Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

2022 is the year for Love

Welcome dear readers to 2022 which holds a divine number of 6 symbolizing harmony. Listening intently to my heart and continously compelled by soul, every year I choose a word to focus on and manifest all my intentions from. This word becomes the theme I am to expand upon. In 2020 it was fearlessness and for 2021 it was freedom. I saw many big shifts based on both words in my life. This year for 2022 my focus is love. Recently, I have been reflecting upon how very far I have come along on this journey which has awakened my soul, it’s heart truths and so much divine wisdom that is shared with me by Spirit. I use Spirit to encompass the many spirits I receive messages and guidance from since asking for their assistance in June of 2019. To be specific, I will name them here. Many of the archangels including Gabriel, Michael, Raphael and Haniel. My ancestral lineage, ascended masters, Gods and Goddesses, elemental and directional energies, spirit guides and animals and other high vibrational beings of light. After lots of time spent in meditation, being outside in nature and journaling during last year, I believe I am ready and deserving of my soul’s true partner. Here’s to receiving this love in 2022!

Diving deeper into my soul by slowing down is my first intention. This is the first winter season I’ve experienced in eight years my dear readers and the colder temperatures are inviting me to stay indoors and be still. Allowing myself the rest I need to rejuvenate after all the moving around and stretching that 2021 provided my being. In order to integrate and expand into all the energy that the higher frequencies are bringing in, I will begin this year by taking a much needed break from social media. Being mindful of what I consume in all areas of life is very crucial to the healing process. The more I awaken to my heart truths, the more sensitive I become to energy’s vibrations and other people. Winter invites us to curl up with ourselves, to go within and listen. Reading is one of my favorite things to do. I’m grateful to have received a couple of books over Christmas that I’m looking forward to getting under my blankets with. I was gifted a star light projector that creates the night sky on my ceiling. I’m totally loving the magical scenery dancing before me in the comfort of my own space. Add in some candles and crystals to complete the scene for maximum relaxation.

I’m taking this opportunity to rest and practice self care. I will also get to work on creating the manuscript for my sixth book of poetry to be called, “My Soul’s Dance, Accepting the shadows while Embracing the Light: Poems about death and rebirth” Yes indeed it’s a long title, with over 130 poems written throughout all of the cycles 2021 brought me through. My first full year as a practicing shaman.

I’m always intrigued by the mysteries painted in the night sky. In the beginning of my awakening process, that’s how the Universe sent me messages.This poem expresses how I feel about the healing powers of star gazing and moon watching.

Living in the southern temperatures for so long, I was used to getting fed by the Sun. I’ve written before about how my friends refer to me as the Sun because of my big bright energy, smile and personality. We all have a Sun inside of us as Rumi says. I wear a necklace that has the tarot card of the Sun because I like the reminder over my heart. The space that beats in rhythm to love’s purity.

Indeed there is

Waking from the dream, seeing and feeling the truth which is love smashes the lie of separation. We are all intricately connected and are beginning to attune to this frequency all over the planet. I can see it more clearly in the interactions I have with people at the farmers market I work at part time. People are remembering that love is the only truth and it’s exciting to see the connectedness between us through our conversations. Before I leave my home, I always align myself through meditation and breath, in order to lead from my heart. When the mind attempts to take over however, that’s when I know I need more self care and mindfulness practice. Becoming the observer to the mind’s thoughts puts me in alignment with all the pieces of me so I can present my wholeness, my truth and lead from soul.

Today I was invited on a hike through the snow up a canyon. We saw lots of bucks, horses, turkeys, donkeys and lamas too! I feel so alive in nature and really enjoy listening to it’s messages while taking in the clues to this grand mystery of life through it’s cues. Nature brings me peace, relaxes and feeds my senses. God is everywhere and in everything we see. Reflecting our own light in us is what being out in nature reminds us of. All the beauty we are given here on Earth. That’s its purpose and we are here to protect and balance it by balancing ourselves in it. What a gorgeous cycle it is!

