Grief and loss, Healing

Feeling is healing

Often times we do whatever we can to mute, disconnect and halt our feelings. I know this process well my dear readers. Through the trauma, abuse and self destructive ways I attempted to stifle my feelings in the hopes of erasing what was going on, I came to understand there is no way to escape the pain. What I have learned my friends is the only way to truly live is by feeling, for that is healing. Listening to the notes of each heart song, brings me closer to my authentic self and creates a bridge to my soul. To feel is to heal which in turn elevates the soul.

This Saturday my family and I will bid an official farewell to my Dad. My Mom chose to hold the memorial on the same date as their first meeting which was a blind date, 45 years ago. It’s very special for her. I’m honored to be giving a reading during the Catholic mass that will be held in his honor and reciting my poem “Daddy” while the choir director plays “How Great Art Thou” my Dad’s favorite hymn. It’s also three months to the day he breathed his final breath, crossing over to the spirit realm, to be with God and the angels. I’ve been feeling lots of different emotions as you can imagine my dear ones. The difference of focus for me now is that I don’t judge my feelings. I surrender, I accept and I feel them. However they surface, with anger, with tears or with laughter. All of it serves.

Curiously investigating feelings to heal

This poem, “Inner Landscape” was recently named post of the day on the app I use, Mirakee, to create my poems. I have been using this app for over two years and this is the first time I have been recognized by this honor. I must tell you the sheer joy I felt receiving so much love, kindness and support from the writing community on the app and on the social media platforms I shared it on. My hope and prayer is that by sharing my journey of healing, of learning to live by my motto of “Triumphing over Trauma”, I can inspire others to do the same. This is another poem about healing, based upon chakra health which leads to a richness and wealth of well-being.

Chakra health =healing wealth

I would also like to share with you my dear readers a clip from a show I have been binging on Netflix called “The Magicians”. This clip is of the cast singing in remembrance of one of the lead characters, their dear friend who passes away tragically after a magic spell that leads to an unexpected outcome. It really impacted me as I watched it, tears spontaneously fell from my eyes and poured down my face. I’ve heard this song so many times ,yet not in this tempo, which allowed the meaning to shine light upon my own grief. We get such a short amount of time in this life for the people we connect with to leave an indelible mark upon our hearts that we may not recognize until they are gone. We are presented with that choice, to “Take on Me” when we love someone. These special relationships teach us so much. My Dad is the strongest and most humble person I have ever been blessed to know and love. He was a man of few words, the strong and silent type, so when he spoke he commanded attention and you listened. I’m so very honored to be his daughter, getting the opportunity to “take on him”.

Lastly, I will close this post with two other poems that reflect my heart and healing at this time along my journey. I urge each one of you my dear friends, tap into your heart, feel your feelings, heal and continue to discover your authentic self, which is your truth. It’s beautiful. It’s you!

Honor your spirit

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Grief and loss, Healing, Spirituality

The light of love shines like a mirror

Imagine your being as a mirror, what are you reflecting out into the world? Are you living authentically, heart centered and open or are you closed, in fear and driven by the chaos. Finding a balance in between the two is where peace lies. Living by my soul’s purpose shows me the ways in which I can adjust my mirror on a daily basis so that I can be the best me possible and shine my bright light of love, my mirror upon others.

Humans were built for community, we need one another to grow and learn from. Some lessons are more challenging than others. This week has been a particularly emotional one for me as the waves of grief wash over me, processing the loss of my Dad was my main focus again. We heal in cycles my dear ones, being forever brought back to the places we need to go deeper into acceptance of. It all serves and healing never ceases. While riding my bike back and forth to the beach twice this week, about thirty miles or so altogether, I found myself repeating this mantra:

“I acknowledge, I surrender, I release, I accept”

There are no mute or pause buttons that are helpful for processing deep emotions. The best choice is to practice what these words mean, to heed their lesson. Awareness is the name of the game. I am all of what I feel by accepting whatever is coming up, leaning into it and dancing with its message. The medicine I choose is always love. The person who is responsible for loving all of me, is me. I retreat to the beach and allow the healing light of the Sun to work his magic. I also brought along some tiger’s eye crystals that are great for helping to release fear and anxiety and aids in achieving harmony and balance within. It stimulates taking action, and helps you to make decisions with discernment and understanding, becoming unclouded by your emotions. Practicing patience by surrendering to and allowing whatever shows up to wash through until a clear decision is reached.

Love is the best medicine

The app I use to create my poems is called Mirakee. Every day they ask the members to participate in creating a poem from a word prompt. It’s a fun way of writing and I am usually surprised at what flows out. The word that prompted this poem was”to write a poem based on our zodiac sign”. This poem “Firefly” is a celebration of those like me who are born under the zodiac sign of Sagittarius. Here’s to the wild, adventurous and freedom loving fellow Sagittarians!

