Grief and loss, Healing

Feeling is healing

Often times we do whatever we can to mute, disconnect and halt our feelings. I know this process well my dear readers. Through the trauma, abuse and self destructive ways I attempted to stifle my feelings in the hopes of erasing what was going on, I came to understand there is no way to escape the pain. What I have learned my friends is the only way to truly live is by feeling, for that is healing. Listening to the notes of each heart song, brings me closer to my authentic self and creates a bridge to my soul. To feel is to heal which in turn elevates the soul.

This Saturday my family and I will bid an official farewell to my Dad. My Mom chose to hold the memorial on the same date as their first meeting which was a blind date, 45 years ago. It’s very special for her. I’m honored to be giving a reading during the Catholic mass that will be held in his honor and reciting my poem “Daddy” while the choir director plays “How Great Art Thou” my Dad’s favorite hymn. It’s also three months to the day he breathed his final breath, crossing over to the spirit realm, to be with God and the angels. I’ve been feeling lots of different emotions as you can imagine my dear ones. The difference of focus for me now is that I don’t judge my feelings. I surrender, I accept and I feel them. However they surface, with anger, with tears or with laughter. All of it serves.

Curiously investigating feelings to heal

This poem, “Inner Landscape” was recently named post of the day on the app I use, Mirakee, to create my poems. I have been using this app for over two years and this is the first time I have been recognized by this honor. I must tell you the sheer joy I felt receiving so much love, kindness and support from the writing community on the app and on the social media platforms I shared it on. My hope and prayer is that by sharing my journey of healing, of learning to live by my motto of “Triumphing over Trauma”, I can inspire others to do the same. This is another poem about healing, based upon chakra health which leads to a richness and wealth of well-being.

Chakra health =healing wealth

I would also like to share with you my dear readers a clip from a show I have been binging on Netflix called “The Magicians”. This clip is of the cast singing in remembrance of one of the lead characters, their dear friend who passes away tragically after a magic spell that leads to an unexpected outcome. It really impacted me as I watched it, tears spontaneously fell from my eyes and poured down my face. I’ve heard this song so many times ,yet not in this tempo, which allowed the meaning to shine light upon my own grief. We get such a short amount of time in this life for the people we connect with to leave an indelible mark upon our hearts that we may not recognize until they are gone. We are presented with that choice, to “Take on Me” when we love someone. These special relationships teach us so much. My Dad is the strongest and most humble person I have ever been blessed to know and love. He was a man of few words, the strong and silent type, so when he spoke he commanded attention and you listened. I’m so very honored to be his daughter, getting the opportunity to “take on him”.

Lastly, I will close this post with two other poems that reflect my heart and healing at this time along my journey. I urge each one of you my dear friends, tap into your heart, feel your feelings, heal and continue to discover your authentic self, which is your truth. It’s beautiful. It’s you!

Honor your spirit

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Consciousness, Healing, personal development, Spirituality

Refining the art of living

My dear readers, a creative force drives my passions, which allows me to live a soulful existence upon this planet. I view life and living as a dance, a balancing act that requires careful steps to the everchanging rhythms. The human condition is something I’m constantly and curiously investigating. The need we all seem to have, which is to hold onto what we know and resist change. Over the past year, I have struck up an intimate relationship with change. This living dance I practice has allowed me to live by my soul’s desires. A homecoming for my heart. An art that requires tender care, refining and continuous weeding of what no longer serves to open up to the possibilities life presents.

“In troubled times, there is an urgency to understand ourselves and our world. We have so many questions, and they tug at us night and day, consciously and unconsciously”. These words are a review of Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh——one of the most revered spiritual leaders in the world, of his book, “The Art of Living: Peace and Freedom in the Here and Now”. This is what I too find myself in servitude of, the art of living to allow for as much peace and freedom as possible.

Following this path was initially met with quite a resistance, from both myself and my partner. He struggled to see what was emerging from the transformation I was undertaking. My soul was yearning to be free and I intuitively knew that with time, he too would see what was unfolding couldn’t be delayed any longer. The beauty that begs to be poured out from inside of me. I truly have emerged from a cocoon of fear, doubt and unworthiness to a space of trust, hope, faith and unconditional love.

This is intentional living, making decisions from a place of love for myself and well-being. Opening myself up at first was incredibly scary and produced a lot of anxiety. The pain of change proved great enough to see me through the fear and brought me to a place of loving kindness and forgiveness within my being. The more I practice tapping into this well of abundance inside, the deeper the love that shines there grows. Practicing this on a daily basis has continued to heal me mentally (mind), emotionally(heart centered), body (physical health) and spiritually (soul). Today I allow myself to do what I feel and share it with others.

