Mental health, Spirituality

The art of allowing love is magic

Oh love, what a complicated and fickle pursuit it can be! My dear readers I have come into such an abundance of love’s pure energy flow lately and so far my new year is as bright and shiny as my spirit is. Last Monday I expierenced my third vision, out in nature, which I just love. Awe inspiring and breathtakingly beautiful! Looking up at the sky now holds more meaning for me than ever before. As I continue to heal and push through obstacles, one solution remains constant and true and that is love. When we allow love to flow freely throughout our entire being it frees us from our problems and allows us to be closer to Source and Divine power.

In keeping with my daily rituals while always setting the intention to allow a steady stream of unconditional love to flow through I am reminded to surrender. Love presents a polarity between weakness and strength. When we are in love we are vulnerable because we are putting our heart out there and there’s always a possibility we might be hurt or let down. Yet when we do this, we are showing strength in our belief that we deserve and want love. Accessing superior energy, which is God (or whatever higher power you believe in) we are able to look inward and feel that essence inside of us. It’s there in abundance dear readers. I know this to be true because I kept myself closed off from it for years. My intuition was quiet almost inaudible, barely being listened to. Now, ten years into this spiritual and self healing journey, it is loud and clear.

The first step was learning to love myself and to do that I had to figure a few things out. Understanding where I had been, why I was here and what was my soul’s purpose became goals that had me reading anything in the spiritual realm I could get my hands on. Seeking out therapists, taking medications for a time (15 years to be exact) to heal from the severe traumas I had experienced, attending outpatient therapies like CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) and DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy). Getting my mind right as the kids say, was a painstaking process that has instilled patience with myself into my core. None of this happens overnight ๐Ÿคฏ

Along this journey I learned some powerful tools that I incorporate into my daily self care practices. Meditation is hugely vital to my well being and allows me quiet reflection and observation space to my rapidly shifting thoughts. Listening to binaural sounds at varying frequencies allows me to hear my spirit guides better and receive messages from them. We all have these angels all around us and last week Universe gifted me an angel orchestra of them during my vision. I have been asking for a sign to show me they were here and as I gazed up into the big blue sky while the moon was showing herself, all of a sudden I saw hundreds of twinkling white lights! Immediately I knew that they were my guides saying hello. I was filled with an indescribable sense of comfort and warmth while tears streamed down my face, it was one of the most beautiful sights to behold.

After that, my week continued to unfold in both positive and painful ways. I have come to a point in my life where I can see the beauty and purpose within pain. It’s my body’s signal and way of teaching me what I need to heal from, let go, accept and turn into strength. It’s like magic when you think about it that way. I’m no masochist, I no longer engage in self denial and I don’t seek out pain on purpose. I do however believe pain is one of our greatest teachers. Over my 42 years, I have experienced an incredible amount of pain and heartache that I know now served its purpose in instilling a deep love and kindness for my fellow humans and all living things for that matter.

When you allow love in you understand it’s the only truth

I was drawn to do some inner child healing too last week which used to scare me because it was painful to look at. Now that I feel more in tune with my own emotions, loving myself in this way allows me to reparent the little me inside. Planning for and scheduling activities that bring out my childhood essence is really important for my continued growth, self integration and evolvement. These include talking to myself, dancing, going out in nature, painting, listening to music and singing along. Playing around with sounds like chanting, even swinging on a swing! That was my favorite activity as a child, I always felt like I was flying so high and free.

Remembering this part of me allows me to be my own hero and rescue myself which is hugely empowering. I write letters to my younger self at different ages reminding her she is no longer alone and is seen, heard and loved. It’s again, a kind of magic when those old stories that ran through my head telling me I’m not good enough or I am too much, too sensitive get triggered to start playing and now this new more calming and comforting voice is heard in their absence. Reparenting myself is a huge gift to not only me but those who love me and are in my life can see a big shift in my outlook and self confidence. Isn’t it amazing how music can fill the shallow parts of our souls allowing us this wonderful connection with who we are?