The mantra I’m continuously practicing is this my dear readers: I acknowledge and am aware that love is the truth, I surrender to thoughts that attempt to tell me otherwise (rejecting fear), I release the energy that doesn’t serve by allowing love to flood my being which keeps me free so I can let go of expectations and attachments, embracing the present, arriving at acceptance to all that is. The I AM, we all are. Love. There is no failing in life my dear readers. We keep trying, everyday is another opportunity to forgive ourselves and others through grace and compassion. Life here on Earth brings us through experiences that remind us of the truth. Sparking the remembrance that we are love, infinite and eternal. That is the only truth, everything else is an illusion.

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

relationships, Spirituality

June is in bloom

June 2021 has arrived my dear readers and after this first full week I’m in love with a renewed sense of peace. Since publishing my latest book, “My Soul’s Journey: Lessons learned through love, I feel like I’ve unfurled more petals of the flower that symbolizes this love that is intuitively expressed through soul. In my last post I wrote that the more I heal, the more I reveal. This power is coursing through my veins portraying the truth found within the superpower of love.

Ah, peace….at this present moment I am enjoying the birds singing in the trees, the breeze off the lake and the bright sun shining upon my face. A few days ago while on a run, I spotted a wild parrot. Parrots in spirituality evoke a freshness as they spread their wings into your life delivering new ideas and signals that indicate a new direction for your work, relationships, or spiritual  pursuits.  Seeing them often, is nature’s way of sending omens and signs that come repeatedly. This meaning is alive in all three areas of my life! This morning I saw another one sitting on a tall branch of a tree as I ran under it for shade from the early morning sun. It’s bright green feathers stand out against the leaves while it’s yellow head brings a smile to my face. Looking at a parrot makes me happy because they are so naturally beautiful. I didn’t even stop to take a picture, instead choosing to capture it’s presence in my heart.

Electric light flower blossom

Back in March I shared some hard truths about my personal relationship with my partner. Since that time, I’m happy to say we have reconnected. Our bond has lasted eight years and has survived many challenging times that would break most couples for good. However, as a testament to both of our spirits and deep commitment to one another, we have learned through the tough times how to triumph and heal, choosing love every time. I believe we have taken this past year and our physical separation as a time to focus on our own individual needs which has allowed us to see how much we truly love one another. Patiently we planned on reuniting and I’m so thrilled that he has finally moved here to stay with my Mom and I here in Southern Florida. The past two days have ushered in a tremendous amount of gratitude, relief and joy! Being with my best friend again has my heart singing in the key of unconditional love. He is my muse and I dedicate all the poems I write about love to him, most especially this one.

Let love lead

This week I’m celebrating the two year anniversary of my spiritual awakening and soul healing by taking a much deserved break from my usual routines to spend time with the love of my life. Too often we rush through life’s milestones and goals, charging forwards into the next phase without taking time to recognize how far we have come. Well my dear readers, not this time! I’m honoring our love reunion by relaxing with one another. To be a human being rather than a human doing, which is a choice in conscious presence. Whatever life holds for us on this new adventure together and wherever the wind shall take us, I’m accepting it! May we each decide to allow the peace, joy and love that life has to offer us, open our hearts further to the beauty and magic that surrounds us. I invite you to unfurl your soul’s petals and rediscover life’s blessings in new ways this month. June is indeed in bloom and I’m in love all over again!

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 5 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Spirituality

My Soul’s Journey, Part 1

My dear readers, I have commenced building the manuscript for my fifth book of poetry entitled “My Soul’s Journey”. I’m dedicating this one to my Dad since all of the 87 poems were written after his death and honor the number of years he spent on the Earth in physical form. The number five symbolizes change and while writing this book I have embarked upon the most amazing change and chapter of my own journey! Healing both myself and others through the art of shamanism allows everything I have intuitively known and felt fall into place. My life now after 43 years, finally makes sense! The number forty-three symbolizes success in all areas of life, the kind achieved through hard work, strong will and patience that comes with a great understanding, knowledge and nobility. Life presents us many opportunities to learn and elevate our soul through each moment to see how ALL of it serves for our highest good and greatest healing.This is my time and I am here to claim every ounce of joy, inner peace and tremendous love for life!

