Getting in touch with your emotional truth, processing pain and improving the human condition in the 21st century.
Hi there, I'm a divorced Mom with two teenage sons. I'm also someone living with Complex PTSD and I have dissociative episodes at times related to flashbacks of my past traumas. I am a writer and recently self published my 1st book of poetry on Amazon entitled"Emotional Musings". I'm always interested in new ideas and information that can better our society and the human condition as a whole. In June 2019 I embarked upon a spiritual awakening and a higher consciousness as an empath which has empowered me by helping me understand my soul's purpose in this dance called life. I'm a loving and giving person who values those qualities in others. We are all connected and require love and care. I strive to spread kindness, love, peace and light to all I may encounter. My main writing focus is on my emotions, my journey as an intuitive, emotional and physical empath and how those two things impact my creativity and evolvement.
Out for a run today by the beach and it dawned on me that this world right now needs a huge boost of love❤ Our current situation with this virus is calling for a marathon of energy not a spirit my friends. Sending love out to you all, stay safe🥰
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A poem with this intention can really help others and our world needs all the love it can get right now! We can never have to much love!!
Since I have arrived her to stay with my parents and soak up this South Florida sunshine 🌞 my dear readers the only thought that keeps recycling through my mind is love. Our world is in panic and fear mode due to the outbreak of the Coronavirus so to transmute that and be the alchemist that I am, my only job right now is to radiate love from the inside out. Our thoughts create our reality and what you think you attract (Law of Attraction). What if we could infect one another with love?
Even though the beach was closed we could still walk along the sidewalk for awhile. It’s important for both of my parents to keep moving their bodies and walking in the bright sunshine is great for everybody’s mind, body and spirit!
I just adore having one on one time with my parents. As the middle child of 6, there was hardly ever any alone time for me. Last night was amazing as I shared my chakra balancing crystals and sound healing meditation with both my parents!! To be able to get to the point in my life where I see them for the humans they are, they have lived through so much at 75 (Mom) and 86(Dad). They deserve healing and peace now. My Dad has full blown Dementia and had a TBI a few years ago when he fell over the parking curb at church, cracking his skull open. He has also undergone open heart surgery. Over the summer he survived pneumonia and sepsis. My Mom calls him her miracle man💪
My Dad also doesn’t hear very well and reads lips a lot. He kept calling the meditation “medication” which is really what it is, for the soul. My Mom told me she could feel the healing powers give her tingling under her back and begin to swirl through her stomach which describes our sacral area. My Mom has a lot of unresolved trauma from her own childhood and first marriage. Our sacral is the center for our feelings. This morning when she woke up she kept telling me how much lighter she felt, especially in her stomach area! She asked me to get her her own set and download the app I use for the sound healing which utilizes Solfeggio tones. You may go back in my past posts to learn more about what sound healing is all about😉
I have thoroughly been enjoying the release of any time constraints! Time management can often be my nemesis my dear readers. Without those limits I feel free as a bird and today I was able to practice a lot of self care out on the patio which overlooks the lake. The energy I feel when I’m by the water is so invigorating and drove my passion for yoga today. It felt so peaceful, stable and reassuring.