As an empath, I have lived most of my life distracted and focused upon other’s feelings and thoughts while neglecting my own. Honestly, my own were scary to me and overwhelming so I neglected them in favor of trying to save or rescue another. I can also admit that even during my current relationship with my fiance, there have been many many times that I looked to him to save me. Finally, I understand that only I can save me. I am responsible for my own happiness and the inner joy I feel is fueled by such self love and gratitude for the lessons I’ve learned. I have no regrets and I wouldn’t change a minute of my life thus far.

My main goal for this year has been to put myself out there more by releasing my inhibitions once and for all. I have forced myself to do more video confessionals that I post on my social media @emotionalmusings on both Instagram and Facebook. I hoped to attend my first poetry slam where I would perform one of my most personal poems, “Glimpses”this past Friday. My words are like my children and it both terrifies and excites me to share them on a stage. Unfortunately the weather here in Dallas kept me from attending but it turns out Universe is granting me another opportunity to do it this Friday because I have the night off from work!! YAY๐Ÿ˜Š

I also reached out to a dear fellow empath friend @emilyrainbowglo on Instagram to ask her if she would want to do a collaboration with me, a live chat for our fellow empaths to feel empowered by and learn from. I was thrilled with the outcome of our conversation yesterday, it was seamless! It’s still available for a few more hours if you dear readers would like to hear what we had to talk about. It’s based around love and surrendering to it, allowing in self love and care so that we can protect our precious spirit and gifts while being open to receiving messages from the Universe. I have also asked another healer and dear friend of mine if I could join her on her new podcast. I will keep you dear readers in the loop of when that happens but for now you can follow her on Instagram @comealivewithchrissymarie and her podcast on Spotify is called, “The Art of Aliveness”. I will post the link below so you can check her out too.

I have made up my mind that this year, 2020 is the year I stop holding myself back. I have done just that for one reason or another for the last 40 years and finally, FINALLY I feel strong enough to put my hand โœ‹ up to anything or anybody that tries to have me go back into a box or wants to label me, stifle my spirit….no thank you!! I am determined to let my free spirit soar as high as I can fly! I also did a confessional for a company I represent by sharing my story. I have it published here as a post under, “My journey with BodHD,” but I will also drop the link below so it can be accessed here too.

I wrote this poem last night that really expresses my love and gratitude to the elements, the Universe that has held me in its loving arms, nurturing my spirit even when I was neglecting it and continued to show to love and acceptance. That little voice has always been there giving me the strength to never give up. Whatever pushes you along my dear readers, keep doing it. Don’t let anything stop you, ever. Shine and allow the world your gifts. Never give up. I am a forever friend to all and I appreciate your support, follows and likes. You can always reach out to me, I love to listen. You too can “Triumph over Trauma “๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’œ

The elements that make me who I am

28 thoughts on “The art of allowing love is magic”

    1. Awww thank you, I sincerely appreciate it!! I believe the people who experience the darkest days also can find the brightest light and my time is now. I’ve worked really hard as I’m sure you have as well to heal from my past. It’s really wonderful to be able to interact with like minded people like yourself Meg.I appreciate your kind words and support๐Ÿ˜Š

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  1. Hey there! I had some sort of extreme, angry meltdown last night on my blog, and then I got upset and deleted my blog. I’m still interested in being friends with you, so please keep blogging while I figure out where I’m going to blog from now on. I ordered a self-help book about shadow stuff today on Amazon. I think it’ll be very helpful, and I greatly appreciate your insight into how that’s what I need! ๐Ÿ™‚ I spoke to my mother about it, and she too had never heard of “shadow work”. I’ll keep you posted about where my new blog is, whenever I get around to starting up again! I hope you’re having a great day! ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Awwww I did see that my dear and I’m glad you’re ok. I was concerned I have to admit. Once you start healing you will see things differently and won’t lash out or get so angry. You have misdirected anger because if the extreme hurt and trauma you swallowed as a child. I tell you this bc I not only lived it but I also can feel you my friend.
      My son just called me and asked me if I am a wizard bc I predicted his day to him before and he didn’t believe me and was SO shocked that once again I am right LOL….we are friends and I am here. Thank you for your support and feel free to share with others๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜‰โœŒ๐Ÿ’œ

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      1. Thank you so much for understanding! I want to be a kind person who doesn’t act that way!

