Healing, Spirituality

Vibing with my deep soul

“To vibe” with something, by definition, a distinctive feeling or quality capable of being sensed. My dear readers, I relate deeply with my soul. The depths of which I commune with myself and with Spirit are spectacularly awe inspiring and beautiful. The journey of my soul, the information that is revealed as I continue to investigate and heal astounds me. Remaining grateful for the peaks and valleys I travel through, understanding that whatever I encounter serves my highest good as I accept myself more fully with each passing day is a blessing. This is what “Triumphing over Trauma” looks like and certainly feels like!

Last week I experienced my first float therapy session. Immediately afterwards I was reminded of how fresh and clean my energetic field had become, relative to the sweat lodge ceremony with my mentor after being anointed a shaman in September. Since that time, I have learned and progressed quite a bit while practicing and living this path. The sacred dance with Spirit is very special to me and I am eternally grateful for the pearls of wisdom I gather along the way. I feel refreshed, restored, rejuvenated and redeemed! I highly recommend it. It was wonderfully peaceful, like heaven on Earth. These poems were birthed from this mindset. As I continue to discover more truth about myself, the deeper I dwell, which is where I feel most comfortable and at home.

Deep thoughts +deep feelings =deep soul expression

I recorded this video yesterday to give you all a taste of what it’s like in a shamanic healing session with me. These are the mantras I begin with to connect to a client’s energy field and highest self. This is an art and my soul incorporates the healing qualities and vibrations of poetry, music and singing into each session. Along with sacred tools like crystals, herbs,oils and tarot cards, I’m able to see people’s souls and help reconnect them with their authentic spirit guided by my own Spirit mentors and guides. It’s an honor and privilege to see others in this way and assist in the healing process that has profoundly healed and changed my life so completely. I’m always available to answer any questions or inquiries you may have my dear ones. Please reach out in either the comments here or through my contact page and on all social media platforms, excluding Facebook @ladysag77

Healing mantras
Enjoy the adventure

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Healing, Mental health, Spirituality

The pursuit of happiness

There are so many analogies that come to mind when I think of the phrase, “the pursuit of happiness”. Our culture breeds this idea that it’s a thing to find that we somehow lost, an item to buy, a type of thing to possess that is outside of ourselves or that another person will be the magic ingredient to solve all of our worries and problems. I believe through the consumerism and entertainment culture we have screaming at us 24/7 that we’re programmed to believe we aren’t happy. What does it mean to be happy?

My dear readers, I believe happiness is 100% an inside job and the truth is that we aren’t going to feel perpetual happiness 100% of the time. Being human means that we have a wide array of feelings and emotions that alert us to what our body needs in each moment. Attending to each is sometimes a challenge, especially in our fast paced society yet taking the time to truly do so has amazing and priceless benefits.

We are coming up on a year since the beginning of the pandemic that changed our entire world. I’m incredibly grateful for the extended time and opportunity to work on myself and heal. Feeling is so very healing yet we must allow ourselves to truly feel all of it, the complete human experience doesn’t come with just the good vibes my dears. Since my Dad has passed and I have been separated from my partner, I am realizing more and more how precious we are to one another. My partner serves as the most clear of mirrors and our connection allows me to see myself fully. Lately, some hard truths rose to the surface that my ego needed to hear but didn’t enjoy hearing. I’ve changed every aspect of my life for the betterment of my own soul. Awesome for me yet he admitted to not knowing who I am anymore, that he needs to get to know and fall in love with me again. I must allow him time and space in which to do this. We are each others one true love and through acceptance of one another, I believe our love will get us through.

Life is like a freshly squeezed glass of orange juice with the juiciest bits all mixed in, not merely on top but sprinkled in throughout. We must dig deep at times to feel the most of what life is teaching us. Using the juice analogy, each container tells us to shake before we pour so we get the best of its offering into each glass. Life shakes us up repeatedly and at times it’s easy to feel all mixed up. The truth is happiness is always available should we choose to feel it. However it’s perfectly normal to not feel happy all the damn time!! Being…..just being, tapping into my skills of observation allows me to investigate all of my feelings through all of my senses. For a women who feels deeply and is acutely sensitive this can be extremely challenging. I sometimes wish I had an off switch and could just feel and process me, not everyone else around me. As an open psychic channel, my soul asked to be reincarnated this way yet it’s hard explaining this fact to others unless they have experience with it.

