It’s been 9 days since my Dad’s passing. I have running conversations and numerous signs from him. We are definitely more connected now than ever before which is beautifully strange and has dug up some deeply seeded beliefs and old mindsets that I’m being forced to examine. That’s what grief and processing is all about, continuing to heal. The journey never stops my dear ones, it may slow from time to time and lately I feel we in the worldly collective are on an accelerated track towards the New Earth paradigm that is being ushered in by this month’s winter solstice.
I am honored to be connected so strongly to Spirit. I feel a big shift in how my passions are unfolding which will no doubt help my business grow. I hadn’t painted in months so a few days ago when the urge struck me, I grabbed my paints and headed out by the lake. Walking through the pain, sorrow, gratitude and beauty of the moment fuels my days with both laughter and tears. The hardest part is being separated from the love of my life. He is my #1 muse and the one I dream about every night. This poem and painting are inspired by our love affair.
I have a confession. Yes, I admit that I’m an extremely passionate and fiery woman but there were many times in my life that I feared the depth of my passionate drive. This year, 2020 has presented me with the choices of passion vs. fear over and over again. I chose passion every time despite what others judgements and opinions were. I used to be bashful, embarrassed and even scared of the life force energy of passion that coursed through my veins. Now, I embrace it and allow it to lead me down whatever path life presents me! If I can keep staying true to my spirit, I know God will continue to show me the way. Here’s my 2020 review and outlook for 2021 video.
Despite the fact that I may or may not be alone on my 43rd birthday next week, there is no doubt that I will be celebrating!! My Mom and I had planned to bring my Dad home to say goodbye, to provide nurturing and comfort in his final days. We had the hospital bed all set up in the living room overlooking the beauty of the lake. I told my Mom that I would dance for him. This one’s for you Dad because I know you are dancing with the angels now. I love you eternally. No matter what, nothing stops me….I always keep it movin and groovin!
Life keeps marching onwards my dear ones. I’m so grateful to have stepped into my power this year, having healed my soul and became a shaman. I have been told by both my trusted friends here and by Spirit that I have helped my Dad’s spirit rise on the other side which has made him much stronger. I often hear him telling me to “rally the troops” and I see him soaring overhead singing about how free he is! I gotcha Dad and I love you.
In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session (over the phone), tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below.