Healing, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

Letting Love Lead

Choosing to allow love to lead and guide my life’s purpose is an elaborate dance with Spirit. Opening the heart to allow a higher power to guide my steps is an ever evolving practice in surrendering to the unknown. Leaning into a deeper trust while having faith that the answers will show up in Divine timing, not anything I control. Turning away from ego stories and postures for the betterment of soul’s alignment. It’s a very humbling experience that many of us run from. I know I certainly did, for many years. Living an authentic life takes courage. Especially when fear is forcing you to give up. This past month I’ve had to dig deep and sit through more than a few dark nights of the soul to be rewarded the clarity that self introspection reveals. The recent eclipse season gifted me some hard to swallow truths yet in the core of my being, I knew I needed to see. Staying open, listening to Spirit and my guides while revisiting the more challenging soul lessons required me to love myself more than ever before. Finally, allowing the breakdowns to become breakthroughs.

We all want to be loved. Human beings are wired for connection and community. The way to this love is through deeply and thoroughly loving ourselves. Self acceptance is the key to inner peace. A quote by Lao Tzu says the three greatest treasures are simplicity, patience and compassion. I like to think of them as simplicity of mind creates joy, patience within the body brings peace and compassion in soul is love. The new romantic relationship I have entered into has triggered a lot of old stories and coping behaviors I leaned on for survival while enduring trauma. These responses were a perceived security blanket for the purpose of protecting my heart. The ego’s desire to control everything in the mind, keeping us small and safe. This has always lead to self sabotage. The old stories fed to me over the years that sting and scream thoughts of “you’re too much”, “don’t show your emotions” and “be perfect”. The scars from emotional neglect in childood have taught me to hide myself by not letting anybody see my innermost feelings for fear of rejection and abandonment. The truth is neither of my parents were emotionally supportive or knew how to explain their own feelings. I learned to hide, stuff and carry not only my own but the energy of emotions from other people around me. Feelings were seen as burdensome. This experience taught me that I was unworthy of love without pain. Pain was intricately woven throughout the meaning of love.

Love is magic

Subsequently, I met men who were emotionally unavailable or who couldn’t match my own level of emotional intelligence and intuitiveness. The journey of healing over the past ten years while reparenting myself has taught me to value my feelings as the warning indicators for what my body needs. Carefully and mindfully nurturing myself welcomes unconditional love to flow. I believe we are all connected to a radiant light, a God consciousness that is made of love. Essentially we are LOVE! This is our purpose. To be love and shine love, to ourselves and one another. Allowing myself to be seen, felt and heard by another who is reflecting my soul back at me is a Divine experience. I’m grateful to be enjoying this time in my life with a man who is aligned with me emotionally, mentally and spiritually. We are learning one another through the lessons love teaches. Love truly is patient and kind. Never boastful, it always protects, trusts, hopes, perservers and never fails.

My 8th book of poetry will be a collection that is all about love ,”My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. These poems are a culmination of what my journey through healing has taught me. The messages that have brought me closer to God and my life’s purpose as a healer. I’m here to show others how love heals and transforms. There is no possible explanation for how I have returned from the depths of abuse, trauma, addiction and suicide without God’s love and direction. This has arrived by the allowance of true love into my life! The Universe will give you signposts to follow, synchronistic gifts that are meant to teach us how to master the challenges in life. May we be released from ego and guided by soul to let love lead!

We operate on Divine time, it is precious and not our own
We are love, let it lead

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Maria@emotionalmusings.com
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Healing, Inner child, Mental health, personal development, relationships, Spirituality

Love’s activation in Autumn

The ending of Libra season and the beginning of Scorpio (with a solar eclipse helping Venus’s powerful love activation) allows the winds of change to blow all around us my dear readers. As I look back on the poems I’ve written since my last post in August, I can feel how much I’ve changed. I’m happy to share that there is a new person of interest who has entered my life and is beginning to mean a lot to me. He is very special, quite intuitive and loves to make me laugh. We met one another organically. He’s a regular customer at the cafe I work in as a barista. He always orders the same thing (a medium blackberry cheesecake Gelato) yet from the first time we met, I knew there was something different about him. His high vibrational energy and light captivates and intrigues me on a soul level. One of our favorite things to do together is to go out dancing which you, my dear readers already know, is my number one soul expression.  Dance marries itself insightfully to writing as the messages I receive from Spirit to express myself authentically and divinely.