This month I have been focusing on my Sacral chakra, healing old wounds left by emotional upheaval and past trauma. Recently I found myself triggered by an assignment for the course in sound healing I was taking. It helped me to realize that I was attempting once again to prove something, validate my worth and feel good enough. After tapping into my intuition and coming to terms with the intention for seeking the certification in the first place, I had an ah-ha moment realizing that continuing with the course was not going to serve my best interest. This was a life lesson shining light upon an mindset that no longer fits who I am today and what I believe. This is an old tape playing an offbeat tune. Hitting eject, I asked myself why was I taking the course in the first place? What was this course going to add to my life?

Celebration of the colors and functions of the chakra system

There are a few factors that contributed to my final decision. My own attention to focus in and stay engaged with an online course for sound was a major challenge because I found the platform itself to be boring. Mainly however it was what the instructor said to me when I told him his course wasn’t for me that proved to me I had made the right decision. He accused me of not being able to provide a therapeutic environment because of my own emotional instability after the assignment was questioned. Whether it was a communication breakdown or misunderstanding, what became apparently clear to me was that questioning his assumed authority triggered his own ego and displayed a character defect that resulted in a judgement of a student. Has no one dropped his course before or not wanted to continue? That’s not how I operate as a teacher. I conduct myself as a guide for each of my student’s journey while learning the art of shamanism. Holistic healing is an intuitive art, whether in sound, art, energy, or crystals etc. It shouldn’t be based on financial gain. My intention is each individuals highest good and healing for their unique journey. It became completely clear we weren’t on the same page and that’s OK. Not everybody is my flavor nor I their cup of tea. Honestly, I felt right away from watching his videos that I couldn’t learn from him. My first thought was to react to his opinion of me and then my higher self, my soul whom I call Serena, stepped forward and reminded me I don’t need to prove my journey to anyone. I’m no longer interested in approval or acceptance from others. Doubting my own gifts is an old mindset pattern and no certification is necessary for me to do what I intuitively do in shamanic sessions. Sound healing is already a part of what I do naturally. I am determined to find another resource for knowledge of what I want to learn. I wrote a reactionary email and then just as quick as I wrote it, deleted it. Moving on.

What became crystal clear is that for all of my life, I wasn’t the one accepting me. I was doubting my own worth, gifts and power which blocked trust, acceptance and love of myself. I blindly believed the opinions and judgments of others. Awakening has created radical shifts that allow me to question what truly is best for me while healing and recognizing my authentic voice over these past two years. This is an ongoing cycle of integration as I forgive, surrender, release and accept, finally I’m celebrating all the pieces of me! I tell my clients that “we can’t outsource love, we must each fill our own cup of happiness, inner peace and love”. My own words rang like a bell in my head!

Locked in and loving myself

Living as an open psychic channel for Spirit has created gaps in my life where I felt completely lost for many years. Self medicating through addiction to substances and maladaptive coping behaviors further distanced my soul from my being. It felt like I was on a permanent vacation from life, muted and numb. Existing behind a wall of my own creation. I was an award winning actress at what I thought “normal” looked like and that was the mask I wore for thirty-five years. These t-shirts suit me to a T. This poem sums it all up beautifully.

Dressed by soul

Nowadays I lean into what allows me to feel free and happy. I express this best through movement, dance, yoga, painting and of course my writing. Here are my latest video shorts to the song “Happy” by Pharrell Williams. I dare you not to smile!

Jazz Happy
Tap Happy

The final thought on this is that this emotional experience has taught me that no one but me needs to accept me! There’s no more hiding, trying to be someone else or denying the rainbow unicorn I am. My purpose is to shine love and light through my soul. Today I feel happy knowing this in my heart. I hope I made you smile!