        That’s so awesome that your son thinks you’re a wizard! I have a step-sister who I love, and she thinks I’m psychic! ๐Ÿ™‚ (I’ve done her Tarot.) But I’m not sure I could predict someone’s day like you did for your son… that’s awesomeness!! You go, girl!

        Misdirected anger… I’ll add that concept to my soul-searching. ๐Ÿ™‚ It makes sense!!

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      2. You are definitely on the right track!! Remember, where your attention goes your energy flows. Keep your eyes and energies where you want to go and eventually with work, you’ll get there. I have faith and hope for you my dear๐Ÿ˜Š

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  2. You are such a light to this world! You have inspired me so much just through this one post with your gentle loving energy. I can feel it through the screen. At this point in my life, I have come to a standstill with my spiritual life. I don’t know what to believe and feel I cannot even trust me…this is just another dark night of the soul I suppose to get to know me truly and heal.

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    1. My dear, if I can inspire you and spread my light to engulf you, it’s my honor! Thank you so much for seeing me so clearly. You are no doubt an empath, I immediately picked up on that from your tone and words. Sometimes and you already know this, the brightestifhts need to dim, travel down into our inner world to emerge anew and refreshed!! I have done that many many many times over the years. What has really been healing for me is incorporating energy cleansings with a friend of mine who is a Reiki master and shamanic healer. I have many tools and tricks up my sleeve that I have been adding and using over the past ten years! I’m happy to share and know you my dear fellow writing friend. I came to WordPress in October 2018 and only recently has my blog started to take off s bit because I engage more with writers like YOU๐Ÿ˜
      Stay blessed, not too stressed and I’m sending you love, light and so much inner peaceful strengthโœŒ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ˜Š๐ŸŒˆ๐ŸŒ ๐Ÿ™Œ

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      1. I have been wanting to try Reiki for a while so I think I will try it out! Great job on the your blog taking off, I have been here for some time now, I think since 2016. Wow, time goes by fast! haha Thank you for all the love and light, I really need it now ๐Ÿ™‚ Sending good vibes your way!

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      2. You’re more than welcome. Like I said, you know what to do already it’s just remind ders, support and ultimately you pull the trigger on it because you’re worth it Michelle๐Ÿ’œ


  3. I’m on chapter 3 of my shadow book, and I can relate to it so much! It’s uncanny. (It came in today’s mail.) But I wouldn’t have even found this book without your advice!! So I sure hope you’re having a great day today!! ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

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    1. That means so much to me Kim, to be seen and understood. I have always felt misunderstood for most of my life because of my sensitivity and gifts. This blogging platform has been a Godsend for me. I can really showcase my soul and personality. Sending you so much love ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’œ

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      1. I can relate to your feeling of sensitivity . I always felt like being sensitive made you a week person but now I have learned that your actually a stronger person for it , especially in this day . Thank you and lots of love to you Maria!โ˜บโ™ฅ

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      2. Exactly, I agree! Our society is emotionally phobic and to be “stronger” you have to not feel or not show your emotions which is impossible as a human being. To me acting robotic is dangerous as is stuffing my feelings. I chose to embrace all aspects of my humanity and our feelings are what make us more complex beings, sets us about from animals etc. The tides of of culture are changing as more and more people share their stories, their struggles, their humanness. It’s beautiful really. The stigma of mental health is vanishing as we stop seeing our body’s in separate ways. I am one body with mind, body and spirit….whole health and well being. They understand this concept better in Eurpoe and East cultures. We here in the West are so far behind. That’s why I embrace too that part of the world’s philosophy regarding health and healthcare. I’m more holistic and prefer to take in what is natural from the Mother Earth than what’s created in a lab.
        I’m very opinionated in this area as you can see๐Ÿ˜„

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