Tag: #higherconciousness

Consciousness, Healing, relationships, Spirituality

Mastering my soul’s inspiration

MariaTeresa

In the four years since the profound spiritual awakening I experienced in June of 2019, I continue to process the complexities of the lessons my soul has come here to master in this lifetime. What does it mean to master something? “To learn something thoroughly so that you know it or can do it very well.” In my case, I’ve been on the adventure of a lifetime, curious to master soul information and what inspires me as I dance the human experience. I feel that my journey has led me through darkness and now into the light. In 2016, I composed my first published article focusing on breaking free from addiction, mental health concerns, and the state of our mental healthcare system using my own life experience as testimony. https://www.thesoberworld.com/2016/06/01/walking-dark-light/ took me six months to process and write. It serves as the beginning of my writing career. In October, Emotional Musings will celebrate five years of being a part of the WordPress community and sharing the 650 poems I’ve written.

Learning to embrace and accept the trauma, addiction, and pain from having an eating disorder taught me that I didn’t have to beat myself up from the inside. I learned to turn these shadow pieces of myself into medicine for the soul. I choose to no longer suffer. The last four years have brought me to peace. Peace, love, and joy within myself. I’ve used these experiences as inspiration to heal not only myself but for others on the path to wellness. I will never cease exploring ways in which to better myself, mind, body, and spirit. Often, I have written here that I feel compelled by my soul. I’ve transformed my entire life by the choices I make in living a balanced and clean lifestyle. I’ve begun to channel poems for my 9th book of poetry to be called “My Soul’s Inspiration.” 

Again, I find myself in another cycle of death and rebirth, shifting away from what doesn’t serve me. As I shared in the last post, leaving a romantic relationship that wasn’t fulfilling my needs was difficult. I have always been more concerned about hurting others and have learned to put my own feelings on the back burner in order to be loved. Alas, that’s not how it works.  The energetic shifts I’m feeling are opening me up in ways I haven’t been able to express in poetic form for over a month. This is the 1st time I’ve not felt like writing a poem in 5 years! I took the necessary time to be still and process what arose in the first part of 2023. Finally, the flood gates of creativity have reopened to allow me to share my personal testimony of truth. Here’s to a better me.

“A better me”

My father passed over from COVID two days before Thanksgiving in 2020. He is my #1 spirit guide, and his presence is always with me. He’s taught me about forgiveness and the greatest lesson of all, love. Patience is the virtue that I need to practice continually through temperance. He reminds me of this whenever I feel the need to judge myself or others, react harshly, beat myself up, or behave in a way that is outside of my true nature. His latest lesson is about the importance of being honest with myself. Being true to me, no matter what. In the end, it’s all about love. Always and forever. Thank you, Daddy.

“A father’s love”

The spiritual realm has many different entities, and they communicate in the Light’s language through many different pathways. At night, I’m often visited by many higher vibrational light beings who transmit coding into my being. It takes time to process and decipher their codes into human language because these downloads shift my being on a cellular level. So much energy is radiating through me that I can’t quite yet understand. Believing in the power this energy holds, I know it will change all of humanity. One by one. We are being reborn. The grand shift has begun. Can you feel it, my dear readers? Are you curious about how these changes are affecting you?

“Changes, I AM”

Ending the relationship I was in hurt my heart because I knew I was going to inevitably hurt the man I was seeing. My brother-in-law is someone I trust and have known for more than half of my life. I talk with him often about what’s going on in my life. He’s a good listener. I was crying to him about how hard it is for me to find someone who is willing to take on a romantic relationship with a woman like me. I know I’m different, having extrasensory abilities and Autism. Many people simply don’t speak my language. He told me how brave I am at even attempting to find love. His remark stopped me and got me thinking. I have always been in search of a true soulmate. I do believe we have more than one. I know I have been in long-term relationships with two, my ex-husband and the man I was with for eight years, and have known for ten. I was fully aware of the differences between myself and this latest love interest before we started seeing one another. I was deeply drawn to his soul. We do indeed share a very strong connection. I see people’s souls and know things about them that they themselves are unaware of. It’s an interesting dance, learning about someone from the inside out. Voices whisper my fate as I stand beside the angels. Their words are at times louder than what I clearly can hear from the person before me. Bowing down to accept their plan for the next chapter of my life. Believing in the mission of what I came to accomplish. Being human, sharing in the experience is an adventure of a lifetime for any soul. Helping others to heal is my goal. I believe I got caught up in something that isn’t meant to be for us here in this lifetime, yet I am to help him know himself better and heal. We are friends. For this, my heart is grateful.

