#nature – Emotional Musings

Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

The Sound of Silence

October 18, 2021October 18, 2021 MariaTeresa

It’s been a little over three months since I’ve written a blog post. The longest stretch of silence for this passionate writer who enjoys sharing her journey with all the world as a testimony of “Triumphing over Trauma”. Since July, I’ve been quietly tending to my own personal healing journey. Some people have swiftly left my life in order for me to move onto relationships that serve my highest alignment. Big changes include endings that were necessary yet bitterly difficult and led to rebirth. I’ve moved (again) twice actually, leaving Florida for good and finding myself settled back in the West, with my big sister and my brother-in-law outside Salt Lake City. I’ve stepped back into the world of working a job outside my home as a vitamin and herbal supplement expert in a local farmer’s market while still growing my healing business and writing many new poems to be included in my 6th book of poetry, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while embracing the Light: poems about death and rebirth”. The things I have felt, processed, experienced and healed required solitude, peace and the priceless sound of silence.

What does listening to the sound of silence mean? I found one writer’s definition on Google stating that “It helps us see the empty, selfless, uncertain, transient nature of all experience and patterns of consciousness. The sound of silence is also helpful in developing attention and continuity of mindfulness. When the mind becomes very calm and focused, the breath can grow quieter and quieter”. In my practices I have developed the ability to attune to my own heartbeat and feel into both the nothingness and all encompassing everythingness. The grand abyss of the unknown. There lies peace and love which brings a joyful curiosity to all of creation surrounding us. After such sessions in silence I can feel how intricate a role we are all invited to play by our interactions with one another. Leading with love or reactive to fear. These vibrations yield choices and play a major role in how we treat ourselves and one another.

Growing up in a chaotic and dysfunctional home, silence meant anger, sadness and an intensity of unease would set in as I awaited the shoe to drop. It felt like a bomb going off as the emotional roller coaster would begin and I, an unwilling passenger was forced upon it, never knowing when it would end or if I could ever get off. Over time I learned how to drown my sensitivities out and abandon my self care needs. It’s required years of introspection to understand how all of my past now serves me today. How to heal myself, take care of myself and create healthy boundaries with others. I use my sensitivities and sensibilities as superpowers to discern the energy all around me. It’s helped me tremendously decipher what’s mine, what’s not and how to transmute the fear I feel back into love for myself first and then others. Many of the life experiences these past thirty-five years could have turned me bitter, angry and resentful. Instead, I choose to allow them to shape and mold my heart into a more loving, kind and empathetically open person who sees the Light in others. Silence has taught me to be compassionate towards the struggles of my fellow sisters and brothers. Listening to my own heartbeat, I hear the rhythm that lies within us all. Beating steadily is a message that we all need love, forgiveness, understanding and acceptance. These are what I choose to shine onto others. It all starts from within. We teach others how to treat us by how we treat ourselves. Be your own hero, best friend and love the crap out of yourself my friends!!

Resurfacing now from the silence is poignant because October celebrates the milestone of my three year anniversary here on WordPress. In December I will be ringing in my 44th birthday and these are the 44 poems I’ve written since my vow of silence July 4th. I invite you to close your eyes after reading each one and allow whatever emotion is stirred in you to rise and be seen, accepted and loved. We heal together, as one. We rise together in love. Within every season is the cycle of death and rebirth. My dear ones, we are to embrace all the sensations and every feeling for they are the sacred messages life presents us so we can continue this ride through life, to heal with more wisdom and clarity. Change is constant and growth is guaranteed if one can be brave enough to fail and keep trying. Sure the road is bumpy at times, there are detours and new available routes will arise when we trust that where we are being led serves a higher purpose. I urge you dear ones, through these poems to witness each piece of your soul and dream. Life continues to amaze, inspire and teach me. May you see your path illuminate and direct you clearly forwards. In light and in shadow, always with love ❤ Namaste 🙏

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Healing, Spirituality

Home is where the heart is

May 10, 2021May 10, 2021 MariaTeresa

What does being home mean to you? Gaius Plinius Secundus, a Roman philosopher better known as Pliny the Elder (or just Pliny to his friends) said “Home is where the heart is.” Almost two thousand years later, who would have thought home is where the heart – and other organs – could also be monitored and managed. This phrase means that no matter who you are with or where you are in the world, your family and home holds the deepest affection and emotional pull. It is the place where you have a foundation of love, warmth, and happy memories. It might not always be the building itself, but being near your loved ones.