“I’m Coming Out” by Diana Ross

Life is so precious and short. Despite the ebbs and flow, living life from soul allows me to feel so grateful in each moment. I intentionally and mindfully take off the weight that wants to stay squarely upon my shoulders, keeping me small. No longer will I allow society or anyone else for that matter to dictate how I should live my life. Dancing, practicing yoga, painting, writing poetry and practicing shamanic healing colors my world so brightly and keeps me singing as I walk down the street, which is something I do daily loudly and proudly! By sharing my testimony with others on how I live, I pray it gives others permission to shine more brightly. Be who you are my dears and if you don’t like what you see than by all means change it. We each hold tremendous power inside to consistently go after whatever it is we want out of life.

These poems are my soul’s expression for each stage of life, peeling back layers to expose more of my authentic self. This for me is a fine tuning, a constant refining to the art of living.

For my partner who challenges me to be who I am

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Consciousness, Healing, Spirituality

To shine or not to shine

Ah my dear readers, this world can certainly swallow you up if you’re not mindful. Each of us has a tremendous power inside, a light that is burning brightly, yearning to shine and be shared with others. We experience this when we strike up a conversation with a stranger, smile at a child and hold a door for someone to walk through with ease. It’s in opening these doors, along with our minds and hearts that connect us to one another. Humans were made for community, we need one another.

Lately, as the intuitive and sensitive person I am, I have been feeling a lot of the trauma and pain of others rising to the surface. It’s a great time for healing, forgiveness and for the betterment of humanity as a whole. A coming together, leaving the past behind and focusing on building a brighter tomorrow with love. Love is the greatest and most powerful untapped superpower there is. Please look inside of yourselves my dear ones and heal that love that is waiting to flow throughout your being. Practicing this mantra helps….

“I am safe, I am grounded and I am made of pure love. I see you (insert your name) and I forgive you because I love you. Thank you for caring for me”

This is a good way to begin the practice of self care and grow self love. Our being desperately needs this. Our own loving attention is what will break up stagnant energy, riding the body of blocks and allowing love to flow as it needs to. We can do this by breathing, slowing down and embracing the moment we are in. When life lures us into speeding up, that’s actually when our being needs to slow down, carefully and gently assess the next loving action instead of harshness and taking any further action that bypass our hearts. I ask myself this question when I feel stressed out or stuck, “what is the next best loving response”. Then I can proceed in a much more heart centered direction.

I spend a great deal of time sitting out in nature, listening to music and meditating. This time is sacred because caring for my soul’s health is priority number one. It’s also when I can best tap into my intuition and hear the guidance of my many Spirit mentors. They are who conduct the healing I provide myself and my clients as a shaman, I am merely a conduit. This path is one of intention and requires me to keep my human vessel as clean as possible so that I can be a pure channel for these messages. This week, I can feel a major boost of love being infused throughout the Universe. This energy, this light is available in abundance and is meant for healing. The colors I see, the beautiful music it creates in my mind is so glorious, it brings tears to my eyes. My heart is so full. I choose to shine and not to recoil in fear of being vulnerable to it. Today, I embrace the authentic spirit I carry.

I have spent most of my life hiding, doubting what I feel because of it’s enormity and not showing my authentic self. I believe that I just wasn’t ready, the flower blossom of my soul’s essence needed more time to fully bloom. This year I have stepped into a colorful masterpiece within this soul’s journey and have begun to amplify my life with the brilliance of its light. Integrating my shadow aspects in a mindful way has allowed me to see the truth of who I am, my wholeness. It’s like taking the paddles they use to restart the heart and using them to further awaken my soul. I see such immense beauty all around me. I’ve expressed these feelings in the following poems.

Pieces of my soul

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Consciousness, Healing, Spirituality

The light within me, recognizes the light within you

My dear readers, many of you who follow me are familiar with my tag line, “In light and in shadow, always with love”. I believe these words with my whole heart because by embracing this idea that there is love to be found in both the light within and the shadow within. Healing allows the integration of our many parts is what becoming whole is all about. The more whole we become, the more acceptance we have of ourselves and for others. This is a practice I believe will heal humanity one heart at a time. There is love within every fiber of my being and within yours my dear ones.

The journey of life is to recognize this, to embrace it and to remain open to every door God invites us to walk through. As humans our natural instinct is to hold on too tightly, resist change and judge ourselves and then others for what we experience. All of life is a never-ending series of happy times, sadness and painful moments leading to peace, an inner bliss that can be revisited again and again. I believe the journey is in discovering how best to weather all of these storms for our highest good, healing and personal well-being.

The image I often return to when I check in with myself daily during the healing rituals I perform is the Tree of Life.