“Braveheart”

Two practices I implement daily are breathwork and meditation. Meditation is the vehicle I ride to the inside, where wisdom collides with feeling, truth is all seeing. My mind becomes quiet, and the voice of my soul begins to speak. Peace is obtained through breath and the act of being with all that is alive. This poem is the theme of this latest book. I remain in awe of the mysterious unknowns, the sacred creed of love that is being passed along. Enchanting enlightenment for myself and for you, my dear readers. We are explorers together, in light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

“My Soul’s Inspiration”

We are all part of this cosmic universe, a piece of the stars. No matter the separation, we are joined forever in love. The creator has wired us all with its great power. Eternally bonded forever yet when we take on physical form as humans, we forget. It’s an amnesia we are to awaken from. This is what healing is all about, a return to the stars from which we came. Recalling our soul’s wisdom. If just for a moment, imagine this….you are love in human form. What if we all shared this love, intentionally, from the light we hold inside. This is my prayer for each and every one of you, my dear readers. Here’s to remembering.

“Stardust return”

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For a personalized, autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.


Anxiety, Consciousness, Healing, Mental health, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

Being humbled by love

MariaTeresa

My dear readers, what an adventure I am on! In my last post, I wrote about meeting my soul’s mate and how our heart hymns and soul songs were orchestrating the most beautiful of dances. Currently I am understanding how setting boundaries is an important aspect of experiencing true love. This connection is definitely humbling me. In fact, it’s stretching and opening my heart more. Initially, I felt provoked by fear and anxiety as I attempted to dive deeper into my soul and its stories. The ocean that  my heart swims and floats within. Intuitively guided by the emotions that have been triggered, I have decided to take some space from this romantic relationship in favor of addressing my own needs that aren’t being met within the current state of our union together.

As a woman in recovery from abuse, I have survived and overcome addiction to drugs and alcohol which has gifted me clear insights into why I chose to use in the first place. Altering myself by obstructing the lens through which I viewed the world only masked the core wounds I had. It drove a huge wedge between my heart and my soul, numbing the feelings out and blurred the memories of the many traumas I had endured. Choosing to love myself, I now embrace my sobriety as a priority for my well-being. It keeps my channel clear to receive messages from Spirit. My purpose is to use what I’ve experienced as a guide to show others like you, my dear readers, that healing is not only possible but is the pathway to owning your power! I believe this can only be achieved through loving ourselves to wholeness. Accepting all of our human pieces, the dark and the light. The heavy feelings of pain and sadness are to be honored as equally as joy and peace. This is the messiness of being human! Learning to embrace my own humanity, through love, is how I evolve and raise my consciousness.

This current romantic relationship is mysterious and unique in the ways in which I dive into the depths of soul, now as a sober person. Parts of me I felt were broken are healed, creating an awakened wholeness. Awareness of purpose brings goose bumps to my skin and an inner grin of knowingness within. I am here as a vessel for Spirit, God, Source, Universe…..a higher power. Humbled by love, I embrace every moment, hour by hour. In the spiritual realm where I dance, time and space don’t exist. We all are one magnificence. Choosing my sobriety is empowering and an act of self-love as I let go of someone who is choosing another lifestyle.