After my trip to Rhode Island, I have been processing a lot of what my life has been like since leaving a place I called home for thirteen years. I had many reasons to leave and I thought for so long that I couldn’t go back. After ten years of moving around constantly, healing in psychiatric hospitals (both inpatient and outpatient) and a stint in rehab which lead to spiritual experiences that sparked another Kundaluni awakening (the 1st one was in 2011) I know home is in my heart. My heart is front and center, open wide and I finally feel secure in expressing myself from this place no matter where I live. The phrase, “no matter where you go, there you are” suits me. You can’t ever escape your own truths, trust me my dear readers because I tried desperately to erase who I am.

Nowadays I embrace my both my strengths and weaknesses, weirdness and philosophical depths, extra sensory gifts and soul truth. We are upon the eve of a New Moon that begins at 7PM EST tomorrow May 11, 2021. The number eleven is significant because it’s double 1 which stands for new beginnings. The Divine number of this date is two which symbolizes balance and partnerships. The planetary alignment has Jupiter in the zodiac house of Pisces. The last time this occurred was in 2010-2011. The personal significance for me is that was the period of time when my first Kundalini awakening occured. This type of awakening is defined as a surge of Divine feminine energy that spirals through the chakra system causing such symptoms as waking up at random hours of the night, sweating, crying, or even literally feeling an intense rush of energy going up your spine. You feel a sudden need to make radical changes in your life.

For me, this lead to a series of severe mental breakdowns ending in a suicide attempt. All completely necessary and now ten years later I look at as a gift of desperation that propelled me along the journey to reclaim my soul. This time around I feel whole, finally having claimed my calling as a shaman. The sessions I have held lately bring me to my knees in awe of the immense power to heal both myself and others bestowed upon me by Spirit.

The poems I write are guided messages for either myself or clients, channeled from a wide array of Spirits. The movement I cultivate as my soul’s medicine aids my own healing and my intention for sharing it is to bring hope that can serve others and inspire change. Ten years ago I was drowning myself in alcohol, dissociative episodes, over exercise and work. Dancing to the piano version of “Chandelier” by Sia, is my crawl out of that darkness into the light. A reminder to always hold onto hope.

Never let go of hope my dear readers, do whatever you need to to keep this energy alive in your being

You know by now by reading my blog posts how much I love spending time out in nature. The beach is my happy place and where I go to gain serenity, clarity and inner peace. Tapping into the biological connection we share with the mighty ocean is how I reconnect to my own strength and power. How do you reconnect with yourself my dear readers?

South Inlet Park, Boca Raton FL

May this New Moon allow you to pick up from where you began back in 2010-2011, planting seeds for your security at home and healing your heart. We are coming out of hibernation mode, stretching our limbs and climbing into new skin with a fresh start. Springtime is in full bloom and is readily available in the heart by choosing to love yourself.. Forgiveness of the past and reclaiming what you know to be true in your heart. This is the continuous cycle of healing from the human condition. I originally wrote the poem “Transformation” on July 18, 2020. At that point I was just starting the apprenticeship hours of healing others through the art of shamanism. Exoanding now upon those intentions, with this New Moon I’m dreaming big, shooting for the stars and opening myself wide to the miracles the Universe provides us everyday upon waking us up with the Sun and tucking us into sleep by the Moon.