We are all connected 💛

A symbol of personal growth, strength and beauty, the Tree of Life serves as a symbol representing our personal development, uniqueness and individual beauty. Just as the branches of a tree strengthen and grow upwards to the sky, we too grow stronger, striving for greater knowledge, wisdom and new experiences as we move through life. Just as the roots of the tree stretch down into the Earth’s soil, creating a sturdy grounding and stability for the life of the tree, so must we provide ourselves a grounding energy to remain stable and secure within this life along our journey. There are many experiences, situations and moments that cause a shift in the firmness, affecting our standing, yet I believe we are given the opportunity to attune our own hearts, full of love back into our bodies, into our ground providing ourselves with the nurturing love we all deserve and desire for wholeness and wellness.

When I can reflect within my own soul, acknowledging the light God has created within each of us, I am seeing the love and light each one of us shares. I believe every living creature possesses this light. Employing compassion and kindness helps spread this love to others, it begins within me and is cultivated within my own tree. We are all connected within this giant web of life force energy, invisible fibers of light touch us all and can never be destroyed, throughout all of life and into death. Spirit goes on, souls are reborn and the cycle continues.

Held in light and love

As a shaman, I remain in constant awe and wonder of the power of the Light for its ability to heal. Allowing Spirit to guide me, I am a conduit for this light and energy which is what heals us all. Every living thing carries this light, this spirit and is the oneness we are all connected to. Plants, trees, rocks, the elements, animals, fish, birds, reptiles and humans alike. I believe we humans are blessed with higher consciousness and are capable of transcending animal instinct to see this light. It’s my eternal honor to be a modern day shaman, practicing rituals and holding ceremonies that celebrates this light and powerful love. It’s what fuels my magic and is a superpower for healing.

Power of Light

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Healing, relationships

Surrendering to patience, helping love grow

Cultivating patience has always been a challenge for me. As a highly sensitive individual alive today in a culture of urgency and reaction, being patient takes a mindful approach. Meditation is the best tool I have found, putting me in the passenger seat as an observer to my thoughts, feelings and behaviors. Developing a pause button greatly assists me in behaving in a way that aligns more to my authentic spirit and my nature. It’s a delicate dance and at times I fall down while the flood of emotions can get overwhelming and yet what I have learned on my self healing journey are what the lessons within each mistake serve to help me to grow stronger, becoming a better version of myself. Many refer to this as choosing one’s battles.

As an emotional warrior and someone who reads energy it can be emotionally taxing for me to over exert my own energy and interject myself into situations not meant for me. Therein lies the mastery of what I believe about how we are the masters of our own reality and emotional states. My behavior is mine alone and I am the one who must face the consequences of my actions.

I must admit my dear readers to feeling the aspects of my shadow in a much deeper way upon the arrival of my partner. We have spent so much time apart and my fear was that he wouldn’t like the person I am today. In the past few days I have had many outbursts, said things I later regretted saying yet after contemplation, meditation and re-centering can see how triggered my ego had become putting me on the defense. My personality was really on display in ways that I haven’t felt in months. These experiences are uncomfortable and lead me to become overly critical, overly analytical and I find myself trying to carry the weight of the world upon my shoulders in a perfectionist way. Old coping patterns, mindsets and behaviors resurface giving me a opportunity to observe these shadow parts of myself over again with fresh eyes throughthe transformationalprocess I have undergone. This my dear ones is the cycle of healing. My first response was to feel the fear and disapproval of myself stemming from years of emotional pain and traumatic wounding like they were fresh all over again. Ultimately, acceptance of what is becomes the only viable solution for inner peace, balance, harmony and self love.

Integration of shadow

I may not always like everything that I feel all the time yet I understand these are growing pains and are necessary for my partner and I to go through together while we build a stronger, more sound foundation in this new beginning of our relationship. The deep love and acceptance of one another for the different people we are is what comes to the surface healing all. I believe our soul bond and love will carry us through because that is undeniable. He and I have faced many challenges together and I believe that’s what builds a strong relationship. Finding love within the challenges and changes, rediscovering our flow, accepting one another, surrendering to patience and being mindful of how I respond are the keys to mutual joy, peace and love. It’s not always easy yet nothing is when change is unfolding. This meme I came across the other day expresses this idea perfectly.

Word

In the meantime we are being gentle with one another and recognizing that time takes time, a phrase I’ve relied upon often in the past ten years during my self healing journey. I look forward to more walks on the beach, listening to live music, singing together, dancing with one another and lots of laughter. This is the beginning of a beautiful new phase of our relationship. I love you baby, always and forever!

In light and in shadow, always with love. If you’re interested in a shamanic healing session, tarot card reading, my recorded meditations or to purchase any of my 4 books of poetry please click the link below. For a personalized autographed copy please send me an email and use my PayPal account for payment.
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