In the four years since the profound spiritual awakening I experienced in June of 2019, I continue to process the complexities of the lessons my soul has come here to master in this lifetime. What does it mean to master something? “To learn something thoroughly so that you know it or can do it very well.” In my case, I’ve been on the adventure of a lifetime, curious to master soul information and what inspires me as I dance the human experience. I feel that my journey has led me through darkness and now into the light. In 2016, I composed my first published article focusing on breaking free from addiction, mental health concerns, and the state of our mental healthcare system using my own life experience as testimony. https://www.thesoberworld.com/2016/06/01/walking-dark-light/ took me six months to process and write. It serves as the beginning of my writing career. In October, Emotional Musings will celebrate five years of being a part of the WordPress community and sharing the 650 poems I’ve written.
Learning to embrace and accept the trauma, addiction, and pain from having an eating disorder taught me that I didn’t have to beat myself up from the inside. I learned to turn these shadow pieces of myself into medicine for the soul. I choose to no longer suffer. The last four years have brought me to peace. Peace, love, and joy within myself. I’ve used these experiences as inspiration to heal not only myself but for others on the path to wellness. I will never cease exploring ways in which to better myself, mind, body, and spirit. Often, I have written here that I feel compelled by my soul. I’ve transformed my entire life by the choices I make in living a balanced and clean lifestyle. I’ve begun to channel poems for my 9th book of poetry to be called “My Soul’s Inspiration.”
Again, I find myself in another cycle of death and rebirth, shifting away from what doesn’t serve me. As I shared in the last post, leaving a romantic relationship that wasn’t fulfilling my needs was difficult. I have always been more concerned about hurting others and have learned to put my own feelings on the back burner in order to be loved. Alas, that’s not how it works. The energetic shifts I’m feeling are opening me up in ways I haven’t been able to express in poetic form for over a month. This is the 1st time I’ve not felt like writing a poem in 5 years! I took the necessary time to be still and process what arose in the first part of 2023. Finally, the flood gates of creativity have reopened to allow me to share my personal testimony of truth. Here’s to a better me.
My father passed over from COVID two days before Thanksgiving in 2020. He is my #1 spirit guide, and his presence is always with me. He’s taught me about forgiveness and the greatest lesson of all, love. Patience is the virtue that I need to practice continually through temperance. He reminds me of this whenever I feel the need to judge myself or others, react harshly, beat myself up, or behave in a way that is outside of my true nature. His latest lesson is about the importance of being honest with myself. Being true to me, no matter what. In the end, it’s all about love. Always and forever. Thank you, Daddy.
The spiritual realm has many different entities, and they communicate in the Light’s language through many different pathways. At night, I’m often visited by many higher vibrational light beings who transmit coding into my being. It takes time to process and decipher their codes into human language because these downloads shift my being on a cellular level. So much energy is radiating through me that I can’t quite yet understand. Believing in the power this energy holds, I know it will change all of humanity. One by one. We are being reborn. The grand shift has begun. Can you feel it, my dear readers? Are you curious about how these changes are affecting you?
Ending the relationship I was in hurt my heart because I knew I was going to inevitably hurt the man I was seeing. My brother-in-law is someone I trust and have known for more than half of my life. I talk with him often about what’s going on in my life. He’s a good listener. I was crying to him about how hard it is for me to find someone who is willing to take on a romantic relationship with a woman like me. I know I’m different, having extrasensory abilities and Autism. Many people simply don’t speak my language. He told me how brave I am at even attempting to find love. His remark stopped me and got me thinking. I have always been in search of a true soulmate. I do believe we have more than one. I know I have been in long-term relationships with two, my ex-husband and the man I was with for eight years, and have known for ten. I was fully aware of the differences between myself and this latest love interest before we started seeing one another. I was deeply drawn to his soul. We do indeed share a very strong connection. I see people’s souls and know things about them that they themselves are unaware of. It’s an interesting dance, learning about someone from the inside out. Voices whisper my fate as I stand beside the angels. Their words are at times louder than what I clearly can hear from the person before me. Bowing down to accept their plan for the next chapter of my life. Believing in the mission of what I came to accomplish. Being human, sharing in the experience is an adventure of a lifetime for any soul. Helping others to heal is my goal. I believe I got caught up in something that isn’t meant to be for us here in this lifetime, yet I am to help him know himself better and heal. We are friends. For this, my heart is grateful.
Two practices I implement daily are breathwork and meditation. Meditation is the vehicle I ride to the inside, where wisdom collides with feeling, truth is all seeing. My mind becomes quiet, and the voice of my soul begins to speak. Peace is obtained through breath and the act of being with all that is alive. This poem is the theme of this latest book. I remain in awe of the mysterious unknowns, the sacred creed of love that is being passed along. Enchanting enlightenment for myself and for you, my dear readers. We are explorers together, in light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
We are all part of this cosmic universe, a piece of the stars. No matter the separation, we are joined forever in love. The creator has wired us all with its great power. Eternally bonded forever yet when we take on physical form as humans, we forget. It’s an amnesia we are to awaken from. This is what healing is all about, a return to the stars from which we came. Recalling our soul’s wisdom. If just for a moment, imagine this….you are love in human form. What if we all shared this love, intentionally, from the light we hold inside. This is my prayer for each and every one of you, my dear readers. Here’s to remembering.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.