I am a modern day troubadour spreading the power of love through my poems. The energy that is occurring on Earth right now is life changing my dear readers! Powered by last week’s New Moon and solar eclipse in Sagittarius, we are rising to feel much more of the love vibration that is pouring upon us through Spirit, the Divine light. Tap in, feel its power and trust the truths that are ushering in New Earth. Welcome to the mass healing, the Great Awakening. Can you feel the shifts within yourself to learn more of your own truth? What an amazingly beautiful time to be alive!!!
This is a short and sweet expression of joy as I celebrate my 44th birthday, stepping into the spaciousness that freedom inside provides and the creativity that allows my soul to thrive. This past year has been one of elevation and endings. I have learned so much, growing by leaps and bounds. Shifting from ego to soul and allowing love’s purity to shine through. My heart is full and I look forward to so much abundance to come here in my new home in Utah. I’ve met my soul tribe. Absolutely magical people who see me, my authentic self and show me such love and kindness. This month is so very special because it’s not only my birthday, it’s also my sister’s AND my nephew’s 21st on the full moon next week. Many special celebrations are planned all month long.
My dear friend and soul sister Rachelle took me on my first hike up the canyon last week. Getting outside into the elevation rejuvenates me completely. I took a few short videos too. We call these outings walkie talkies and we both get some much from them. Enjoying nature while processing what’s going on in our lives, sharing intuitive guidance with one another and our perspectives. I am incredibly grateful for our connection. Thank you for being you Rachelle, I love you very much!
I’ve officially lived here for three months now and I love living in this part of the country. The chill vibes from the mountains and the kindness of the people have made this transition an easy one. My sister and brother-law have opened their home and their hearts to me at time when I needed them the most. Healing our relationship means everything to me. My sister is so generous with everything she has and I love her so deeply. She’s always been a mother figure to me. We all participated in what is called “The Human Race” on Thanksgiving. It’s a 5K and 10K course and my brother-in-law and I ran the 10K together finishing just minutes apart. It’s the longest I have run since arriving here and adjusting to the altitude. It’s been a big change for my body coming from the east coast to now living in elevation. I’m being gentle with myself by allowing myself to acclimate slowly. I walk a mile and a half to work which keeps me moving and grooving as well as shirt runs around our community lake. Now that we’re in December, I feel the cold settling in. This southern living woman hasn’t experienced a winter since 2013 yet I’m much more comfortable than I thought I would be! Thankfully, I have eased into my new home quite well and feel balanced with my work/life schedule. Quality over quantity in all areas is how I roll.
These poems are a continuous expression of my heart and the lessons learned through soul. The new beginnings here are inspired by energy coding and my soul’s ongoing awakening. Awareness becomes clear when I am heeding what Spirit teaches and guides me to and through. Remaining in awe of the outpouring of love, effortlessly I allow the Light to come shining through. Inside of me and inside of you. And so it is. Amen.
Life is so surprising by the endless messages, signs and gifts I become aware of the more I follow Spirit’s teachings. Learning to be patient is the greatest act of self love. Allowing love to lead is a choice I mindfully make everyday and within each moment. Life truly is a gift and it’s meant to be shared with all. We are mirrors for one another and each others teachers. I learn more and more everyday. I dance through the ebbs and flows with lots of laughter. I used to take myself so seriously when I was younger. I can see how hard I was on my own heart. Life is much lighter now and I feel much more joyful having forgiven myself amd others for the past. Living in each moment and enjoying every spectrum of emotion there is in it brings a smile to my face. Everyday…. in some way, even if some days I have to look a little deeper to see it.. I love getting older. The years are not what matter, it’s the life in them and boy do I have so much to be grateful for!