From the inception of this blog, Emotional Musings has served as a testimony to what life is like for me in recovery from life long dissociation and trauma. I’m an empath, an open psychic channel, a trauma survivor, a suicide survivor, a divorced mother diagnosed with CPTSD who searched for answers to find peace and healing to discover that all of my sensibilities allow me to follow my soul’s purpose and path to becoming a master shaman. God set me with all the sense settings on high and He gifted me with being able to write poems that can articulate the abundance of feelings I feel all the time.

These are my latest lessons in life that are expressed through poetry. This last full moon was a big one for me in terms of looking within the shadows to release what no longer was serving me. Healing hurts my dears and this past week I have felt every feeling and emotion there is. I’m exhausted, elated, sad, grateful and yes, happy. I’m happy to be alive and experience all of life in the skin I’m in! Tomorrow I am going to experience float therapy which I have read rave reviews about. I already know that this therapeutic experience will rejuvenate and refresh my spirit returning me to a place of balance and harmony.

Thank you so much @myjourney_sda for allowing me to share my testimony of survival to “Triumphing over Trauma”. We are all in this together, sharing our journey, challenges and gifts. We rise as one. Much love to you all ❤

Stay true to YOU
“Love is the Medicine”

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
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Grief and loss, Healing

Feeling is healing

Often times we do whatever we can to mute, disconnect and halt our feelings. I know this process well my dear readers. Through the trauma, abuse and self destructive ways I attempted to stifle my feelings in the hopes of erasing what was going on, I came to understand there is no way to escape the pain. What I have learned my friends is the only way to truly live is by feeling, for that is healing. Listening to the notes of each heart song, brings me closer to my authentic self and creates a bridge to my soul. To feel is to heal which in turn elevates the soul.

This Saturday my family and I will bid an official farewell to my Dad. My Mom chose to hold the memorial on the same date as their first meeting which was a blind date, 45 years ago. It’s very special for her. I’m honored to be giving a reading during the Catholic mass that will be held in his honor and reciting my poem “Daddy” while the choir director plays “How Great Art Thou” my Dad’s favorite hymn. It’s also three months to the day he breathed his final breath, crossing over to the spirit realm, to be with God and the angels. I’ve been feeling lots of different emotions as you can imagine my dear ones. The difference of focus for me now is that I don’t judge my feelings. I surrender, I accept and I feel them. However they surface, with anger, with tears or with laughter. All of it serves.

Curiously investigating feelings to heal

This poem, “Inner Landscape” was recently named post of the day on the app I use, Mirakee, to create my poems. I have been using this app for over two years and this is the first time I have been recognized by this honor. I must tell you the sheer joy I felt receiving so much love, kindness and support from the writing community on the app and on the social media platforms I shared it on. My hope and prayer is that by sharing my journey of healing, of learning to live by my motto of “Triumphing over Trauma”, I can inspire others to do the same. This is another poem about healing, based upon chakra health which leads to a richness and wealth of well-being.

Chakra health =healing wealth

I would also like to share with you my dear readers a clip from a show I have been binging on Netflix called “The Magicians”. This clip is of the cast singing in remembrance of one of the lead characters, their dear friend who passes away tragically after a magic spell that leads to an unexpected outcome. It really impacted me as I watched it, tears spontaneously fell from my eyes and poured down my face. I’ve heard this song so many times ,yet not in this tempo, which allowed the meaning to shine light upon my own grief. We get such a short amount of time in this life for the people we connect with to leave an indelible mark upon our hearts that we may not recognize until they are gone. We are presented with that choice, to “Take on Me” when we love someone. These special relationships teach us so much. My Dad is the strongest and most humble person I have ever been blessed to know and love. He was a man of few words, the strong and silent type, so when he spoke he commanded attention and you listened. I’m so very honored to be his daughter, getting the opportunity to “take on him”.

Lastly, I will close this post with two other poems that reflect my heart and healing at this time along my journey. I urge each one of you my dear friends, tap into your heart, feel your feelings, heal and continue to discover your authentic self, which is your truth. It’s beautiful. It’s you!