We had a delightful and delicious family dinner with my sister and her children er young adults. I get such a kick outta them since now they both tower over me and I once held them right after they were born🥰 The two of them are so upbeat and funny which kept all of us laughing during our get together. My nephew Nick is a senior in high school and has had all of the memorable senior year festivities canceled yet is taking it all in stride. My niece and Goddaughter Gabriela will begin working from home next week. They both understand the circumstances we are under and they love to laugh and joke with all of us “old people”. My baby sister, their Mom just turned 40 in October making the two of us the youngest of my parents children 42 (me). We are reminded now just how “uncool” we are. My sister Gina and I love to break out our dance moves and remind them that we still got it💃
Our minds and energy are more powerful than you think. Allow the fear & panic to flow through you. Return to love. Practice self care and then check in on your loved ones. My only intention is to spread love and affirm peace. It is contagious and will become inspiration for all to do the same creating a giant ripple effect ❤ Be still even for 5 minutes everyday by asking God for grace and saying thank you for your blessings. Turn off the TV, especially the news my dear readers! Return to your ❤ which is where all of us started from anyways….love. Focus on it and envision your arms around the world. Our entire Universe needs a hug right now🥰 Imagine, like John Lennon sang about if all of us did that? BOOM…..this current situation with the Coronavirus is a forced reset of priorities. Look for the blessings in this time we are being given or as I see it gifted. They are abundant. While I was out by the lake this afternoon a few of my bird friends walked right up to me. Seeing the beauty and message in nature makes my heart happy. It is free and it is all around us. The sunshine here is awesome 🌞 plus this virus doesn’t like it. Try to get some fresh air and sunshine if you can. We will only get through this together, as a collective because we are all connected. In the meantime I love each and everyone of you🥰✌🌠
My Mom and I sat by the pool this afternoon and took in the glorious sunshine here in South Florida. On this day 14 years ago, our beloved Nana passed over into the spirit world to become the ultimate guardian angel. She and I communicate often and I know she is in bliss now. Always such a generous and kind hearted woman, never met a stranger and loved life as she lived it to the fullest. I love her and miss her dearly. I’m so happy I get to spend some quality time with my Mom and Dad in beautiful sunny SoFlo 😎
It felt amazeballs to sit on the lounge chair next to the pool and bask in the sun’s energy and warmth. As I drifted off to sleep I kept telling myself, everything is as it should be, you are loved and you are blessed 🙏
Tonight my Kom cooked cormbeef and cabbage with boiled potatoes and carrots in honor of our Nana. We toasted her as I played “Wind beneath my wings” my the insurmountable Bette Midler. We played thos song at her service and my Mom and I both got emotional. Nobody could ever compare to our Nana. My angel. My light. My guide🌠🌈🙌🙏✌❤
During these uncertain and rapidly changing times, it’s important to allow our feelings to flow as they will. It’s normal to feel the fear and panic that is swirling through the planetary energy because of the affects from the Coronavirus. However, it’s just as important to not get stuck in a negative downward spiral of anxiety and worry.
I speak from experience my dear readers because for the majority of my life I was frozen by fear, paralyzed by it actually. I found myself in these terribly painful dissociative episodes and debilitating panic attacks not to mention the routines I created to soothe my OCD. There was a period of time when my oldest son Ty was a baby that I didn’t even leave my house. My anxiety and overthinking ruled my days as I found myself repetitively washing not only my hands but my home and beyond. Those were dark days my friends and I’m grateful to be past them now!
Yesterday I woke up with a vision for a new painting. I have always enjoyed using paints but have mostly used oils. This past holiday season while scrolling mindlessly on Amazon, I discovered these fantastic watercolor pens. They are refillable too and make using this medium so easy with virtually no mess! Not that making a mess bothers me these days however clean up is a breeze with these pens. My creative juices flow quite quickly and at times my time management is lacking in between my daily chores, practices and work schedule. Sometimes I feel the urge to paint when time doesn’t always allow for it. Lately I feel there are just not enough hours in my day, I bet many of you can relate to that!
My dear friends and the owners of the boutique I manage decided to close down for at least this week and had me shut down a lot earlier this past Saturday night. It’s out of our control my dear readers and we all must abide by what our governments are advising for our own safety and health. I am choosing to look on the bright side of this unexpected time off. I have many creative projects to explore and execute this week. My mother found very reasonable airfare to South Florida from Texas and I will be leaving for there tomorrow morning until Friday night.
I am really looking forward to spending quality time with both my parents because they are elderly and time is so precious. Our weather here is calling for rain all week and being out in the sunshine of Florida feels much more positive for my spirits! My parents live on a glorious lake with a wonderful nature path nearby within walking distance and I’m really looking forward to spending time in nature too. Getting to float in the ocean and in the pool is also top on my list. Creating these serene moments of calm and serenity allow me to take mental photographs in which I can then utilize for meditative imagery when I feel stress mounting. Being able to visualize an oasis in my mind has helped me tremendously during my healing journey and one of the best practices I was taught ten years ago when I began down the path to self.