Sagittarius ♐

In times like this I find it’s important to be extra gentle with myself and I practice this by breathing consciously and scheduling time for extra meditation. This week I was guided to focus on my heart chakra a bit more. This is the area of our body where most of us neglect and is the root cause for conditions like heart disease to manifest. Slowing down and paying closer attention to our hearts, while quieting the mind is essential to our well-being my dear readers. I invite you to tap into your heart and heal whatever comes up. This is where our truth lies.

Love over fear, the two can not coexist

Finally, as the God centered being I am, I turn to His lessons of love for all of creation, unity, harmony and balance. His grace and mercy are readily available to each and every one of us, believers and non believers alike. When we can tap into a power greater than ourselves it’s amazing what we can find. Call it the Universe, Mother Nature or God (I see them all as one force) When I can become still within this vibration, the great I AM comes forth and heals my soul. It is within each of us, supporting us, existing in all of nature that surrounds us. This belief soothes me most of all. And so it is. Amen. Amen. Amen.

God’s love is the greatest of all
The Lord’s Prayer

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Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

Refining the art of living

My dear readers, a creative force drives my passions, which allows me to live a soulful existence upon this planet. I view life and living as a dance, a balancing act that requires careful steps to the everchanging rhythms. The human condition is something I’m constantly and curiously investigating. The need we all seem to have, which is to hold onto what we know and resist change. Over the past year, I have struck up an intimate relationship with change. This living dance I practice has allowed me to live by my soul’s desires. A homecoming for my heart. An art that requires tender care, refining and continuous weeding of what no longer serves to open up to the possibilities life presents.

“In troubled times, there is an urgency to understand ourselves and our world. We have so many questions, and they tug at us night and day, consciously and unconsciously”. These words are a review of Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh——one of the most revered spiritual leaders in the world, of his book, “The Art of Living: Peace and Freedom in the Here and Now”. This is what I too find myself in servitude of, the art of living to allow for as much peace and freedom as possible.

Following this path was initially met with quite a resistance, from both myself and my partner. He struggled to see what was emerging from the transformation I was undertaking. My soul was yearning to be free and I intuitively knew that with time, he too would see what was unfolding couldn’t be delayed any longer. The beauty that begs to be poured out from inside of me. I truly have emerged from a cocoon of fear, doubt and unworthiness to a space of trust, hope, faith and unconditional love.

This is intentional living, making decisions from a place of love for myself and well-being. Opening myself up at first was incredibly scary and produced a lot of anxiety. The pain of change proved great enough to see me through the fear and brought me to a place of loving kindness and forgiveness within my being. The more I practice tapping into this well of abundance inside, the deeper the love that shines there grows. Practicing this on a daily basis has continued to heal me mentally (mind), emotionally(heart centered), body (physical health) and spiritually (soul). Today I allow myself to do what I feel and share it with others.

“I’m Coming Out” by Diana Ross

Life is so precious and short. Despite the ebbs and flow, living life from soul allows me to feel so grateful in each moment. I intentionally and mindfully take off the weight that wants to stay squarely upon my shoulders, keeping me small. No longer will I allow society or anyone else for that matter to dictate how I should live my life. Dancing, practicing yoga, painting, writing poetry and practicing shamanic healing colors my world so brightly and keeps me singing as I walk down the street, which is something I do daily loudly and proudly! By sharing my testimony with others on how I live, I pray it gives others permission to shine more brightly. Be who you are my dears and if you don’t like what you see than by all means change it. We each hold tremendous power inside to consistently go after whatever it is we want out of life.

These poems are my soul’s expression for each stage of life, peeling back layers to expose more of my authentic self. This for me is a fine tuning, a constant refining to the art of living.

For my partner who challenges me to be who I am

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Consciousness, Healing, Spirituality

To shine or not to shine

Ah my dear readers, this world can certainly swallow you up if you’re not mindful. Each of us has a tremendous power inside, a light that is burning brightly, yearning to shine and be shared with others. We experience this when we strike up a conversation with a stranger, smile at a child and hold a door for someone to walk through with ease. It’s in opening these doors, along with our minds and hearts that connect us to one another. Humans were made for community, we need one another.

Lately, as the intuitive and sensitive person I am, I have been feeling a lot of the trauma and pain of others rising to the surface. It’s a great time for healing, forgiveness and for the betterment of humanity as a whole. A coming together, leaving the past behind and focusing on building a brighter tomorrow with love. Love is the greatest and most powerful untapped superpower there is. Please look inside of yourselves my dear ones and heal that love that is waiting to flow throughout your being. Practicing this mantra helps….

“I am safe, I am grounded and I am made of pure love. I see you (insert your name) and I forgive you because I love you. Thank you for caring for me”

This is a good way to begin the practice of self care and grow self love. Our being desperately needs this. Our own loving attention is what will break up stagnant energy, riding the body of blocks and allowing love to flow as it needs to. We can do this by breathing, slowing down and embracing the moment we are in. When life lures us into speeding up, that’s actually when our being needs to slow down, carefully and gently assess the next loving action instead of harshness and taking any further action that bypass our hearts. I ask myself this question when I feel stressed out or stuck, “what is the next best loving response”. Then I can proceed in a much more heart centered direction.