Welcome the air of being gifted to us during Libra season

I have been very busy too since August’s post and the release of the podcast interview for “Bring on the Woo”https://open.spotify.com/episode/5Dy8AqPHNamHJIKbLxlIcC?si=xZoy7556REGrCRFVXWevDA&utm_source=copy-link I’m shopping the manuscript for my 7th book of poetry called, “My Soul’s Music” to literary agents and publishing houses. Currently, I’m writing poems for my 8th book to be called, “My Soul’s Love”. I’m already thirty-two poms into it. I began this blog in October of 2018 and this month is my 4 year anniversary of sharing the channeled messages that have become the poems I’m meant to share with the world. During this time period, I’ve written 599 poems. The entirety of my body of work is documented throughout this blog to encompass the awakening experience both before and after.

The following poems and videos will be featured in the latest collection as the reflection of love I’m currently experiencing. I remain in awe of the messages from Spirit and from my soul as I continue to piece together the lessons and meaning for my life here as a writer and healer. As a channel and a vessel for the wisdom Spirit shares with me, these words come through to help me piece together my soul’s journey. Tiny breadcrumbs and clues that are bestowed upon me for the purpose of healing. Many of them end up in the healing sessions I provide to clients. Some come through clairaudience while others are whispered through my strongest ability which is clairsentience. “Ancient history” describes the karmic resolutions and the carrying out of a timeline to begin what I’ve waited many lifetimes to conquer. The beginning of the life I’ve only dreamed of until now. I’ve been promised a Divine love. My words as a writer are meant to be shared with the masses. All is about to be revealed as I break free from ancestral trauma and finally start to live my truth.

“Hear my words and watch my climb”

We are all golden threads of an Universal tapestry of Light, holy and bright. God bless your heart as we walk together creating the art of life! Embrace the holy child within and heal.

A glimpse inside my “awakened story”

Many people like to compare me to Mother Teresa, my namesake and the energy I bring into a space, with loving grace. I am continually humbled by the responsibility I carry as a vessel for Spirit. This poem was born from a word prompt to “introduce yourself” on the app I use to create my poetry. I’m an awakened and realized soul, enjoying a human experience as a woman walking this journey of life in truth after answering the call to heal from the trauma I’ve survived. I walk the path of the shaman by utilizing the insights I’ve learned to heal myself, I now specialize in healing trauma, addiction and mental health disorders in my clients. Claiming my truth as a psychic medium and channel by practicing the art of shamanism has transformed my life! Today, I am a free and authentic spirit, using my sensibilities as superpowers to transmute energy by the power of love, which is the fuel for magic. 

Maria Teresa

Love is the focus for my expression. Experiencing love at first sight is like electricity running through my heart. Two worlds colliding together making art. Musing upon every aspect that’s alive with an uniqueness all its own. Being in love is such a wonderful feeling and a blessing after so much healing. This is a reward for all the work I’ve put into my self growth!

“brought together by higher purposes ambitions”

Rejoicing in the aliveness of being! Enjoying the journey through this human experience. Spiritual healing is my calling and allows me to shine peace, love and joy. Believing in being, truth in seeing. All I can dream arrives in divine time. Love guides my steps as I walk gracefully ahead.

Reflections of truth

This poem is a prayer for my mother who suffers from severe, unhealed mental illness. I pray she finds peace. I ended our toxic relationship over 15 months ago because I know I needed to grow beyond the dysfunctional, codependent ties that we were bonded in. Only my siblings and I know our truth. I forgive her by accepting myself, something she doesn’t have the ability to do. It’s taken a long time to claim my wholeness and be healed through Spirit. By allowing myself to feel, I can be all I’m meant to be. I’m the one who is free!

If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website.
For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email.
Maria@emotionalmusings.com
https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings

In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.