I want to remind you my dear readers that our minds can create the best and worst scenarios for our reality. It is a choice which way one wants to travel through thought and feelings. By practicing yoga and meditation I have allowed for space to be able to observe these choices so that I can best choose how my day will unfold. I chose to follow my heart and listen closely to my intuition. Deciphering between ego stories and my soul’s voice is a gift I have worked really hard at obtaining and one that I don’t take for granted by impulsive actions. I enjoy where I am in life today, the inner peace I feel and the love I feel radiating from the inside out. I have served my time feeling depressed and anxious. Those dark days and years have led me here to become the master of my own emotions and realize how much I actually do control my own reality. I’m no longer a victim but the hero of my own life’s story. This is the epitome of my motto for living, “Triumphing over Trauma”. Walking out of the shadows and into the bright light🌠
When we chose to radiate love towards ourselves, even through times of conflict, we provide healing for our soul. When we are radiating love towards others, we reciprocate the love and kindness that they give us in such an abundance that it helps in their own healing creating joy for both the other person and for ourselves. It’s a transmuting force of energy and my wish for our world right now. Sending you all love, light & peace ❤🌠✌
Getting closer to my highest self by allowing a clear running dialogue brings me such peace. Added in some extra meditation lately to hear my inner voice. Tap in my friends and start living your soul’s purpose.
It’s gonna be a lovely day y’all….still focused in that ❤ vibe, radiating love🥰
When all else fails I put my music on and dance it out!! Sending you all love & light🌠❤
Not matter the current circumstances my dear readers, I am choosing to reject all of the fear being pumped into our society currently. Despite the fact that it is Friday the 13th and the Coronavirus is threatening the health of millions, billions throughout all of humanity……keep in the love vibe. Please. Love is the highest and most powerful of all energy vibrations ❤
Here are eight helpful tips you can practice to keep love running through your mind, body and spirit 🥰
Become conscious of your thoughts. Everything you think, say or feel becomes your reality. We truly are our thoughts💭
Find something beautiful and appreciate it. I do this through meditation and visualization.
Be conscious of the foods you eat. Again, you are what you eat.
Drink water and plenty of it. It’s the best way to rid the body of toxins
Meditate. For at least 5 to 15 minutes every day. It’s a muscle that can be built over time, repetition and practice. I have been incorporating meditation into my daily routine for 10 years now and practicing yoga for 20. It’s never perfect but is progress in keeping myself balanced and centered 🧘♀️
Be grateful. Especially with yourself. Show others kindness and practice the Golden Rule: Treat others as you would want to be treated🙌
Practice acts of kindness. Both random and intentional, our world needs this now more than ever✌
Get your blood pumping by moving your body for at least 20 minutes daily. Why not smile while doing it too….studies show that smiling while exercising has an even more beneficial impact on your overall health in the long term 😁
No matter what, reject all fear. Stay in the love vibration ❤🙌
This morning my creative mind wanted to play around with different types of poetry formats. Tapping into my passionate heart and my ability to empathize, using compassion to understand humanity. My message here is to love one another now more than ever❤
My dear reader’s I have been having noticing a reoccurring confirmation from friends, mentors along with the messages I receive from the Universe regarding how to obtain lasting happiness. It boils down to this….. it’s definitely an inside job! Nothing external, meaning outside oneself, can make you happy and keep you that way. Boy oh boy has this been a tough lesson to learn for me. There are so many mixed messages out there especially when you are bombarded with advertising promising you that this product or that program will give you all you ever dreamed of along with happiness. It takes going beneath the surface of everything in our society to get the real answer on this one my dears🤔
I firmly believe that a connection to both a higher power, whatever you choose to call that, I chose to call it God and a deep connection with yourself is needed for inner peace and happiness. I myself disconnected from myself many years ago due to trauma and the increasing fear it inflicted upon my life. Over the years, I abandoned belief, trust and love of myself. When I was sexually molested as a child, I internalized that pain and blamed myself. I never told anybody about it so that wound just grew and grew😪