I spend a great deal of time sitting out in nature, listening to music and meditating. This time is sacred because caring for my soul’s health is priority number one. It’s also when I can best tap into my intuition and hear the guidance of my many Spirit mentors. They are who conduct the healing I provide myself and my clients as a shaman, I am merely a conduit. This path is one of intention and requires me to keep my human vessel as clean as possible so that I can be a pure channel for these messages. This week, I can feel a major boost of love being infused throughout the Universe. This energy, this light is available in abundance and is meant for healing. The colors I see, the beautiful music it creates in my mind is so glorious, it brings tears to my eyes. My heart is so full. I choose to shine and not to recoil in fear of being vulnerable to it. Today, I embrace the authentic spirit I carry.

I have spent most of my life hiding, doubting what I feel because of it’s enormity and not showing my authentic self. I believe that I just wasn’t ready, the flower blossom of my soul’s essence needed more time to fully bloom. This year I have stepped into a colorful masterpiece within this soul’s journey and have begun to amplify my life with the brilliance of its light. Integrating my shadow aspects in a mindful way has allowed me to see the truth of who I am, my wholeness. It’s like taking the paddles they use to restart the heart and using them to further awaken my soul. I see such immense beauty all around me. I’ve expressed these feelings in the following poems.

Pieces of my soul

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Eternal love is the breath of life

My dear readers, I have written often about the self healing techniques, rituals and ceremonies I practice in order to stay connected to my authentic self and to further integrate my soul into my being. Yesterday I took part in another breathquest ceremony that my dear friend Chrissy-Marie hosts via her Voyagers membership group that can be accessed here https://theartofaliveness.mykajabi.com/ Conscious breathing is so beneficial to welcoming in more life force energy which is what brings overall well-being to our body, mind and spirit. Directing such energy helps rid the body of stress and trauma, allowing for further expansion. The more room one can create internally, the more freedom one feels. It’s invigorating my dear ones!

I’ve been taking part in these monthly ceremonies for over ten months. I can firmly attest to the abundance of overall harmony I feel once the release of stagnant energy takes place where trauma has been locked in my body. The areas that are most impacted are the autonomic nervous system (ANS) which is connected to physical processes such as digestion, respiration, heart rate, immune function, and peristalsis. Also the sympathetic nervous system (SNS) which is our fight-or-flight response. For someone like me with CPTSD, this has benefited me most in regulating this response so that I can be more present while helping me focus and meditate much easier.

This information is quoted in an article I read to research conscious breathing and its benefits, and can be found at https://kripalu.org/resources/benefits-conscious-breathing-body-and-mind

“The other branch of the system is the parasympathetic nervous system (PNS), often called the “rest and digest” or “calm and connect” system, which allows us to recoup from the stressors of life. If you find yourself breathing slowly and deeply, feeling a sense of calm and peacefulness, your PNS is activated, enhancing digestion, increasing blood flow to the GI track, lowering the heart rate, and enhancing sexual arousal. This system also activates certain parts of the brain, dampening fear-response regions and increasing the reflective, responsive regions. The result? More reflective, conscious behavior and action; an increased feeling of calm; and greater mental flexibility and creativity amid life’s challenges”.

The work I practice as a shaman requires me to read energy on other dimensions and has me dance with irrationality. I’m a storyteller for the soul, therefore it’s important for my being to be as healthy, neutral and well attuned as possible. These breathing techniques have helped shift my own consciousness and behavior in innumerable and priceless ways. I’ve begun teaching the art of shamanism while maintaining a steady client base and by God’s grace I have become quite busy. This week I really needed this breath course to reconnect with my soul, breathe and rejuvenate myself. I took a much needed day off yesterday and enjoyed restful sleep. Being still, feeling calmness and tremendous inner peace is a reward for all the hard work and dedication I give to this craft, my way of life as I walk the shamanic path.

For it is in breathing that we can let go, allowing more truth and love into our being. These little deaths create new beginnings. In the moments one feels anxious and wants to hold (breath) is the exact moment our body desires us to release and breathe. When we feel the urgency to speed up is actually the time we need to slow down. Breathing deep and often, consciously makes all of these actions flow more easily and helps us make more healthful decisions.

These two poems embody how my soul feels. Connecting to etetnal love, which supports all life in the Universe and how vital it is to feel the breath of life. The amount of aliveness one feels is directly related to one’s soul’s health. Healing the soul, connecting all parts of self spreads love throughout our human operating system. This allows us to be as whole as possible and as joyful, peaceful and loving as we want. I highly recommend you try it my dear ones! Breath is life!

Breath is freedom
Love supports all life

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below. For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
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