I may write an original tomorrow. I’m being gentle and compassionate towards myself during this cycle of grief I’m surfing. Namaste my dear ones❤
Artwork by George Redhawk If you are reading these words, and relate to the material in this blog, you are a pioneer of change. Your outer life may not seem to reflect that truth, and that’s because the changes have been inner ones. And as we know, real change begins at inner levels. Most people […]
This is a bittersweet holiday for my family and I being this is the first one minus my Dad. The man who always carved the giant turkey and presided over the time we committed to enjoying it because it couldn’t coincide with the big football games that are being played today.
Despite the fact that my siblings and I aren’t together, I know our entire country is having a very different experience in celebrating Thanksgiving this year due to the pandemic of COVID-19 that our world is living through. I’m writing this to remind ALL of us that it’s what’s in our hearts, our grateful and loving hearts that we celebrate and say thanks to God for our many blessings. I’m an extremely blessed woman to know the unconditional guidance, protection and love that is available to us all through God’s grace. This is what I get down on my knees for today and say, “Thank you” for.
The outpouring of love I have received from family and friends over the passing of my Dad keeps the smile on my face and warms my heart. This year, 2020 has been my most transformative yet and I’m blessed that my Dad got to see me blossom and bloom this year. A close girlfriend of mine reminded me of that and it really changed my thinking on the day he passed over. I want to share this experience I had with you all just yesterday while I sat in meditation….
My Dad’s spirit came to me and he said, “hey Mare (my Dad’s nickname for me) I’m so sorry dolly that I didn’t understand you more while I was alive. I get it, I get you now that I’ve died sweetheart and we are closer now”. He is already my top advisor, teacher and guide as I dance the sacred waltz with Spirit as a shamanic healer. It’s the most beautiful gift I could ever imagine to receive. All I could say, while the tears flowed were “Thanks Dad, I love you”.
I wrote this first poem, “Daddy” just hours before he passed over. I read it to my mother when she woke up Tuesday the 24th of November 2020 and when I got to the last line, she hugged me tighter and we looked in each other’s eyes. My spirit guides later told me that we ushered him over at that exact moment because when the nurse called to tell us that he was no longer with us and the time, we both instantly knew. We laughed and cried and I could hear my Dad say, “Thank you Maria, I’m free” while the Frank Sinatra song, “Born Free” played loudly in my head. My Mom and I were both outside on the lake and saw his spirit appear in a hawk that was flying overhead. This is the picture on YouTube for that song! Talk about synchronicity my dears.
“Daddy”
This is a poem I wrote for his birthday last year September 1st, 2019. My Dad was always such a strong, proud and dignified man. He had a gentle manner and a heart of pure gold, my hero.
“Dad”
Life is so precious and short my dears. Tell the ones that you love you love them. We must all today celebrate each other, the abundance of God’s blessings upon all of creation, look around at this beautiful world he gave us and say “Thank you”.
In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below. https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77
Look at what arrived yesterday in the mail. If anyone who like a personalized autographed copy of “My Soul’s Light” please go to my contact page and email me. Namaste 🙏
My dear readers and friends, brothers and sisters, I am not fully myself. However, by the grace and mercy of God, the work I have done over these past 7 months is sustaining my spirit currently as my Dad, 87 is in a hospice facility dying. Just 3 days after I returned home to South Florida, he fell and my Mom and I called for the ambulance because we couldn’t get him up on our own. My Dad has Alzheimer’s disease. In these past 2 weeks he has been in two different hospitals and a rehab facility. He has suffered a heart attack and now has contracted COVID-19. As you all can imagine, my family and I are devastated that we will have to let him go in this way.
My favorite picture of my Dad & I 🥰
I’m beyond grateful that I’ve arrived home here in time to conduct 3 healing sessions on my mother and have successfully destroyed the generational curse within our family that had many of them attached to demons from birth. At 76, my Mom is fully in her own body now and is experiencing a spiritual awakening! It’s absolutely beautiful. The work I do is sacred and nothing short of a miracle. We were assisted by more ancestors and relatives than I can name or count and I feel so blessed to have as much protection, guidance and unconditional from Spirit. My cup runs over just thinking about it!
My Dad has lived a long and tremendously beautiful life. He was a semi-professional baseball player, a car dealer and a father of 6 children. He and my Mom celebrated their 44th wedding anniversary in June of this year. He is a strong, giving, proud and gently loving man. Being an 100% Italian man raised by 2nd generation immigrants in the 1930s and 1940s, he didn’t always know how to tell us with words how much he loved us. He definitely showed us by always providing for our needs, going above and beyond to give his family the world. I have lived an extremely privileged life full of happy memories that are keeping me comforted now. It’s just truly heartbreaking that we can’t hold his hand right now. Alzheimer’s and COVID-19 are hideous diseases that nobody should ever have to experience. I pray none of you my dears ever has to.