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, Spirituality

To shine or not to shine

February 4, 2021February 12, 2022 MariaTeresa

Ah my dear readers, this world can certainly swallow you up if you’re not mindful. Each of us has a tremendous power inside, a light that is burning brightly, yearning to shine and be shared with others. We experience this when we strike up a conversation with a stranger, smile at a child and hold a door for someone to walk through with ease. It’s in opening these doors, along with our minds and hearts that connect us to one another. Humans were made for community, we need one another.

Lately, as the intuitive and sensitive person I am, I have been feeling a lot of the trauma and pain of others rising to the surface. It’s a great time for healing, forgiveness and for the betterment of humanity as a whole. A coming together, leaving the past behind and focusing on building a brighter tomorrow with love. Love is the greatest and most powerful untapped superpower there is. Please look inside of yourselves my dear ones and heal that love that is waiting to flow throughout your being. Practicing this mantra helps….

“I am safe, I am grounded and I am made of pure love. I see you (insert your name) and I forgive you because I love you. Thank you for caring for me”

This is a good way to begin the practice of self care and grow self love. Our being desperately needs this. Our own loving attention is what will break up stagnant energy, riding the body of blocks and allowing love to flow as it needs to. We can do this by breathing, slowing down and embracing the moment we are in. When life lures us into speeding up, that’s actually when our being needs to slow down, carefully and gently assess the next loving action instead of harshness and taking any further action that bypass our hearts. I ask myself this question when I feel stressed out or stuck, “what is the next best loving response”. Then I can proceed in a much more heart centered direction.

I spend a great deal of time sitting out in nature, listening to music and meditating. This time is sacred because caring for my soul’s health is priority number one. It’s also when I can best tap into my intuition and hear the guidance of my many Spirit mentors. They are who conduct the healing I provide myself and my clients as a shaman, I am merely a conduit. This path is one of intention and requires me to keep my human vessel as clean as possible so that I can be a pure channel for these messages. This week, I can feel a major boost of love being infused throughout the Universe. This energy, this light is available in abundance and is meant for healing. The colors I see, the beautiful music it creates in my mind is so glorious, it brings tears to my eyes. My heart is so full. I choose to shine and not to recoil in fear of being vulnerable to it. Today, I embrace the authentic spirit I carry.

I have spent most of my life hiding, doubting what I feel because of it’s enormity and not showing my authentic self. I believe that I just wasn’t ready, the flower blossom of my soul’s essence needed more time to fully bloom. This year I have stepped into a colorful masterpiece within this soul’s journey and have begun to amplify my life with the brilliance of its light. Integrating my shadow aspects in a mindful way has allowed me to see the truth of who I am, my wholeness. It’s like taking the paddles they use to restart the heart and using them to further awaken my soul. I see such immense beauty all around me. I’ve expressed these feelings in the following poems.

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below. For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
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Healing, Mental health, personal development, Spirituality

Learning to match my nature to nature

January 9, 2021December 30, 2021 MariaTeresa

Understandably my dear readers, there is unsettled chaos in our world. The events unfolding in the United States are a result of our broken system. The behavior of the current leadership is abhorrent and filled with hatred, jealousy and divisiveness. At some level, our world is always experiencing chaos whether on a grand scale or a more subdued level. What I am focused on is the wellbeing of myself and others. Healing from the human condition has always fascinated me with curiosity and wonder. Please be mindful of what you are consuming and how it can trigger and affect your delicate emotions and internal rhythm. At this time, learning how to center and ground yourself is vital.

How to find alignment

Place one hand over your heart and the other on your belly. Now take a deep breath into your belly through your nose counting to five, observing how your hand will rise. Hold it for five counts and then exhale through your mouth for five counts. I practice this before meditation and I usually repeat it five to seven times. This is circular breathing and helps bring you into awareness of your body. I like to close my eyes and bring a place in nature I find most sacred to mind, for me that is the beach. I allow my imagination to draw in the many sounds, sights and smells all around me. Then I repeat these two mantras, my poems, over and over again until I feel myself fully settled and peaceful. I invite you to practice this as often and for as long as you feel guided to internally my dear readers. I believe this practice can help you live a more heart centered existence.

