Cultivating patience has always been a challenge for me. As a highly sensitive individual alive today in a culture of urgency and reaction, being patient takes a mindful approach. Meditation is the best tool I have found, putting me in the passenger seat as an observer to my thoughts, feelings and behaviors. Developing a pause button greatly assists me in behaving in a way that aligns more to my authentic spirit and my nature. It’s a delicate dance and at times I fall down while the flood of emotions can get overwhelming and yet what I have learned on my self healing journey are what the lessons within each mistake serve to help me to grow stronger, becoming a better version of myself. Many refer to this as choosing one’s battles.
As an emotional warrior and someone who reads energy it can be emotionally taxing for me to over exert my own energy and interject myself into situations not meant for me. Therein lies the mastery of what I believe about how we are the masters of our own reality and emotional states. My behavior is mine alone and I am the one who must face the consequences of my actions.
I must admit my dear readers to feeling the aspects of my shadow in a much deeper way upon the arrival of my partner. We have spent so much time apart and my fear was that he wouldn’t like the person I am today. In the past few days I have had many outbursts, said things I later regretted saying yet after contemplation, meditation and re-centering can see how triggered my ego had become putting me on the defense. My personality was really on display in ways that I haven’t felt in months. These experiences are uncomfortable and lead me to become overly critical, overly analytical and I find myself trying to carry the weight of the world upon my shoulders in a perfectionist way. Old coping patterns, mindsets and behaviors resurface giving me a opportunity to observe these shadow parts of myself over again with fresh eyes throughthe transformationalprocess I have undergone. This my dear ones is the cycle of healing. My first response was to feel the fear and disapproval of myself stemming from years of emotional pain and traumatic wounding like they were fresh all over again. Ultimately, acceptance of what is becomes the only viable solution for inner peace, balance, harmony and self love.
I may not always like everything that I feel all the time yet I understand these are growing pains and are necessary for my partner and I to go through together while we build a stronger, more sound foundation in this new beginning of our relationship. The deep love and acceptance of one another for the different people we are is what comes to the surface healing all. I believe our soul bond and love will carry us through because that is undeniable. He and I have faced many challenges together and I believe that’s what builds a strong relationship. Finding love within the challenges and changes, rediscovering our flow, accepting one another, surrendering to patience and being mindful of how I respond are the keys to mutual joy, peace and love. It’s not always easy yet nothing is when change is unfolding. This meme I came across the other day expresses this idea perfectly.
In the meantime we are being gentle with one another and recognizing that time takes time, a phrase I’ve relied upon often in the past ten years during my self healing journey. I look forward to more walks on the beach, listening to live music, singing together, dancing with one another and lots of laughter. This is the beginning of a beautiful new phase of our relationship. I love you baby, always and forever!
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Emotional Musings 
Oh no!! But don’t fret!! Like you, I truly believe in the power of soul mates!! It’ll all be okay, if it isn’t already!! You two are meant to be together!! YAY!
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Yes it will, it was the initial clash of our energies combining after not being together for six months, having to get reacquainted with one another. Falling in love all over again yet in a stronger way. This is an opportunity and a blessing. It all serves🥰❤
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YAY!!!
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Thanks for your honest sharing Maria. Relationships sure mirror our aspects of self we still need to heal and you are doing the inner work to manifest what’s needed to bring our best selves forward. It’s always changing an evolving. Love to you both during your re-entry and beautiful poem.
❤️❤️ Cindy
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That’s just it, it’s a re-entry and a rebirth. I was blind sided in some ways yet very appreciative for his input. He is a very wise man and I value his presence in my life as he does mine. Mutual adoration 🥰 Love to you Cindy, see you tomorrow evening 🧘♀️
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Yes, indeed so well and it sounds like you’re figuring it all out. That’s the main thing. You think you could get him to yoga? I’ll see if Gregg will be coming too. love to you too xoxoxxo ❤️
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Beautifully raw writing my friend! You guys got this, your love for each other is palpable in this piece! The journey is up and down but those ups and downs make your relationship that much stronger! The universe is taking care of you, this post is a great reminder to me too, needed it. Thank you for being authentically YOU!!
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I wholeheartedly agree, the bumps help us stay more aligned❤ Love is the root of all❤ thank you🙌
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Yes! And you’re so welcome 🖤
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Very powerful piece!! Not always liking what we feel is really the cornerstone to understanding that we’ve been programmed to hide those feelings that we don’t like instead of dealing with them head on. You’re an amazing woman!! Tackling all of that and more. Like I’ve said before he is a very lucky man to have such a loving, kind and warm hearted woman in his life. You are clearly elevating his soul and bring your energies into alignment. By healing yourselves, you’re also helping others to heal too. Loved the poem!!! Love ya sister 💖🥰
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I’m smiling 😁 and doing a happy dance 💃 over here my dear!! I can feel our love growing for each other. It’s a beautiful gift❤ Thank you so much for your insights and for just being YOU🥰 So much love Dorrina, my soul bursting sister 💜💙💚
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This is so true, and I was also reading that many relationships end because people are unable to work through the stuff that arises in them. It is really crucial to understand our darkest selves and what lives in the shadow side. I agree! This is why it is so important to not judge others. You never know what they are going through. This is just such a lovely post and I enjoy reading your thoughts and feelings. Much love!!
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Thank you Kelly. I believe where I have found myself along this journey is that it all serves. We must look at all of it, integrate it and become more whole. As individuals and then as a couple. It’s always a pleasure to share and connect with you❤ love right back 🥰
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Growing pains, the strongest relationships will have many! 💕🤗🥰
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Agreed ❤ It took us a couple days to iron out the kinks and now we are back in a good groove. This man teaches me so much about myself, I am so blessed to have him by my side on this ride🙏
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A very well written post. I read it twice
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Thank you my friend, I sincerely appreciate that. Glad it served. Namaste to you🙏
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