Humble love

I choose to live life with no regrets because every experience is an adventure! Every relationship is another piece of the puzzle of me, showing me more and more of myself. I’m grateful to find myself at a place in my life where I’m meeting the depths of love I never truly knew before while in addiction. Abusing myself was void of any love to be given or received genuinely. Over the span of twenty-five years, I continued to block out God, which obstructed the understanding of what my purpose is. I was disconnected from my soul. The prayers of love have finally been answered. And so it is. Amen.

Love’s prayer

Believing in myself and trusting Spirit, I take a big leap of faith. There’s that word again, faith, my chosen word for 2023. Mysterious unknowns surround me, yet I know that only love is what serves me. It’s the only truth I have. Going forward with Divine’s grand plan. Here I go, step-by-step, into an adventure of a lifetime. Pushing past self-imposed fears, I am ready to embark upon my calling. I’m happy to announce that I have just completed the 8th book of poems to be titled, “My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. I intend for my 7th book (“My Soul’s Music”) as well as this latest one to be published and marketed by a publishing house. “My Soul’s Music” has already been accepted by a publisher, and now I’m focused on achieving funding to see this book onto the shelves of stores!

Adventure of a lifetime

We are in a massive shift, my dear readers, otherwise known as ecplise season. The cosmic energy, including solar storms, is bringing the highest frequency of love into our atmosphere. Life as we have known it is changing for the betterment of  all by directing us to our highest alignment. I’m compelled to answer this call, which is deepening the relationship with what truly matters. Love is all we need. Listening in as the ascended masters proceed to share their wisdom with me through channeled messages. I am humbled by this journey. For this human experience, I am worthy of all the love that resides in my heart. To love all that is is an aliveness of art!! Breathe deeply and accept all of this Light energy into your heart, for it breeds more love and is the fuel that manifests all the abundance you desire to create, my dear readers!

The Light of Love is calling

I’ve always loved words and reading. Books were my best friends growing up while attempting to block out the abuse I was experiencing in a dysfunctional home. This piece was inspired by a word prompt on the app I use to create my poetry, Miraquill. The platform was originally called Mirakee, which is derived from the Greek word Meraki, which means imbuing one’s soul, passion, and creativity into something. My soul is expressed through the poetry I write. The word was “story.” The lines flowed through to me with ease. Shamans are the storytellers of Spirit. It’s in my DNA. I come from a long line of great storytellers. I dedicate this poem to my ancestors. Thank you for guiding me and passing your wisdom along to me. I am humbled by your unwavering protection and deepening presence in my life!

Tell me a story

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, relationships, Spirituality

My Soul’s Love, a book of spells

MariaTeresa

Here we are my dear readers in the month of February already, the month of love. The poems in this post reflect open hearted intentions and will be featured in my latest book of poetry, “My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. My mentor and dear friend, Lindsey Luna suggested to me that I consider writing a book of spells and I must say when I sat with the idea I was very inspired! Many of my poems find themselves in the shamanic healing sessions I conduct with clients and in my intention setting rituals. The messages that have been channeled through me since late summer of 2022 are all centered in love. The final five months of last year I felt myself healing through a long period of karmic relationship patterns that no longer served my being, my purpose and ultimately my heart. I have learned since my awakening four years ago that as I heal, not all relationships are meant to last. It’s taken quiet introspection, many tears and intentional releasing to be able to let go of the people who are no longer in my life. Detaching with love is what guides my steps onwards towards more enriching connections.

I’m thrilled to share with you my dear readers that a few days into 2023, after proclaiming my free fall into faith, I went out with a gentleman who has touched my heart and soul deeply. It feels like we have reunited now in this lifetime after spending other timelines together on a higher plane of existence. Our bond is very natural and feels like home. We laugh easily together and share too many synchronicities to name. Middle age for me has ignited a mid-life renaissance and I feel alive and free in my skin for the first time ever! He likes to tell me how I make his heart smile and I say that he makes my heart sing. It’s exciting to spend time with someone who is reflecting so many of my core beliefs back at me. We are divinely connected in similarities and differences. The future feels very bright with him by my side. As I muse upon the intricate forces of love in my work, he is definitely playing an important role.