Honor your spirit

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
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Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

Embracing the Healing Field

My dear readers, I’m so pleased to announce that I’m now an official contributer for Healers magazine based here in Miami, Florida. My first article can be read here https://healersmagazine.com/blog/ entitled “Embracing the Healing Field” which is a review of the documentary on Amazon of the same name. I was so intrigued by the information in it about the Quantum field of energy healing because of the profound experience I have had with it, I felt compelled to write the review sprinkled with my own life’s healing experience. I invite you my dear readers to click the link and read it. Please let me know your thoughts by commenting here or sending me an email.

A dear sister friend of mine requested I record some more videos of myself reciting my poems. Here are the two latest ones I shared on my social media platforms. The first one is dedicated to my muse, my partner and my best friend. The second is about my continued transformation as I heal my soul and fulfill my purpose to assist others in their healing process as a shaman. Please see my newly added complete list of services in the menu tab of this blog. I’m honored to work with others who are curious about what a shamanic healing session can bring into one’s life, healing past trauma and elevating the soul. Thank you so much to https://missdorrina.com/ for your love and support in helping me tweak this blog. Technology is not something I enjoy but a necessary part of blogging. Your assistance is greatly appreciated and absolutely priceless!

“Two as One”
“Opening”

These past 19 months have truly been life altering as I release what no longer serves me, live intentionally from my heart without hiding and expand further into the creative being I am. I absolutely love to dance and feel it’s the most freeing experience I regularly practice. This is me. 100% soul powered!

“Adventure of a Lifetime” by Coldplay
“Can You Feel It” by Michael Jackson

Life is an adventure that I can feel everyday. You can too my dear readers, it’s all in how you choose to look at it. Lately I’ve felt another expansive period of alignment with the Light, Divine Source. This is a poem I wrote after a meditation session. We are birthing change my dear ones and what the unknown will bring is whatever your imagination can dream!

“Birthing change”

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below or click the Services tab in the menu.
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Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

Refining the art of living

My dear readers, a creative force drives my passions, which allows me to live a soulful existence upon this planet. I view life and living as a dance, a balancing act that requires careful steps to the everchanging rhythms. The human condition is something I’m constantly and curiously investigating. The need we all seem to have, which is to hold onto what we know and resist change. Over the past year, I have struck up an intimate relationship with change. This living dance I practice has allowed me to live by my soul’s desires. A homecoming for my heart. An art that requires tender care, refining and continuous weeding of what no longer serves to open up to the possibilities life presents.

“In troubled times, there is an urgency to understand ourselves and our world. We have so many questions, and they tug at us night and day, consciously and unconsciously”. These words are a review of Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh——one of the most revered spiritual leaders in the world, of his book, “The Art of Living: Peace and Freedom in the Here and Now”. This is what I too find myself in servitude of, the art of living to allow for as much peace and freedom as possible.

Following this path was initially met with quite a resistance, from both myself and my partner. He struggled to see what was emerging from the transformation I was undertaking. My soul was yearning to be free and I intuitively knew that with time, he too would see what was unfolding couldn’t be delayed any longer. The beauty that begs to be poured out from inside of me. I truly have emerged from a cocoon of fear, doubt and unworthiness to a space of trust, hope, faith and unconditional love.

This is intentional living, making decisions from a place of love for myself and well-being. Opening myself up at first was incredibly scary and produced a lot of anxiety. The pain of change proved great enough to see me through the fear and brought me to a place of loving kindness and forgiveness within my being. The more I practice tapping into this well of abundance inside, the deeper the love that shines there grows. Practicing this on a daily basis has continued to heal me mentally (mind), emotionally(heart centered), body (physical health) and spiritually (soul). Today I allow myself to do what I feel and share it with others.

“I’m Coming Out” by Diana Ross

Life is so precious and short. Despite the ebbs and flow, living life from soul allows me to feel so grateful in each moment. I intentionally and mindfully take off the weight that wants to stay squarely upon my shoulders, keeping me small. No longer will I allow society or anyone else for that matter to dictate how I should live my life. Dancing, practicing yoga, painting, writing poetry and practicing shamanic healing colors my world so brightly and keeps me singing as I walk down the street, which is something I do daily loudly and proudly! By sharing my testimony with others on how I live, I pray it gives others permission to shine more brightly. Be who you are my dears and if you don’t like what you see than by all means change it. We each hold tremendous power inside to consistently go after whatever it is we want out of life.

These poems are my soul’s expression for each stage of life, peeling back layers to expose more of my authentic self. This for me is a fine tuning, a constant refining to the art of living.

For my partner who challenges me to be who I am

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below. For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
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