My dear readers, January has been a busy and powerful month for me. I can hardly believe how fast time is flying as I’m about to embark upon an adventure eight years in the making. I haven’t returned to my home state of New Jersey since 2016. Together with my partner, we are hitting the road tomorrow for the garden state! We will be visiting his family and friends, marking our first trip as a couple. It’s also my first time meeting all these new people, and I’m looking forward to seeing him in his element. Then, on February 5th, I celebrate my three years of sobriety. Winter season is a time of deep reflection and rest. I’ve been doing my best to focus equally on both while finding a balance between stillness and spontaneous bursts of creativity. Being present requires mindfulness and a heart centered in grace. I can feel my life shifting into an empowered state of being as I level up from Lightworker to Lightwarrior!
Recently, within the last few days, I had two podcast interviews released. The first one I gave for Just INwords was recorded in August of last year soon after I had moved back here to Florida. The second one for Multispective I recorded earlier this month, a day after the electrifying new moon we had in Capricorn. I’m excited to share them here in this post. I’m eager to receive your feedback, my dear readers! Please feel free to share in the comments after listening and watching.
In this piece, my intention is to share the experience of life as a channel for Spirit. It’s an interesting journey that keeps evolving as my gifts grow, and I own more of the true frequency of my energy. This poem conveys the mysterious feelings that proceed my ability to take Divine messages and create poetry.
“Charmed channel”
Whenever I feel myself slipping into self-doubt or fear, I’m reminded by my spirit guides to focus on the word resiliency. The last full moon of 2023 was in my rising sign of Cancer, which provided a complete emotional reset. I’m stronger than I give myself credit for. Aligning with my higher self, I wear love’s armor and remain teflon strong by allowing my soul to compell all actions forward. Integrating this information and utilizing the energy of the first full moon of 2024 in Leo, I set the intention to shine brighter in all my relationships. Hearing my authentic voice has taken many years of healing to reveal fully, and now I sing loud and clear.
“Teflon strong”
Your thoughts create your reality, my dear readers. Choosing which ones to assign truth to becomes what you believe about yourself and the world. Quieting the mind chatter by adhering to the truth of soul allows me to feel into my own intuition. What I choose to believe fuels magic! For what I think I am, I become. What are you feeding yourself, my dear readers? Make sure you allow yourself to be the masterpiece of miracles that you hone your magic from. Let your heart be your guide.
“The hearth of miracles”
My beloved is my soul’s muse. Our connection inspires so many feelings that flow through my heart and quicken my own internal rhythm. Together, we are peace personified. I’ve never experienced an intimate relationship quite like this. Every day, I am grateful for the love that overflows in my life. This includes the challenges we face and rise from together. My heart beats out of my chest when I look into my beloved’s eyes. He is my perfect match.
“Starshine line”“Love code”
Everything I’ve learned about myself in both shadow and Light continues to grow my superpowers and sharpens the mastery of self. Like Pam Gregory, an astrologer I admire, greatly says, “I am living an expanded consciousness of love.” Leaving my old life behind, no longer do I suffer from the lies I swallowed to get to this place of self-love and understanding. I’m here to inspire a revolution of remembering who we truly are. We are all connected by our being of love and humanity.
“More than skin deep”
Can you hear the call of love, my dear readers? Accepting what life has taught me puts an end to pain and suffering. Beholden to my joyful heart by answering love’s call. To know and live my purpose fulfills every ounce of life force in my being. Living by feel and moving with a heart centered in grace. I am sharing my magic to inspire others to share theirs. Each of us has our own unique gifts. YOU are needed now more than ever! I believe in you, and I love you!