Spirituality

Breath is life

I am so happy to say good bye to April and welcome in May😊 Last month was one of the hardest of my entire life. More details to come on that subject in future posts but for this post I would like to express my new found love for breathwork. You may be thinking my dear readers, what is breathwork? Here’s Google’s definition: Breathwork defines various breathing practices in which the conscious control of breathing is said to influence a person’s mental, emotional or physical state, with a claimed therapeutic effect. Last evening I participated in my second such course offered and facilitated by my dear friend Christina Tucciarone aka @comealivewithchrissymarie on Instagram.

Chrissy has an amazingly powerful presence as both a leader and a teacher. She and I have worked together a few times and I feel so blessed to call her my friend. I sincerely appreciate her devotion to what she teaches coupled with her insightful guidance during each session. Last night I really appreciated her steady reminders to push through the resistance that can be felt once the body is fully oxygenated. There were three rounds of active breathing for 7 minutes and then a minute each of holding the breath and releasing it at the bottom. During the first round I immediately felt pulled to the wounds from my inner child and an intense sense of fear and sadness. My entire body went completely numb. I knew instinctively that my body was attempting to dissociate. This coping mechanism is something I developed at a young age during the sexual abuse I endured. It served as a survival technique then and I must admit for most of my life over the past 35 years.

In the past year, since acknowledging and healing from this dark secret I have experienced a spiritual awakening that has transformed my life in such a way I view it has the Maria I was before June of 2019 and the Maria I am now. Going in and out of dissociative episodes when I found myself involved in intense emotional situations has been both a subconscious and conscious way for me to escape from reality. Over the years I had become very keenly aware of what was triggering me yet at the height of those experiences I was dumbfounded as to how to stop them from occurring. It felt humiliating afterwards when I would “wake up” and realize how much time I had lost. During the recent Divine Intervention session I had, Mr. Adifon confirmed that I regularly lose hours and still days of myself. Maria feeling Maria 100% of the time is very new still. Last night was a reminder of how going to that detached place no longer serves me.

I began to explore what little Maria was telling me. I listened and began a running dialogue in my mind with her, soothing her fears and reestablishing trust by vowing to not abandon her again. The human brain fascinates me. How such an intense level of fear and panic can create a whole new space for our psyche’s to travel to if just for a visit! My mind created this safe space, like a holding pattern for little Maria to still exist in yet not feel what was happening. Violation of a child is so seriously shameful.

However damaging that experience has been to my life I don’t regret it. I have learned so much about myself and the world around me from every single experience, everyday and in each moment over the past 42 years. Putting all judgements aside, good, bad, ugly and beautiful what I have learned is how vital all of it is to living a full life.

Here are some of the main things I have learned about myself over this past year……but most assuredly had them solidified last month. These were the messages I told little Maria I was proud of her for. Experiencing the pain of long held fear is absolutely terrifying when first felt yet in moment last night I knew I had to take control of my healing and be my own hero.

You are not afraid of change, you welcome it with an open mind and heart.

You have an intense love and trust for others, humanity fascinates you and you never meet a stranger.

Keep wearing your heart on your sleeve and remain proud of your free spiritedness.

You allow your big heart to lead in and through life’s ups and downs. Don’t ever change that Maria.

Empathy and intuition are your superpowers.

You my dear little Maria are extremely resilent.

Keep the people you love whether family or friends close to your heart creating friends for life!

It was an awesomely amazing hour. I cried a lot with becoming so flushed with emotion, sweat and gratitude seeped out of every pore in my body as we finished and wrapped up the session. I quickly composed myself and tucked myself under my trusty weighted blanket. Then I grabbed my journal to document the experience. I then took a separate sheet of paper out and wrote down the things I knew were time to release and let go of. My convictions growing deeper with every step towards the backyard, I read my own words aloud then lit the paper on fire. I closed the ritual with a personal prayer.

I wrote the poem below on Friday, before the breathwork course last evening. I’m so grateful for understanding and accessing my intuition and continuing to heal my inner child wounds. Life never ceases to surprise and amaze me. As always, with an open mind and heart I humbly bow my head and give thanks to God🙏

Intuition