The beliefs I had then were screaming at me everytime something challenging came up like, “you’re not good enough, you don’t deserve that” and “you’re a failure so stop trying.” Either of these beliefs can be destructive to one’s self esteem but both of them wrecked havoc and destroyed my aspirations and dreams. Not to mention the times in my life when I have succumbed to a case of the “fuck its” and chose to be completely self destructive going scorched Earth with my life by quitting everything and everybody with no explanations and running away. I’ve done that too many times during my 42 years that I care to recall here🙄
I tell you dear readers all of this to be able to exclaim that those darker days are officially over! I have faced the pit of my issues, healing from sexual abuse over these past 10 months. I have been able to establish my management position at an amazing boutique downtown. I am about to self publish my second book of poetry. I have gone back into the dance studio and am loving class again. I have attended 2 poetry slams so far this year. I have an interview article coming out soon highlighting my writing career here in Dallas. These are my external accomplishments and achievements but what means more to me on an intimately personal and much deeper level is the acceptance of myself and living authentically every damn day with no apologies. I now know true inner peace😊
It’s a major shift of perspective for me to realize that only I can advance or derail my success in life. The main ingredient for this depends on your level of self love. Since June, I have been treating myself a whole heck of a lot better. I’m my own best friend and caregiver. It will still be a work in progress but the internal dialogue with myself, the many parts of me that clammer for attention like my inner child which is still wounded at times, my ego (thinking mind), my instinctive personality (INFJ) and then my intuition which is my highest self’s voice and my soul has reached a point where I can recognize each of these bits of Maria so that I can make decisions based upon my best interests. This is a humungous difference from the previous years of my adulthood! I can honestly say the more I pause to decide how to respond to life’s ebbs and flows, the more I can differentiate between the many facets of me!
For the past two days, I have had the pleasure of being off work and enjoying some much needed free time. I have been listening to 963 Hz tone frequency on the SoundHeal app during my meditation time. At this frequency I’m stimulating and balancing the Sahasrara, thousand petaled or crown chakra. This is generally considered the 7th primary chakra which is the energy center for understanding according to most tantric yoga traditions. It can be used to attain a state of Nivana-oneness. This frequency returns the system to its original state. It is said that when a yogi is able to raise his or her kundalini, the energy of consciousness, to this chakra the state of Nirvikalpa Samodhi is experienced. Ah….yessssss🧘♀️
Well all I can tell you is due to my sensitivity I have been experiencing some amazing benefits from using this frequency. Today, I felt filled with energy. So much so that I went for a long run/walk that amounted to my own personal marathon! I used my MapRun app to track my time/distance/pace and honestly, I didn’t turn it on from the beginning so add another 3 miles to this total…..I completed 27 1/2 miles today 🏃♀️
Along the way I was singing out loud to my favorite female 90s pop icons like Madonna and Janet Jackson. I even took a detour to the swings and satisfied little Maria’s love for swinging! It was a welcome break from the path and I must admit felt so fantastic🥰 I just love the exhilarating feeling I get from pumping my legs in order to get as high as I can reach on a swing! This particular swing set is located around mile 8 or so on the running trail that circles White Rock Lake. I observed some very picturesque moments that I captured like these birds sitting in the trees over the lake.
I just adore the feeling I get being out in nature by myself. I feel so alive and whole as is evident in this selfie I took 😎
I saw this sentiment near the elevators on a floor of the hotel I work inside a few days ago and quickly snapped a picture of it as inspiration for this post. I agree with Ms. Turner 100%
Lastly, this one sums it up quite honestly and definitely reflects where I am today on my journey. Love, light & peace ❤🌠✌