“Love’s call”
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
My dear readers, we’ve made it to December, the last month of 2023, and my birthday month. I can hardly believe that I’m turning 46 because I will forever feel 17 in my heart. Honestly, I never would have believed back in January that I’d be where I find myself today!Spirit has guided my every step as I faithfully decided to leap into a brand new chapter by reuniting with my twin flame and move back to Florida. Living with the love of my life and our five German Shepherds has molded me into a stronger, more patient, and much more psychic being. I can hardly believe how much I’ve grown in these past five months! Looking at the big picture is a Sagittarius trait, and I’m proud of how much trust I allowed myself to have in making these big moves forward. My man reminds me on a daily basis how much love surrounds me and how much this love has healed me. All of the intentions I set over the past three years have manifested in ways that are more beautiful than I could ever have dreamed! He put this video together from the many snapsots he takes of our fur babies loving on me. Tears of joy fell as I listened to the lyrics of “Knew You Were Waiting For Me” by Aretha Franklin and George Michael while watching these memories appear one by one. Every frame describes my journey, and how our pups, Yogi, Sasha, Mishka, Xyla, and YoSha are the Divine intervention I didn’t know I was in need of. My love knew, however. He has held onto faith by believing in us for over ten years and was patiently awaiting my own revelation to our bond. My partner and my doggie crew create the love fueled moments that magic manifests from. This soul of mine is in awe by how much they add to the peace, love, and joy I’ve worked hard to cultivate. Oh, the miracles I witness and am blessed to be a part of! I’m excited about our future and what’s ready to unfold in 2024!
Building a better me
Since my last post, our world has been slammed and showered by so much high vibrational energy in the form of solar flares and geomagnetic storms. It’s thrown a wrench in my own functioning and energy levels. I’m an extremely active person, yet I understand how important it is to be still and quiet while transformations are underway. I’ve reunited with many light beings from my Galactic family. Listening to soul messages and channeling poetry takes a lot of my attention. I must admit, I often become frustrated with myself as the old pieces of me fall away, outdated stories burn to ash in the death and rebirth fires I set to manifest magic by intention rituals every New Moon, Full Moon and on days I feel Spirit nudges. These eight poems are the latest to be included in the tenth collection of poetry I’m creating to be entitled, “My Soul is a Channel.”
We come from the celestial body that surrounds us. Cosmic stardust is in our cells because we are more than just our human DNA. W e are infinite and eternal beings of Light. Happily, I celebrate every moon phase with my soulmated star seed tribe. We are continually rising now in this accelerated ascension process. We are moving away from life’s circumstances of fate to claim our destiny. Huge karmic cycles have ended. These poems reflect my soul’s wisdom as I process this amazing time in human evolution! Raising the vibration on Earth, healing one heart at a time through poetry and shamanic healing is no small task. It requires a resilient spirit and a dedicated heart with a courageous will to look at fear as the illusion it is. Nothing will ever stop me or hold me back from shining my Light and love for all to follow! Today, I know how powerful it is to share how love will heal and unite us all!
“A star is born”
I’ve arrived at a place that I once thought I’d never find. Peace in each present moment, lovely and Divine. I’m choosing to go with this flow. This quote by Etty Hillesum is one I’ve been focusing on lately. “Sometimes the most important thing in a whole day is the rest we take between two deep breaths.”
Living life as a neurodivergent woman has taught me to not solely rely upon linear thinking but to move through the world energetically and by soul. Feeling my way into every adventure life has to offer opens me to embrace more of my own voice. Trauma taught me to look within myself and showed me where I needed to grow and how I needed to develop more trust and belief within myself. I now own my strength, which is my Light and my power. The God-given light I feel inside empowers me and helps me to accept the unconditional love that’s been there all along. Once I was able to do that, then I could see that beauty and love outside of myself. After understanding the magic that lies within, I can manifest that sacred love into my personal relationships. That’s where I find myself today. Seeing magic weave itself into my physical reality. Walking out of the darkness and into the Light.
My life today is full. I’m a free spirited artist, a rainbow unicorn living in the full spectrum kaleidoscope of life! I draw an abundance of life force energy as a whole and heart centered, soulful being of Light and of love. Hallelujah and amen!!
