythingness. The grand abyss of the unknown. There lies peace and love which brings a joyful curiosity to all of creation surrounding us. After such sessions in silence I can feel how intricate a role we are all invited to play by our interactions with one another. Leading with love or reactive to fear. These vibrations yield choices and play a major role in how we treat ourselves and one another.

Growing up in a chaotic and dysfunctional home, silence meant anger, sadness and an intensity of unease would set in as I awaited the shoe to drop. It felt like a bomb going off as the emotional roller coaster would begin and I, an unwilling passenger was forced upon it, never knowing when it would end or if I could ever get off. Over time I learned how to drown my sensitivities out and abandon my self care needs. It’s required years of introspection to understand how all of my past now serves me today. How to heal myself, take care of myself and create healthy boundaries with others. I use my sensitivities and sensibilities as superpowers to discern the energy all around me. It’s helped me tremendously decipher what’s mine, what’s not and how to transmute the fear I feel back into love for myself first and then others. Many of the life experiences these past thirty-five years could have turned me bitter, angry and resentful. Instead, I choose to allow them to shape and mold my heart into a more loving, kind and empathetically open person who sees the Light in others. Silence has taught me to be compassionate towards the struggles of my fellow sisters and brothers. Listening to my own heartbeat, I hear the rhythm that lies within us all. Beating steadily is a message that we all need love, forgiveness, understanding and acceptance. These are what I choose to shine onto others. It all starts from within. We teach others how to treat us by how we treat ourselves. Be your own hero, best friend and love the crap out of yourself my friends!!

Resurfacing now from the silence is poignant because October celebrates the milestone of my three year anniversary here on WordPress. In December I will be ringing in my 44th birthday and these are the 44 poems I’ve written since my vow of silence July 4th. I invite you to close your eyes after reading each one and allow whatever emotion is stirred in you to rise and be seen, accepted and loved. We heal together, as one. We rise together in love. Within every season is the cycle of death and rebirth. My dear ones, we are to embrace all the sensations and every feeling for they are the sacred messages life presents us so we can continue this ride through life, to heal with more wisdom and clarity. Change is constant and growth is guaranteed if one can be brave enough to fail and keep trying. Sure the road is bumpy at times, there are detours and new available routes will arise when we trust that where we are being led serves a higher purpose. I urge you dear ones, through these poems to witness each piece of your soul and dream. Life continues to amaze, inspire and teach me. May you see your path illuminate and direct you clearly forwards. In light and in shadow, always with love ❤ Namaste 🙏

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below or see the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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