If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu on my website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings
paypal.me/tinyd9

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Grief and loss, Healing, Holidays

My grown up Christmas wish

This year at Christmas my heart is heavy because I am missing the 2 greatest loves of my life, my Dad who passed on 11/24/20 and my fiance who is in another state far away. This poem is my heart’s prayer for the love they both have given me over the years, making me the woman I am. Their love is my eternal gift. Combined with my love of God, this is what I’m grateful to receive this year at Christmas.

May you all find moments of sacred peace, holiday joy and bliss with lots of love❤✨💚

Love is my gift

I haven’t celebrated this Italian tradition in the 10 years since my divorce. My Mom and I wanted to honor my Dad. Here’s the two stages of the shrimp marinara sauce I made over angel hair pasta. Here’s to you Dad, mangia mangia!

Sauted shrimp in onions and garlic
Add crushed tomatoes and fresh basil

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below.
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Consciousness, Healing, Health, Spirituality

Winter Solstice: Death and Rebirth of the Sun

Yesterday was the beginning of winter and here in the Northern hemisphere, the shortest day of our year. The nights become longer while the days are shorter. The phenomenon of the death and rebirth of the Sun. While here in South Florida, it becomes much more bearable to be outdoors and bask in the Sun’s glorious rays. I’m a Sun worshiper and strongly believe in the tremendous vitality that it provides. Spiritually speaking, showing ourselves to this power daily helps heal the soul. I make the Sun a prescription for my wellbeing every day.

Traveling through my own healing and current death and rebirth cycle, I recognize how much the Universe has stripped from me this year in order to help me grow, heal and further my own soul’s spiritual evolution. I have literally cried my own river of tears in the past six weeks. In the days leading up to yesterday’s events of both the beginning of winter and The Great Conjunction that I wrote about in my last post (https://emotionalmusings.com/2020/12/15/the-tao-of-my-heart/) I have felt so much more peace. A stillness within both heart and soul. When this happens within my being, I can tap into my soul and gain new insights. I spend my days in surrender, allowing and honoring whatever is to be celebrated. Especially the pain. Our society has a real addiction to pain and suffering yet I believe when we can fully recognize and feel our hurts, we heal them and they dissipate so we can incorporate them into the tapestry of who we are.

That’s how I view my soul, as a great and colorful tapestry of my experiences. One of my favorite authors, Mark Nepo writes about this too. The pain we experience, serves to open our heart. This is the fundamental and foundation for processing emotions. I write about this often my dear readers, it bears repeating here, to heal we must feel. So many of us, this humble poet included, spend so much time denying, detaching and attempting to change how we feel instead of simply embracing and accepting what is. Being present to the experience of life. Emotions play a role as energy in motion, our feelings are our body’s way of alerting us to what needs attention within our being. The rush of the world has switched many of us from human beings into humans doing. Our internal response systems become overloaded and thrown out of balance.

One of the reasons why I love the work I do as a shaman is being able to see into the energetic system of others to help remove toxic energy chords. The balance and realignment of our chakras is vital to overall well being. It’s amazing to see the life changes that occur within my client’s lives. The cycle of death and rebirth, the old patterns and habits dying that bring forth the birth of new healthier ones. The ability to pause and question one’s belief system once the physical body feels refreshed from within. All physical ailments begin as spiritual dysfunction, when these adjustments can be made internally the difference is astounding and profound. I check in with my own system on a daily basis to make any necessary adjustments and tweaks.

Soul check in

My writing process is always organic and in the moment. Whenever the words come, I stop what I’m doing and create my poems. These poems came to me both before and after meditation. I’m curious if you my dear ones can guess the order of each creation. Please leave a comment as I would love to open a discussion of my process.

Soul healing
Feel it to heal it

I’m accepting new clients and would love to engage with you my dear readers on your soul’s healing and how my shamanic healing sessions can assist you in further your journey and celebrating your purpose. Please visit my contact page for further information.

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below.
https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77