“Going with the flow”
Truth be told, Scorpio season was especially challenging for me this year. Moving forward in the way I have been this year requires a discerning look back into the shadows within. It’s a balancing exercise I practice by shining light into the darkness. It’s interesting too because the months of autumn have always been my favorite time of year, yet it’s also a time period where the most traumatic events took place. It was in November of 2011 that I attempted suicide and faced the most abuse and domestic violence in a past relationship. This year, I’m in a much healthier and deeply loving relationship with myself and my partner. Spirit asked me to fully embrace all the hard work that I’ve done to arrive here. Fellow writer and poet, McCall Erikson says,”Soul work isn’t a high road. It’s a deep fall into an unforgiving darkness that won’t let you go until you find the song that sings you home. ” I know this to be my heart’s song, not the one my mind spins. I’ve successfully rewired and changed so much of the stories my mind wants to create. The ego wants to stay in the past, in the predictable ways it’s learned to navigate the world, thus keeping me small. I reincarnated to be BIG! I continue to forgive myself and the people who inflicted pain upon me. In this instance, it is the high road I’m choosing. I decide to use my energy for love, never fear. I do this because we are all one. Feeling into these soul messages when they drop into remind me how deserving I am of love and every living creature. Oneness of spirit grows eternally and connects us all. We are infinitely radiant beings having a multidimensional experience. And so it is.
“Truth revealed”
My life path or Divine number is 9. I recently had it and a diamond with nine faucets tattooed on my right hand. These things are significant because I’m continually reminded of and being asked to let go of the things I have been clinging to, whether material possessions or sentimental memories. This is my soul’s evolutionary lesson. The diamond represents my natal chart and its planetary placements. They look like a diamond. I do my best work under pressure to shine, just like a diamond! Also, I like to utilize more of my right brain, which is intuitive, creative, free thinking of outside the box solutions and conclusions and colors outside the lines rather than the left side, which is linear analytical, ridgid and logical. Humanity is evolving into relying much more upon the right side of our brains in order to function in a higher state of consciousness. Nine is also representative of the way in which my soul desires to formulate deeply spiritual relationships with others. I enjoy dwelling beneath the surface. Superficiality is not interesting to me, and frankly, something I’m completely turned off by. My partner and I interact on a soul level, using telepathy and intuition to engage with one another. Together, we are weaving our destiny by creating the life of our dreams! The Divine number of 45 is 9. Goddess Kali represents the death, and rebirth cycles are my specialty. Farewell to 45 years of a life where pain and suffering saturated everything in favor of a new life where peace,love, and joy are the focus. My spirit guides tell me I’ve learned more in these years than 8 lifetimes combined! Waving the past goodbye forever. I am grateful for the determination and will it’s required of me to heal. l’ve climbed the mountains I once believed I couldn’t ascend. Finally, I made a new and stable home for myself.
“One”
As I turn 46, I proudly own my power and celebrate it with many words for the layers of what I feel beneath this human skin. I’m a sensitive being with a fiery soul that demands the truth be spoken loud and clear for all to hear. Turning pain into wisdom and experience into the lessons this unbelievable journey has taught me.
“Last days”
After all the trauma I’ve experienced. The love I’ve been seeking has revealed itself through my own healing. Once I accepted myself and learned to trust myself, my true soulmate appeared. God bless this journey of past lives reunited to share in the truth of unconditional love’s power. Creating the life I’ve dreamed of, worked hard for, and answered all prayers! This poem is one that I framed to sit on a bookshelf in my office and remind me to wear love as my armor every day.
“In her amor”
Being human means embracing every experience with gusto and tenacity. Life provides us with many paths and choices. Today, I choose to embrace peace, dance with joy, and shine love because life is too precious and short not to. Sharing my authentic nature with others. Love is all we need, and all that is true. The choice to love over fear is always available if we are open to seeing it.
“Choices”
With winter approaching, I find myself in a cocoon of high vibrational energy that is preparing me for a complete metamorphosis. Soul demands stillness while I attend to shedding the stories that no longer serve the journey. Onto bigger and more aligned paths. The core of me shining from the inside out. We humans collectively are expanding, my dear readers. Let’s keep GROWING! Magic is afoot. Until 2024, I’m sending you all the love and Light.