This last poem, “Waterlily Flow” is dedicated to my sister Tami, the person who has shown me what art is by the legendary painters like Claude Monet. Art means expressing yourself no matter what and being true to your heart. Tami is a true artist. She is intentional with everything she does. Creativity bursts from her heart using her home as the palette for decorating, her cooking, gift giving and the attentiveness of her most generous soul. She can draw anything and wrap a present so beautifully that you don’t even want to open it! Everything she does she puts 100% into. She often doesn’t give herself enough credit or get the appreciation from the people that were entrusted to care for her growing up. This is for you sis, I see you and I adore you!
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
Yesterday was a glorious day for my family and I as we bid our final farewell to my Dad. My Mom was especially happy to hold this memorial service in their Catholic church 45 years to the day they had their first date. I was extremely honored to be the representative from the family to give the eulogy which included the poem I wrote “Daddy” just hours before he passed on November 24, 2020. This was the closure we all needed and the homecoming my Dad deserved.
We continued the celebration of my Dad’s life with an Italian fest fit for the king he is, a luncheon that was held at his favorite restaurant which included family and close friends, about twenty people. My older sister flew in from Utah and my oldest brother drove down from Orlando. It was especially great to all be together again since we have all been separated by the pandemic. We laughed and we shed tears. We all shared our favorite memories of my Dad. I was so comforted by my family yesterday and it felt so good to be with the people I love the most. My partner is here (FINALLY) and he was and is my rock, grounding me through the grieving process. I’m so grateful and blessed to have these people in my life when I need them the most. My gratitude includes my dear friends that are scattered across the country and in other places around the world who have sent condolences with love including so many of you my dear readers. From the bottom of my heart, your love means so much to me. Connection is a key in healing because we all experience loss. This is a time we need to lean on each other.
I took this video of myself dancing hours before my partner’s arrival. I absolutely adore Janis Joplin’s style and fiery vocals. My partner often remarks on how I remind him of her so I felt it fitting to dance in tribute to her and my love for all of humanity. I put a piece of my heart into every creative thing I do. If I don’t feel passionate about it, I simply don’t do it. Life is precious and I intend to make the most of my time here doing what I love to do most which is expressing the depths of my creative soul in light and love!
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This post is going to be a bit different than my other posts my dear readers. This one a journal entry, a peak into my inner world.
Opening my eyes this morning, I greet the day with enthusiasm and curiosity for what God has in store for me. What lesson will I learn today and what experience will touch my soul. These are my first thoughts as I reach for the book I read every day, Mark Nepo’s “The Book of Awakening.” I like to use whatever he reflects upon in the daily passage for my own journal prompt. A mix of where I find myself in the moment and a pearl of his wisdom. I usually write my entry afterwards. Here’s today’s entry:
Breaking patterns and strengthening bonds is the work at hand. Yesterday went so well with Lindsey, my heart feels so full! Ty and I enjoyed a wonderful afternoon together. He treated me to dinner. Even my partner surprised me with a sweet present that I wasn’t expecting, the best kind of gift! I know since arriving here at my parent’s house, me energy has been unsettled. Showing myself grace while being gentle, I will figure out what feels best here. Of course I have my lounge chair set up outside by the lake, my happy place. It’s where I can observe nature, speak with God and receive messages from my spirit guides. I told Lindsey that as a “homework” practice this week for my apprenticeship to become a Shamanic healer, I will reestablish my self journeying which plainly means I will be intentional about spending more time solo outdoors, in self reflection. I have to feel my way through because that’s my best asset and my strongest sense as an empath. God, please help me to learn my place here and lead with love in every endeavor, especially as it concerns others. Thank you for bringing me this far along my journey. Thank you for helping me heal by recognizing the truth and knowing the beauty you provide for us here on Earth. I’m grateful for the focus I have in following my soul’s path and purpose. I trust that you have brought me here because I’m ready to learn more and what a gift that is! God and your helpers, the angels surrounding me, are continuing to help me heal. Continuing to walk this path in truth and love isn’t a responsibility I take lightly. It’s only with the courage and love you God provide me that I have gotten through the darkness. For in darkness, I have discovered myself and gathered the strength I needed to walk into the light. It brings tears to my eyes when I can sit in meditation and feel the beauty of everything here you have created in every living thing. Each and every day is a gift!
