Grief and loss, Healing, Spirituality

This is me, I am Ladysag77

In two days I will celebrate my 43rd birthday and in light of where we are in this pandemic, it’s looking like I will be ringing in this one without the love of my life. I’m not going to sugarcoat my feelings, after everything I have experienced this year, I have hit my breaking point with patience. I’m incredibly sad and disappointed that we can’t be together. I also thought this was an opportunity to share with you my dear ones the  mixture of emotions I’m experiencing right now. I always say,”if you can feel it, you can heal it”. Currently, as I revealed in my last post,  I’m surfing the waves of intense emotions impacted by heartache and loss. I know intuitively that this time in my life will teach me more about my journey and I will be ok. Right at this moment however, I am not ok. If you all know me by now, I wear my heart’s vulnerability out loud and on my sleeve. This post is me. Present moment. Rainbow of feelings.

I woke up Saturday morning with a spring in my step and a feeling of exuberance. The weather here was gloriously sunny and I headed out for a run. As I listened to my playlist featuring some favorite tunes from my teenage years, I was hit with a strong sense of nostalgia and soul. I stopped off at a coffee shop to write this poem that was bursting from my heart to be heard.

Being soulful is the only way to live

A few hours later, as the darkness of night approached, I felt the pangs of sorrow over the loss both my Mom and I are experiencing. Being an intuitive empath can be tricky when I’m surrounded by energy I know isn’t solely my own. Obviously, my Mom is heartbroken by the loss of my Dad, her life partner for 44 years. She has also been dealing with having contracted COVID-19 herself and has been bed ridden. I am safe and have thankfully tested negative. The past two weeks have truly been a challenge for both of us. Before I fell asleep Saturday night, I penned this poem which articulates the grief both of us are feeling.

Grief

Yesterday, I checked out by calling a mental health day for myself and didn’t get out of bed. Since the beginning of 2020, I haven’t taken many days off. More specifically, since becoming a shaman in September, I have taken exactly 0 days off. Yesterday, I binged Netflix and ate some of my favorite snack foods. I napped for hours. I kept to myself. It was awesome. This morning I awoke to rain here in South Florida. I decided to share this video of myself on all my social media platforms which is featured in the introduction of my latest book, “My Soul’s Light”. This is me, Maria Teresa, aka Ladysag77. I am a survivor who is thriving after facing many challenges throughout my life. I view the world in an unique way. I’m living my soul’s purpose and feeling my authentic spirit for the 1st time. Life is a gift. It’s never easy yet I choose to see the extreme beauty and be grateful for the many blessings I have. When you walk where I’ve been my dears, you learn to appreciate the gift of presence. I’m here and I’m alive. I make no apologies for who I am. I love myself and I hope to inspire others by my life’s testimony of healing.

This is me

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below.
https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77

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Pioneers of Change

Another repost from my dear friend Maria Chambers at https://soulsoothinsounds.wordpress.com/

I may write an original tomorrow. I’m being gentle and compassionate towards myself during this cycle of grief I’m surfing. Namaste my dear ones❤

Artwork by George Redhawk If you are reading these words, and relate to the material in this blog, you are a pioneer of change.  Your outer life may not seem to reflect that truth, and that’s because the changes have been inner ones.  And as we know, real change begins at inner levels. Most people […]

Pioneers of Change
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Life is what you make it

I’d like to start this post by recognizing that there is indeed too much pain and suffering in our world. The pandemic we have endured for most of 2020 is nowhere near being efficiently managed in my country and our election remains unresolved as far as the current powers that be are concerned. All of that aside, life is full of choices and real change starts with numero uno. YOU. For goodness sakes, turn off the damn television and concentrate on how you can make yourself a better human being than you were yesterday. My dear readers, I’m being blunt here for emphasis. Change starts within ourselves. Nobody is coming to save you. Learning how to love oneself and practicing self care are the first steps in creating real change. Be the change you want to see in the world. It all starts with self. Stop thinking you can change or control anyone else. No matter what else is going on, only you can take the best care of you. Your job is you. Period.

Now that I got that off my chest, I want to share with you all that my 4th book of poetry, “My Soul’s Light” is available now on Amazon via the link I share at the bottom of each of my posts. I’m extremely proud of it, this is my masterpiece (so far) and my prayer is that its messages of love and kindness spread far and wide. Alchemizing the wide spread fear, hate and evil deeds done all over our world is where love conquers. These poems highlight my belief that only love will change our world. Love is the answer.

If you’ve been following me for awhile, you’re aware of the challenges that I’ve overcome. Severe trauma, abuse, suicide attempts, hospitalizations, homelessness, divorce and estrangement from my children…none of my life has been easy yet I never allowed it to turn me bitter. In fact, it served as an initiation to where I find myself today as a healer. It took hard work, determination, picking myself off the floor and deciding to never quit on myself. Abolishing any victim mentality and negative mindsets in order to be my own hero. Researching my own treatments, studying whatever I could, experimenting with different medications and therapies but most of all following my own intuition. My soul has compelled me to keep going, following my authentic spirit and never allowing someone else to make the important decisions in concern of my health. I tried everything I could to find wellness. Living with the light of love I embody now is a choice. I wasn’t going to rest until I achieved my own inner peace.