“The core of me”
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
My heart is singing as my soul is soaring high, my dear readers! This week, I’m ending a two year chapter of living in Utah and relocating back to Florida. The decision to focus on Emotional Musings, my healing, and writing is proving fruitful. I’ve also taken a grand leap of faith by exploring a romantic relationship with a dear friend who, unbeknownst to me, has been holding back feelings of love for me for ten years. We are a gift to one another through Divine timing and the Light. I’m learning more and more each day how aligned we are. This is the precious love I’ve been waiting for. Divine love, the highest love that I’ve been praying for for three years. Manifesting these gifts in my life comes only from the magnitude of gratitude I hold in my heart. Prayers of “thank you” to my spirit guides every day for protecting and guiding me to this place. Having and holding a deep trust that what is meant for me will never pass me by. Surrendering control of the outcomes by allowing God to work in mysterious ways. I know my Dad is watching over me, smiling with pride. He’s happy I’m choosing to go after my dreams. Here I am, arriving in Divine love, watching them all come true!
I first moved to Florida back in March of 2013 when I was just entering recovery from drugs and alcohol. I met my partner just three months after completing my program, and we became fast friends. He’s been on the road of recovery for 37 years now. He ‘s always been someone I’ve admired for his deep wisdom and patience. Little did I realize that ten years in the future, we would feel the true love that we feel for one another today! I’m thrilled to be back in Florida, a place I called home for eight years and have vacationed to all of my life. The beach is my happy place, and I look forward to spending time there in solitude, soaking up the vibrations. Grounding myself with my toes in the sand and breathing saltwater air.
The energy this month has been very powerfully cosmicnd cosmI’ve definitely felt a leveling up in the ascension process, which is stripping away fear and becoming at home in love. Our being is love and radiates this belief outwards, attracting the same vibration. You truly do get what you give off and are the master of your own reality, my dear readers. These are the latest poems in my 9th collection entitled “My Soul’s Inspiration.”
Learning to relax by becoming still is a practice I gift my nervous system on a regular basis. It’s how I recharge. Breathing in a conscious and continuous way brings my being peace. Keeping my heart open, allowing my soul to guide me by Spirit’s messages through intuition. Everything flows, and that is when the power of belief in love grows strongest. It is this belief that has gotten me towhere I am today!
“Heart and soul”
One of the best things about this relationship is that we are both Earth angels, energeticagifted, and here in this lifetime for the same purpose. To help others to heal and be the best version of themselves. I’m blessed to receive the truest of love. Our souls swim in the same colors. Angels conspired as divine timing delivered. All I see is him.
“Colors of soul”
Love is the chariot I ride off into the sunset. Gleaming wisdom from within as the both of us embark upon the life of our romantically inclined dreams. Two hearts that beat as one. Blessed are those who believe they are worthy. Today and forever, I choose our love.
“Chariot of love”
I feel as if I’m dreaming because he is the man I’ve been looking for, and now, knowing that he’s been standing in front of me this entire time is surreal. His patience with me met with God’s grace and mysterious ways, leaving me breathless as I fell deeply in love. This is our story. Taking the steps to love.
“Steps to love”
Recently, I was invited to spend some time in the mountains, listening to the wind and soaking up the summer Sun. Nature is medicine for the soul. My dear friend took this picture of me practicing yoga and when I saw it I was so elated! A light beam shone down directly on me, what a beautiful gift!
Yoga outdoors makes my heart happy“Song of solitude”
Over the past eleven years, I’ve done a lot of concentrated healing on my inner child. The scars from the trauma and abuse I’ve experienced have taught me how strong and resilient I am. I’m grateful for all I have learned. My partner has always seen my Light, my gifts, even before I did. The whispering pledge of my inner child allows me to release deeply rooted fear and accept his true love for me. I believe i am worthy after years of feeling love as pain because of the experiences I endured. I accept. He is my safe harbor.