Since the inception of this blog in October of 2018, I’ve been musing upon emotions. As an energetically sensitive person, I’ve always been fascinated by the sensations I feel inside myself and from others. Following these clues is how I assist others on their healing journey. I often tell my clients and those who are interested in shamanic healing that I’m never NOT in awe of how Spirit works in mysterious ways and how divinely connected we all are. I am one of many, clear channels, a vessel for Spirit. I would like to share these recent channeled messages as poems, a testimony of my journey into the purest love I have yet to experience as a soul experiencing the physical world on Earth. The density is thinning and paradigms are shifting. The healing work I’ve accomplished has gifted me so much to be grateful for. The love I have dreamed of and prayed for is standing in front of me and all I have to do is accept it. I know I deserve this relationship and am worthy of it. I often tell this sweet man how we are both deserving of one another at this time in our lives after a lot of heartache.

February 5, 2023 we will be experiencing a full moon in Leo. The exact placement of Mars, the ruler if Leo, during this moon cycle’s completion is the exact degree point in my own natal chart. I’ve been dancing through a lot of powerful shifts and energy surges within. This date also marks two years of celebrated sobriety for me, the longest period of sobriety I’ve ever had. Over these two years a lot has changed and I have transformed. I feel amazing!! I know the joy can be felt through my writing here and in my poems.

I want these poems to speak for themselves. To ring clear and true as the heart songs and soul hymns they are. Thank you my dear readers for following me on this journey and supporting me by liking, commenting and sharing this blog. May we all use this new energy as the fresh start it is meant to be and harness the love of our dreams!

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

Letting Love Lead

MariaTeresa

Choosing to allow love to lead and guide my life’s purpose is an elaborate dance with Spirit. Opening the heart to allow a higher power to guide my steps is an ever evolving practice in surrendering to the unknown. Leaning into a deeper trust while having faith that the answers will show up in Divine timing, not anything I control. Turning away from ego stories and postures for the betterment of soul’s alignment. It’s a very humbling experience that many of us run from. I know I certainly did, for many years. Living an authentic life takes courage. Especially when fear is forcing you to give up. This past month I’ve had to dig deep and sit through more than a few dark nights of the soul to be rewarded the clarity that self introspection reveals. The recent eclipse season gifted me some hard to swallow truths yet in the core of my being, I knew I needed to see. Staying open, listening to Spirit and my guides while revisiting the more challenging soul lessons required me to love myself more than ever before. Finally, allowing the breakdowns to become breakthroughs.

We all want to be loved. Human beings are wired for connection and community. The way to this love is through deeply and thoroughly loving ourselves. Self acceptance is the key to inner peace. A quote by Lao Tzu says the three greatest treasures are simplicity, patience and compassion. I like to think of them as simplicity of mind creates joy, patience within the body brings peace and compassion in soul is love. The relationships I have with others can trigger a lot of old stories and coping behaviors I leaned on for survival while enduring trauma. These responses were a perceived security blanket for the purpose of protecting my heart. The ego’s desire to control everything in the mind, keeping us small and safe. This has always lead to self sabotage. The old stories fed to me over the years that sting and scream thoughts of “you’re too much”, “don’t show your emotions” and “be perfect”. The scars from emotional neglect in childood have taught me to hide myself by not letting anybody see my innermost feelings for fear of rejection and abandonment. The truth is neither of my parents were emotionally supportive or knew how to explain their own feelings. I learned to hide, stuff and carry not only my own but the energy of emotions from other people around me. Feelings were seen as burdensome. This experience taught me that I was unworthy of love without pain. Pain was intricately woven throughout the meaning of love.