What I use in my healing sessions for grounding

So often it’s easy to find ourselves triggered by what’s happening around us or within our relationships. Intense emotions can leave us feeling sad, angry, helpless, useless etc. etc. My journey of healing the trauma I have experienced has shown me that my self care is priority number one. Feelings are inevitable please allow yourself the grace in which to feel them. Then tend to them and decide how best to respond to yours from a loving place for we all deserve love. When we practice selfcare, we are honoring our ancestors who didn’t know how to care for their own health and healing in the many ways we are afforded to today. We are celebrating their many sacrifices for the lives we live today.

Joseph Campbell said, ” The goal of life is to make your heartbeat match the beat of the universe, to match your nature with Nature”. I have a picture of this quote over a human heart on my altar to remind me to focus on this everyday. When we are attuned to our own authentic spirit and nature, we can make better choices in life for not only ourselves but for those around us. Getting out in nature is the best way to breathe and reconnect with our nature. Air, taking our first breath is the first element we take communion with upon being born into this life. Take notice of your own breath and how easily or labored it is. Being mindful of our basic needs, breathing and hydration will drastically improve your wellbeing my dear ones. Drink plenty of water. The key is to drink half of your own body weight every day to stay properly hydrated and replenished.

These are my most recent poems that I would like to share. We can all be dancers in the light of our beings and feel the flow of the Universe. The Sun of life surrounds each and everyone of us. Feel into your heart, live by your soul’s spirit and embody the light of love you find there. If your curious about my shamanic healing sessions and working with me, please like and comment on this post. I love sharing how I am “Triumphing over Trauma” and living a life of purpose and heart centered love. It’s available to us all. Namaste my dear readers.

Feel that life giving energy in the Sun🌞

Spirituality

Setting my sights West

September 16, 2020September 16, 2020 MariaTeresa

Since returning from Idaho less than one week ago, I can’t stress enough to you my dear readers how monumental a shift I feel now that I’ve officially been anointed a shaman! It’s quite disorienting mostly and I find myself just wanting to be in solitude and in nature. The energy where I live is toxic and not a vibrational match therefore, I find myself very distracted by thoughts and feelings I know aren’t mine. Shout out to the other empaths and psychics out there because you all know what I mean.

My partner and I have plans to move soon yet in the meantime my patience in wearing thin. Today I’m experiencing a lot of the pain of being human my dears. I’ve been patiently awaiting my partner’s arrival since May. I know why we needed to be separated during my apprenticeship and now that it’s over, time is standing still! I know I’m divinely protected and that this chapter here where I live is ending soon. Today however, I’m just plain over it🤪

I rallied and had a good talking with myself. I hopped on my bike and took the longer, more scenic route to the beach. After I arrived I felt 100% better, much more present and focused. I want to share with you some of my latest poems. This reintegration process is a challenge I wasn’t expecting. I understand all I can control is my reaction to my current situation. I must admit I often find myself daydreaming about how wonderful it was to be in Idaho, with a woman who is my soul family and who understands me more than any other human being ever. Plus, the energy there was so chill. I’ve always felt as though South Florida has been my 2nd home after New Jersey. Now I want to experience life on the west coast. I’m over the fast paced, in your face vibe that is prevalent here. I believe my time on this coast is up!

I’m so blessed to find myself in a place where I’m not tied to anything so that making my next move feels exciting. The opposite of how many of my moves have felt in the last ten years. This one is 100% my choice, not a “have to” but a “want to”. I’ve had so many loving and supportive people around me that have graciously taken me in while I healed all areas of my life over the past 9 years. Financially I haven’t been ready to be on my own again since the divorce was finalized in 2012. It’s been a long 8 years of living with others, out of suitcases and boxes. I’m ready to claim my own life again and this is a feeling and a opportunity I haven’t had for quite some time.

In the past few days, I took full advantage of the glorious sunshine and low humidity. Here are the poems I wrote, based in observation of both my surroundings and my internal story. As always my dear readers, so much love💚🌱

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