“Safe harbor”
Once again, I find myself following my heart by taking a leap of faith as I listen to the intuitive language of soul. True love has my heart aflutter and is fast approaching as I make this major life change. One more time, here I go. Moving across the country to join my soulmate. The world is my oyster as I grow into the woman I am meant to be. Flourishing in purpose and creative passion.
“Echoes of soul”
I’m honored to announce that this poem, “Endless love” was named POD on the app I use to create my poetry, Miraquill. Love stirs and sparks the beginning of this new chapter back in Florida and reunited with my soulmate. Together, we share the highest timeline in this ascension. Forever, we are dedicated to this endless love.
“Endless love”
The journey continues. We are multidimensional spiritual beings having a human experience. Everything lies in the present moment. Truth, power, Light, and love. This is what living out loud consists of. A full spectrum kaleidoscope of being. Coming alive in my being. I’m grounded in gratitude and thankful for the gifts in each moment. I plan on taking the rest of the summer off to adjust to my new life. I’ll be back in the fall with more stories and poems.
“Coming alive”
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In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
Here we are my dear readers in the month of February already, the month of love. The poems in this post reflect open hearted intentions and will be featured in my latest book of poetry, “My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. My mentor and dear friend, Lindsey Luna suggested to me that I consider writing a book of spells and I must say when I sat with the idea I was very inspired! Many of my poems find themselves in the shamanic healing sessions I conduct with clients and in my intention setting rituals. The messages that have been channeled through me since late summer of 2022 are all centered in love. The final five months of last year I felt myself healing through a long period of karmic relationship patterns that no longer served my being, my purpose and ultimately my heart. I have learned since my awakening four years ago that as I heal, not all relationships are meant to last. It’s taken quiet introspection, many tears and intentional releasing to be able to let go of the people who are no longer in my life. Detaching with love is what guides my steps onwards towards more enriching connections.
I’m thrilled to share with you my dear readers that a few days into 2023, after proclaiming my free fall into faith, I went out with a gentleman who has touched my heart and soul deeply. It feels like we have reunited now in this lifetime after spending other timelines together on a higher plane of existence. Our bond is very natural and feels like home. We laugh easily together and share too many synchronicities to name. Middle age for me has ignited a mid-life renaissance and I feel alive and free in my skin for the first time ever! He likes to tell me how I make his heart smile and I say that he makes my heart sing. It’s exciting to spend time with someone who is reflecting so many of my core beliefs back at me. We are divinely connected in similarities and differences. The future feels very bright with him by my side. As I muse upon the intricate forces of love in my work, he is definitely playing an important role.
Since the inception of this blog in October of 2018, I’ve been musing upon emotions. As an energetically sensitive person, I’ve always been fascinated by the sensations I feel inside myself and from others. Following these clues is how I assist others on their healing journey. I often tell my clients and those who are interested in shamanic healing that I’m never NOT in awe of how Spirit works in mysterious ways and how divinely connected we all are. I am one of many, clear channels, a vessel for Spirit. I would like to share these recent channeled messages as poems, a testimony of my journey into the purest love I have yet to experience as a soul experiencing the physical world on Earth. The density is thinning and paradigms are shifting. The healing work I’ve accomplished has gifted me so much to be grateful for. The love I have dreamed of and prayed for is standing in front of me and all I have to do is accept it. I know I deserve this relationship and am worthy of it. I often tell this sweet man how we are both deserving of one another at this time in our lives after a lot of heartache.
February 5, 2023 we will be experiencing a full moon in Leo. The exact placement of Mars, the ruler if Leo, during this moon cycle’s completion is the exact degree point in my own natal chart. I’ve been dancing through a lot of powerful shifts and energy surges within. This date also marks two years of celebrated sobriety for me, the longest period of sobriety I’ve ever had. Over these two years a lot has changed and I have transformed. I feel amazing!! I know the joy can be felt through my writing here and in my poems.