My dear readers, treat each and every day as the gift it is. God will only bring you to and through what you can handle. Trust in Him. Live each day to the fullest my dears for life is precious. From my heart to your heart. So much ❤
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Ever since my session with Joel Adifon, a Divine Interventionist who refers to himself as a Divine Catalyst and Supernatural Creative, I have felt quite the stirrings of a major shift going on inside me. Believing in the power of Gods, Saints, Annointed Ones, Masters and Angels to restructure my life, with an open mind and heart, I gave verbal permission to Mr. Adifon to work a miracle on me. It’s not something tangible I can even describe but what he told me during the session has been ringing through my mind since Friday.
He explained that I would feel very tired for the next two days and if I so chose I am welcome to call upon the spirits of those who stepped forth. First he asked me if I had a family member I was close to that passed over and immediately I knew my Nana was with us. I could feel her 20 minutes before the session even started! I sat in the backyard and raised my hands to the sky shaking, quivering with energy as I knew Nana would be there, as she always is, to support me and hold me in grace. I sobbed uncontrollably, in a completely non judgemental way. That has been happening ever since actually. All of a sudden throughout the day I fall to my knees in gratitude and wonder, sobbing while thanking God for his mercy and grace. For bringing me this far, through all of the trials an tribulations that have made up the fabric of my life. In awe is a good expression of how absolutely beautiful this experience is for me my dear readers!!
He echoed a lot of information that I already had heard through previous energy clearing sessions yet the work he does is beyond space and time. There are so many levels to our vast Universe, I am still new to understanding it all. I’ve written before about my spiritual awakening 10 months ago and since then I have definitely achieved a higher state of consciousness. It’s remarkable the beauty and synchronicities I experience on a daily basis.
Even as I sit here writing about this, I am taken aback at how my long held need to explain and understand things in the spiritual realm has shifted. I am surrendering the need to do so. I simply surrender. I simply know. Letting go and letting God has taken on a whole new meaning at my core where we are all held in love.
Besides my Nana stepping forward to work their magic, Archangel Raphel, saint of healing was present. I have had whispers of his presence around me for months now through the visions I experience. Some Tibetan monks also joined us as well as a saint I feel has resonated within my being for many years. Growing up Catholic, I have always been mesmerized by St. Francis, patron saint of animals and the environment. I’m a huge animal lover and nature enthusiast, believing that I can and do communicate with them on an intimate level. Much like I will be learning to do soon in my apprenticeship to become an energy practitioner as a Shamanic healer.
A quote of St. Francis’s that I deeply resonate with is, “for it is in giving that we receive”. I am a big believer in these words, I receive so much joy in giving. For me, throughout my life I often times believed that I didn’t deserve to receive anything. That I wasn’t good enough. Being sexually abused will do that to a small child’s psyche. During the healing process over the past 10 years I have worked diligently to reframe these thoughts and beliefs. Suddenly I can feel everything just coming together in such a way that I know Universe has my back in all ways.
A big take away for me was his recognizing that I lose myself for hours even days at a time. I developed a knack for disassociating as a coping/survival mechanism early on during the years I was abused. I simply internalized the pain and detached from myself. I have made HUGE strides in piecing myself back together. In the past I could be stuck in a dissociative episode for a month or more. Hearing him acknowledge that I still have a tendency to do that and be reassured that he was stitching me back together gave me this overwhelming feeling of calm.
This morning and every morning since, before I sit in meditation, I speak with St. Raphel and ask for his continued healing presence in my life. Then I usually feel as though I’m being hugged and then I release by crying. Today this poem flowed out of me. I want all of you, my dear readers to know this. God’s grace is attainable when you simply ask for it. We are all His children, created from love and light. That is our one true calling, to live by loving each other as God intended us to. Amen, Amen, Amen😇🙏
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