Love is magic

Subsequently, I met men who were emotionally unavailable or who couldn’t match my own level of emotional intelligence and intuitiveness. The journey of healing over the past ten years while reparenting myself has taught me to value my feelings as the warning indicators for what my body needs. Carefully and mindfully nurturing myself welcomes unconditional love to flow. I believe we are all connected to a radiant light, a God consciousness that is made of love. Essentially we are LOVE! This is our purpose. To be love and shine love, to ourselves and one another. Allowing myself to be seen, felt and heard by another who is reflecting my soul back at me is a Divine experience. Love truly is patient and kind. Never boastful, it always protects, trusts, hopes, perservers and never fails.

My 8th book of poetry will be a collection that is all about love ,”My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. These poems are a culmination of what my journey through healing has taught me. The messages that have brought me closer to God and my life’s purpose as a healer. I’m here to show others how love heals and transforms. There is no possible explanation for how I have returned from the depths of abuse, trauma, addiction and suicide without God’s love and direction. This has arrived by the allowance of true love into my life! The Universe will give you signposts to follow, synchronistic gifts that are meant to teach us how to master the challenges in life. May we be released from ego and guided by soul to let love lead!

We operate on Divine time, it is precious and not our own
We are love, let it lead

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

Rainbows of hope and promises of peace

MariaTeresa

Writing brings me peace and clarity. I started Emotional Musings almost four years ago with the intention to share my life’s testimony of “Triumphing over Trauma” and thus began a journey of self discovery, leading to a profound spiritual awakening in June of 2019. I’m continually in awe of the messages I receive from Spirit that shape the words of my poetry. Lately I’ve been picking up on synchronistic signs of rainbows which symbolize eternal hope. The ability to hold onto hope is what saved my life eleven years ago after I attempted suicide. Hold on, pain ends is the mantra I resonate with and what hope means to me. I was given the gift of desperation which is what eventually helped me change my entire life. Step by step and year after year since, I have learned how to take care of my soul. Being compelled by it for the purposes of obtaining a higher consciousness, mind, body and spirit, I continue to lean into the guidance from my guides and write poems that share the promises of peace, love and joy through the exploration of my own spirituality.

Learning how to best care for my being, the vessel that contains my soul is forever fascinating to me! Season after season, cycles of death and rebirth follow the phases of the moon and dictate my emotional landscape. The lense through which I view the world becomes more clear and allows me to focus on my purpose of helping to heal humanity one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing. No biggie (inserted sarcasm for humor) Being able to share the highest vibrations of love with others is an ever humbling honor. My intention is to inspire others to believe in themselves, get to understand their own intuition and develop their own spirituality through self love and introspection. Writing allows to me do this both personally and publicly. I am incredibly grateful for this blog platform and for you my dear readers!

Utilizing my exra sensory perception, the space between breaths joins the life force energy that radiates inside, never dividing nor having to decide. All just is. Choosing peace, love and joy is the daily prayer. Being able to use all senses to their highest degree and form, honors my humanity. Turning off the noise from technology and the distractions it brings heralds peace. Listening to how my own soul’s music plays in harmony with the tune of nature. Concentration is on healing and the attunement of my nervous system to the stimuli around me. Seeing spirit animal omens remind me of the important role loyalty, trust and faith play in believing my being into freedom, honoring the sovereign nature of my own spirited essence.

The following eight poems capture my experiences with the Divine as I learn my soul lessons within this human experience. Opening my heart by allowing for grace and patience, surrendering to the process of ascension and expanding into acceptance of each moment as the gift it is sparks the curiosity and wonder which is the frequency in which my poems are channeled through. I am in love with the new life I have created in this last year. I can feel my dreams taking shape and manifesting into this physical reality. I have recently met someone who is very special and I am intrigued by his journey. “Knock knock” is dedicated to our Divine timing and the role we will play in each other’s lives. After I finished writing”Song #44″ I felt that piece is the completion of my newest and 7th book of poetry entitled, “My Soul’s Music”. I have already begun the poems for my 8th book which will be called “My Soul’s Love”.

I invite you my dear readers to share these poems and comment below on how they make you feel. We are in this human experience together, connected as one!

“Waterlily flow”
“I allow”
“New life”

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.