I want these poems to speak for themselves. To ring clear and true as the heart songs and soul hymns they are. Thank you my dear readers for following me on this journey and supporting me by liking, commenting and sharing this blog. May we all use this new energy as the fresh start it is meant to be and harness the love of our dreams!
If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website. For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email. Maria@emotionalmusings.com https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings
In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
Choosing to allow love to lead and guide my life’s purpose is an elaborate dance with Spirit. Opening the heart to allow a higher power to guide my steps is an ever evolving practice in surrendering to the unknown. Leaning into a deeper trust while having faith that the answers will show up in Divine timing, not anything I control. Turning away from ego stories and postures for the betterment of soul’s alignment. It’s a very humbling experience that many of us run from. I know I certainly did, for many years. Living an authentic life takes courage. Especially when fear is forcing you to give up. This past month I’ve had to dig deep and sit through more than a few dark nights of the soul to be rewarded the clarity that self introspection reveals. The recent eclipse season gifted me some hard to swallow truths yet in the core of my being, I knew I needed to see. Staying open, listening to Spirit and my guides while revisiting the more challenging soul lessons required me to love myself more than ever before. Finally, allowing the breakdowns to become breakthroughs.
We all want to be loved. Human beings are wired for connection and community. The way to this love is through deeply and thoroughly loving ourselves. Self acceptance is the key to inner peace. A quote by Lao Tzu says the three greatest treasures are simplicity, patience and compassion. I like to think of them as simplicity of mind creates joy, patience within the body brings peace and compassion in soul is love. The relationships I have with others can trigger a lot of old stories and coping behaviors I leaned on for survival while enduring trauma. These responses were a perceived security blanket for the purpose of protecting my heart. The ego’s desire to control everything in the mind, keeping us small and safe. This has always lead to self sabotage. The old stories fed to me over the years that sting and scream thoughts of “you’re too much”, “don’t show your emotions” and “be perfect”. The scars from emotional neglect in childood have taught me to hide myself by not letting anybody see my innermost feelings for fear of rejection and abandonment. The truth is neither of my parents were emotionally supportive or knew how to explain their own feelings. I learned to hide, stuff and carry not only my own but the energy of emotions from other people around me. Feelings were seen as burdensome. This experience taught me that I was unworthy of love without pain. Pain was intricately woven throughout the meaning of love.
Love is magic
Subsequently, I met men who were emotionally unavailable or who couldn’t match my own level of emotional intelligence and intuitiveness. The journey of healing over the past ten years while reparenting myself has taught me to value my feelings as the warning indicators for what my body needs. Carefully and mindfully nurturing myself welcomes unconditional love to flow. I believe we are all connected to a radiant light, a God consciousness that is made of love. Essentially we are LOVE! This is our purpose. To be love and shine love, to ourselves and one another. Allowing myself to be seen, felt and heard by another who is reflecting my soul back at me is a Divine experience. Love truly is patient and kind. Never boastful, it always protects, trusts, hopes, perservers and never fails.
My 8th book of poetry will be a collection that is all about love ,”My Soul’s Love, a book of spells”. These poems are a culmination of what my journey through healing has taught me. The messages that have brought me closer to God and my life’s purpose as a healer. I’m here to show others how love heals and transforms. There is no possible explanation for how I have returned from the depths of abuse, trauma, addiction and suicide without God’s love and direction. This has arrived by the allowance of true love into my life! The Universe will give you signposts to follow, synchronistic gifts that are meant to teach us how to master the challenges in life. May we be released from ego and guided by soul to let love lead!
We operate on Divine time, it is precious and not our own We are love, let it lead
If you’re interested in a long distance shamanic healing session via phone, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations and other ritualistic services I provide or to purchase any of my 6 books of poetry please click the link below. See the Services tab in the menu on this website. For a personalized autographed copy of any of my books, please send me an email. Maria@emotionalmusings.com https://linktr.ee/Emotionalmusings
In light and in shadow, always with love. Namaste.
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