I’m on an emotional roller coaster. I’ve been pouring into my Mom for two weeks now and I’m tired. Yesterday, I hit a wall. I wanted to get this post out there and ask you all to pray for me as I’m in need of your love and light. My angel guides remind me often to ask the other humans around me for help because that’s something I don’t always feel comfortable doing. It’s part of my shadow. Now I’m asking my dears.
I feel some poems coming on as I begin connecting to more ancestors from my Dad’s side who have been occupying our home for days now. They’re preparing him to go home. Like my Uncle Donnie, my Dad’s favorite cousin said, “it’s a goombah fest!
I wanted to share a couple more videos of my poetry that’s featured in my latest book, “My Soul’s Light”. I’m not sure how much or how little I will be posting. Doing my best to stay in the moment and allow whatever comes up. As you all can imagine, that’s the only role right now that needs tending to.
“I am Love ““I hope”
My books arrived today in the mail just as my Mom and I were bringing some things to the hospice facility. I added an inscription to my Dad and asked his nurse to read from it so he could have a piece of me, of my heart to comfort him. My Mom was so happy we could do that. It’s a gift from Divine for sure.
In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below. https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77
This is written by a fellow blogger whom I adore. Please read carefully and follow her at https://soulsoothinsounds.wordpress.com/ We share a lot of the same concepts and ideas as well as the name, Maria. This post outlines how our world is shifting into higher consciousness on a collective scale will take time. It’s coming my dears yet we must be patient with ourselves and others.
In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below. https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77
I wanted to cover a topic that has been given a lot of air time, because there can be misunderstandings. Donald Trump represents the mental aspect of humanity, that doesn’t want to concede control. That part of the collective consciousness that has disowned the feminine, the heart and the soul. He is the last vestiges of a […]
I’d like to start this post by recognizing that there is indeed too much pain and suffering in our world. The pandemic we have endured for most of 2020 is nowhere near being efficiently managed in my country and our election remains unresolved as far as the current powers that be are concerned. All of that aside, life is full of choices and real change starts with numero uno. YOU. For goodness sakes, turn off the damn television and concentrate on how you can make yourself a better human being than you were yesterday. My dear readers, I’m being blunt here for emphasis. Change starts within ourselves. Nobody is coming to save you. Learning how to love oneself and practicing self care are the first steps in creating real change. Be the change you want to see in the world. It all starts with self. Stop thinking you can change or control anyone else. No matter what else is going on, only you can take the best care of you. Your job is you. Period.
Now that I got that off my chest, I want to share with you all that my 4th book of poetry, “My Soul’s Light” is available now on Amazon via the link I share at the bottom of each of my posts. I’m extremely proud of it, this is my masterpiece (so far) and my prayer is that its messages of love and kindness spread far and wide. Alchemizing the wide spread fear, hate and evil deeds done all over our world is where love conquers. These poems highlight my belief that only love will change our world. Love is the answer.
If you’ve been following me for awhile, you’re aware of the challenges that I’ve overcome. Severe trauma, abuse, suicide attempts, hospitalizations, homelessness, divorce and estrangement from my children…none of my life has been easy yet I never allowed it to turn me bitter. In fact, it served as an initiation to where I find myself today as a healer. It took hard work, determination, picking myself off the floor and deciding to never quit on myself. Abolishing any victim mentality and negative mindsets in order to be my own hero. Researching my own treatments, studying whatever I could, experimenting with different medications and therapies but most of all following my own intuition. My soul has compelled me to keep going, following my authentic spirit and never allowing someone else to make the important decisions in concern of my health. I tried everything I could to find wellness. Living with the light of love I embody now is a choice. I wasn’t going to rest until I achieved my own inner peace.
I vow to keep on transforming and healing. That’s our job here in life too. I’m strict about my self care routine and my boundaries. If others pushback, that tells me that they don’t have my best interests at heart and I keep going. I’ve completely changed my life and a lot of people and places didn’t make the cut. It takes a lot of courage to transform. Not everybody will be ok with your awakening my dears. Do it anyway. Trust me. Choose you, choose life!
In order to promote the poems in the book and relive the poetry slam moments of this year, I’ve been recording myself reciting many of them. All of these poems are special to me and are 100% powered by love.
LessonsDivine Reverence Transformation
I’m so blessed and grateful to Divine timing. I came back home to South Florida in time to help my parents. My Dad who is 87 and fell last week is now in a rehab facility. We also learned that he has Alzheimer’s disease. I’ve conducted two very profoundly transformative healing sessions with my Mom that are helping her prepare for what’s inevitably to come. At 76 years old, she’s having a spiritual awakening and it’s beautiful to witness. My parents have been married for 45 years and are a testament to the power of love and commitment. My Dad provided an amazing life for us. My siblings and I were given the world and it’s my opportunity now to give back to them. I’m working on my Dad remotely to prepare his soul and ease the transition he is undergoing. My dears, life is short and oh so stunningly beautiful and precious. Treat each day like the gift it is. For love’s sake.
Spread love today, not tomorrow
In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below. https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77
Emotional Musings 