I vow to keep on transforming and healing. That’s our job here in life too. I’m strict about my self care routine and my boundaries. If others pushback, that tells me that they don’t have my best interests at heart and I keep going. I’ve completely changed my life and a lot of people and places didn’t make the cut. It takes a lot of courage to transform. Not everybody will be ok with your awakening my dears. Do it anyway. Trust me. Choose you, choose life!

In order to promote the poems in the book and relive the poetry slam moments of this year, I’ve been recording myself reciting many of them. All of these poems are special to me and are 100% powered by love.

Lessons
Divine Reverence
Transformation

I’m so blessed and grateful to Divine timing. I came back home to South Florida in time to help my parents. My Dad who is 87 and fell last week is now in a rehab facility. We also learned that he has Alzheimer’s disease. I’ve conducted two very profoundly transformative healing sessions with my Mom that are helping her prepare for what’s inevitably to come. At 76 years old, she’s having a spiritual awakening and it’s beautiful to witness. My parents have been married for 45 years and are a testament to the power of love and commitment. My Dad provided an amazing life for us. My siblings and I were given the world and it’s my opportunity now to give back to them. I’m working on my Dad remotely to prepare his soul and ease the transition he is undergoing. My dears, life is short and oh so stunningly beautiful and precious. Treat each day like the gift it is. For love’s sake.

Spread love today, not tomorrow

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below.
https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77

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Welcoming “My Soul’s Light”

I’ve been busy building the manuscript and have almost finished with the editing process for my fourth labor of love, a book of poetry with the most amount of poems in it that I have ever published. These 75 offerings were all written between June and late October of 2020 for my latest book, “My Soul’s Light”. I’m extremely proud of them. My poems are like my children and I have created careful tender loving moments in birthing them.

The ones chosen for this book are mostly channeled from the holy trinity of Archangels Gabriel, Michael and Raphael. It’s only in the editing process that I understand their depth. I humbly and honorably serve as the conduit, the messenger for Spirit or Divine, whichever you choose to call it. As a medium I am picking up on the nuances in the intetactions between people and nature. I’m drawn to intense energy like a moth to a flame and to make sense out of it all, my mind processes in metaphors and rhymes.

I shared a video of me reciting “Soul Strings” for my Instagram account along with a brief description of what inspired it. This poem explains what it feels like to be a shaman while in a trance during a healing session. As a dancer and an artist, I look at this energetic exchange as a dance with Spirit fueled by God. Such a humbling honor to use my many psychic abilities as the tools that help others to heal.

A grand dance with Spirit
“Soul Strings”

My goal is to have this done before my 43rd birthday next month. I will be announcing the official release soon. I’ve spent so much time working diligently all year on integrating my soul since its awakening in June 2019. Now I help others awakened their souls during the shamanic healing sessions I hold. I’ve come full circle my dears.

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 3 books of poetry please click the link below.
https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77

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The heartbeat of a nation

I awoke suddenly from a sound sleep early Saturday morning at 4 AM. I could feel the tides of change in the air, a drop in pressure from the collective. I remained quiet and still while this poem evolved from the thoughts about how much power words hold and how in the past 4 years we have seen a drastic change in their meaning and placement. An outright battle for truth and facts. I’m not just referring to the political landscape but also the online social media one. It seems so many are quick to react, attack and behave aggressively towards absolute strangers. My partner and I nicknamed these types of people “keyboard gangsters”. I pray so often for the decency I once knew to return to humanity. I pray the next 4 years are a time of healing, not only in my country but world wide.

Words matter

In the past few weeks, as the pressure cooker turned our society here in the U.S. temperature to a boiling degree becauseoftheelection, I often found myself telling others that no matter who was elected President, it wouldn’t change the way I myself showed up in the world. I will still be a kind and loving person in my daily interactions with others. Change starts from within, then spills out from oneself to every other living creature we encounter. If more of us understood this, we’d be less concerned with who is controlling “us” and more concerned with the control we actually govern, within ourselves.

I often write about the trauma I have endured and survived throughout my life. I’m a huge fan of hope and the acronym for it…Hold On Pain Ends. My motto is, “Triumphing over Trauma” and I feel now is one of those times to remind myself and you my dear readers to always keep hope alive in your heart. Everything in life is so temporary. There’s always tomorrow.

Hold On Pain Ends

I’ve been back home here in Southern Florida aka SoFlo for 4 days now. It feels really good to be back despite the dreary weather we’re having with tropical storm Eta’s heavy rain and wind. I am so thankful for what I’ve learned over the past 2 months since becoming a shaman. I’m fully committed to my practices and rituals. It was an absolute honor to finally work on my Mom who was simply amazed by her session. I learned a lot of advanced techniques that helped me to become the master I now stand as. I’ve risen to a new height of understanding how powerful and magical I truly am. Knowing and understanding my purpose like never before feels fantastic. I know November and December will be abundantly successful for me as I embark on new adventures. I can feel the 7 month odyssey of separation my partner and I have been on is nearing its close. I accept what has occurred for it has served a great purpose in my growth this year both personally and professionally. I release the pain of the past and am grateful to the experiences for the many lessons I learned. As a fire sign, a Sagittarius, I often have to put my hand on the hot stove top and get burned to truly learn. That’s how I’ve always been. Mistakes are how we learn and I chose to keep it movin forward my friends!

Accept and release
Truth

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 3 books of poetry please click the link below.
https://linktr.ee/Ladysag77